Monday, June 17, 2013
Man, I've spent the last six weeks talking about how I'm ready to get back on the horse, how things will change for me. And I just haven't done it. I was sick this last week and I ate LIKE A MONSTER. There wasn't a snack food safe from me this week. So when I got on the scale today, I had gained 2.8 pounds. Shocked? No not at all. But it was what I needed to see. I made dinner today before work instead of going to McDonalds or Wendys. I made a cucumber sauce for my pita. My husband is no longer on board, but you know what, if he wants to go to McDonalds all the time. He can use his own money. I am going to watch my calories and count everything that goes back in my mouth. It's time to take control of the reins of MY life again and not let it spiral. 3 pounds gained? So what. I can overcome that obstactle and on to the next.
Wednesday, June 05, 2013
This last week I attended a class called Change Anything. During the class, you learn there are six influences that will hinder your ability to make changes in your life. This can also including weight loss. I feel motivated, for the most part, when it comes to weight loss and am very proud of what I have accomplished so far. That being said, I realized today just how much of an Accomplice my mother and my grandmother are. We were at Breakfast (well Dinner for most people not on a night schedule) at Texas Roadhouse today. I ordered Cheese Fries to split between me and my hubby. It's one of the bad things I do every week but I don't think of it as a bad thing either. Wll they ordered a cactus blossom, which is a whopping 1700 calories, and then kept pressuring me to have some of it. Even after I ate my cheese fries and my steak but had to put my salad to go because it was too much food. They kept telling me to take it home and take half of it. Half of a blossom is 1/2 of my meal plan for the entire day.
Then on top of all that, my mom asked me how much weight I had lost, and I said, about 23 pounds since February. My grandmother then said, "that's it?" Like I should have lost more. It was just an overall frustrating day. And they wonder why I don't want to talk to them anymore.
Monday, June 03, 2013
Well it's been about four days since that class and almost a week since my blog and I still haven't changed a lot of anything. I am being more conscious of the food that I am eating, but I'm still not going to the gym. IT's been a month now of 35.00 gym fees that I'm losing by not going. Hopefully this week, we'll find more time to go to the gym. I did get the lawn mowed yesterday, which was nice and active, but then went to McDonalds and spent all the calories I burned on a crispy chicken sandwich and fries.
I just want to scream sometimes, but instead, I just need to find my focus and determination. I think after the weight in when I wake up tomorrow, I'll find some of that movitation again. I'm expecting that number to go up by a pound or two :(
On a good note, I go in tomorrow for my first of two interviews for the supervisor position. I'm really nervous and really excited.
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