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Spring is in the air

Sunday, April 13, 2014

So even though I broke off with my boyfriend a little over a month ago I was still hanging out w/ him on occasion. He has bipolar and other mental issues; he is extremely overweight and lives in his brothers basement. He was just bringing me down because he is depressed but wont do anything about it. He sleeps 18 hrs or more a day so going to visit him was just frustrating. He would be asleep and if I tried to encourage him to get up and do anything he would yell; then when he did get up he was grouchy and depressed. He would take my phone and search through it to see if I was seeing anybody else; and he would hack into my email and facebook and even spark to see who I had been talking to. He even contacted people that was on my facebook and yelled at them; people that I hadn't talked to in years! Every moment I spent w/ him was hell; and after I left he would text or call apologizing and I would feel sorry for him cause I felt guilty leaving somebody w/ mental illness. Also he would call constantly and I live w/ my parents. My mom works nights so she sleeps in the day and my dad works days and sleeps at night plus my 2 daughters that have to get up for school. I don't have a cell right now so he would call the house phone which rang in every room of the house. My mom would get mad and unhook the phone so everyone could sleep and we would miss important calls. I am job hunting and missed out on 2 interviews. Plus my gparents are ill and I would worry about missing calls from them.
Anyway I went and got a protective order against him. Since he got the papers he has only texted a few times. I have been sooo much happier since! I wake up happy and stay happy all day! I have more energy and have been helping around the house more which makes me feel better about staying here, and I am able to spend more time w/ my girls. I am really loving life again!
I had an interview at Dollar General and got the job, they are just waiting on my background check to come back! I am a little nervous about that b/c I do have an assault charge from 4 yrs ago and that has prevented me from getting several jobs.
I have been doing great w/ exercise I mostly go for a walk outside cause it has been beautiful! I have already gotten 2 sunburns though; gotta love being a ginger

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CTUPTON 5/29/2014 3:15PM

    Keep up the good work. chris emoticon

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SALAM4545 4/13/2014 9:45PM

    Wow, that is great news! It sounds like you are really taking charge of your life. Just a bit of advice though...when he texts you, report it. If he tries to contact you later and it is found that you did not report it, they may nullify the protective order. It's good to make sure your daughters see you take a stand, otherwise they may repeat the same destructive patterns in their own lives. It lets them know that no matter how much someone says they love you, if that person is a threat to your safety and sanity, that person does not belong in your life. How wonderful that you are showing them what a strong healthy woman can do!

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DMEYER4 4/13/2014 7:43PM

  so happy you are making wiser choices with your life. you do not need to be around someone who brings you down and it is not good to have your daughters see. If you are treated badly an take it they might too. I hope your life continues to improve.

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Still Working

Thursday, March 27, 2014

I haven't been sparking much lately but I am still working toward my goals. Exercise is becoming fun and easy for the first time in years. My daughters are even participating! That is normal for my 9 yr old; but my 16 yr old usually despises physical activity. With the recent spring like weather we have been walking a lot; which my dog LOVES; every dog is happy to sniff all the blooming life of spring.
My oldest daughter got her driver license 2 weeks ago and of course has been borrowing my car. I am unemployed and we are staying w/ my mom and that makes me sad and angry at myself; because my mom bought me a car when I got my learners permit and I always thought that I would do the same for my girls.
I have been doing very well with my exercise and ok with my diet. I stay w/i my calorie range almost every day and my portions have gotten smaller; but the smaller portions are do to my chronic constipation. I have been to the DR. and they have done xrays and a cat scan and haven't found anything yet. I am awaiting a call about seeing a specialist and I really hope they find something b/c if they don't then I just have to suffer. I sometimes go up to 7 days w/ no relief!

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SALAM4545 3/28/2014 1:03AM

    You'll get where you want to be. It takes time, it took me a very long to find work. In the meantime, at least you are teaching your girls how to get healthy.

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MCFITZ2 3/27/2014 2:25PM

    Hope you get relief!
Also hope your financial situation gets better.
Congratulations for continuing on with you eating and exercise.
.Stay positive. Things will get better. Hang in there. emoticon

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Didn't want to

Friday, March 07, 2014

I got to bed late last night so when the alarm went off I did NOT want to get up, but I had to get my girls up and ready for school. I was gonna go back to bed like I do sometimes after they got on the bus; but I realized I didn't really feel that tired so I made a cup of coffee and so far I am still awake! lol It is looking nice outside; (t.v. says it is 25 deg.) so I think I am gonna do my exercise w/ a walk outside; the fresh air will rejuvenate me most likely and I will stay awake all day and hopefully do something productive. We are staying w/ my mom since my dumbass went and got fired back in November; and her house needs some SERIOUS cleaning. Even when I was a kid living here she was never much of a housekeeper; her husband does the essentials now but I don't know the last time things have been dusted and cleaned behind stuff.
Last night I started a grocery list and marked some recipes off of here to try that are a bit more healthy than my norm. For someone who is constantly on a diet my mom usually deep fries things and her dinners are full of carbs; she has at times had 2 and sometimes 3 starches in 1 dinner! I am diabetic so I have decided to make some of my dinners separate; I get food stamps for me and my girls so I think that would be doable.
I have been having some digestive issues; most days I am constipated and can go a whole week w/o having a movement. Recently this problem has gotten worst so I asked my dr. to get me a CT scan; he did w/ also a xray; they showed that I am indeed constipated but saw no real reason for it; all my organs are functioning normal. That is good news but I was hoping that they would find a problem so they could fix the problem b/c I am MISERABLE! I have tried some home remedies drinking hot fluids; prune juice; fiber supplements exercise and the dr. gave me 3 types of laxatives. When I finally got some relief last week I lost 9 lbs in one night! I felt wonderful afterward, full of energy and all! Now it has been 6 days again! emoticon

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SALAM4545 3/24/2014 12:45AM

    The good news is that you can track housekeeping as exercise, so maybe you can help your mom out by cleaning the house...you can always tell her it's because you need exercise and it's too cold/hot outside. emoticon
Don't know what to tell you about the constipation, too often I'm in the same boat. emoticon

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JITZUROE 3/12/2014 10:32AM

    Awww man!!! I'm so sorry for the belly issues. I struggle with my own as well. The idea that you decided to get up and stay moving around the house and taking care of things amazes me since it's SOOOO much easier to go back to bed!
I wish had some useful tips to share with you. I'll have to rack my brain and think of some secrets that used to help me out, I am still on 2-3 Px's myself. Annoying...

I feel your motivation though to make good changes in your life though. I'm proud of you. Keep it up!


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FAYEMD2B 3/12/2014 12:34AM

    emoticon Sorry you weren't feeling so good. Hopefully you're doing better by now.

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SILVER_WOLF1221 3/7/2014 2:09PM

    I wonder if you might have IBS. The most common symptom is the fact that you're always having movements but the other (which I have) is the constipation for days, similar to what you're going through.There is no test for it though, you'd have to get everything else shot down first. OR it could just be a mixture of food and stress. Hope it works itself out!

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KESTRYLL 3/7/2014 8:56AM

    Keep trying and good luck!

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GEORGE815 3/7/2014 8:51AM

    Being diabetic also it takes more effort to plan just about everything. Keep fighting the good fight.

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Getting ready for spring and employment

Thursday, March 06, 2014

Exercise is getting easier; I have found some videos I can do at home; also it is getting nicer outside so I can walk out there. I am starting to see some results and that is keeping me motivated. Also, I would like to once again shout out to the team Done Girls and their challenges; I enjoy keeping track of my fitness and calories and cheering on other challengers. I have been telling EVERYONE about this website.
I am still looking for a job; I had an interview last week but they went with someone else. I am using this time somewhat wisely; getting things organized and paying attention to my and my girls health, getting in doc appts, dentist appts, and eye doctors.
My 16 yr. old and I are trying new recipes; only made a couple so far; but have a date tonight to sift through ones that I have saved here on spark and write down ingredients we need.

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TEMPENATIVE 3/7/2014 1:17AM

    I have been loving the DoneGirl challenges too. It really helped keep motivated. I tried doing BLC but I always felt like I was playing catch up to try to do all the little daily challenge ect, that I would just drop out. It feels like DGs is just more doable and less pressure, so I keep at it. Also such great support. DoneGirls Rock! I wish you good luck on the job search but glad to hear the free time is allowing you to get some things taken care of. emoticon

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KAJ8NSU 3/6/2014 10:37PM

    Sounds like a great use of your time! Keep up the good work!

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LJOYCE55 3/6/2014 6:23PM

  Good luck on your job hunt. Sounds like you and your child are learning healthy recipes together - great idea.

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My butt hurts

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

I am soo grateful for the team Done Being the Fat Girl and their challenges. Without that I don't think I would work so hard to get healthier. Yesterday morning I did 45 mins of cardio; stayed up all day showered; ate somewhat healthy; cleaned house a bit and then after dinner did another 5 mins of exercise!
This morning however I felt drowsy after getting my girls off to school but drank a cup of coffee and exercised w/ a billy blanks video; now my glutes are sore, but I like it!
Gonna run some errands and job hunt to make another productive day instead of napping like I would have just weeks before.

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JENRAQTAY87 2/19/2014 4:00PM

    Go girl!

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MOM2BOYZ1GIRL 2/19/2014 10:56AM

    emoticon For sore glutes!! Love that, my butt hurts today also! I am going to work on making my abs hurt today! emoticon

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