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No sunshine and unicorn farts today.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

I have only 25 lbs to lose to get to my goal weight of 130.

I need to focus on positive things today, so this is one of my positive moments, because today hasn't been rainbows, sunshine, and puppy dogs. It's been one of gloom and discouragement. It's been a long time since my train has derailed, but since vacation last week, I have been eating way too much and not the most healthy things. I've been eating maintenance calories, so I haven't gained, but I feel disgusting because I've been eating alot more junk than I should be and alot more calories than I should be to continue to my goal.

I injured my hamstring about 2 weeks ago, so I haven't ran at all in the past 2 weeks until my awful 5k yesterday. I said I wasn't going to make excuses, but my time yesterday has put me in a funk that I wasn't expecting. I know every race can't be a PR, but the last few races my time has gotten better and better and it's been real encouragement that has made me feel that I am ready to up the ante and move on into long distance running. I guess even seasoned runners have horrible days and times, so I know as a rookie I'm not alone.

Yesterday morning, when my friend and I left to go to Southport to the Freedom Run, it was hot and humid at 5 am. We stayed at her family's lake house to cut an hour off our travel time. It was so beautiful and peaceful at the lake, and I know I belong by water, but I was without my husband. I find it hard to sleep without him, so I didn't get much rest at all. He also wasn't present at the race, because he stayed home with the boys. This was the first time that my favorite cheerleader and major supporter was not at my race.... and I could feel it.

Between the heat and lack of sleep and lack of training because of injury and my honey not being present, my motivation didn't make it to the starting line. Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I did not enjoy racing. It just sucked. My mind, heart, body, and soul wasn't in it.

37 minutes. UGH! That was the worst race time ever. My very first 5k was 35 min. I guess I should be thankful it wasn't worse. And it isn't the 50 minute time when I started training over a year ago.

So, it's time to move forward.

I've rearranged my nutrition goals on here, because I want to reach my goal weight before the holidays hit. I plan on being VERY close to 130 by the end of October. And I still plan to leave the 5k circuit by the end of this year and focus on longer distances. One bad 5k isn't going to keep me from my goals.

If you want to see pics from the race, and check out my instagram, look me up: one_evil_cupcake

  
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SPARKYOURHEALTH 7/2/2014 3:44PM

    You still kicked butt babe, proud of you emoticon emoticon emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 7/1/2014 2:11AM

    This could very possibly be the best title to a blog EVER, I'm just saying! emoticon I can totally understand what you mean... I have had 30ish pounds to go on this journey for over 6 months and instead of buckling down and getting it off once and for a while, I find myself gaining and losing the same 10 pounds... which essentially is standing still. Let's kick into gear and get it done, I know we can! emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/30/2014 12:38PM

    Oh girl... I feel your pain, but I'm going to tell you to suck it up! I *know* you're NOT the girl to want a pity party. It sucks, but you're right to move on. It's hard to do things without our loves ones with us and it's even harder when the weather SUCKS! I don't know if I even would have attempted a 5k in the weather we've been having this weekend, so you're one up on me!

You've just got to keep on pushing, like I know you will. You've got to many things, big things, that you want to accomplish before the end of the year. Get past the poor food choices and the 5k (which still isn't a bad time) and keep going. Getting yourself deeper into a funk is NOT going to get you to 130 by the end of the year. Being positive, and working hard is going to get you there. And you will have all my support ROCK STAR!!!
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MAMABEAR372 6/30/2014 12:11AM

    I can understand how you feel although I feel you are much braver than I am for running a race at all. I know it is bothering you now, but this feeling will drive you to put things in place so you never feel this way again. Right? emoticon You have done so well and have so much heart and soul invested for this to get you down for much longer.
So ... chin up....focus on the future. Take a deep breath and realize this was one hurdle that tripped you up. You have succeeded at conquering so many others and you will succeed at conquering so many more. Even after you reach your goal.
You are amazing and I am proud of you. Your family is proud of you. Your friends are proud of you.
Tomorrow is your chance to start new and look at things without this holding you back. You are more confident than to let this keep you down. You are strong, consistent and genuine to everyone...especially yourself. emoticon

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PHEBESS 6/29/2014 9:58PM

    You can do this!!!

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THINFITFEMINIST 6/29/2014 7:35PM

    Do you know how many Spiritual/religious paths state quite clearly not to get attached? LOL This is what happens. It's kind of like leaving your rabbits foot at work. We think we are less because of the presence of an item/person. This is something we all need to overcome. It's hogwash!

So, you had a bad go of it. Part of the journey is dealing with these times. This means smiling at it gently, not justifying it at all, simply smile at all this mental gymnastics and continue on.

You are terrific! You are committed. You are part of what makes Spark great.

Smile and continue on my friend. Let everything else go into the dumpster where it belongs.

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 6/29/2014 7:34PM

    emoticon Don't be discouraged. You still finished the race. Besides, yesterday's race had several STRIKES against it before you ever took that first step. Injured hamstring, no training time in the past two weeks, lack of sleep, missing your husband as your cheerleader, heat and humidity, in addition to what you said about your recent eating habits. Actually, you did GREAT with a time of 37 minutes! So, it was not a bad 5K! It was just a 5K with some adversity. AND, you STILL finished the race in a decent time!

emoticon Best Wishes in reaching all of your goals!

HUGS
Pam

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ONEKIDSMOM 6/29/2014 7:26PM

    OK, so you had a bad race day. I totally get that, 'cause I live in a glass house over here and have had similar reactions to the occasional "bad" race day (last October, Governor's Cup, I was not happy with my performance and was in a funk for a while after it)! Self-pity and funk allowed for a day or two... but then, lace up those big-girl sneakers and assimilate what you learned, and move on.

One thing you learned is how important family support is to you! Hug your honey tight and tell him how much you appreciate him supporting you. And you have to allow for that recovery from injury.

You've got this. Patience with yourself... next time out? Just focus on having fun with your workout, don't worry about time! You are worth it, and next race? Will be better! emoticon emoticon

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Single digit clothes.. like what?!

Monday, June 02, 2014

Just a little NSV to report.

I have a friend at church who has lost some weight, and she passed down some of her clothes to me.. size 8 to 12. I was able to wear alot of the dresses. There is one dress that is a size 8. I was able to get it on... just not sit down in it...LOL I also tried on some shorts (which I do not like to wear) in sizes 8 and 10. I was able to button them up!

THEN.. I pulled out these cute jean capris. They are a size 9... with some stretch. They fit PERFECTLY. I don't care if they were generous... the fact that I wore a single digit last night is just amazing to me. I haven't worn a single digit size since I was 6 years old. LOL

  
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MSILVER94 7/14/2014 1:59PM

    Whooo wooo that's awesome!!!

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SPARKYOURHEALTH 6/4/2014 12:35AM

    Yaaaaaassss!! You go Holz!! love it !! Hard work pays off! so proud of you my darling emoticon #teamholly #sexy4ever#fitandhappy

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NOTGVGUP83 6/3/2014 3:54PM

    awesome!!!!!! Enjoy your new clothes =)

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_RAMONA 6/3/2014 12:43PM

    You've worked hard for it!

CELEBRATE!
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ONTHEPATH2 6/3/2014 11:42AM

    Oh my gosh!!! Congrats!!! Nothing like the feeling of accomplishment! Rock those capris!

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MAMABEAR372 6/3/2014 9:35AM

    That's an awesome feeling! Happy for you!!!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/3/2014 8:55AM

    LOVE It! Congrats Holly!

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THINFITFEMINIST 6/2/2014 8:51PM

    Wow! That is amazing. You know who did all the work and deserves the credit...YOU!

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ONEKIDSMOM 6/2/2014 8:33PM

    emoticon What a great NSV! Savor and enjoy. emoticon

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EVIE4NOW 6/2/2014 8:22PM

  Outstanding! Congrats.

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My First VLOG! More than just a pretty face.

Thursday, May 22, 2014


Ok. Let's try this again.

  
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ONEKIDSMOM 5/30/2014 6:32PM

    What a GREAT introduction! I notice you had added me as a friend, and as is my practice, I came looking to see who you are and friend you back. And you are incredible... beautiful, strong, passionate, and full of the kindred spirit!

You are going to make a terrific personal trainer, because you can identify with those who are following in your footsteps. (p.s. if you think the skin doesn't spring back in your 40's, it doesn't get any better in your 50's or 60's... just saying... keep on keeping on!)

Oh, AND, by the way, if you *did* peek at my photo gallery, you'll see one from when I STARTED maintenance... keep up that strength training and you'll be even better, even without losing another pound... although it's not unusual for the scale to continue to drift downward for a while before your body declares itself "home".

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HOLLYM48 5/28/2014 8:30AM

    I think you will make an excellent personal trainer! Forget about the look and the snobbery of that other person. Those that don't go thru this journey will never understand nor will they understand what it feels like to come from behind and to achieve the dreams that so many of us have of actually being so strong and so capable of all that we ever thought we could not do! Hang in there and go for your dream!

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BRADMILL2922 5/28/2014 3:53AM

    You are doing great, thank you for sharing! Speaking on video can be difficult but you did great :)

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KAREN-IS-HERE 5/24/2014 10:33AM

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SPARKYOURHEALTH 5/23/2014 4:56PM

    OHHHH --EMMMMM ---GGGGGGGGG

I am so pissed right now.....I need to cool down...HATORADE KOOL-AID-Gurl, that co-worker has been DRINKING that, and HEAVILY...

YOU are AWESOME, YOU HAVE THE DRIVE, YOU HAVE THE GUTS, AND BY the Grace of GOD , He will see you through...Gurl, pls call me if she ever tries to do that gain...jealous much co-worker??


Gosh I am so sorry I am ranting Holz. You are so Freakin Gorg. A friend of mine has a friend who had PLASTIC SURGERY to have the gorgeous dimples you naturally have installed. When I saw this vid, I was just floored by your stunning beauty-For real Holz-no filter

POP YOUR COLLAR BOO! BOO ,YOUR COLLAR!! -I love you my darling sexy beast!!!!

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MAMABEAR372 5/23/2014 12:03PM

    I love your sweet amazing soul. You are the first video blog I have viewed and I am so glad I did. You hit some things right on the head. I about cried when you mentioned don't let your friends or family laugh at you. About a year or so ago I caught my older neighbor man talking to one of his friends in a store close to our house. He saw me said hi, then I over heard him refer to me as "the fat cow that lives next to him". I Let him know I may be heavy and unhealthy now, but I once was thin and fit and I WILL be that way again. And It isn't right for him to refer to anyone as a fat cow. It fueled my fire. He is who he is and at his age I don't see him changing. And that is ok, because I wont let anyone hold me back from my dreams.
You embody the saying~ don't tell me the sky's the limit when there are footsteps on the moon...
Thank you for sharing and it is great to see the soul you shared with all of us. emoticon

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THINFITFEMINIST 5/23/2014 5:46AM

    This is the first Vlog I've watched all the way through. You are so darn cute!

You are embarking on a path for certification in a field you will be wonderful in. I think this is awesome!

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STEPH-KNEE 5/23/2014 5:09AM

    You are just the most adorable, seriously you are! Your passion shines through and the fact that you want to help people that are starting out overweight and wanting to change is outstanding! To be honest, I am one of those people that is intimidated by the gym and I would never want to join let alone have a personal trainer. However if I met someone like you, who understood the struggle and was kind and compassionate, I might rethink things. I really think you are going to stand out from the other personal trainers, and I think not having the "perfect body" is going to work to your benefit. You are going to be able to help many people, I have no doubt about it. I am going to add you as a friend so I when you get to that point next year, I can celebrate with you! emoticon emoticon Congrats on all your success btw, truly inspiring! emoticon

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 5/23/2014 1:45AM

    WOW! I am really inspired by listening to you. You have such a deep passion about helping others, and you speak totally from the heart. You will be a wonderful personal trainer. Best Wishes in reaching all of your goals.

HUGS
Pam



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NELLIEC 5/23/2014 12:50AM

    Beautiful! God bless you!

And this 69 year old lady is able to do much more than I thought I could do 7 years ago!

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1st place?! WHO ME?!

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Yesterday was a huge NSV for me. I ran a local 5k for my farmer's market. www.fmrun.com/2014-results.html Race results are right there. I broke PR AND made 1st place for my age division! I'm not in last place anymore. I'm not the fat girl in gym class in high school anymore huffing and puffing; the last one on the track while everyone watches and whispers and laughs. I'm in first place. Yep. They called it. "In the age division 30 to 34, 1st place goes to HOLLY WALLACE!" I was expecting to place, but never 1st place! I was expecting maybe 3rd or an honorable mention, but 1st place? NAH! I'm not the 1st place type of girl. emoticon I never have been. But here it is. The results are in. And I am in 1st place. It's like a dream. Who would've thought that the little fat girl in gym class who couldn't run a mile would be eating 5ks for breakfast?!



Thirty minutes and fifty one seconds. 30:51. Not 32 minutes, not 35 minutes, not 50 minutes (which is where I began a year ago), but 30. Who is this person I am becoming? I'm a freakin' beast! I'm strong, I'm capable, I'm beautiful, I'm faster, I'm more confident... I think I like me.

  
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GIANTOCR1 7/13/2014 8:18AM

    Congrats to you.. So happy for you..

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HOLLYM48 5/28/2014 8:29AM

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Great time and great goal to achieve! Good for you. All the best in the rest of your journey!

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SPARKYOURHEALTH 5/21/2014 3:04PM

    Holz.... I dont know what to say......YOU are just freakin' amazing!!! you have become this fitness vixen, with grace strength and beauty!!! Your light is so strong and powerful!! wow.....

The sky is NOT the limit for you my friend, nothing is impossible for you Holly, once you sent your mind to do it!

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68ANNE 5/20/2014 6:21PM

    Oh wow amazing woman you!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 5/19/2014 3:17PM

    every bit of this blog made me smile! LOOK AT YOU! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/19/2014 11:30AM

    That is SOOOOO AWESOME!!!!!! I'm so happy for you, that's AMAZING!!! To go from 50 to 30 mins in ONE year, you should be so proud of yourself!
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PHEBESS 5/19/2014 7:03AM

    YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!! Wooohooooooooooo!!!!!!!! Congrats!!!!!!!!!! And good job!!!!!!!!!!

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PAOLINA 5/19/2014 2:50AM

   
Enjoy it! You earned it and let it spur you on to greater achievements.

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MAGGIEVAN 5/18/2014 11:15PM

    Good on you. You must feel on an all time high. Congrats.

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_RAMONA 5/18/2014 10:49PM

    You soak up every minute of recognition... you EARNED it!

God Bless!
Ramona

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UMBILICAL 5/18/2014 9:25PM

  Why not you!

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GYPSYGOTH 5/18/2014 9:12PM

    emoticon So super proud of you, girl! I was also the fat, slow girl in gym class. The entire outfield LAY DOWN when it was time for me to get up to bat because our gym teacher didn't believe in three strikes. "Swing until you hit it!" ...which would be never...

You ARE beautiful and everything else you said and you deserve to feel SO accomplished and proud and emoticon

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I was on the front page of my local newspaper!!

Thursday, May 01, 2014

I'm hoping the link will work. Check out page 1 and 9. emoticon


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STEPH-KNEE 5/23/2014 5:12AM

    emoticon That is so awesome!! emoticon

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SPARKYOURHEALTH 5/2/2014 11:49AM

    woot! woot! You go Holz!! You look so beautiful and happy! Well done chica!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/2/2014 11:41AM

    OMG, Holly, that's SOOOOO exciting, congrats! Great article, and great pics of you!
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THINFITFEMINIST 5/2/2014 6:02AM

    This is wonderful. Great article. You are a wonderful example of what is possible.

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SHELTER-PETS 5/2/2014 5:17AM

    That is GREAT!

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NELLIEC 5/2/2014 1:08AM

    Congratulations! emoticon

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AMBERBREEZE 5/1/2014 11:57PM

    emoticon emoticon Nice job, you have a reason to celebrate. emoticon emoticon

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FORTYPLUS56 5/1/2014 10:42PM

    The link worked. You look great. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KNEEMAKER 5/1/2014 10:42PM

  The link worked and so has the winner in you. Great job and very inspiring. You should be so proud. Keep on keeping on. emoticon

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RENATA144 5/1/2014 10:39PM

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