I've been going to the gym for about a week now and when I cant make it I downloaded an app on my phone that has a few workouts. I love the feeling of working out . I usually do the eliptical for 15 minutes and then the weights . Does anyone have any routines they do at the gym that have been succsessful ! If so I would like to know . Also If people could update me on the weight loss story as well as there eating habbits . I would also be interested. NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS SKINNY!
My last few blog entries where fairly depressing . But that really isn't me. I was taking a migrane prevention medicine called TOPAMAX . That's hell in pill form , it brought my anxiety up and my depression was unreal . I weined myself off and its night and day change . I lost 45 pounds while on this medicine .It helped me lose weight however , the mood changed where just to hard to take . I stayed at home all the time . I didn't wanna go out . But now , im just a new person . Well rather the same person I used to be . I know im gaining weight because im like a human eating machine . * not good i know* however id rather take that then feel anxious all the time . Plus I figure since I've lost weight I have more motivation as of today to start Eating healthy . Another good thing is when I was on the meds it made it so any carbonated drinks tasted horrible . So even though they taste normal now , they still taste bad lol I went 3 months with probley only having 3 cokes . I only drink water and milk on occasion . that's a start right . I'm gonna post a picture I took last night . It was the first time I actually got out of the house in 3 MONTHS ! Can you believe it .. I'm proud , I may not be gaining progress with weight but being back to myself is more than I could ever ask for . DONT TAKE TOPAMAX ! It's dangerous !
Yea it's over a guy ! Shocker! :/
I'm just sitting over here sad and lonely because I don't know what went wrong .
I guess I need closure but I don't want it ! Does that make sense?
Everything was going GREAT and then he just kinda stopped seeming interested , and of course I cant help but beat myself up ! But the last few days I have been declining more and more into depression . Ughh im lonley and the things that used to make me happy just dont anymore .