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Binge!

Sunday, December 04, 2011

Today started nicely. We agreed to go on a hike and have breakfast together.
I decided to make something special for breakfast so I made my favorite cottage
cheese and raisin baked balls. They are great and only 100 cal a piece.
While I was cooking I heard my hubby screaming that his computer had crushed.
After an hour of calling tec support etc. we realized that his hard drive had failed, so
all the important work he did for the past four days is gone., because he did not back it up.

I was so stressed watching him that I ended up eating all my cheese balls (20 at 100 cal each)
then I had some fruit, then ice cream, then cookies, then some noodles and then I lost
track.
I feel so depressed right now. I can not find the energy to go for a walk.
I feel fat, ugly, hopeless and helpless. I wish I could just stop myself
from binging, but I can't.

  
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CHRISKENANDKIDS 12/4/2011 10:08PM

    I just got back home from a football party myself and ate WAY too much. Ugh. Now I feel bloated and overfull and gross. I feel for you! But tomorrow's another day and a new start. We can do it - what's done is done and we can't change it. We can only move forward. Let's get back on track tomorrow!

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ZABELINA1 12/4/2011 9:21PM

    Thank you so much guy. I am going to drink a glass of water and rethink. emoticon

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ADVENTURESEEKER 12/4/2011 7:12PM

    Right now is a new starting point! Put down whatever you are trying to eat at the moment and walk away. Tomorrow you start tracking again- tomorrow is a new day. You can do this!! emoticon

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GETSTRONGRRR 12/4/2011 7:04PM

    Get back on the hobby horse....start tracking all your foods every day in the tracker and face the music....that's the only way I've been able to make slow, steady progress....and still deal with the occasional binge.

good luck

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4SASHA 12/4/2011 5:59PM

    I have been known to go on a binge or two myself. It has been a long struggle as a matter of fact. my point here, is that life goes on, and it comes down to the choice you are going to make now. Will you choose to move past this, or will you choose to stay trapped in the moment, by continuing to punish yourself for it. You had a hard day filled with stress, and you made a choice. You can do it again, just focus on making a different choice next time, and let this one stay where it is. Don't drag it with you. Pick up and move on, and it will be o.k.

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Failure.

Monday, April 04, 2011

I joined SP over 4 years ago when my weight was 116lbs. I just wanted to look better naked and get rid of a little belly. It did not work, because I traveled a lot and did not have internet access in most of the places I had lived in.
So after idling for almost a year and when going for a job interview I could not zip up my only pair of dress pants I decided it was time. i joined a local gym and quit after a month. It just did not work for me. Then I got a pair of 10 lbs dumbbells and started working out at home three or four times per week. And I also started walking home from work which took about 3 hours, but I had some time to spare. In 3 month I was 110, toned like never before.
After moving back to the US i joined a real gym and was working out my regular 3 times per week, but I stopped doing a lot of cardio, because I really wanted to gain muscle. So I put on 12 lbs of pure muscle and looked my best. i was not just a skinny model-like girl I was a hot looking woman.
But then something happened. I stopped working out in the winter, because i am just never active when it is cold out. So now 8 month later I am 130lbs and all my muscles dessapeared under my belly fat and I can not stop eating junk.
I feel worst and worst every day. The way i look makes me moody. And the moodier I am the more I eat. I can't get out of this vicious circle.
I guess I need help.

  
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STEPHIE33 6/7/2011 5:20PM

    oh and ur not a failure ur just training in succeeding ;)

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STEPHIE33 6/7/2011 5:19PM

    u know gurl i had a knee injury last year and just had surgery i gained alot of weight back after goin off the pain meds but im startin again i mean u did it once u can do it again it just takes you bein mad enough to do it i think lol start small and then u will get it back im gonna be on here once a week i will say just cuz i have alot goin on right now and u can leave me messages if u need someone to help u stay focused k... u gotta pick urself up dust urself off and start again u can do it i know u can ;)

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When a dream comes true.

Friday, June 12, 2009

This weak my dream came true. I got a job at my gym. Yes!!! I have to wear sneakers and sweat pants to work. Now there's no excuses for skipping a workout.

  
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MILAYA 6/12/2009 2:14PM

    Congrats! emoticon

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