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Change and the big unknown.

Friday, July 11, 2014

This past week has been extreme. It is always sad to lose someone from your life. I really cared about that person. But things happen and people are never going to stop to amaze me. Few people have this unique ability to just dump someone so easily.
I don't know. I believe that we are supposed to work through things in a relationship. You don't just give up on someone. Maybe I live in the wrong era.
Relationships are not supposed to change overnight. Unfortunately, some do. And it is beyond our power. It takes two to have something wonderful.

I am happy to announce that emotional eating didn't kick in this past week, although I went through a very hard emotional state.
I have never felt comfortable being single. I have never enjoyed loneliness. But it looks like I will have to get used to that for now.

So next thing on my to do list, is try to start over and learn to love myself more. Everything happens for a reason. I hope that in a few months I will be able to share with you my success and look back to this moment with a big smile on my face.

I am facing this big unknown of what the future will bring in my life. But I have found hope in SP.
There is something bright about changing towards a better version of yourself.
Maybe this had to happen so I can focus more on myself.

I can't wait for time to pass, so I can see my body changing.
It will make me happy knowing that I am moving forward in my life.
It will bring hope that something better is going to come along my way.

I want my body to reflect how I feel inside. I want to see in the mirror every day that I am finally free of all the sad situations of the past. I have left out of my life people who constantly brought me down, even the ones who did it without realizing it because they were so much self centered.

I received my spark activity tracker two days ago. I just put it on in the morning and forget it is there. It motivates me in the evening to push a bit further and exercise some to reach my daily goal. Small steps will bring the so wanted change.

And I can t wait for that change to come for me. I m so tired of all the bad things in the world happening one after another. Life should be happier than it is now emoticon

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CLASSYLADYMAY 7/11/2014 7:06PM

    Hugs and here for you. Always hard when you go thru something like that. Stay strong !!

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1CRAZYDOG 7/11/2014 3:28PM

    HUGS my dear. You can do it day-by-day. People do come and go in our lives for reasons we may not understand, but it is painful! Wishing you peace.

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PENNYSAVER2 7/11/2014 2:37PM

    Best wishes to you. Try to live in the present everyday. Keep loving YOU everyday.
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Zumba it is then!

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Today I had planned to start exercising again, using Jillian's "Boost your metabolism" dvd.
I have found in the past that I really enjoy that one and the "Kickboxing" one.

Today though, I did not feel like exercising. It had been really hot all day and I felt really tired after coming back from school.

A little voice in my head was telling me that it would be ok if I skipped training today, since I would train tomorrow anyway. That it would not harm my goal of losing weight since I'm on a diet anyway. But that's the thing. Just dieting has never done the work for me. Not on its own.

My previous experience with dieting has taught me that no matter how your day has been, when you feel like skipping exercising,you need to push yourself through, and find something else to do instead that you will enjoy doing on that particular day.

It is not that something bad will happen if you don t exercise for one day, if you have a good reason not to, or you feel that your body really needs a break, then it s acceptable. But boredom or feeling tired, isn't. Not to me anymore.
I have discovered that having a variety of alternative indoor and outdoor activities can really help deal with such a situation. So today when I didn't feel like doing some interval training, I went for some zumba instead.

Ok, so I didn't stick to the plan. But I kept myself active through the day. Every bit of exercising counts. It takes you one step closer to being healthier. Zumba today might have burned fewer calories than what I expected to have burned with interval training but that's ok.
I stayed active. I found an obstacle and worked my way around it.

Maybe today's accomplishment is small, but in my eyes it's something big! Because if I keep the same presence of mind every day, I have more chances of achieving my goal in the end and actually getting there while having fun.

This is not just a diet. It is about change in the long term. Changing habits and gaining my life back. It should be fun. I should enjoy it. So should all of us. emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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MYAKAYAH 6/27/2014 1:57AM

    good job, I think having a variety of exercise is key to being able to persevere through those tough days when you don't want to do your regular program~

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RICKI157 6/26/2014 11:12PM

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1CRAZYDOG 6/26/2014 10:35PM

    Wise woman! Wise words! Lessons well learned. I find for me that it is those times when I am excusing myself without good reason that I NEED to exercise. So, you're right . . . push through!

HUGS

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Drawing the line

Thursday, June 26, 2014

This is me drawing the line and letting go of the past.

I cannot change my past but I can definitely shape my future.

And since this starts from the present, I am ready once again to stand on my feet and deal with whatever has been throwing me off every time I have started fresh before.

I seriously need to build a defense mechanism and not let people or sad situations bring me down again. Family is supposed to be there for you, but sadly, some of us stand completely alone.

I m already 28 years old, I think I've spent enough time in my life feeling sorry for myself.
Dealing with depression over the years has been hard. I keep feeling my dreams being further and further away from me. And emotional eating is not going to bring them any closer.

It is time. I am tired of trying again and again and letting people get in my way.
Nobody should be capable of interfering this much with one's life.
We really should stop letting people bring us down.

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RICKI157 6/26/2014 11:15PM

    One of my favorite Dr Suess Quotes: “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter won’t mind.”
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GEMINICHIK 6/26/2014 6:49PM

    "Any experience can be transformed into something of value. Everything depends on the way you look at things. You cannot have the success without the failures."
You can be successful...best of luck

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1CRAZYDOG 6/26/2014 7:37AM

    ((((HUGS)))) It really does stink when family members don't understand, because that is who you automatically think WOULD. Not always the case, unfortunately. So then you turn your attention to where you CAN get the support and understanding. On the journey to a healthy lifestyle, this is the place. So, let this be a new day and we're here for you!



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DWROBERGE 6/26/2014 7:31AM

    Keep focused for success. You can do it too. Go for it.

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