Thursday, May 27, 2010
As most of you know, this has been a very difficult season for our family, for a variety of reasons, one more upsetting than the next. Having my CaptainCookie (gngrbrd for those of you who know us from IRC) home since February and likely home until July has brought a whole new set of challenges for us. We're accustomed to him being out on his ship 28 days, home 14 days, then back out 28 days. Being cooped up at home (and with no pay, no bucks available to go out and play) together all this time can take its toll. We are blessed with a pleasant and sweet marriage, but even that can be tested under our current stressors.
Our oldest is evidently in a world all her own. She does not appear to be grasping how serious the situation is and is in no way responding appropriately. She's surrounded herself with people who will never lead her out of this darkness, who will never help her to be reunited with her son. It's just so very sad.
We will make it through these things with God's help. Of that we have NO doubt. Keeping a heart filled with joy and peace in the midst of it is the ticket. Having a heart that is void of judgment and full of compassion is the only way to survive it all. That's what I'm praying for, for myself... in whatsoever state I'm in, therein to be content.
We detoured this morning on our way home from bringing our son to his first day of training for McD's in a nearby town. We went to visit Heath, our 15 month old grandson. It's amazing how that one little smile can change my heart. To see his eyes light up and his little arms fly up for me to pick him up, seeing the joy he feels because I've come to spend time with him... well, it just does me in completely. It washes the crust of worry and barnacles of sadness away in a flash. Oh, that we could see the face of our Father when He smiles to us, when He throws open His arms and we run to Him, so excited to see Him, when our eyes light up with glee because, FINALLY, we can see Him in the midst of a situation. Definitely good stuff. Here's a few photos from today of our precious little man.
First, Heath was eying up those balloons.
The he started trying to get hold of one.
He got one!!
If you are happy to see someone, if their nearness fills your heart to overflowing, show them. Smile big to them. Throw your arms around them. Celebrate them. Definitely let them know. It could be very good medicine for them. And for you. It surely was for me. I bet it is for God, too. So when He makes you happy simply by showing up on the scene? Show Him your love and how happy you are to see Him.