Saturday, July 19, 2014
You know when you're already stressed out and then something "big" happens--like, let's say you lose your debit card when you're out of cash and almost out of gas in an unfamiliar area--and all of a sudden, the day that you THOUGHT you were sailing through comes grinding to a halt, and the planets feel like their exploding in your face?
Of course you do. Everyone does. Today was a day like that for me. Little things that I was about to blow out of proportion. I started to feel myself losing it. I thought about running out to grab this new ice cream my friend has been telling me about. I thought about calling my mom (no joke) and commiserating, or calling my friend to see if she could calm me down.
But before I started screaming and crying, I reminded myself that losing a debit card or having your dryer break when you've got 2 more loads of laundry ISN'T cancer or a imprisonment sentence. It's life. It's going to happen. And it's a huge PITA, but if I let those things throw me off course, I'll never get to where I want to go.
This is what I said to stop the hysteria from being kicked off:
"You could call your mom and complain, but that would only take up time and shove the stress onto her. That's not fair. She deserves to get a phone call where she isn't going to be your emotional trash collector. You can go out and eat that ice cream, but you're going to be hungry soon afterwards and mad that you erased your work at the gym this morning. You can call X friend, but think about how you'd feel if someone called you not to say "hi" but to complain about a bad day. The right choice is to take a deep breath and think about real solutions."
And I got myself out of it. I didn't need the ice cream or the panic call. My problems got fixed, and I got stuff done. I feel 1000x better about today that I would've had I chosen a different route.
Sunday, July 13, 2014
I love 5ks 10ks halfs, etc., but I'm looking for some lower-cost options that will get me outdoors. Running races is addictive, but I think I may look for ONE marathon in winter 2014/2015 and have that be my race for the year. What else is out there? Are there any cool running apps or virtual runs (like to the moon and back, or across the country) that anyone has tried and liked?
Part of this quest for goals is because of my own sense of being "goal-less." We're responsible for setting our own goals and generating passion and curiosity in our lives. At least, that's my experience. Sometimes we stumble on our passions (like trying an activity once and being hooked!), but a lot of times, we won't know if we really love something until we dedicate ourselves first. . . Has this been anyone else's experience?
I know running was a lot like that for me. I liked running, but I didn't feel hooked on it until I did it repeatedly for years and years. It wasn't until college that I felt hooked. There are a lot of other activities like piano, for example, where I feel like I gave up right before I really "got-into" it.
As I mentioned in another blog, I'm trying not to fight this move. Yes, it's not where I want to be, and moving lots of times compounded with personal changes is hard, etc.. But maybe this is a golden opportunity to embrace activities like piano and see if, with a little dedication, I can find new passions.
Thursday, July 10, 2014
One of the challenges I've faced recently is coping with a number of significant changes (like multiple moves, both job and house, end of a l/t relationship, financial stress, etc), and it is REALLY hard to stay consistent with health and wellness.
I've moved again for my job, and I keep wanting to look around this say "ugh, I hate it here." Realistically, I know that this city isn't the last port of call for me. It's not forever, and I *really* *really* don't want to like it here. I don't want to find a favorite running spot, I don't want to like the multi-million dollar community fitness center that's FREE because of my job, I don't want to try a new yoga studio. As bad as this sounds, I don't even want to COOK IN MY KITCHEN, lol.
But like it or not, I'm going to be here for at least 47 more weeks (but hey, who's counting?). While I may *feel* as though my life has stalled, it most definitely hasn't.
If spark has taught me anything--and it has--it's that if you WAIT FOR THE STARS TO BE PERFECTLY ALIGNED before you start a routine, you will never start.
I shouldn't fight this move. It's a good job. There are great places for me to run and be active. I've got lots of options AND AND I have both the time and the money (sort of) to engage. If I'm logical about this, setting health goals for myself will help a year go by much more quickly and give me all sorts of other benefits that I could probably use ; )
I'm going to try not to fight this anymore. It's just like fighting a hard workout at the gym. There are indeed times when it is best to give in.
Friday, July 04, 2014
I'm back. I've been maintaining my weight and eating generally well since my absence, but consistency is a real problem for me. I feel "goal-less," and although I am a healthy weight, I've lost a lot of my tone and focus on other aspects of leading a healthy, well-balanced life.
This Ellen Degeneres commencement speech prompted me to log back onto Spark.
I chose the above link because it has a transcript as well as a video. What stuck with me from the speech:
"I mean it was so important for me to lose everything because I found out what the most important thing is is to be true to yourself. And ultimately, that's what's gotten me to this place. I don't live in fear. I'm free. I have no secrets. And I know I'll always be okay, because no matter what, I know who I am."
Who am I? What I want to be able to say at the end of the day is not: I am thin, I have the best muscle tone, I can do 500 push ups, etc.
I want to be the woman who never gives up. At this point in the journey, the weight doesn't matter. But striving for better health does. Setting physical and personal goals and persisting in my ATTEMPT to achieve them? That's what matters. I'm practicing forgiveness for all the times I don't log in, and don't keep up because I'm still moving forward, and have been since I got to Spark.
Happy Fourth to all : )
Sunday, March 16, 2014
Even though I haven't been on spark, I've been doing really well with re-establishing a routine and getting back to the gym. I've done it slowly. I literally have about 5-7 lbs left to reach my goal weight, which is AMAZING. Ever since starting SP a couple of years ago, I've never rocketed back up to my highest weight of 135-138, which I consider an accomplishment in and of itself. I made some forever changes, and I'm still learning and making more. So, onto my big goal for 2014: run a marathon! I'm signed up for one in June, which gives me oodles of time to train. I've also boldly established a list of rewards to keep me motivated in meeting my other health goals. Here is this week's potential reward:
-Rewards (NOT cumulative, lol)-
-If I exercise 20 minutes each week day, I will have two glasses of wine post-friday work at beautiful restaurant
-If I attend 5 classes at the gym this week, I will buy myself 1 month unlimited yoga pass
-If I exercise 60 minutes each week day, attend 3 group fitness classes, and have at least 80 grams of protein each week day, I will buy tickets to local concert I really want to see
Ok, off to group fitness class. Really want to go see this concert ; )
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