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Sparks Motivator not Motivated. So now what?

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

I use to be so "gun oh", about using this site. I loved the people I met from joining groups that meant something to me. I lost weight and was down to 143 at one point. I became a Sparks Motivator, which thrilled me to no end. I was doing everything correctly. So what happened?

At first I blamed it on the house construction and stress, not keeping to the plan. Not entering my food intake or exercise mins., pretty sure I was just being plain lazy. I was sure I could keep the weight off all by myself. I knew what to do? Right? Knowing what to do and keeping up with that plan, is a whole other story.

I let myself slip, thinking it would be no big deal to gain a few pounds. I think it first started last Jan., 2011 when I fell down on the street. I was injured but kept going because I wanted to do my first 5K. I completed that in June, 2011, with a pretty good time. Now I decided to take some time off because I had reached my goal of running a 5K, all alone, with no family support.

I joined a bowling league, met some new people and enjoyed myself. Maybe a bit too much some would say. I wasn't going to the gym as often (in fact I haven't been now since the end of Oct.) my excuse was the spain ankle I got bowling on 11/1/12. Doctor told me to keep off my foot for 10 days. I tried but I hated sitting on my butt. Got a bit depressed and ate things I shouldn't have. Kept thinking I will get back to exercising in no time. How much can a person gain in so short a time? One would be surprised. After 10 days I got an eye infection that bothered me in bright lights, so kept out of the sun and the gym. Then I got the flu for 10 days. Oh great now the whole month of Nov. was gone and I had gained over 12 pounds and this did not count the weight I had already gained back. So now it was December and Christmas was just around the corner. Too hard to think about dieting when the holidays come around. I'll get back on track after the first of the year.

Jan. started & I did great for about a week and lost 4 pounds. But once again I lost my motivation when sweets were calling to me. Ouch! I went up to 179 but was back down to 174.5, when I saw the doctor on 1/31/12. And now I have been cheating myself again at night. I do really well up till after dinner. I tell myself I did so well all day what's one little treat, only one treat leads to two treats and sometimes three. I haven't gained back the 4.5 pounds back but I do need to get myself back on track.

This is where the problem lies. I wanted to start to train for either a 5K or 10K this year. But my ankle keeps swelling up every time I do my long walks or hikes and after bowling. So no jogging or running is allowed by my doctor. He wants me to use the bikes at the gym and I agree. Only thing is I can't get myself over to the gym, again no motivation to go. I have only done a few exercise videos over the last couple of months too.

So I guess, what I am asking my SP friends is, what happens when you lose the motivation to do the right things?? Also how do I get it back?? emoticon

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WISLNDR 2/13/2012 5:28AM

    I'm a little late in posting . . . . .

It's hard to stay motivated; I struggle with this a lot. I've started working with small but attainable goals:

-lose 10 pounds from the beginning of January to the end of February (I'm at 7 off right now),
-be able to wear that cute sweater by 2/14 (maybe yes, maybe no, we'll see tomorrow!)
-I've started making most of my food from scratch; that reminds me to not eat everything all at once since I probably won't have time to make more.
-Exercise for 10 minutes every day (I usually get more than that in each day but if I don't feel like it, 10 minutes is very easy!)

I'm not super-motivated yet but there's a quiet satisfaction in what I'm doing. I hope you can find some small steps for yourself. I say this a lot: Even the smallest steps still move forward!

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JAMER123 2/13/2012 12:32AM

    I guess I can say the same things. Where did the motivation go? I haven't lost it for helping others but I need to begin to help myself as well. Maybe together, we can getter" going again and feel good about motivating others!! WE emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEDICATED2HIM 2/11/2012 1:45AM

    h Teri,
I think your problem is one common to all of us...We all have a special "Sparkling Time" that we look back on with chagrin, desire, longing...and a touch of hopelessness. We feel that never again will be so "on our game"....but you truthfully haven't fallen too far to recover....and without too much trouble either. I too am struggling to come back after health induced weight loss and it is a frustrataing hurdle isn't it? Whan your mind WANTS so much to do something your body can't. But just make sure you don't take it as a carte blanche to slack...As one of your commenters here said, there is always some other avenue of focus, some other way of losing that weight. PURSUE it girl. You can do it! Time to just get around the "stinkn' thinkin'" as I believe AA calls it. Hang tough...YOU ARE BIGGER than Your loss of determination! So put er in gear and plow ahead. I'll be excited to hear of your victory!

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DDOORN 2/8/2012 6:06PM

    Certainly can understand the frustration when what USUALLY Sparks you (walking / running) isn't available to you, courtesy of your ankles!

So it sounds like you need to experiment with some new activity. Swimming? Pilates? Something that won't challenge your ankles. Perhaps focus on strength training? Is there something you've thought might be cool, fun to try but haven't yet done so?

Keep at it! Bang that stone on the rock till the Sparks FLY!

We're with you all the way! :-)


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LESSOFMOORE 2/8/2012 4:19PM

    Teri, you have already overcome so much, I'm sure you can beat this. We will all help you find your spark! emoticon emoticon

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SHERREMAC 2/8/2012 6:55AM

    ((HUG))) I am right with you on this one. I am hunting for my spark too!!

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TERRYT55 2/8/2012 1:42AM

    Hi Teri.......I am fighting the same battle right now but I am still able to run & walk. I think that is all that's keeping the pounds off of me at the moment. I start every day on the right track but seem to fall off the wagon during the day and in to the evening. Maybe we can help each other stay on track.........Don't give up, keep putting one foot in front of the other. I know we can do this!

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_LINDA 2/8/2012 1:21AM

    You have been dealing with this ankle problem since November?? That is a heck of a long time for a sprain!! I wonder if something else is going on there with it..Does your Dr. have any ideas? Its not normal that long. Its hard to get motivated to move when a body part refuses to cooperate or you get sick. Looks like the stress of this long, ongoing reno may be getting to you. Can't be very peaceful living in an unfinished house, with constant dust and things stacked in boxes, or things put away because there is no place for them. Its not much of a 'home' when there are bare walls, open plans, etc. You can't really be at peace and relax.
Just one suggestion to get your mojo back. Promise yourself you will do ten minutes of exercise before you do anything else in the morning. One of Spark's videos, what ever comes to mind. When the snack demons come visiting in the evening, find something to do to keep your mind and hands busy -anything from a much needed chore to be done, to something that will require your full concentration.
You can break out of this slump -you have done it before!
Here is to getting your Spark back!
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TXGRANDMA 2/7/2012 11:25PM

    So sorry to hear this, Teri, I can certainly sympathize! Didn't realize you were having so much of a problem. Night time snacking is my problem too, the habit is very hard to overcome. It is hard too, when you have physical injury issues! Just don't give up, realize that healthy food is so much of a help to your body and an insurance policy of sorts.

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Took a couple of days off.

Saturday, February 04, 2012

Thursday I was a bit tired. I went to the market and did some other errands. The day seem to just go too fast, but did do 6 loads of laundry. I took Phred for a walk that was just under 2 miles. My ankle was bothering me, so didn't get too much done.
Friday got up early and took Phred for a good 45 min. walk. Came home drank a Slimfast, took a shower & did my hair/face, headed over to the credit union. Came home, paid bills. Then my son Frank and I headed out to Lake Elsinore to meet up with my sister Doreen (Firery1), her husband Fred and my friend Sandy (Subsmith, here on Sparks). We met up at the local IHOP and I did OK on my calories because it was already afternoon and I knew I would only be eating lightly for dinner. Well that was the plan but I ate an apple for dinner and then about a hour later I was so hungry I ate Power Bar, so went over my calorie count.
Was suppose to walk this morning but the Santa Ana Winds are up again and my head was killing me. Took Phred out for a walk around 1:30pm went they slowed to a light breeze. They are already back up to breezy again. I plan on bowling tomorrow, all day for $10, so will meet up with some of the others that I bowl practice with. It is the same today but I don't walk to bowl 2 days in a row.
Did my exercising but my calories haven't been within my range for the last 2 days.

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_LINDA 2/4/2012 9:33PM

    Good you could enjoy an outing with family and friends!
I am with you on hating winds, get tired of them blasting the cold in my face every time I go out!!
Hope you enjoy and do well with your bowling tomorrow!

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TXGRANDMA 2/4/2012 7:37PM

    Good luck with the bowling! With all the exercise you are getting, you may be all right, depending on how many calories you are over........ emoticon

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LESSOFMOORE 2/4/2012 7:03PM

    Teri, good to see you back! Good luck with bowling tomorrow!

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Got a bit done today.

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

Woke up and ate a nice breakfast, then dusted the whole house, vacuumed and mopped. Time for lunch and off to the bowling alley for free Wednesday practice. Everyone I practice with showed up today including Merilyn who wasn't with us last week. Didn't do so hot in practice but trying some new stuff with my bowl that really didn't work. Some of the other better bowlers were having trouble too. I hate bowling on lanes 13/14 the pinsetter doesn't seem to put the pins down correctly. It has been a problem b/4.
Came home and took Phred for a walk. Not too far because my ankle was swollen up yet again. Then had a snack, pear.
I purchased some bison burger yesterday at the store, so made those into burgers for Frank and I. Boy are they tasty, and I learned that they do not shrink as much as reg. hamburgers do. Give it a try if you see it your store, although it is cheap. emoticon

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DDOORN 2/2/2012 1:33PM

    Kudos on keeping up with the house!

Hope your ankle heals quickly...!

Thx for all your support and sharing YOUR successes for MY inspirations too! :-)


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_LINDA 2/2/2012 1:43AM

    Sorry about your ankle :( It doesn't affect your bowling at all? I can't imagine trying to throw with a wonky ankle..
Practice is the right time to try out techniques..
Hope you have a Terrific Thursday!

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Good day bowling after my doctors appointment.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Had an early morning appointment w/my Rhuematologist Dr. Sugarman, this morning. He sees me about every 2-3 months because of RA & Lupus. We had to change my medication a couple of months ago, so he did blood work to see how and if the Immuran is keeping my Lupus & kidneys under control.
I also spoke to him about my ankle still swelling up and bothering from my sprain on 11/1/11. He has sched. with a podiatrist (sp) for the beginning of April. They have sched. another x-ray on the ankle, which sort of seems dumb since that was done and nothing was found. Dr. Sugarman thinks maybe there was ligament damage, will shall see how it goes.
Bowling league went well this afternoon. My first game was 160 and I took the $5 money pot for points between your average and what you bowled. My 2nd game was 117 and my 3rd was 137. I finally broke the 400 mark for total pins bowl today with a 416. The 1st game I ended with a 9th frame spare and 10th frame Turkey (3 strikes in a row). So not too shabby of a day.
Today my son Jory got a new job in AZ. He starts on Monday. So thrilled for him. My daughter Samra won a $100 gift card from Kroger Corporation (Ralphs markets here and Frys markets in AZ). So we all got lucky in our own way.
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JAMER123 2/1/2012 4:53PM

    It appears you have had a lot of good news and some that hopefully will be conquered for you soon!!
Glad your bowling went well. Love to bowl BUT....... got to 199 one night and had the entire 10th frame left. My final total of pins, 199 LOL!! nothing like a total freeze!

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NANT406 2/1/2012 9:12AM

    Great job with the 160! I love to bowl too. I never thought about joining a league though. Sounds fun! emoticon emoticon

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TXGRANDMA 1/31/2012 11:52PM

    Sounds like you had a great afternoon of bowling! emoticon on winning the pot! Also, congratulations to your son and to your daughter! Everyone was a winner today.

Sure hope the podiatrist can figure out what is wrong with your foot....and that the bloodwork comes out good!

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_LINDA 1/31/2012 11:33PM

    Way to go with the bowling! So glad your son found a job, that is hard to do these days. Congrats to your daughter!
Hope your Dr.'s can figure out what is up with your ankle, doesn't seem to have affected your bowling any though ;)
Have a Wonderful Wednesday!

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Short blog

Monday, January 30, 2012

Jeff left this morning to work in Tulare, CA until the 19th of Feb. He always takes my laptop and I have to use his desktop which is located in another room. I perfer to use my laptop because it is faster and this one takes forever to load anything. Also it freezes up now and then while you are typing, etc. So I sit and have to wait to continue, it drives me crazy.
Anyway took Phred for 2 walks today, did some cleaning again. My ankle is bothering me again, most likely from the walk yesterday ane swollen up again. I have an early mornig appointment with my doctor, so I won't be on for long tonight. Took Frank out to dinner tonight at IHOP, only have their Simply Fit Veggie Omelette with the fruit cup and a reg. 2% milk. It was under 450 cals. and I stayed within my calories with no problem. Hope everyone had a great day!

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DDOORN 1/31/2012 9:26AM

    Good deal on those breakfast choices!


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_LINDA 1/31/2012 12:40AM

    You ought to try icing you ankle at regular intervals, 15 min at a time, and especially right after walking on it. Ice has always been my friend. I would far and away prefer heat, but ice is the only thing for swelling.
Sorry about the computer, my old lap top is like that, and when I go to my Mom's, the slow connection just bogs down everything new or not :(
I hope you feel better tomorrow and your Dr. makes sure your meds are still working, or need a bigger dose. I have been on Methotrexate 20 years, and my Doc increased the dose every now and then if I was flaring, same with the Humira, but would drop it back down when it was over..

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