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I'll be out of pocket. Please pray for my husband.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Bill gets home from his four week hitch tomorrow and will be admitted to the hospital early Thursday morning for the other kidney stone procedure. We could be at the hospital four or five days. I will take the laptop but I don't know what kind of access I'll have. Times like these my SparkStreaks and SparkPoints seem awfully unimportant, though. So if I'm not here for a while, you'll know why. If I can't get online, I will be in touch with whoever I can reach with my cell phone whenever I have cell coverage. Thankfully, some of you are in my cell phone, so I'll have a few options if I fail to reach someone on my first try or two.

They will be slicing a small incision into Bill's side and inserting a tube into his kidney that will stay there for a while. They'll insert what the doctor describes as a small jackhammer to bust up the many large and oddly shaped stones in the right kidney. They'll remove the jackhammer and then thread in that nifty little basket I showed you photos of from his last procedure (but that time they went in through the penis and didn't have to make an incision). They'll remove as many of the chunks as they can with the basket. My prayer is that they will be able to fish out ALL of them so that he does not have to have the procedure repeated. They'll let him rest a day or two and then do more tests to see if they got em all or at least have left pieces tiny enough for him to pass with urine. Any that have to pass that way will cause him great pain, so I'm really praying they get them all out with the basket. When they're satisfied they got all they could through the tube, they'll send him home with the tube still in until it stops draining blood. That should take a couple days. Then we return to get the tube removed.

As I mentioned in the previous kidney stone blog, I know we have been placed in the capable and compassionate care of this particular urologist. He is awesome. I know the Lord is with us every step of the way and that His loving hand is upon my husband. Still, I covet your prayers for his health and for his peace of heart. This is scary stuff but God's peace surpasses all human fear. He's so good. He's bigger than any boogieman we can conjure up!

I covet your prayers for me, too. This is the first time I will not be able to prepare my food in advance every day. I will do okay the first day or two but after that it's all up for grabs. I have no idea what will be available to me or how I will track it. I don't know what if any opportunities I will have for exercise since I won't likely want to leave Bill's bedside for any length of time. I'm going to bring a couple DVDs with me but I don't know if it will be feasible to exercise in a room with another patient and his/her family there. I'm sure that would be distracting and I would not want to pose any problems for others.

I know wherever we walk, the Lord is with us and will provide ALL that we need. He is our sufficiency, our Jehovah Jireh, and I trust Him implicitly. I will miss you if I can't get to you, my friends!! You are such a huge, huge part of my everyday life, many, many of my thoughts, and lots and lots of my prayers. Much love, friends.


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LINDA25427 12/3/2009 9:12AM

    Missy praying for Bill and you and your family.I know you are in God's hands and everything will work out ok . Take care senting my love . God bless. emoticon

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LOVESLILACS1 12/3/2009 8:33AM

    Missy, I'm praying for you and Bill. Maybe you could walk a little down the hallways? When it comes to eating, just take what you've learned here and choose the lesser of the evils available to you. I plead the blood of Jesus on Bill's health, and yours, too!

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IUHRYTR 12/3/2009 6:47AM

    Missy, good thoughts and positive prayers will be constant for Bill and for you and for the surgeon. We're here to help however we may do so. I'm sure you'll keep us updated. Until then....


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1GR8FULGAL 12/3/2009 5:58AM

    I will pray for both of you; all the best to you both. Take care, Nancy

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GLITTERGIRL69 12/3/2009 3:53AM


I am sorry to hear about all of this. Please call me when you can. I know it is hard to be in a situation where you have no control over what you can eat, and your source of exercise is gone. I have been in that situation more times than I would like to remember. It is harder when you have stress surrounding you, unfortunately I have been without control of what I eat, lack of my source of exercise, and have stress all around me.

Your situation pains my heart, as my situation was in a hospital as well. There were other situations due to visting family. I will pray for you and your family each and every day. I remember talking to you on the phone about this. I did not know it was going to happen in December.

Dear God please give insight to her kind and loving doctor as he does this procedure. Guide him as the breaks up the stones, to ensure he gets them all. Missy and I agree in your name all stones with be found and no problems will be experienced. Dear Jesus please help Missy. Give her your peace as she trusts in you. Give her ability to eat well, by supplying her with the best food. Magnify the Holy Spirit within her and give her all the knowledge and opportunity, tools, and ability, to count her calories, exercise, and do all the necessary things to stay on target. We trust you with everything, and welcome your perfect will. In Jesus name I pray amen.

Take care dear friend, as you know everything is in Godís hands.

Please call if you can,


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ROZEEROZ1 12/3/2009 12:17AM

    prayers for the two of you/family and the hospital staff attending your hubby. I am asking Jesus to guide you in your eating area while not able to count the calories etc. HUGS Dorothy

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GOSPELCLOWN 12/3/2009 12:06AM

    Go with my prayers too!


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BIGDAD1211 12/3/2009 12:01AM

    Hello Sis
You and DH are in my prayers. I am praying for him right now and will be praying until I here from you. God's continued blessing to you all.
In Jesus Name

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SUSIEPH1 12/2/2009 11:52PM

    Hi Missy, I have just discovered your blog too!! I hope your Bill,s procedure goes according to plan and all will be well ..I am sure you will fine something healthy to eat ..but of course, that will be the last thing on your mind! I wish you and Bill, and your Family all the very best !! Susie emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/2/2009 11:39PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and Bill. Just know that God is with you both during these trying times.
Blessings and hugs, dear friend.

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SJG1953 12/2/2009 11:37PM

    Missy, you and your DH are in my thoughts and prayers. God is so faithful and so good. Hugs, Shirley

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SVELTEWARRIOR 12/2/2009 10:15PM

    You and your husband are in my prayers

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TERI99 12/2/2009 8:42PM

    Praying for you and your husband, as well as the doctors. Hospital stays can be stressful, but it sounds like you are preparing mentally for your challenge and will be as mindful as possible about eating and getting some movement in. (Try taking the stairs if you have to leave the room to get coffee or something!) I pray that his recovery will be as painless and rapid as possible, and I pray peace for you both, and skill for the doctors. God bless!

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CAMTPAM 12/2/2009 6:37PM

    Prayers for both of you.
Hugz, Pam

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GRAMIAM7 12/2/2009 5:17PM

    Prayers for your DH, you and your family. My hospital has an awesome salad/fruit bar also. Hoping the same for you.

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GRAMIAM7 12/2/2009 5:17PM

    Prayers for your DH, you and your family. My hospital has an awesome salad/fruit bar also. Hoping the same for you.

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    I just came across your blog from a friend of mine posting here. Just wanted to send positive thoughts for your husband and a quick recovery. I went through the same procedure about 2 years ago and I know how rough it can be...especially with going home with a stent. I had to keep mine in for a month and it was awful!

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KEEPGOING87 12/2/2009 5:04PM

    sending good thoughts and prayers your way

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    Missy, I'll put you on my prayer list, too. I have not paid close enough attention to what you've been dealing with! I'm sorry! "Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you." 1 Peter 5:7 emoticon emoticon

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LADYHUNTER82 12/2/2009 4:28PM

    I will be praying for you both. May God put His loving hands upon you both and keep you both safe... hugs and prayers always, DJ emoticon emoticon

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THEBOOKBINDER 12/2/2009 4:08PM

    Our Prayers will be with him for strength and health and you for sanity and peace. Have a good day my friend!

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SCORPION1352 12/2/2009 3:51PM

    I too am praying for you and Bill. I am also thanking our Father in advance for wonderful work your chosen doctor is going to do and speedy recovery that Bill will have. Dear Lord, please be with Missy and Bill through this surgery and give them the strength you know they have. Guide the doctors hands and give him the knowledge he needs to have in order to finish this job so Bill does not have to go back and repeat the procedure. I pray the doctors get every little last stone keeping Bill free from pain now and in the future.

In Jesus precious name I Pray Amen

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LBIDLER 12/2/2009 3:20PM

    You are both in my thoughts and prayers. Praise God that He has put a qualified medical team in charge of your husband's care.

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TRAVELNISTA 12/2/2009 2:33PM

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As far as the food plan goes, I know my hospital has a salad bar and there is always fruit on it as well. Maybe you could find those at yours. Try to at least throw a bag of almonds or some other nuts into your bag. Larabars are great too.

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AZIMAT 12/2/2009 2:12PM

    With you both in prayer.

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WALNUT5612 12/2/2009 2:01PM

    My prayer request for you has been sent to God.

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DCAMPBELL8 12/2/2009 1:47PM

    Praying for you & your family Missy.

Much Love,
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COLEENCOLE 12/2/2009 1:26PM

    I have the Biggest Loser cal. counter book. It has restaurant food, homemade. It is extensive and really helpful for staying in the cal range.

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IMAVISION 12/2/2009 12:21PM

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As soon as I took in the title of your blog, I went before our Abba's throne on Bill's & your behalf, Missy! The following few days will soon be one of those memories in the long, & ever growing, list of times the good Lord walked Bill & you through a trial. I am praising & thanking Him for His love for & care of Bill throughout the surgery & the healing process. May you both be open to every opportunity put before you to share Jesus at Holy Spiritís leading throughout your time at the hospital.

I am in total agreement with Lightheart's beautifully worded prayer!

Be blessed, my sweet Sister!

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DYNAMICDEB53 12/2/2009 11:36AM

    Sending you both my prayers and lots of positive thoughts.

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MINDYJ1 12/2/2009 10:22AM

    Praying for you both.

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    I am praying that God will comfort you with His presence, give you wisdom to make healthy choices, guide the doctors and nurses, and that He will use you for His glory and honor there in the hospital. Maybe He put you and hubby there in the hospital at this time because He wants to use you to bring someone to Himself. We do have such an awesome God! How wonderful to be in the middle of His will and loving care! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JANETELIZABETH1 12/2/2009 9:10AM

    Hi Missy,
Will be praying for you both.
Try and write down all your eating, no matter what in a little book and then you can have a go at tracking when you get home again. That usually works for me.
And like someone else said...maybe brisk walk some halls!! And they probably have stairs too!
Big hugs dear sister.

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CRKRJAK 12/2/2009 8:57AM

    Missy stay strong. Things will be great and he will be feeling better. Sending love your way. Jackie

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LENNY48 12/2/2009 8:51AM

    Missy, focus on your hubby we can do without you for a few days although it won't be as fun. In my prayers! Kisses, Lenny

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SECRETMUSIC 12/2/2009 8:42AM

    Prayers go with you! And I know you'll find the strength you need for all the challenges -- and I bet you'll sail through the eating portion just fine! Take care of yourself, too!

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PATRISNA 12/2/2009 8:36AM

I'll be praying for you, Bill and your family. Take some bottled water so you won't have to pay a fortune in the vending machines. Hugs to you both.


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LIGHTHEART09 12/2/2009 8:10AM

    Wow Missy, you have an army of loved ones on Sparks that will all be praying for you and Bill, plus all your family and church community! I add my prayers to the host of others who love you so much! I lift you and Bill up in mighty prayer!

Heavenly Father,
I come to you in the matchless name of Jesus, and ask for your divine healing to Bill, that his procedure go well, and that every trace of kidney stone be supernaturally removed and not a trace remain in his body. Guide the expert hands of the Doctors and Nurses that care for him, and keep his body from pain, comfort him in your radiant love. Make his recovery time be swift. Father I pray that you bless Missy with comfort and peace, and provide her with healthy snacks and food as she sits with Bill, her Captain Cookie, lovingly at his side. Let her have time to walk halls and stairs to get her exercise, and give her the strength she needs in this journey. Let her know she is wrapped in love and prayers from her many friends, and surround her and Bill with your Heavenly Angels.
In Jesus Name I thank you and pray,

I love you, be well you are covered and dripping in prayers of this community and your church community...God tells me it is covered, and to rejoice in Him!

Much love,
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MALEXANDER4 12/2/2009 8:08AM

    your in my prayers.

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BEAMISH7 12/2/2009 7:52AM

    I can only imagine how many wonderful friends are praying for you and your Bill, Missy. And prayer works. Count on mine as well, sister. We know you will be taking care of your husband, Missy....so when others offer kindness and nurture to you, please accept it.
God IS with you every step of the way. I love the depth of your faith, Missy.

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GABY1948 12/2/2009 7:37AM

    I am praying for you and him and the whole family. Will definitely miss you! emoticon emoticon

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MARYSUPPORTS 12/2/2009 6:40AM

    Sending Prayers your way.

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SUSANSKI 12/2/2009 3:16AM

    My hubby was just in hospital and I noticed I could get a lot of walking in just in the halls. W/O in the room might bother your hubby though. I know mine just needs the peace and stillness. He couldn't even stand it when I paced in the emergency room while waiting for admittance. Believe me, there are PLENTY of hallways and stairwells. I was surprised how much the cafeteria food cost so bring plenty of change. One meal cost me about $7.oo but that was with a bottle of pop and and a bag of chex. Be sure to pick a bowl of salad! That helped me!
Blessings to both of you!
No, I don't know you...smile. just noticed a posting with your blog title and had to be nibby. lol

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JOJO58 12/2/2009 12:21AM

    Missy, My husband and I lift you up in prayer. I showed him your message that you left me and read to him your blog. God is so big, so immense he can do anything. Your husband will be fine. We pray that he gives your husband peace and also pray for a speedy recovery for him. Take care ... Jo

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AFLBANDWAGON 12/2/2009 12:07AM

    You and your family are in my prayers. God Bless

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DACIUS 12/1/2009 11:50PM

    You are in my families prayers. God bless and stay strong for your man. He will need you.

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2BSALLYB 12/1/2009 11:45PM

    Know I'm praying for Bill and you. I know you'll make the best food choices you can while you're at the hospital. If you can't exercise during this time, you'll get back to it when you get back home. It's your way of life now. Keep us posted on how things are going when you can. emoticon

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WOODSYGIRL 12/1/2009 11:40PM

I have prayed for you and Bill and will continue to do so. I've had kidney stones twice in my life and it was by far the worst pain I have ever been through, so I can completely empathize with your husband's pain. His sounds even worse (I do think it's worse for men) and these procedures take a tremendouse toll on him, I'm sure. We will continue to lift you up in prayer and know that God is by your side always, and will carry you when you need rest. I pray the doctors have steady hands and good concentration, and hopefully can get each and every one of those broken up stones, so Bill can be done with this for good. Hang in there as best you can and know there's a whole SP world out there praying for you both.


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ETHEL_MERMAID 12/1/2009 11:32PM

    All the very best to you and Bill, Missy. I hope this procedure, which sounds both delicate and tricky to me, will go smoothly for him and with swift, uneventful healing. Just do the very best you can with your food while under these extraordinary circumstances, and I know your best will ALWAYS be enough! Take good care of yourselves... Susan

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What I've Lost

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Our church service this morning included testimonies of thanks. I wanted to share with you what I had to say:

This has been an exciting year for me. As most of you know, I stand before you with only nine toes. I lost the little toe of my left foot in a treadmill accident in February. As Laurie said, I should have given that little piggy roast beef because he really DID go wee wee wee all the way home. [Laurie is one of our youth leaders and a good friend.]

Iíve lost some other things this year, too. Iíve lost my slave status. Romans 6:6-7 For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sinóbecause anyone who has died has been freed from sin.

I discovered that I am not bound by the appetites of my flesh. Because I was crucified with Christ, when the taskmasters of gluttony and slothfulness call my name, demanding to be obeyed, their commands fall upon deaf ears. Dead men canít hear. When the sluggard spirit cries out, a little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands (Proverbs 6:9-10), instructing my feet to stray to that comfortable chair or to my bed, my feet donít have to obey because they have been nailed to the cross with Jesus. When taste instead of hunger prompts my hands to reach for more food than my body needs as fuel, my hands donít have to obey because they, too, have been nailed to the cross with Jesus. When the voice of destruction overwhelms my heart with accusations of failure, it does not have to be impacted because my heart burst along with Jesusí on Calvary and it is dead to those sinful ways.

I donít have to make Egyptian bricks anymore. I donít have to pick Southern cotton anymore. Dead slaves are free from the control of slavery, bondage, captivity, prison. Because I am no longer a slave, I am FREE. I am free to choose what I will or will not eat, free to choose to move instead of being immobile, free to be healthy and comfortable and energetic in accomplishing all the Father has planned for me.

If I bury the freedoms Jesus bought for me with His blood, knowing theyíre there, but hiding them, not experiencing them, they are not really mine. The Lord will give them, instead, to someone who WILL use them wisely. If I expend them, utilize them, put them into action, not only are they mine but He then bestows even more freedoms upon me in ever-widening areas of my life, overflowing in abundance to spill out upon the lives of others around me.

The fruit of investing those freedoms in my life is that, in addition to losing my toe, Iíve lost 65 pounds and continue to achieve my goals for nutrition and fitness. Iíve lost the need for diabetic and insulin resistance medication. Iíve lost the need for blood pressure medication. Iíve lost the inability to walk from my van to a building without being winded and in pain. Iíve lost the shame of destroying the body God has given me. Iíve lost feelings of hopelessness and despair concerning my appearance and my health. Through losing all these things, Iíve gained more than I can ever express. And itís only the beginning.

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BECCASINGSLEAD 12/4/2009 12:34AM

    What a beautiful post! Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts.

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IUHRYTR 12/3/2009 6:48AM

    Your positive, worshipful attitude is inspiring. May God continue blessing you and your family. -- Lou

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    I think this is the best blog that I've read today!
What an awesome testimony of the grace of God, Missy.
I wish everyone on SP would read this; I hope it makes most liked blog so everyone will see it.
Thanks so much for posting this my dear sister in Christ. emoticon

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NO_SNOW_BODY 12/1/2009 11:23PM

    Missy, thank you for sharing, I love your blogs and you are in y daily prayers along with Bill.

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    Missy, this is AWESOME! With Christ, we can do anything! I am no longer a slave, either! I am glad we are sisters in Christ! emoticon

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LIGHTHEART09 12/1/2009 8:33AM

    Wow Missy that is beautiful! You spoke to so many people including myself...What an inspiration you are!! I bet you had a room full of people that had tears running down their faces after that!
Much love, you should have this as the spark inspiration story of the day!!
Nana GG

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WOODSYGIRL 11/30/2009 8:15PM

    Wow, Missy, you really have me sitting here in awe. I was captivated by your words in church today and love the Scripture verses you chose. I have my Bible study group tomorrow and you've given me something wonderful to ponder and to give thanks for. I'm coming to understand that their is a huge difference between surrender and commitment, and your post spoke to this very well. You have such a gift for writing and I thank you for sharing such beautifully spoken beliefs.

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3CATSLEP 11/30/2009 7:54PM

    WOW! That was awesome. It was written like poetry! I'm so thankful to know you and call you my friend!

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SUSAN134 11/30/2009 6:39PM

    Missy, thank you. Your post is beautiful and very inspirational. Bless you.


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TRAVELNISTA 11/30/2009 3:24PM

    Thank you for sharing that, it was beautiful.

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DESERTPENGUIN 11/30/2009 1:16PM

    Thank you for your wonderful post. I would like to keep it to help me remember my freedom in Christ. God bless,

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LOVESLILACS1 11/30/2009 12:08PM

    It is no longer I, but Christ who lives in me! Praise the Lord! Thank you for sharing your wonderful testimony. Keep up the great work! God Bless You!

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PEPPERLEAH 11/30/2009 8:39AM

    God is so good; and yes, we are set free from so much! Congratulations to you on your successes!


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MARYSUPPORTS 11/30/2009 6:47AM

    Isn't it just amazing how loosing can actually be a big gain??

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LINDA25427 11/30/2009 12:49AM

    Missy I'm so happy for you .Congratulations on the 65 lbs lost and gone forever . You are an amazing woman and a inspiration to us all .Keep up the good work . God bless you my sp friend . emoticon

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THENEWME43 11/29/2009 11:57PM

    Praise the Lord! What a beautiful testimony. I'm rejoicing with you, Missy!

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SJG1953 11/29/2009 9:54PM

    What a beautiful testimony Missy! You honor and glorify God with your life. Praise His Holy Name! Hugs, Shirley

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HAPPYWRITER7 11/29/2009 9:51PM

    Beautiful Missy. Gaining so much by losing! *hugs* Thank you for sharing your beautiful testimony.

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FILLANGES 11/29/2009 9:37PM

    Missy What a wonderful testimony. God is truly doing great things through you! I thank God for you and your witness. I have come to lose many things also,(earthly things) and I count them all as Gain! I love what is written in Phillipians3:7-8 ...
7But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ
Here is a great song. i listen to this daily. I hope you enjoy it. God Bless. Rick

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LIFE-FAITH 11/29/2009 9:22PM

    What a testimony!
Praise God!
May he continue to bless you and may you continue to bless those on Spark.

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IUHRYTR 11/29/2009 8:57PM

    Amen, Missy, amen. You HAVE accomplished a lot this year and there are still five weeks to go! Keep up the good effort. -- Lou

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SECRETMUSIC 11/29/2009 8:04PM

    Hooray! By losing so much, you are winning!

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THEADMIRAL 11/29/2009 6:39PM

    Awesome! Our God Reigns over all the earth and strengthens us to be the women who glorify Him! Thank you for your testimony!

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GABY1948 11/29/2009 6:10PM

    Awesome testimony, Missy. Thank you for sharing this. emoticon emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 11/29/2009 5:24PM

    Excellent and I'm sure your words inspired more than a few in that church to think about doing the same!

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BOO-SHAY 11/29/2009 5:04PM

    Thank you for sharing, your words are really what I needed today!

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Digging Our Own Graves

Friday, November 27, 2009

You ever see one of those movies where the bad guy makes the victim dig his own grave? How awful is that? Isn't that the final word in indignity? I can't even begin to imagine it, knowing that with each moment, I dig myself deeper and deeper toward my death, that the very matter that I dig into will cover my body so thoroughly that I will never again be able to walk upon this earth, to breathe, to LIVE.

For those of us who are (or were) morbidly obese, isn't that what we do to ourselves, though? We use a dinner fork to bury our lives, one mouthful of unwise choices at a time. We use shovels full of inactivity to mire our bodies in immobility. We use spades of past failure and fear of future failure to entomb us in prisons that are a death sentence to our ability to try for more, for better.
We use trowels of hopelessness and despair to smother every shred of hope for change. We use pickaxes of bitterness and disappointment to dig holes of shattered self-worth and envy that will heap isolation and fractured relationships upon us from which we will never be able to escape. We use excavation equipment of resentment and unforgiveness to create pits what will swallow us whole.
The weird thing is nobody aims a gun at us and insists we do these things. We choose to do them all by ourselves. We and we alone make those unhealthy, often fatal decisions. There's no Hollywood villain forcing us to dig our graves. This isn't the Flip Wilson Show where, "The devil made me do it."

I choose to release my grasp upon every destructive behavior that is digging a grave for me, that threatens to sap life from me, that robs me of the abilities of life. I will call them by name, let them go, and surrender to life, and life more abundantly. With God ALL things are possible.

Will you join me in examining your heart to see if you have any shovels and pickaxes stashed in the attic and garage of your heart and discard them?

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3CATSLEP 11/29/2009 3:45PM

    Thank you, Missy! What a good blog! I had better go examine my house for those many objects that you mentioned. I think I also hand Satan the ice pick to chip, chip, chip away at me sometimes. Not so much anymore. Thank you for this blog!

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JLUVSHIKIN 11/29/2009 1:34PM

    Great insight! Good blog!

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LIGHTHEART09 11/28/2009 8:18PM

    Wow you are so right...It is so true...I never thought of it that way.
Today I heard the Holy Spirit say...just start eating things alive...greens, fruits...it is that simple...
Funny I make things so complicated...
I love you...brilliant articulate woman...
Much love,

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MARYSUPPORTS 11/28/2009 8:31AM

    Awesome analogy. Sure made me think, and yes I do need to see what I am doing to dig my own grave and get rid of it, lol.

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TRAVELNISTA 11/28/2009 7:25AM

    Excellent blog! Very time appropriate too as a reminder not to over indulge during the "Eating Season." emoticon

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 11/27/2009 10:39PM

    Missy, your blog was great. My brother and I grew up with food as our comfort, even protection as we floundered through our childhoods. Sadly, my brother (who is the one who told me about SP) says he enjoys the comfort food brings him and hasn't enough desire to change it.

I wish he knew how healthy I am feeling with just over one month with the Spark People way of life! Maybe next time he sees me (he's in MI and I'm in TX), he'll be surprised enough to give it a try! He has to be ready, though, doesn't he, Missy?

Thank you for being my friend! emoticon Lori

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FURBALLDTH 11/27/2009 7:19PM

    Boy did this one hit home. I've been doing this for years. It was like a glass of water in the face. Reality checks can be life savers. Thank you !!

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SECRETMUSIC 11/27/2009 7:12PM

    Great blog, Missy!

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JANETELIZABETH1 11/27/2009 6:02PM

    You're right Missy...that's what it takes...we must face up to what is hindering us on this journey, whether it's 10lbs or 100+lbs!!
I have been so encouraged by reading the many, many success testimonies here on SP....the way is not easy but it is only the member themself that can achieve their goal.
I wish you every success,
Love & prayers

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KRISHARPER 11/27/2009 5:43PM

    Very true! thanks for examining a stronghold that's in my life

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GABY1948 11/27/2009 4:43PM

    Oh, Missy, I can SO relate to this blog. And, even though I know it would be digging my grave, sometimes I am still SO tempted! WHY is that? But, I have to remember as you said, with God, all things are possible! Thanks for this reminder. And yes, I sure have been right there! And it will ONLY be with the Lord's help that I don't go back...I sure can't do this alone!

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SCORPION1352 11/27/2009 3:55PM

    That is so true, only after we have gotten to point of no return so we realize we have been killing ourselves with our forks and spoons.----- with God all things are possible,----- and how wonderful is that just to know how far you really can go is mind boggling but I think everyone should give it a hearty try.

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GOSPELCLOWN 11/27/2009 3:51PM

    How true. It reminds me of the phrase an alcoholic used, "I bought a liquor store... one bottle at a time."
Sort of the same, unfortunately.

Thanks for your insight,

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LEESA180 11/27/2009 3:46PM

  Many of us are literally killing ourselves and we don't even realize it. (including myself.)

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CAROLYNVIL 11/27/2009 3:28PM

    Very nice blog.Most of us simply were not aware of what we were doing to ourselves.That is why knowledge is power. once figuring out ( from information on spark etc.) what we're doing, deciding to change is the logical answer. carolyn

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AHEALTHIERJAN 11/27/2009 3:20PM


This is truly beautiful. I am only starting to figure out the power I can have if I release myself from the habits you list and others. Thank you.

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    This is such a great blog! You are so right, too....with God ALL things are possible.
My mom has used the phrase before, "digging my own grave with my fork", but I've never extended the analogy to include lack of exercise, and all those negative emotions that keep us chained to our unwanted extra weight. Good food for thought!

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DBELLE39 11/27/2009 3:16PM

    What a great blog, thanks for sharing this. We tend to get in a routine of doing self damage -- it's good to analyze ourselves and see what we can change for the better.

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I Am Thankful For You

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

This poem sums up what my heart longed to say to my SparkFriends and my at-home friends (many of whom sparkle, as well, precious gems that they are) as Thanksgiving approaches (well, and every day). Though my Canadian friends have already celebrated Thanksgiving, I am thankful for you, as well, all year through. You share life with me on so many levels, in so many arenas, and I am so grateful that you give so generously of yourselves, me and that you open your arms and hearts and minds and faith to me continually. Thank you for being my friends. Thank you for letting me be a friend to you.

Iím Thankful for You

Thanksgiving is the appointed time
for focusing on the good in our lives.
In each of our days,
we can find small blessings,
but too often we overlook them,
choosing instead to spend our time
paying attention to problems.
We give our energy
to those who cause us trouble
instead of those who bring peace.
Starting now,
letís be on the lookout
for the bits of pleasure in each hour,
and appreciate the people who
bring love and light to everyone
who is blessed to know them.
You are one of those people.
On Thanksgiving,
Iím thankful for you.
Happy Thanksgiving!

By Joanna Fuchs

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PEPPERLEAH 12/3/2009 8:54PM

    Beautiful poem!

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LIGHTHEART09 11/27/2009 12:21PM

    Hey Missy, I am so thankful, I have met you and we have become friends...You are my rock in this kingdom, that helps me navigate thru some tough storms this year...It was your prayers, love and wisdom, that kept me moving forward when all I wanted to do is lay down, and wallow in self pity...Thank you my dear friend for your love and support.
I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving with your loved ones, and I hope Captain Cookie, had a wonderful Thanksgiving on the beautiful water...
Much love,
Nan emoticon

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MICHELLE6468 11/25/2009 7:29PM

    lovely poem! May God bless you too!

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EAT2LIVE57 11/25/2009 10:29AM

    And I am so thankful for YOU and the caring spirit you bring to SparkPeople!

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MARYSUPPORTS 11/25/2009 8:20AM

    Beautiful poem. I am so Thankful for all my friends also.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 11/25/2009 12:41AM

    Right back to you, Missy, and a very happy Thanksgiving to you and your family. May everyday be Thanksgiving for you always!!
Blessings and hugs,

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SJG1953 11/25/2009 12:23AM

    Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family also. Hugs, Shirley

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FILLANGES 11/24/2009 9:30PM

    Very nice poem. I send it's message right back to you. You are very special and I thank God for putting you in my life. Have a Happy and Blessed Thanksgiving. God Bless. Rick

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TRAVELNISTA 11/24/2009 9:01PM

    Such beautiful thoughts. I hope you have a really nice Thanksgiving! emoticon emoticon

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GABY1948 11/24/2009 7:22PM

    Missy, how beautifully this puts it! Ditto back to you, sweetheart, sister of mine! emoticon

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SCORPION1352 11/24/2009 6:48PM

    Thank you Missy that is so how I feel too. I hope you and yours have a outstanding Thanksgiving, and thank you for being my friend. Love to you and yours


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LINDA25427 11/24/2009 5:10PM

    Happy Thanksgiving !!! Missy And Family

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THENEWME43 11/24/2009 4:41PM

    What a lovely poem! Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family, Missy. May you enjoy a blessed holiday.

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GOSPELCLOWN 11/24/2009 4:40PM

    A lot of truth went into that poem. Thanks for posting!

Karen the Canuck

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PATRISNA 11/24/2009 4:19PM

    Missy, Thank you for sharing this poem. Bless you dear lady. I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving.


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SECRETMUSIC 11/24/2009 4:05PM

    Thank you for posting! My sentiments exactly.

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AHEALTHIERJAN 11/24/2009 2:50PM

    What a beautiful poem! I hope you and yours have a wonderful and blessed NOLA Thanksgiving!

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LOVESLILACS1 11/24/2009 1:25PM

    Thank you for sharing. I've never seen that before, but it is so true and appropriate. Wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving!

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SUSAN134 11/24/2009 1:21PM

    Missy, this is a beautiful poem, thank you for sharing it. I'm SO thankful that you are my friend!


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FURBALLDTH 11/24/2009 1:20PM

    It's beautiful and sums it up nicely. emoticon

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MAFOSTER11 11/24/2009 1:03PM

    Amen! May you have a wonderful Thanksgiving filled with love, friendship and new memories.

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MAMONTOYA 11/24/2009 1:02PM

    Thank you for sharing this blog. I REALLY needed it today. Have a save and wonderful holiday. emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 11/24/2009 12:58PM

    That was very moving. I'm thankful for you as well and wish you the best Thanksgiving possible! :)

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KRISHARPER 11/24/2009 12:42PM

    that was beautiful, thanks for sharing

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2BSALLYB 11/24/2009 12:36PM

    Thank you! I am thankful for you too! Have a Happy Thanksgiving!

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Cardboard Testimonies

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I had never heard of such a thing. I was mesmerized. I was moved. I cried. I smiled. I rejoiced. I sobbed. I worshiped the God who has made all things new in my heart and continues to make all things new as I grow in faith, in the knowledge of His word, in the power of His Spirit. I owe a HUGE thank you to my SparkFriend KrisHarper who is on the I Can Do All Things Through Christ team with me for exposing me to this glorious, profound way to express our personal testimonies. I've done a LOT of thinking about what my cardboard testimony would be, were I to make one. I think it would be different from season to season in my life. For this day, I think mine would say on one side: CRUSHED BY THE WEIGHT OF GLUTTONY AND SLOTHFULNESS and on the flip side: FREE TO BE OBEDIENT! FREE TO MOVE AND LIVE!!!

What would yours say? Which one of these blessed you the most and why? I would SO love to have a service like this at our church.


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TAKINGCAREOFKIM 11/30/2009 10:54AM

    Our pastor has shown the cardboard testimonies a couple of times in church. I am always moved by it no matter how many times I watch it. I am amazed at what you said yours would say as gluttony and slothfulness have been the two major areas I have been praying about for myself! Keep on! Blessings to you in your journey.

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CORIANNE72 11/20/2009 1:35AM

    Wow, very powerful. Thank you for sharing.

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LIGHTHEART09 11/16/2009 7:54AM

    I have seen these and I always cry because His love and His Grace is so beautiful, He does so many miracles in peoples lives...

Mine would say....Lost and looking for love in all the wrong places
flip side Found and filled with the love of Christ Jesus

Thank you for sharing and reminding me of what Christ has done for me and so many others out there...

I love you Missy,

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ROZEEROZ1 11/15/2009 1:52AM

    My testimony is the same as SJG1953. A childhood full of abuses and sorrows on one side and the flip side. Jesus died on the cross of Calvary for us as victims. Therefore we have victory and healing in Jesus.

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SJG1953 11/14/2009 9:34PM

    I think for now mine would say, Painful Childhood Memories and on the other side would say, God gives emotional Healing!

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CAMTPAM 11/14/2009 9:18AM

    OMG!!! I'm still crying, God is so Good to Us. I am going for my walk now, but am going to post the youtube link on my facebook and send it by email to many. I feel God's Love thru this.
Thanks for sharing.
Hugs, Pam

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LAURIES_PLACE 11/14/2009 2:00AM


I have seen these videos, and love them! Oh the new life we have in Messiah--did that show that well enough for the unsaved to understand? Praying for their hardened hearts to be softened by the Spirit of G-d, so they, too, can have their own cardboard testimony.

Love to you


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FILLANGES 11/13/2009 7:48PM

    What a wonderful way to make you think about your relationship with God. Thanks for sharing this. I feel mine right now would be... "observed religion from the sidelines" on the other side... "starter on God's team"

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    Missy, LCU (Lubbock Christian Univ) is where I work. Very soon, they'll be doing the second Cardboard Testimony in chapel that I remember happening.

I could not bring myself to reveal personal stuff at this time because my son is a freshman here and he'd feel embarrassed. I will, though, when the time is right, share. I'm looking forward to this chapel in a week or so.

For me, it would say something like:

Grew up in a hostile and fearful environment.

Showered with the love and protection I missed out on by my Father in Heaven.

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LINDA25427 11/13/2009 7:32AM

    WOW this is amazing I love it thank you Missy I always make up saying and print them out and put them on the frig . Used to print them out and put them in picture frames or put them on my walls with tape when my kids was little so they could read them . Memories

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GABY1948 11/13/2009 3:10AM

    This is certainly a wonderful way to go. I would have to add as mine (for today) FOOD/FEAR BONDAGE WITH THE FLIP SIDE BEING FREEDOM THRU CHRIST AND THE CROSS.

Thanks, Missy, I need to go and than Kris now! God Bless us all! In Jesus' name.

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CRKRJAK 11/12/2009 10:15PM

    wow i just watched it and lots of others... tear... loved it

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LOTUSFLOWER 11/12/2009 10:07PM

    I LOVE this. Thank you for sharing, I had never heard of cardboard testimonies either. I have many cardboard testimonies within me, but the one I feel compelled to share is:



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PEPPERLEAH 11/12/2009 9:48PM

    I sat and watched video after video last night; stayed up way past time to go to bed. I cried and rejoiced with each of those people. I was enormously blessed by the victories each of these precious people shared.

For today, my cardboard testimony would say:

Imprisoned by scars of verbal and emotional abuse.

The other side would say:

Living victoriously through Jesus Christ.

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BIGDAD1211 11/12/2009 9:09PM

    Very Beautiful! I don't know what mine would be, but I know I would have one.
Thanks for sharing my friend

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THEADMIRAL 11/12/2009 8:44PM

    This was so moving and inspirational and convicting! One of my many cardboard testimonies could be ATTENTION SEEKER - GOD FOCUSED.

Thank you for sharing this video!

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THENEWME43 11/12/2009 8:37PM

    What a emoticon idea! emoticon for sharing it. I'd love to have this kind of service at our church, too!

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TERI99 11/12/2009 6:33PM

    What a thought provoking idea.....
One side would be "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for me." The other would read "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." emoticon

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MARYSUPPORTS 11/12/2009 6:20PM

    Awesome idea. For right now mine will be, "For without Christ, I know I am nothing".

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    I love this! I first saw it a couple of years ago at church. And cried through the whole thing.

As for my cardboard testimony, mine would be like yours ... different at different times in my life. But right now, having just realized I was holding some unseen unforgiveness, mine would be: WOUNDED BY UNFORGIVENESS. On the flip side ... SET FREE THROUGH LOVE AND FORGIVENESS!

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KRISHARPER 11/12/2009 5:39PM

    Very cool! God is Good all the time.. and as you say, "in the season" our testimonies are always growing with us and changing us for the better as God grows us to be more like His Son Jesus. As posted in our group my cardboard testimony currently is (out of many):

Greatest Fear Being Alone
Walking with God

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