I need a little patience today. I gained Ė not a lot and it could be just water weight or the fact that my floors are not level in this apartment (seriously nothing is level here - I swear sometimes itís like living in a little crooked house) but nevertheless I gained. Granted I haven't been working out as much as I should but I was on track for calories, every mouth full has been tracked so Iím a little discouraged and trying really hard not to let that discouragement put me in a bad place for this week.
Iíve been a little stressed out because I have an exam on Saturday plus I should find out soon if Iíve been accepted into my program at school for the fall. I could really use a mental heath day from work but I just canít afford it right now.
The plan today is to stick to the plan, make the meals I had already picked out and tracked and try and muster up a positive attitude. I knew going in that there would be weeks like this but that doesnít make this any easier to deal with.
On a happier note, we got a new kitchen table over the weekend and a new pantry. When Davidís mom gets home from her trip she is going to make use some new place mats for the table and itís actually starting to look like a kitchen. We have recently started putting up more pictures and posters as well (only took up 6 years). I guess as Iím getting older I like the apartment to look more homey Ė not that batman posters and framed video game maps would be homey to most but it feels right for us.
I'm written this blog from my yoga mat...because I don't have the energy to stand up at the moment. See I decided to strap on my heart monitor and try out the diamond dozen for DDYP yoga which I have been meaning to try out for a very long time. I meant to do this last night but life happened...
ANYWAY It's really a tutorial on how to do the moves correctly and I thought (I could be completely wrong!) that I did pretty well consider..(considering I'm an accident waiting to happen) and when I was finished I felt like - hey I could do more and today is the last day before weight in so I probably should do more so I decided to continue on to the first work out...
and what a work out is was! I pretty sure I used muscles that I haven't used since childhood (or lets face it, ever!). I had to do some of the modified moves, but hey I was still doing the moves and I only had to go into the safety position twice so I feel pretty good out it. I'll be sore tomorrow but I'm going to call that victory pain.
Here's a picture post work out...I'm a hot sweaty mess...
So I was going to do this yesterday but I got sidetracked by life and ranted instead - better late then never! Here are my goals for BLC 22...
I would like to lose 15 - 20 pounds - Now I know that sounds like a lot and I'm not usually one to hang my hat on a specific number however I believe it's doable. But the goal is to get as close to a 20 pound loss as possible.
Be accountable - this means tracking every BLT, staying within my calorie range and being caution of my sodium intake. This does not mean I won't have chocolate or burger for the next 11 weeks...it just means that I am aware and comfortable of the choices I am making.
I also wanted to make a goal to try new things - at least one new recipe a week. This is a little daunting to me but again I feel it's doable and a little push outside my comfort zone wouldn't be a bad thing. See I have never been what I would call a good cook - I mostly just heat things (I'm a excellent heater upper) and I think this has contributed to my weight, well no...I KNOW this has contributed to my weight among other things. I am willing to learn though and I think this goal with push me in the right direction!
This may seems like an easy one but it's a biggie for me. No soda except for my off/treat day(this is Sunday for now).
Walk somewhere (anywhere!) at least three times a week.
Get in some strength training as least three times a week, at the gym or at home. Even if it's only for a few minutes on my lunch - make an effort!
Take some times to relax during the week. Maybe yoga or some simple meditation to reflect and remember what's important.
So that's about it, I still have mini goals for the day/week that I like to met but those are the major goals I would like to stick too. (Most of them are just a repeat from my june goals blog). I'll leave you with this picture (Ignore the mess and the zombie poster lol!) of me in my new apron - a gift to myself to help with goal number three!
Disclaimer: This isnít a blog that bashes people who are skinny or who want to be skinny. We each started our weight loss journey for different reasons and that its perfectly okay! I respect everyone choices, this is just a blog about my own personal feelings about the pressure to be skinny Vs the promotion of being healthy.
I recently made a fresh start in my weight lost journey Ė I has lost approximately 30 pounds by the end of last summer but then life happened, things got complicated and I got off track. Iím not berating myself for it; Iím just stating the facts. As a result of this fresh start of mine I decided to revamp my motivation board (I made another blog about that) and when I was looking for inspiration/motivation quotes and pictures I kept running across this one particular quote that bothers meÖ.
This is not the first time I've see this but the more I learn about myself the more it bothers me. What does skinny even mean? Everyoneís body is so different; we come in all shapes in sizes and I think that is so beautiful! I think this quote can set unrealistic expectations and be potentially harmful to self esteem not to mention it promotes a very unhealthy relationship with food. If our self worth is all wrapped up in the idea of being skinny (what ever that is) and we never achieve the ďidealĒ skinny version of ourselves, dispute the fact that we are eating healthy, getting active and changing lifestyle then does that mean we failed? Uh, I say No!
Iím tired of unrealistic expectations. Iím tired of looking at advertisements that tell me what ďsexyĒ should look like and setting me up to fail because the girl in the photo doesnít actually look like that!
(Doesnít she still look amazing on the right?!)
It seriously pains me to see pictures like this one;
There is a lot of pressure to be skinny, to look like a super model and to aspire to look like the paint brushed versions of people we see in magazines. But what about promoting healthy body image? What about striving for health? What about fitness?
Maybe itís a bit naÔve but I think that promoting health over the elusive ďskinnyĒ is the way to go.