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Making progress!

Monday, January 07, 2013

I was really happy with my scale this morning as it showed that I lost 1.5 pounds. I can tell too as I just feel a bit smaller. I've made my goal of exercise and have been consistent and the consistency is paying off. I feel better on the inside overall and that is wonderful!
I still have some problems, and don't we all, but I am so happy that overall my health is better. I don't know how I am going to do it but I've been seriously considering auxiliary pioneering in March. The last time I auxiliary pioneered was before I got pregnant with my son who is now 11 years old. We've also set a goal that my son become an unbaptized publisher in March also. It's going to be such an exciting month, but I will probably have to put a lot of things on hold that month. We have our circuit overseer visit in the middle of the month, the memorial and on the last weekend is our two day assembly. There is also 2 weeks off for the boys for spring break, and I want to go away for 5 days to see my sister at the Coast.

So what I've noticed is that if I am really good with my calories all day then I don't usually blow it in the evening. It's a good trick that I'm going to keep in mind as I try to maintain my weight after I reach my goal, which is supposed to be in March also.

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DIZZYLJS 2/6/2013 10:40AM

    Sounds like GREAT goals! emoticon

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ONLYTEMPORARY 1/7/2013 10:54PM

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A bla day!

Friday, December 28, 2012

I admit that I am totally run by emotion. The reason I have weight to lose really is because I am emotionally unstable. I am up and down like a yo yo and I haven't even hit menopause yet. LOL. It's PMS, not pms, my husband's moods, etc. etc. What gets me down is my husband's moods. Some days he's picky and he swears a lot. He says its not directed at me but he is still saying it in front of me and he uses the bad language to express his frustration toward a situation. He has done this the whole time we've been married (22 years) and even when he was active in the truth. I hate this language with my whole being and it's really hard for me to not let it affect me. My point is that unless I can control my emotion I will never be stable with my weight and therefore never be happy.
I am not sure why I am even wasting my time on this computer tracking my calories and fitness when really all I really need is a big happy pill or magic pill to make me feel happy all the time so that I am motivated. I'll even admit to my badness that on some days I track my exercise (which I am proud to say has been overall really good) and my calories but at the end of the day after being so good I end up blowing it and not caring. I am not blowing it in large ways but for example last night I just had to have a bowl of frozen raspberries with some light cream on it. Well, that put me over on my calories. That's why I wonder if I am wasting my time because I am not getting anywhere going over on my calories.
Anyway, I am just ranting now...... Isn't there a song called sometimes its hard to be a woman?

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CADDYBROWN 1/1/2013 2:08PM

    Nice to meet you. I'm Caddy.

You have reached a good point in your life, just because you have the mental strength to be quiet in response to these things. I just read an article last night in the Watchtower (5/15/09 pg 3) about "A Time For Silence". I have a need for this in my life with coworkers and customers.

Keep this matter in your prayers to Jehovah, and he will be able to help you.


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YVONNED4 12/29/2012 11:08AM

    I appreciate these comments. I seem to need a lot of support. I often wonder if I have depression and should take medication. Linda, it's so true that trying is better than totally going off the deep end and gaining heaven knows how much weight. If I weren't watching I'd be worse off. And yes I feel good and am proud of myself that even if my diet isn't perfect I have to celebrate my successes, like getting regular with exercise. Each day I just start again whether it ends up being a good or bad day I always start over. And today I feel so good because yesterday, even if it was only one day, I had a really good day! I worked hard at my fitness and noticed that my fitness level has gone up. I am stronger and have more endurance. I also stayed within my calorie range and didn't feel deprived. What really helped was that during the day I only ate around 500-600 calories and for dinner I was able to fill my face with my homemade pizza and have a glass of wine for relaxation without going over my calorie range. I forget about wine but it sure takes the stress out at times. LOL.
Also, regarding my DH I pray with my boys every day for him. He often gets mad because I express my frustration at a situation (and always in a christian way as I never swear) and so I have to keep my lips sealed and just walk away. Yesterday was a prime example. We invited a friend over to go sledding and they were waiting outside in their van for 15 minutes while I was inside the house panicking because my keys were gone. I phoned my DH and found out that he moved the car and pocketed my keys and he was long gone to work. I ended up finding a spare but couldn't lock the house to go out. He just said he was sorry on the phone and although I was totally frazzled and frustrated I just said nothing. In turn, he didn't swear at me and hang up on me. So did I learn something? I hope so.

So all in all I am going to apply the suggestions all three of you gave me because it worked. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

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BOOKWERME 12/28/2012 11:05PM

    Think where you'd be if you weren't here with us? Sorry you are coping with an unpleasant situation...my dh has suffered from depression for 33 yrs. It manifests itself in different ways for different people, but it also affects all the people around that one. I know from experience. Each of us make choices...and we do the best we can. Sometimes that works out better than others. Don't give up...just turn the page and know a new day is on the way. emoticon

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ONLYTEMPORARY 12/28/2012 8:25PM

    You are here with the rest of us because this site helps in many ways. Support, listening ears ....... We all need to vent at times and just because you went over, you can make adjustments for today. When you figure what you are going to eat something or want to, make some switches so you can stay in. Make sure you ADD those delicious treats to a daily snack. Doesn't mean you will always eat it, but you have the leeway.

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LOWCARBLINDA 12/28/2012 1:04PM

    You sound quite normal to me! We live in day called "critical times hard to deal with". And we are not immune to any of the stresses of life. Especially when much of that stress is in our own home. I did read somewhere that people making an effort to lose weight, whether successful or not, are still healthier than those not trying. We can't give more than our best. So pat yourself on the back for the good things.....like exercise! Remember this is a journey, not a sprint! And we all will trip up now and then....just get up, dust off and go again. I am here cheering you on!

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Week 4 coming to a close

Saturday, December 22, 2012

The first two weeks were absolutely amazing and I could tell how much better I was feeling overall. I also lost 5 pounds in the first two weeks. Last week was a bit of a downer since my weight didn't budget and as this week comes to a close I notice I am up a half a pound. Hmm. I've been pretty good with my diet and I've been exercising a lot even adding strength exercises the last two weeks. Today I am taking the day off. I plan to be somewhat active though. So far today I've blown my diet and I don't plan on tracking my calories. I am in protest sticking my tongue out at my diet and my efforts. I realize I am only hurting myself but I can't figure out how I could gain after being so good. Maybe my body is just mad at me from gaining and losing so many times in the past and it's just fed up (pardon the pun) and plans on hanging on to this weight. I am not feeling motivated today at all. I shouldn't have weighed myself. Well, tomorrow is another day and there is the rest of today that I can be careful with. I'm not sure how people with a whole lot of weight to lose can stick so well to their diets and exercise. I don't have a lot to lose but I feel its a losing battle. Maybe PMS has begun because of my negativity or I just got discouraged from a weight gain.

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BOOKWERME 12/22/2012 10:08PM

    Maybe with all that exercise, you are building muscle..that weighs more than fat...and muscle burns more calories even at rest..so be patient. Remember, too, your body will fluctuate with hormones, diet, even the weather. Don't expect miracles...just keep taking each day as it comes...and do the best you can. It WILL pay off in the end if you don't quit too soon. Don't Quit....ever.

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PHOENIX1217 12/22/2012 8:01PM

    Don't give up!! I'm just finished my 4th week too and I've struggled a bit the last few days because of all the parties and dinner invites but even if I'm not staying exactly in my calorie range I'm still WAY better off then what I was 4 weeks ago! I keep telling myself this isn't a diet, it is a new way of life and no matter what I can't go back to eating the way I was BEFORE!


Good Luck and keep pressing on!!!

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First two weeks of Spark - DONE!!

Saturday, December 08, 2012

This is my first blog entry! It's been two weeks since I started with Sparkpeople. It's been a positive experience so far.
I've learned many things in these last two weeks. Foremost is the exercise I usually dread because I am so busy, how can I fit it into my life? I am a mom of two boys aged 11 and 8 and also a husband of 22 years. I am the do everything mom. I even work part time cleaning houses for some extra income. Back to the exercise, I am usually too busy and in too much pain to get exercise done. Yup, pain! I have neck problems, allergy problems, and severe shoulder tendonosis. We adopted a puppy that needed rescuing about 4 months ago and she needs her exercise too! I've started with walking. I have a loop in my neighborhood and after two weeks I can do it about 3 minutes faster now. Anyway, I've learned that if I just go do it and get it done I actually accomplish more than before! I've always said not enough time not enough time, but I end having more energy and feel healthier so that results in more work done. I'm also not stressing about what isn't done but what I've actually got done. I've committed to myself that as long as it is -10 or warmer outside I'm bundling up and going for a walk! No excuses! Exercise is my motivator and I am also in less pain because of it. My attitude is more positive and that means everyone in the household is happier too. What also is motivating is that I've lost 4 pounds so far! I cheated and weighed myself this morning 2 days early and I was down another pound and a half. I cheated yesterday for the first time on my diet as well. But oh well! Today was another day and I'm not going to let it get me down.

Tracking calories is helping me re set re relearn portion size and is helping me to eat more fruit and vegetables.

I've learned so much over the last two weeks and this site is awesome in helping me. I may pay for Sparkcoach but am trying a 30 day bootcamp to help me with stress. You see, I am a total emotional eater and a yo yo dieter. I've gone up and down 100 times over the years and if I can learn to handle my stress and get less depressed then maybe I can keep it off this time.

My only regret is that I should have kept a written journal of the points and tips and things I've learned from the videos on sparkcoach and elsewhere so far. But since I haven't there's no time to start like now. Also, I hope to make the time to blog once a week as to how I am doing so I can look back and learn and feel encouraged and my progress so far. emoticon

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BOOKWERME 12/16/2012 10:53AM

    emoticonWelcome to Sparkpeople and congratulations on your success!

GOOD JOB on working in exercise...a puppy that needs walking is a great motivator! one program you might want to look into is T-Tapp. You can get a thorough basic workout in 15 minutes..and it will help address the pain issues. There is a team on SP and T-Tapp also has a website. I love it..and need to get back to doing it now that summer mowing etc. is over.

Journaling is a great tool..whether tracking your food or your exercise or, as you mentioned...keeping notes on things you have learned and want to remember and/or apply. I have an off-and-on journal of my health and have been surprised at some of the things I learn when I go back to reread or check measurements etc. Hope you make good use of this idea for yourself. emoticon

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USMAWIFE 12/8/2012 8:30PM

    It's never to late to start that journal.

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