Sunday, July 07, 2013
I have had a really interesting 3 days off. This week was double XP weekend in SWTOR (STar Wars: The Old Republic) so I knew a lot of my time would be spent leveling my character up with my hubby. However, on Wednesday I got home from work at about 1030, then took a 2 hour nap. On Thursday, I woke up at like 2am, took another nap at 11 then again at like 2pm. I couldn't stay awake most of the day, the same thing happened on Friday but instead of napping a few times, I just slept from 330 pm to 8pm that night, then went back to bed at 11. I don't know why my sleep schedule has been crazy. Even last night I woke up at 2am which is bad because I have to be at work all day today.
I've had some personal stress issues coming up with my life which could cause some of the problems. On a side note, I've been more into fanfiction as of lately. It's kind of crazy. I've noticed when I find a really good fanfiction story I tend to want to read as many stories as I can on the couple that was "shipped". This last few weeks, that couple has been Rachel and Jesse St. James from Glee.
I want to start writing again. I used to write stories all the time. However, life, gaming and other such things have really gotten in my way. I'm scared to go back to writing, that it, along with most of the stuff I used to enjoy, just seem like a waste of time nowadays. I need to start building a stronger support base around me. I feel that is one area where I am lacking. What do I want out of my life? Those tough questions seem to be plaquing me lately.
Sorry this blog is kind of a downer today. It's been that sort of week for me all week. Just need to really figure out where my life is headed. I'm 31, you'd think I'd have some idea by now.
In the words of John Lennon, "You may say I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one". At what point do you have to give up being a dreamer? Or how can you push yourself to fulfill your dreams?