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When my heart is overwhelmed...

Sunday, November 18, 2007

...lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2

This has been a hectic week! People cancelling or rescheduling their lessons due to the train strike, driving to the city in the heavier-than-usual traffic, the second week of my seminary course and all the reading assignments that come along with it, an extra rehearsal with the praise and worship team, the remains of my UTI and the antibiotics, a Schleimbeutelentzuendung (AKA bursitis) in my wrist, and other surprises and challenges. This morning before church, I was feeling at the edge of total burnout. The usual Sunday morning "stuff" - people showing up late for sound check, the preacher asking for changes to the program, monitors not working, and more.

None of these things are usually enough to faze me, even when they come all at once, but today I had to ask a couple of people to pray for me before the service (after the "official" pre-service prayer time) because I didn't know how I was going to get through leading the worship time. Again, the Lord demonstrated that, when we get to the end of ourselves, he's there to meet us. I was determined to sing the words of the songs in faith, even if I didn't "feel like" praising him and he blessed that determination. We had a good time of corporate worship and I'm feeling personally renewed. I'm also committed to finding ways to make this week less hectic - as much as it depends on me. This might mean cutting out some things I'd like to do, or saying no in a few other cases.

Maintenance report: I haven't gone back to tracking but am not too concerned because I was still a pound under my goal weight on Wednesday. It looks like I'm handling my eating without tracking calories and I really appreciate that I don't have to spend the time online doing that, I'll certainly go back to it if I see an upward trend on the scale. I haven't been to the gym in two weeks because of my health issues but am really looking forward to finally getting a chance to do my new strength training workout on Tuesday evening.

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BEARS_NECESSITY 11/20/2007 11:29PM

  Hey, I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you. My prayer is that this week will truly be less hectic for you and that the Lord will guide you in all your actions. There's a saying that I try to remember often, "If Satan can't make you bad, he'll make you busy".
Anyway, have a good rest of the week. Congrats on your success in the maintainance stage.

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MOM2KNL 11/18/2007 10:49AM

    I am praying for you! I can totally relate to what you said about when we get to the end of ourselves - He is there! "even if I didn't feel like"...hmmm...doing anything that we know is right, even when we don't wanna is a sure sign of growth and obedience. Thanks for the reminder.
God Bless!

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Back to Basics

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Tomorrow's another Wednesday with an all day lecture to attend and then an English class to teach in the evening. I'm going to continue NOT to track on Wednesdays to give myself a mid-week break. But otherwise, I think I still need to keep an eye on things. I've been eating a few too many extras lately, and though I haven't weighted in yet, I feel like I may have had a slight gain. Time to get on the stairstepper!

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ANSCHUIER 11/15/2007 9:32AM

    I've been doing a little of the same.. Those "little" extras really do add up!!

Can you believe our team starts up next week? One of my goals is to religiously track my food again, but I feel a little off course. Guess I have a week to step it up!

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BRANOWEN 11/13/2007 12:53PM

    I think that taking one meal or one day "off" per week to give yourself a break is very necessary to maintain your sanity while trying to diet. Mine is Friday night dinners. You can't be in diet mode ALL the time! XOXO - Liz

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Tuesday, November 06, 2007

I'm going to cut myself a little slack and take Wednesdays "off" from the food tracker.


Steady As She Goes

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Yesterday marked one month of maintenance. Like everyone has been saying, it's a challenge in itself. There's the "now what?" feeling, and then there's the "go ahead and eat it, you've reached your goal" feeling - which I've been giving in to a bit too often the past couple of days.

Then there's a whole assortment of fears that come up in questions like: Will I get bored going to the gym? Will I be able to keep this up FOREVER? What's going to happen when I go home to the States - Land of food courts and all-you-can-eat buffets? I keep reminding myself that I'm living in the new normal and that I know how to make healthy choices.

And I'm so glad that there's someone who holds the future. HE doesn't get surprised by circumstances that might be daunting for me. He prepares the way for me and he'll be there to help me meet these situations head on. It's not like I've never been through this things before. But with what I've learned on this Spark journey, I'm actually better equiped than ever before to meet these challenges. I'm so thankful I found this place!

The very next thing is another seminary course starting up this week: One-day-a-week, all-day lectures on Wednesdays. I don't feel very well prepared for the start-up this week and I don't have a lot of free time in the next two days to get ready. At least the fridge is stocked with good stuff (Dinner) and my laundry (Duds) is caught up. That means at least two of the 3 D's are done. I'll go do the third one (Dishes) now!

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BEARS_NECESSITY 11/7/2007 10:53AM

  Congratulations!!! One whole month of maintaining. That is awesome.
As for all the fears. I totally get all that and worry that I will fall into that even now before I reach my final goal. But, your right. We have the Lord to call upon. He truly is prepared to help us through all challenges and temptaions we will face in our lifetime. I am trying to remember that. I tend to think I can handle the "small stuff" on my own and only go to the Lord for help during the "big" trials.
Anyway, keep up the good work. You have made it so far. You are an inspiration.

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HOMEBUNNY 11/4/2007 6:13PM

    Way to go on making your goal weight & to a month of maintaining your weight!! I am sure you will be able to continue what you have started. You were going through a life style change not a diet. Just remember to focus on what you have learned. Slip-ups are okay as long as they do not become the norm.


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Do I dare?

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Like a lot of other losers, I'm also finding that I have a lot more energy and am not quite sure what to do with it: I've been entertaining the idea of getting back into jogging, something I haven't really done in over 20 years.

My heart rate has gone down and I now have to move pretty fast to stay in cardio range. On the treadmill, that means either increasing the angle or the speed. Increasing the angle isn't much fun because it seems like an unnatural position. So, the past couple of days I've been alternating about 3 minutes of running with 2 minutes of walking, for about twenty minutes total. This is how the "Couch to 10K" program works. Can I really do this?

I'm going to take it slow and see if my joints and "them dry bones" can take it. There are 5K and 10K races scheduled in Stuttgart in June ---hmmm, we'll see! I need to find a good t-shirt to wear: "Running on Holy Ghost Power!" would be good!

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CRAIGEMOEN 10/25/2007 1:28PM

    I understand what you mean. My walk to work used to be a challenge because it goes up and down some pretty significant hills. But now I do it in half the time and rarely breathe very hard although I still sweat like crazy. I don't think my joints could take that repetitive impact though. I like my exercise outside, but haven't figured out what the next step should be without spending too many hours doing the exercise thing.

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MOM2KNL 10/25/2007 12:15PM

    I dare you!!!! C'mon, you can do it. I was never a runner and started back in March. I did a similar program called Learn to Run. (Oasis sent it to me) Anyway, take it slow and have fun directing all that new energy into something healthy for your heart.. I am about halfway to my goal, but have more energy than ever. At my goal, will I have even more? :)

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