Making progress!

Monday, January 07, 2013

I was really happy with my scale this morning as it showed that I lost 1.5 pounds. I can tell too as I just feel a bit smaller. I've made my goal of exercise and have been consistent and the consistency is paying off. I feel better on the inside overall and that is wonderful!
I still have some problems, and don't we all, but I am so happy that overall my health is better. I don't know how I am going to do it but I've been seriously considering auxiliary pioneering in March. The last time I auxiliary pioneered was before I got pregnant with my son who is now 11 years old. We've also set a goal that my son become an unbaptized publisher in March also. It's going to be such an exciting month, but I will probably have to put a lot of things on hold that month. We have our circuit overseer visit in the middle of the month, the memorial and on the last weekend is our two day assembly. There is also 2 weeks off for the boys for spring break, and I want to go away for 5 days to see my sister at the Coast.

So what I've noticed is that if I am really good with my calories all day then I don't usually blow it in the evening. It's a good trick that I'm going to keep in mind as I try to maintain my weight after I reach my goal, which is supposed to be in March also.

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A bla day!

Friday, December 28, 2012

I admit that I am totally run by emotion. The reason I have weight to lose really is because I am emotionally unstable. I am up and down like a yo yo and I haven't even hit menopause yet. LOL. It's PMS, not pms, my husband's moods, etc. etc. What gets me down is my husband's moods. Some days he's picky and he swears a lot. He says its not directed at me but he is still saying it in front of me and he uses the bad language to express his frustration toward a situation. He has done this the whole time we've been married (22 years) and even when he was active in the truth. I hate this language with my whole being and it's really hard for me to not let it affect me. My point is that unless I can control my emotion I will never be stable with my weight and therefore never be happy.
I am not sure why I am even wasting my time on this computer tracking my calories and fitness when really all I really need is a big happy pill or magic pill to make me feel happy all the time so that I am motivated. I'll even admit to my badness that on some days I track my exercise (which I am proud to say has been overall really good) and my calories but at the end of the day after being so good I end up blowing it and not caring. I am not blowing it in large ways but for example last night I just had to have a bowl of frozen raspberries with some light cream on it. Well, that put me over on my calories. That's why I wonder if I am wasting my time because I am not getting anywhere going over on my calories.
Anyway, I am just ranting now...... Isn't there a song called sometimes its hard to be a woman?

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Week 4 coming to a close

Saturday, December 22, 2012

The first two weeks were absolutely amazing and I could tell how much better I was feeling overall. I also lost 5 pounds in the first two weeks. Last week was a bit of a downer since my weight didn't budget and as this week comes to a close I notice I am up a half a pound. Hmm. I've been pretty good with my diet and I've been exercising a lot even adding strength exercises the last two weeks. Today I am taking the day off. I plan to be somewhat active though. So far today I've blown my diet and I don't plan on tracking my calories. I am in protest sticking my tongue out at my diet and my efforts. I realize I am only hurting myself but I can't figure out how I could gain after being so good. Maybe my body is just mad at me from gaining and losing so many times in the past and it's just fed up (pardon the pun) and plans on hanging on to this weight. I am not feeling motivated today at all. I shouldn't have weighed myself. Well, tomorrow is another day and there is the rest of today that I can be careful with. I'm not sure how people with a whole lot of weight to lose can stick so well to their diets and exercise. I don't have a lot to lose but I feel its a losing battle. Maybe PMS has begun because of my negativity or I just got discouraged from a weight gain.

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First two weeks of Spark - DONE!!

Saturday, December 08, 2012

This is my first blog entry! It's been two weeks since I started with Sparkpeople. It's been a positive experience so far.
I've learned many things in these last two weeks. Foremost is the exercise I usually dread because I am so busy, how can I fit it into my life? I am a mom of two boys aged 11 and 8 and also a husband of 22 years. I am the do everything mom. I even work part time cleaning houses for some extra income. Back to the exercise, I am usually too busy and in too much pain to get exercise done. Yup, pain! I have neck problems, allergy problems, and severe shoulder tendonosis. We adopted a puppy that needed rescuing about 4 months ago and she needs her exercise too! I've started with walking. I have a loop in my neighborhood and after two weeks I can do it about 3 minutes faster now. Anyway, I've learned that if I just go do it and get it done I actually accomplish more than before! I've always said not enough time not enough time, but I end having more energy and feel healthier so that results in more work done. I'm also not stressing about what isn't done but what I've actually got done. I've committed to myself that as long as it is -10 or warmer outside I'm bundling up and going for a walk! No excuses! Exercise is my motivator and I am also in less pain because of it. My attitude is more positive and that means everyone in the household is happier too. What also is motivating is that I've lost 4 pounds so far! I cheated and weighed myself this morning 2 days early and I was down another pound and a half. I cheated yesterday for the first time on my diet as well. But oh well! Today was another day and I'm not going to let it get me down.

Tracking calories is helping me re set re relearn portion size and is helping me to eat more fruit and vegetables.

I've learned so much over the last two weeks and this site is awesome in helping me. I may pay for Sparkcoach but am trying a 30 day bootcamp to help me with stress. You see, I am a total emotional eater and a yo yo dieter. I've gone up and down 100 times over the years and if I can learn to handle my stress and get less depressed then maybe I can keep it off this time.

My only regret is that I should have kept a written journal of the points and tips and things I've learned from the videos on sparkcoach and elsewhere so far. But since I haven't there's no time to start like now. Also, I hope to make the time to blog once a week as to how I am doing so I can look back and learn and feel encouraged and my progress so far.

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