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Battlefield of the Mind

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

So I was up with great intentions. Went to bed early so I could get up EARLY and do my thang. aka Aerobics, Water and Exercise (A.W.E.). So far (and it's only 6 a.m. as I write this, which means I still have time if I REALLY got my ... moving) my mind is winning the battle. Here's how my resistance sounds (even thought I felt ok ie not too tired etc) Yeah SURE I can do it all as long as I get up at the a$$ crack of dawn. Get up, workout, go to work, come home make sure I get to sleep EARLY so I can get up and do it all over again wilst EVERYONE else gets to sleep, it's so unfair. NICE. My resentment then builds. Then I shake that thought off and I push myself. Shower done? Check. (I like to get up and shower before everything so my hair can start drying. Yeah I have to multi-task). Resistant thoughts resume... utto I don't think I am going to do it this morning. I can tell. I'm going to slack. Maybe I can just do it later. Sometime during the day. Its too dark to go walking by myself. When is daylight savings time gonna get here. If it wasn't so dark, I'd walk out that door right now. Bleh... That's all I can remember right now, but there were other dark thoughts that thus far added to the mind winning the battle. The negotiations continue for me to talk myself out of doing what I know I need to do to get back in shape. I hope by the end of this day I have positive news to report and I got my A.W.E. on... just want to record this stuff so I can devise an alternate plan of attack the next time this happens. Keep reading if you want to see if it worked or not =D.

Cognitive Behavior Therapy:

When exercise and dieting seems unfair, remind myself that
Iím not alone. This is how all successful dieters ,
maintainers and athletes act. I have a choice. I can let sense
of unfairness overwhelm me, cheat on my exercise routine,
and stay flabby. Or I can accept that this is what I
have to do if I want all of the benefits of permanent

It is true that I donít care at this very moment.
But if I donít go and exercise, I am going to care
quite a lot in just a few minutes. I know I will feel
really bad if I donít go work out. I will feel really terrific if I go.
I need to go do it now.

The only way to lose weight permanently is to learn
dieting and exercise skills and learn them every day.
This will get easier and easier

Iím choosing to say NO CHOICE. If I want to get fit and
have tight abs, I have to do what I need to do, not what
I feel like doing.

Exercise is non-negotiable for good health. I need
to make it be a daily lifetime habit. The hardest part
is getting started. Iíll feel so much better when Iím
done. So get started.

I've read my behavior cards... off to go walking it's getting light now!

WELLLLL. I didn't let my sense of unfairness overwhelm me. I got my shoes on, the dog and out the door I was. I have to admit, YES, I do feel terrific and I did not cheat myself out of my fitness routine today. I did what I needed to do NOT what I felt like doing. Just for today I'm now on my 13TH DAY OF CONSECUTIVE EXERCISING AND EATING RIGHT!!

An additional thought:

I really do deserve credit for breaking old habits.
and itís essential for building my confidence. Once
my confidence grows, everything will become much easier.

YAY for building confidence. We can do this. Are you with me? Now off to the races. Woohoo.

January 17, 2011
Walk - todo
Total Gym - Completed full circuit. Still need to do compounds and legs (tonight after work)
Thoughts: My mantra for today... don't think, just do.
More thoughts: I'm so grateful for all of my creature comfort! Blink tear eyedrops on my desk for when my eyes get fatigued throughout the day, my funny Disney California Adventure coffee mug that my friend gave me that has a grizzle bear for a handle (makes me smile), my PMA books and thought cards that I have hanging in my "pod" that keep my thoughts positive, my employment that provides all the lovely things in my life and keeps me going.



Tuesday, June 02, 2009

What's the difference between a Journal entry and a Blog entry? I wish my 90-day Sugar Fast streak would show accurately. I actually have a 2 day streak with that and it's only showing a one day.


I'm Baaaaack

Monday, June 01, 2009

Well after almost a year or more bitter betty pout and self-pity party of one... I have decided to commit to conscious thoughts on eating and fitness. I stumble/fall/get back up. Fall more than I succeed but I think I have had some lightbulb's go off lately and with that momentum I am dusting off the old lifestyle change motivation train and getting back in the game. I still don't believe that I am going to do it or can be successful at it but I am going to do it anyway. I am going to "go through the motions", I am going to "show up" and maybe just maybe my feelings and confidence will follow. For now, a brief hello to all of my loyal followers. Ha!. I just logged in my food diary for the day and left myself a note. I don't know what program I am going to follow other than just eating consciously and trying to weave more activity into my day. And day by day, step by step, even if I don't see one shred of success, I am going to commit to health and fitness and show up anyway. My powerful reasons why. I don't want to be at this weight the rest of my life, I want to be healthy and trim and fit. I want to be there my daughters because they deserve me...weddings, and grandchildren and all the good stuff. I want to be plugged in. I want to get back into life as I have checked out for years now. For me, because I'm worth. Learning to put myself first one step at a time (super hard for me). I am going to get appropriately selfish if its the last thing I do. One day at a time, one meal at a time, one step at a time. Show up. Don't overthink it. Just do it.

Today is the first day that I am back to trying to consciously eat. I substituted 1 oz. of Monavie Active for my steel cut oats instead of using my normal 2% milk and honey. I am committed to a sugar fast for 90 days. I passed up a sugary dessert at lunch. I am trying to ask myself every meal. Is this nutritious, am I hungry? I read labels and was very careful what I put into my mouth today. I parked far away from the door. I learned something new about nibbling. I found out that the normal pudding cups are better than the fat/sugar free ones. The normal ones have all ingredients that you can read and the fat/sugar free ones have hydrogenated oil in them and the other list is what you can't read. I would have bought the fat/sugar free one but its actually the worse choice of the two.

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Monday, June 09, 2008

Specifically the family packs.

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XO=HEART 6/20/2008 7:10PM

    No not the entire package but 3 in one sitting is bad

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KELSNEWBOD 6/9/2008 5:28PM

    Did you eat the whole family pack????

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Grrr, blah, flop

Monday, June 09, 2008

I knew this was going to be a challenge i.e. consistency and mental attitude. More later........ I'm still out


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