Tuesday, March 04, 2014
Last week was a total write-off :(
I had the flu, and was pretty much in bed for 3 days.
I tried to go for a walk one day, and could barely make it 20 minutes before I was overwhelmed by back pain and coughing.
THANKFULLY, I'm on the mend, and did manage a longer walk this weekend.
I've done short 7-minute circuit workouts for the past 3 days, and I'm slowly regaining strength. I rarely get seriously ill, and that was the worst cold/flu I've had in a very long time. Glad it's over!
This Wednesday is the beginning of Lent, which means it's time to give up something. Last year, I fasted from meat except for fish, and it was helpful to me in raising my awareness of what I was eating, and examining the power food tends to hold over my life. This year, I want to tackle another stronghold: sweets and added sugar. Even the idea of giving them up has me justifying in my mind all the "treats" I won't be able to have. But at some point, they have become more than just treats, and I've been consuming them a lot more than is desirable. I know that rewarding myself with food is a habit from my family and I know that sometimes I feel like I 'deserve' to eat something sugary after completing, for example an unpleasant task. But is this really a reward? It's so twisted, because those rewards turn into cravings and self-destructive habits. So it's time to ask God to break the chain in my life:
For Lent, I resolve to:
Abstain from all added sweeteners to drinks. (Unsweetened coffee and tea are allowed)
Say no to desserts and sweetened treats/snacks. (Fresh fruit is allowed, but not dried)
I don't know if I can promise to give up these things forever, but I hope and expect that after this exercise, cutting back will be much easier, and I will be aware of all of the unnecessary sugars that I don't need
There is a goal as well... I'm attending a wedding just a week after Easter, and have a REALLY cute dress... now just need a more toned body to go with it!
Thursday, February 20, 2014
I think I missed blogging about this, but my word/focus for 2014 is "wholly"
and I've been moving toward that direction in a lot of ways. Right around the time that word was coming to me in December, I had a conversation with a new friend where she shared that she just completed training to become a life coach. The timing couldn't have been better, and I knew it was something that would be really helpful for me. So I've started on a journey of reflection, dreaming and hope. While this is encompassing all of my life, I do believe my health is a big part of that. I think that as I become a more emotionally, spiritually healthy version of myself, some of my weight issues will be dealt with in the process. With that said, it's hard to keep focusing on weight right now when I've got so many things running through my mind. But my journey toward becoming "whole" in 2014 will involve a reconnection between my body and mind. I realized that I have this need to act like/pretend that I have it all together. At work, in my friendships etc. I'm a people pleaser, and I put up walls to mask my failures and vulnerabilities. The ironic thing is that some of the walls I've put up are made of an extremely visible substance - fat. Well, isn't that ridiculous? Time to say goodbye to it!
Monday, February 17, 2014
Did THE hike today. Small victory to schedule fitness-related activities rather than eating out with a friend. But on the way there I was dreading it, because I remember the beginning of the trail being steep, and me being a hot sweaty mess gasping for breath most of the way.
Well, I surprised myself, it actually wasn't that bad, though challenging, and I felt good while doing it, rather than like I was about to die.
Came home and ate a bowl of broccoli to celebrate (?) haha but it was yummy, I bought some light salad dressings in NZ in flavors I can't get here, and so I had the greek yogurt flavor on my broccoli and it was tasty :D
Now, can I avoid eating anything else for the rest of the night? Maybe a cup of tea will help!
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
I've had the most incredible trip with lots, and lots of good memories. I can't even begin to describe how much I loved NZ. That being said, it's been a month since I've been on track with exercising and eating too.
While I was on vacation, of course I did a LOT of walking around, and a couple of more intense activities, including a hike, kayaking, and running around with two little boys haha.
We did a 45-minute walk around a small mountain/hill where there were a ton of super fit people possibly training for a competition. I didn't really envy them, I still don't find myself with a strong desire to be super into all that, maybe someday.
Doing the kayaking was rewarding and extremely challenging for me. I suspect that a year ago I would have avoided the whole activity out of fear. I'm glad I did it, but man it was an ab workout and a half! I'm thankful for my Jillian Michael's ab video now LOL and the memory of kayaking is fueling my energy for the core workouts now that I'm back.
The friends I stayed with have two young boys and they kept me pretty active. I decided last summer when I was visiting my nephew that I wanted to be the auntie that would actually run around with the kids. I had a great interval training session at the beach jumping over waves and running back to the shore, over, and over, and over, and over again as only a 6-year-old can request. I took a lot of pictures of course, and have mixed feelings about them. For example this one, I'm standing in front of a beautiful sunset, but I think I look awful.
I feel like I still look really really fat in some of them, and then in others, I think I look quite thin. Like the below (rather silly) picture. Of course I have learned to work the angles over the years to avoid double chins, suck in the stomach etc and so the scariest picture to face is the one taken when you weren't trying to pose.
In any case, I'm back, and ready to work again. I'm glad that I've made the breakthroughs I did in the last year in regards to getting more active, starting with that yoga class in Bali exactly one year ago, but I still haven't quite made the same kind of breakthrough with food, which is challenging and frustrating to me. It's so hard to be consistent. So hard to give up delicious things and not feel deprived. It's so hard to say no to seconds, avoid little tastes, and count calories. Any suggestions on getting the light bulb to turn on?
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Super, super busy this week getting ready for my trip on Sunday, packing, finishing all my extra work etc. But in my workout this morning, I heard this, and even though I'm sure I've heard it before, it really rang true today! I tend to prefer things that are easy, fun, comfortable, but that may not be enough to push me into the changes I really want and need to make. So here's a new mantra to add to my others :)
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