Friday, July 15, 2011
My husband took a picture of me last night and, granted, I was slouching on the couch with shorts and a t shirt and no makeup, but when I saw the picture, I was really upset. Who is this person? Is it me? How did I get so big? So, I challenge myself. My challenge is to lose 10 pounds in 30 days. I know I can do it because I have done it before. That person, however, seems to be hiding lately.
I have struggled for the last 2 years to overcome an anxiety disorder and to regain my confidence in myself. I am doing better. I know the weight is all tied into my medical problems but for some reason, I am having a great deal of trouble managing this aspect of my life. Food makes me happy, therefore I should be able to eat it.
Turns out, although it makes me happy, it is not my friend. I am obese with high blood pressure at 40. This has to change. I love myself and I need to treat myself better. So, here is to today, the first day where I eat out of need for my body, not out of friendship with food. Wish me luck!