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Mother's Day

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Mother's Day has always been filled with mixed emotions for me. I love my mom. We've had some dysfunctional moments, but she really is a great person.

The problem lies with me. I always wanted to be a mom, had always planned to have children. It just never happened. I married at 36 to a man who swore that we would have children "within 2 years". In two years, he said he wasn't ready. Two years after that, he still wasn't ready. The marriage ended last July, and pretty much took my dreams of becoming a mother with it.

However, if you remove the biological function, I realize that I have mothered and nurtured. And every day, I have the opportunity to care for others. Happy Mother's Day to all, including us non-traditional "Moms".

  
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MARKKI 7/8/2011 10:08AM

    I love that it is so much like what us women go through! I am so glad that you have grown and are able to recognise it!!!!!! Hope everyday this year is Mother's Day for you!!!!!

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MKPRINCESS007 5/8/2011 7:19PM

    I have always viewed anyone that nurtures, loves and cares for others as being as much, and sometimes more than, a woman who actually gives birth. I am sure you have been a blessing to so many...........

big hugs..........

Karen

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MADKAPKID 5/8/2011 12:05PM

    Well said. Nuturing is the key word. Happy Mothers day to you!


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NATPLUMMER 5/8/2011 10:59AM

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Today

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Today, I had to take my cat to the vet. He has been throwing up, not eating, and acting disoriented. He's 16 1/2 years old, so naturally, I assumed the worst.

Turns out, he's got a bacterial infection. I have to administer liquid antibiotics for the next couple of weeks and inject him with an IV drip twice a day. I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle it, but love will get you through difficult moments.

I'm relieved that he's ok.

  
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NATPLUMMER 5/3/2011 10:56PM

    emoticon I'm glad he just needs some TLC.
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Lazy Sunday

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Enjoying a lazy sunday, drinking coffee (an indulgence, since I normally avoid caffeine), cat in lap, and waiting for my boyfriend to wake up. Life is good.

  
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41SUSAN14 3/20/2011 11:54AM

    Mmmm - sounds heavenly!

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BECKYI39 3/20/2011 11:51AM

    Sound nice! Enjoy!

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FITFABJENN 3/20/2011 11:01AM

    Sounds like my Sunday, except I'm watching Sunday morning children's TV with my son while sipping my coffee and catching up on SP.

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NATPLUMMER 3/20/2011 10:41AM

    Hey, that's what I'm doing as well. A great way to spend a Sunday morning.

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Good Weekend

Saturday, March 12, 2011

It's been over a month since my last blog. I've lost a couple of pounds, reunited with an old flame, and the anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication is working really well. I took my niece & nephew to the movies and out to lunch, and then we came back to my house and played Wii fit.

  
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STLOUISWOMAN 3/13/2011 2:59PM

    So glad that things are going well for you.

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NATPLUMMER 3/12/2011 11:58PM

    Sounds like things are going your way!! emoticon

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TWOCANS 3/12/2011 11:09PM

    Sounds like life is being good to you! Spark on!

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Off the radar

Sunday, January 30, 2011

I haven't spent much time on Sparkpeople in the last couple of weeks. Last week, I made the decision to go on anti-depressants. I'm not suicidal or anything--I've just had this persistent sadness with frequent crying jags. I realized that it was a problem when I nearly burst into tears at work.

So far the medication seems to be working. It is supposed to help with anxiety, which is good. The only side effect that I've noticed is some mild drowsiness. I'm sleeping better, and the crying jags have disappeared completely.

I'm not sure if the depression is a result of fallout from the divorce, the pressures of buying a new house, stress at work, and relocating. There certainly has been no shortage of stress in my life, plus depresssion runs in my family.

Thank God for pharmaceuticals.

  
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GBO323 2/2/2011 5:13PM

    YogaGirl...kudos for seeking out professional assistance. Medications can certainly help give our brains some balance when life goes AWOL without our permission.

I pray things smooth out for you...scooter season is getting closer!

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YOGAGIRLNH 1/31/2011 8:24PM

    Thank you all for the kind words. It's wonderful to have support. emoticon

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BELLE0308 1/30/2011 10:52PM

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I have what they call chronic clinical depression with anxiety. What I was told is that certain events can trigger you into a depression that is hard if not impossible to pull yourself out of. Just so you know that you are normal, I was hit hard after the birth of my daughter and never wanted to hurt her or me, I was intensly sad at times and lacked energy and motivation. Eventually I couldn't sleep well. Not everyone with depression is suicidal, but it is important that you still get yourself help which it appears you have done now.

I agree with Julia that diet and exercise and also sticking to a basic routine are important as well as prayer and journaling if possible. VERY important actually. Congratulations on taking good care of yourself. I know many of us have been in a similar situation and our thoughts and prayers are with you.


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NATPLUMMER 1/30/2011 10:46PM

    It's probably a combination of everything. I'm glad it's helping.

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SMILESRME 1/30/2011 10:14PM

    Hey there, depression is certainly something to not mess around with. You are smart to get help and I am thankful that the meds are working. You certainly have many reasons to be feeling depressed friend! All the things you listed are certainly major stress factors! Wow!

Keep making the smart decisions for your exercise and food choices. ( I didn't say diet, cuz that is a 4 letter word in my vocabulary) Be sure to get on Sparks, because this is a very positive and uplifting site to be on.

Praying that you will feel better each day and I am so glad that you are sleeping better too. That is a biggie!

Joy!
Julia : )

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