Sunday, June 29, 2014
I have only 25 lbs to lose to get to my goal weight of 130.
I need to focus on positive things today, so this is one of my positive moments, because today hasn't been rainbows, sunshine, and puppy dogs. It's been one of gloom and discouragement. It's been a long time since my train has derailed, but since vacation last week, I have been eating way too much and not the most healthy things. I've been eating maintenance calories, so I haven't gained, but I feel disgusting because I've been eating alot more junk than I should be and alot more calories than I should be to continue to my goal.
I injured my hamstring about 2 weeks ago, so I haven't ran at all in the past 2 weeks until my awful 5k yesterday. I said I wasn't going to make excuses, but my time yesterday has put me in a funk that I wasn't expecting. I know every race can't be a PR, but the last few races my time has gotten better and better and it's been real encouragement that has made me feel that I am ready to up the ante and move on into long distance running. I guess even seasoned runners have horrible days and times, so I know as a rookie I'm not alone.
Yesterday morning, when my friend and I left to go to Southport to the Freedom Run, it was hot and humid at 5 am. We stayed at her family's lake house to cut an hour off our travel time. It was so beautiful and peaceful at the lake, and I know I belong by water, but I was without my husband. I find it hard to sleep without him, so I didn't get much rest at all. He also wasn't present at the race, because he stayed home with the boys. This was the first time that my favorite cheerleader and major supporter was not at my race.... and I could feel it.
Between the heat and lack of sleep and lack of training because of injury and my honey not being present, my motivation didn't make it to the starting line. Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I did not enjoy racing. It just sucked. My mind, heart, body, and soul wasn't in it.
37 minutes. UGH! That was the worst race time ever. My very first 5k was 35 min. I guess I should be thankful it wasn't worse. And it isn't the 50 minute time when I started training over a year ago.
So, it's time to move forward.
I've rearranged my nutrition goals on here, because I want to reach my goal weight before the holidays hit. I plan on being VERY close to 130 by the end of October. And I still plan to leave the 5k circuit by the end of this year and focus on longer distances. One bad 5k isn't going to keep me from my goals.
If you want to see pics from the race, and check out my instagram, look me up: one_evil_cupcake