Saturday, November 30, 2013
Lots of things changed in my life. And after cleaning out a lot of negative stuff, I decided to focus on my weight and health again.
I have a new job, one that is waaaay less stressful than the old one. It's closer to my apartment, I work shorter hours (35 instead of 37.5 and overtime is not forced on me now), and I actually choose my own schedule (I could work 12 hours a day for 4 days and have 3 days off if I felt like it).
October was the Month Of Slacking. I didn't do *anything*, except maybe strenght train for 2 or 3 days at one point. I barely jogged - it got cold pretty fast this year. And I started not eating well at all.
Which includes binging. I started baking a lot of desserts - every Sunday I bake something, and I bring most of it to my coworkers on Monday, so I barely eat any (which is good). And they really appreciate it, lol. So I have dessert maybe one or two days a week, which isn't, in my opinion, bad. But, baking desserts often means having a lot of sugar, coconut, chocolate chips and the like in my kitchen cabinet.
Which sometimes means that I get home hungry and instead of having a fruit or whatever healthy snack, I binge heavily on chocolate chips. It's really becoming a problem - but instead of banning them from my apartment altogether (like I did for chips), I'll try and control myself. Because I don't wanna stop baking.
I was already able to refrain myself from binging once or twice, which is good. Working on that.
The big news is that I'm going back to the gym. Not the same one as I went before - since I moved and all. The one I subscribed to, I think is a little more expensive. I have a trainer for 3 months (which I pay for on 12 months) and I won't renew the contract after because it's too expensive for me, but I think it's gonna help me come back on track for the first 3 months. I'm already going there 4 times a week and going back to my good old habits. The fact that my boyfriend subscribed with me does help a lot - even though we don't always go together, the simple fact that he goes too helps me.
I met my trainer twice, the first time we did a fit test, and she gave me my physiological age: 49. Wow, I'm 26 years older now. -_- hahaha, but I knew I didn't help myself with the whole months of slacking and the chocolate binges and all that. Anyway, that's only more room for improvement, right? I did do well on some things though, and she said I already had a lot of good habits, especially food-wise. I told her about the tracking I used to do here, and she recommended I come back to it. (Will do.) The main things to improve are, obviously, my weight (I'd like to lose 20 pounds - I'm at 174 now), my flexibility and my cardio. The second time I saw her, we built half of my program (the cardio part). Which is made of 20 minutes of treadmill running in intervals (a minute walking at 6.2 km/h, 3 minutes of running at 7.7 km/h) and then 15 minutes of elliptical.
I really like her, and I like the way she explains everything she does and all the calculations that lead to my stats and program, unlike my old coach at my old gym who'd just seem like he was randomly building a program. I know he was probably doing the same work as she is, but he never told my anything about anything, so my new trainer makes me feel more... included in my own workouts. Which is fun. Also, having a woman instead of a man as a trainer already helps me. I always felt like having to tell a man about my weight issues and all that wasn't helping me. I guess I think women understand women better. And I'm probably right, right? XD
I'll also attend a few group classes on weekends, there's this military cardio class that my boyfriend and I tried (and we were pretty much dead the day after) and I liked it. There's also yoga and other stuff, I'll have to check it out. I should also really put walking back into my fitness program, but I really hate Winter, I hate snow, I hate cold, and I hate being outside when this is all reunited, which means all the way through March. XD I don't mind going on a walk in this setting if I'm with someone, but most people I ask refuse for the same reasons I hate walking. So yeah.
Anyway, I don't know if I'll blog often since I started a blog on my own with a section for my health life, but at least I'm back here, ready to get back on track and to read all about your lives again :D
Tuesday, October 08, 2013
And not only off of SP - I was off of everything. Exercising, eating right, blogging, pretty much everything.
I'd like to find a good excuse but there's no such thing. Yes, I was being lazy. I know. :( but I think I'm done now. It happens. I was doing really well for a month - August was incredible for me - but I think my vacations actually killed the streak.
Because on vacation all you wanna do is nothing, especially when you're exhausted like I was. And I reaaaaaally was. My old job was killing me and I needed the rest. Well I still moved a little on vacation - took walks, etc. but nothing big; and I ate dessert (that I made) every day, and made huge porky meals for my parents, the boyfriend and I. So. When I came back I sticked to the new crappy schedule.
I realized last week that I now "felt the need" for dessert every day. Not every meal - when I eat lunch at job and don't have one I won't go out to get one; but most of the times after supper I wanted sugar, and fruit wasn't satisfying. I wanted cookies, cake, brownies, anything. That, or beer. And I indulged, every damn time.
So last week I realized it was really becoming a routine, and a really bad habit. I hadn't had that habit for YEARS - and it never came back, never. Except this time. I think I got rid of the "must-have-dessert-after-every-meal" thoughts in 2010. And it comes back after 3 years... ugh!
So I set a new "rule" in my life. First of all, I'm spending this week dessertless. Which is twice as hard as it would have been any other week; I'm on my period. Lol. But, I think I gotta do this in order to come back to my good, old habits which were having dessert very rarely. Then, the only dessert I'll allow myself is in restaurants (which I barely go to anymore anyway) or dessert I make at home. And since dessert you make at home requires ingredients that I never have and never think of buying, it'd actually take efforts - going to the grocery store, spending money and actually baking it - for me to have it, which will probably make it more rare. In fact just thinking about putting efforts into it makes me want to not have dessert LOL.
As for exercising... I always kind of slack when Fall comes by, for a reason. Fall's always been my most dreaded season - I really love it, I love the colors, the warm clothes, the cups of tea in the afternoons - but something inside of me also hates it. I've always hated it as a kid, and when I had depression, the worst times were always in September and October. I think it's the lack of light, the change of time, whatever. But it makes me slack exercising, and sometimes just quit for a few weeks, which is what I did again.
In the last month I've barely walked, jogged, or strenght trained. I think I did that only once. I re-made my program to only have 2 days of strenght training, with more exercises since I can now do them right after work instead of in the morning (and I prefer that time), but I've only done it once. -_- at least right now I'm in jogging attire and leaving right after this blog. As for walking, well I know I've done some, but I haven't tracked anything here for the whole month of September. I was lazy.
So I've only got 3 weeks left to exercise outside. After that, jogging will get dangerous (because of the cold weather, but mostly because it's gonna get icy on the ground). Walking I can still do, but when there's snow I really don't like it - I really gotta push myself. So it'll be back to exercising inside for the rest of the year, until April of next year. Joining a gym is way out of my budget, and I really, really don't wanna go back anyway. It doesn't fit me anymore. And I barely have any space or privacy here, which is my main concern. I absolutely hate it when I'm strenght training in the living and my roommate is right next to me on her computer. I guess I could do it in my room, but now that my boyfriend's piano is in it, there's barely any space left. Also I can't predict what times my roommate's gonna be there or not. So... yeaaah. I'll figure something out.
As for eating... well excluding the dessert part I don't think I'm too bad; I keep entering new recipes into groupings here, to check how many calories they are and how many portions; but I haven't tracked since my vacations, and I honestly don't feel like it. As I think I mentioned in my last blog post, I felt like I lost weight on vacation when I could eat "more freely", even though I wasn't really feeling restricted while tracking, it was nice to just eat my meals without stressing over the calories, fat, protein and carbs intake for a while. Maybe I should track from time to time just to see if I'm okay, but I know I've kept the old habits as for meals, in terms of portions and snacks, so that shouldn't be the problem.
Another problem I have... I started my new job - which I absolutely ADORE - and the fact that I decide of my own schedule is incredibly awesome. I usually start between 8 and 8:30, take half an hour for lunch (sometimes only 15 minutes), and I leave between 3 and 4 PM. Which is GREAT because it only takes me 15 minutes to come back home, and I can exercise and take a shower before cooking supper. That's a HUGE change from my old schedule, which I could never change, and it took me 40+ minutes to get back home, so I had to cook supper right when I got here, and after eating, I had about an hour and a half to myself before going to bed, which I didn't want to spend on exercising to be honest.
So I'll try to take the habit of exercising when I get home, every night, to have the weekends off.
I mentioned a problem - it is that: at my old job, I had a fixed schedule. Even my breaks were fixed at 10 AM and 3 PM. Lunch was noon to 1 PM; so I was always eating my snacks and lunch at the same times, every day. But now I can choose my own schedule, and work whenever I want. I don't even take breaks, I just eat my snacks in front of my computer while working (they're already portioned and I don't keep any food at job so that's not a problem). But I have a focus problem. When I'm working on something... I'm REALLY focused. Like crazily focused and I forget everything around me - and inside of me. So I forget I'm hungry, or just don't realize it; and by the time I do, I'm an hour late for my snack, and my whole eating schedule is f'ed up. I often realize I forgot to eat my afternoon snack when I get home at 4 PM. Hell I forgot today. My carrots are still at job.
I think I'll have to set a reminder on my computer, that way it's gonna pop up when I gotta eat. That's a good idea - I'll just have to remember to do it tomorrow, lol.
So that's pretty much the summary of my month off. Except my new job, not much's changed. In less than a month I'm getting on the stage for a bellydancing show (it's only 2 minutes 45 seconds, so phew) and my routine is barely set yet. -_- procrastinating much? I'll work on it tonight since I'm home alone. I also gotta get my costume real quick now, and try and get a little bit more in shape before so I won't be red-faced on the stage LOL. (Or have a veil cover my face - now that'd be great :P)
Monday, September 16, 2013
So many news:
First of all I got the job. :) I learned the day after my last blog post - aka the day after the interview. I told my boss, and my colleagues, and rejoiced at home knowing I only had one week left to work here.
Because I was on vacation last week. Saturday was the Color Me Rad and that was incredibly awesome. We arrived pretty early - and we did well, because there were a LOT of people after we arrived. Our wave was at 10:20, and it was supposed to be over at 11:30 - we left at 11:35 and people were still ARRIVING for the race, with cars parked very far from the run site. The trail itself was difficult at some points, with lots of rock (and lots of people walking), but it went well. I'm pretty damn sure it wasn't a whole 5k, it felt more like less than 4 kms... but still, it was pretty damn fun, and my friend, boyfriend and me ended up covered in colors - especially pink, YAY. XD
I got pictures which will show up here later!
Sunday morning we left to my hometown for our vacations. The 5 hours car ride went very well, we had nice weather. Arrived at my parents' house around 2 PM if I remember well, and didn't do much that day. Nor the following days. LOL it's a small city, with not much to do. So that's how the week went:
Monday was spent sitting around, playing XBox, and picked blueberries in the woods. I forgot how they crazily grew around. In barely half an hour we had a full 2 liters bowl of wild blueberries, which are the most delicious (like all wild things lol).
Tuesday, the wind calmed down (it was VERY windy Monday), and the sun was out, so in the morning we left to Pointe-aux-Outardes to go to the nature park. It's a 5 bucks (optional) fee to walk the trails, and I forgot how awesome it is. I hadn't been there in over 10 years lol. There are trails in the woods, most of them are wooden foothpaths, and half the trail is next to the St Lawrence River (we're so far East we live next to the largest part - you can't see the other side, unlike here in Quebec City) and even some salty marshes. We saw a couple of birds, and a couple of squirrels haha. I took a few pics there. And we baked blueberry muffins that were absolutely delicious.
We didn't do much the rest of the week - Wednesday was spent cooking crazily, apple and spices muffins, apple-caramel cheesecake, applesauce, apple butter (I had a ton of apples left from our apple picking session lol) and a big batch of vegetarian spaghetti sauce that my parents potted and gave me YAY! The cheesecake was done in two days, and the muffins in three. XD they were delicious. I still have applesauce and apple butter left.
Thursday I visited my old school, saw two old teachers (who didn't recognize me - "you shrank!") and the student café I used to manage when I was attending that school. It hasn't changed much, like all small city schools. But it was fun.
Friday was my last day there and I didn't wanna leave. I slept a LOT, relaxed plenty, and no, I didn't jog one single time, even though I'd bring clothes and shoes with me. I did take a few walks though. Seeing Chanel (our dog) was nice, and my parents obviously. At first I wanted to see a ton of old friends - but then I didn't feel like it. I felt like relaxing, not having anything planned, and spending the day in pajamas if I wanted to, which I did.
Friday night we ate out with my parents at the new microbrewery that just opened (the first one in the region!). Saturday morning we had breakfast in the city and left. At 4 PM I was home. I needed time alone - my boyfriend went to his friends' house and I stayed home, unpacking my things, taking a hot bath and playing the Sims.
Yesterday, grocery shopping and some cleaning at the apartment; but still no jog. I'm trying to get back into schedule today, but I shut the alarm clock at 5:30 this morning and slept an extra hour. :( ah well, gotta give myself time. I also wanna revise my whole strenght training program, I've had the same for over 2 months now, and I'm tired of it.
I only have one month and a half to jog, because in November it gets too cold/icy to jog, even in the middle of the day when the sun is out. And I really don't have money for Winter running equipment, so I'll have the Winter off once again. :( I could ask for that as Christmas gifts lol.
In other news this is my last week working here, and I'm glad it's finally over. Crazy how when you quit you realize how unhappy you are... a coworker is organizing a little party Friday night for me, but most people can't come, which sucks. Ah well, at least my boyfriend will be there, and a few friends, so that's enough for me. Then I'm starting my new job, and it's making me nervous already.
I hope this new change in my life will give me the guts to change other things. I tend to fall into a routine and habits pretty fast, but when I change something major in my life, it's like I have the courage to finally change everything that should have been changed a while back!
Thursday, August 29, 2013
I got a job interview!
I wasn't seriously looking; I'm just a little tired of the environment at my job. I LOVE my job *itself*, talking to customers and helping people with the softwares is really nice and time really goes by fast; but I'm starting to really dislike everything else. Coworkers, bosses, schedules, rules and the general environment; all the bitching employees - I feel like I'm back to my first internship in a bank where all the cashier ladies would just spend their whole day bitching between each other's backs (I'm still traumatised by that time I heard 3-4 women talk about how "ugly" they thought a coworker's outfit was. They were all over 40. WTF?). It's getting very negative and tiring, and I get home exhausted every night not because of the job, but because of the feel I get there. I also noticed a few weeks ago, maybe over a month ago, that I'd be feeling absolutely awesome waking up, showering, eating, etc. and even in my car, but the minute I stepped into the office I'd start feeling down, angry or annoyed. So... not a good sign.
So I started looking randomly at job offers online and I found one I liked. I thought hey, what the hell, I'll apply, what do I lose? Nothing. I updated my resume yesterday and sent it by email along with a little presentation letter and I had an answer this morning. So my interview is next Thursday at 9.
I had to lie to my boss - I told her I had a doctor appointment. I know it sucks, but I wanted to avoid confrontation, tears, or cries. She'll know soon enough why I leave - and it's easy to make me feel bad, so I didn't want to ruin my chances of a better job just because of someone not wanting me to go.
So that's pretty much the big news for me. Fitness-wise I've been doing well all week long, except today I slept in until 7:20... and I gotta leave at 7:30. UGH! Food-wise though I've been REALLY good and that was nice. :)
Monday, August 26, 2013
The rest of last week went fine - but I was tired and could barely get up in the morning; I skipped my Thursday jog, and Friday I did nothing as it's my day off (even though I had a day off Thursday, technically). At first I thought that I wasn't eating enough since my calorie count was a little lower than usual for the whole week, but then I understood it was probably just me going to bed too late, doing too much in the evenings instead of relaxing, and being generally stressed.
I had a busy weekend, but everything enjoyable. Saturday I went for a jog and it went incredibly well. I was able to run nonstop for a while before stopping to catch my breath a little, and I got a cramp the same place I got a cramp Tuesday, and had to stretch it quite a few times. But at least I ran my whole 4k even though I wanted to give up midway. I can't believe how my cardio almost went back to my 2012 state so quickly! Then I got ready at home and ate breakfast etc. because I was going on a long motorcycle ride with a friend (an ex colleague). We were going to Tadoussac - 3 hours to go there, plus all the stops we did! So we left around 11:30, had lunch in Baie-Saint-Paul (I only had a small quiche and a salad since they barely had anything vegetarian - for a sandwich shop I expected something different) and then we went all the way to Tadoussac and had a beer there. The weather was gorgeous, with the sun high and clear skies, and some wind to keep us fresh on the bikes. We left Tadoussac around 4:45, drove all the way to La Malbaie for supper, and stayed there at least an hour and a half - so we left pretty late, it was dark already; and I was a little cold. But the ride home went really well, since I had Julia's coat instead of my thin coat I brought with me. It was so much fun! But I was exhausted back at home.
Sunday I skipped the run (grrr) because I needed the rest. After buying the groceries we got prepared and packed the lunches and left to Valcartier for our last day at the aquapark. We bought Summer passes in June and went 4 times so that's nice. The weather was gorgeous again. We arrived there at 2 PM, ate our sandwiches and snacks, did some attractions, and ended with an ice cream cone (I indulged). I also lost my bikini bottom in the highest slide called the Everest, and everybody could see my butt. I was ashamed for 5 minutes, then I realized how hilarious that is. XD a friend who's worked there told me it happens all the time and he's seen all kinds of butts so that's not too bad really ;P
I also made a decision on Sunday; lately I've felt a little off with my vegetarianism - I went vegan in October of 2010, and vegetarian as of last Spring - and I must admit I really do miss fish. Not meat - that I'm sure I'll never eat again in my whole life; but I do eat cheese, and eggs from free living chickens; and eating fish on vacation in Prince Edward Island made me realize how bad I missed it, even though I used to eat very little (maybe once a month) of it.
So I told my boyfriend that from now on we'd be having vegetarian meals everyday except one meal a week where it'd be fish. Since he's a fishmonger in a grocery store he was pretty happy ;P so he'll be in charge of buying it and cooking it since I really have no idea what to do with that (after being vegetarian for 3 years you kinda forget what to do with meat lol) and yeah. I think it'll do well for my nutrition as well as health, and I'll keep it to a minimum - I think once a week is just okay for me.
Of course I didn't tell that to everyone because I know people will either judge or mock me, even though I've never annoyed anyone with my vegetarianism (hell I've been working at my current job for more than a year and most of my colleagues aren't even aware of my eating habits). People tend to really put themselves above you when you "CHEAT" on your "DIET", so yeah.
So I guess now I'm a pescetarian. XD (*updates her profile*)
Sunday evening I was in bed just laying down when I realized something. Except one beer Friday, and two glasses of beer Saturday, I didn't have any alcohol - read: I didn't abuse it like I usually do every weekend. And I felt really, really good. I've never really had alcohol problems; I just like the taste too much. I don't even appreciate the buzz that much. I just love sangria, beer, wine, mojito, bloody ceasars... y'know. So I tend to abuse it when we go out with friends or at the restaurant or wherever I have the possibility to have some, let alone when I've got a bottle (or 12) at home. But I didn't even THINK of having too much this weekend. And Sunday night I felt great, ready for a new week of work, and refreshed, even though I did a lot in the whole weekend.
So yeah. That kinda was my realisation. A little basic I know - but there's a different between KNOWING what you gotta do, and REALIZING it. I always KNEW I had to drink less to help my health, life, and general well-being, but after finally trying it (without really trying?), I REALIZED how beneficial that was. Way to go, young padawan ;D
In only two weeks I'm on vacation! I'm going to my hometown staying at my parents', with the boyfriend. Also at the end of October there's this show organized by my job for which I gave my name and I'm doing a bellydancing show. UGH. I haven't even chosen my music yet, let alone prepare the show itself. I looked for costumes today - and GOD that's expensive - even though it's cheaper online I'm always afraid it won't fit me! And everything here would cut my wage in half; so I think I'll just be making my own! It's a one-time event after all, so who cares, and it's for a charity. BUT the commitee asked me to perform in front of them (in two days - I refused, since I haven't even started anything yet) and the commitee is made of... 3 guys, two who are my age. OOOH NOPE. I asked for a woman to be there too. XD
So I kinda gotta get on that right?
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