Tuesday, June 22, 2010
A definition of the word challenge is: a call or summons to engage in any contest, as of skill, strength, etc.. Another definition is: difficulty in a job or undertaking that is stimulating to one engaged in it.
On the Rootin’ for Ruby team, or the sister team, Women’s Fat Night, we have many challenges. Some are long term over several weeks and some are just a daily challenge within the longer one. And they are indeed a call to engage in a contest. And they are very much a difficulty in an undertaking that is stimulating.
On Sparks, we use this stimulation to aid us on the journey we are on to weight loss/better health.
I really do enjoy the challenges. For one thing, they bring us into closer relationships with our team mates. We get to know them better as we help them along this journey and as they help us in return. They aren’t really a contest as we aren’t trying to out-do one another.
For myself personally, what I like best about these challenges is the opportunity to encourage my team mates.
But at the same time, I find that I am so afraid of failing that I too often sabotage myself. Why is this? I want to reach my goal and yet it seems to stay just a few pounds away from me.
I have tried fooling my scales by changing my goal, making it another ten pounds down. Hopefully that will work.
On the other hand, I am wondering if maybe my goal is not right. I know that I will never be a slim person, even if I only weighed 125. At that weight I would like more like a shar pei.
So I am going to continue as I have been, watching what I eat (most of the time) and getting in some exercise (some of the time) and let the scales do what it wants. If I stay where I am now, I will be satisfied. And I won’t allow myself to gain back any of my loss. I weigh less now than I did as a senior in high school when I lost 55 pounds. And I am far removed from that era of my life.
So bring on the challenges. I am ready and willing. I know this is what it will take to maintain!