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To the bullies and the bullied.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

To all you who abuse your position of power because you see it as your right. To all you who fire insults at people who have taken a position of help because they donít do it fast enough or well enough or in a manner that you specifically find pleasing. To all you parents who think teachers should raise their children and then blame them for your failings. To all you who continue to abuse your bodies and blame advertising companies for tempting you or the medical profession for not being able to fix you and to you who pick on the weaker, the smaller, who pick on anyone at all just because it gives you some vague resemblance of control in your life. To all you who whinge about everything in life and bring nothing to it except misery. Thank you.

You make the rest of us better people. You make us stronger people. Itís true, your words do hurt, they hurt a lot. So, congratulations you succeeded in your aim. Now I, and the others who have had to endure you, will succeed in ours. I refuse to turn into the little person you so desperately want me to become. Every battle you think you have won I am turning into something more. More than you, which such limited imagination that tired insults are the only creativity you express, could ever dream of. Every emotion is something I can feed off, learn from and become better because of. When was the last time you tried to become better? Do you even want to?

Hide behind your anonymity while you can. It wonít last. Other people see it, even if you, at times, manage not to. You may disguise it was a pretty avatar, a fake name or just an extra friendly smile. You may try counter balancing with overly ostentatious gestures, you may think that as itís online it, Ďdoesnít really count.í

But it counts. It all counts. I donít know when, or where or how. But it will all count.
And even if Iím wrong, if there is nothing more than this, I will make it my mission to cancel out every negative, detrimental act that you have done to me and to others around the world. I will make it my mission to cause random smiles. I want perform acts that cause the rejuvenation of faith in the human race not destroy it. I want to be a good person and the harder you try and fight me on this the better Iím going to be.
I thought I should let you know this.

  
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SWEETNEEY 6/11/2014 8:39AM

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MOM2ACAT 6/10/2014 4:31PM

    Well said! I was bullied all through school, and it was bad enough in the days before the internet. I cannot imagine how I would handle it if I had to be a teenager now in that same situation.

The adults that bully other adults through the internet are just as bad.

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STARLITNIGHT 6/10/2014 1:11PM

    I find that the ones who harm others, are the ones that need your smiles and Positiveness the most. The unloved need show how to love themselves. The biggest lesson is that we can't help the ones who will not help themselves. They have to learn the hard way, and on their own. This is only true for me and the people I work with daily, everyone has their own battles, we have to learn that they are not always battling you, but themselves, a reflection of themself, and we should not take it personally. Best wish for all!

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BDJOHNSON 6/10/2014 7:35AM

    Well said! The line about teachers struck a chord with me because I teach middle school language arts.

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EVIE4NOW 6/10/2014 6:27AM

  Excellent blog! Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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TWEETYKC00 6/10/2014 6:02AM

    Be strong, let's show everyone what we can be!

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MARYJOANNA 6/10/2014 5:40AM

  WOW!

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PICKIE98 6/10/2014 5:32AM

    Amen!

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When does the glowing start?

Sunday, June 08, 2014

If someone could tell me when this glowing stage starts Iíd really appreciate it?! This week will be twelve weeks and though the vomiting has died down itís been replaced by more, horrible bodily changes. Iím not going to go into (too much) detail but itís not been fabulous. My breasts have taken on a life of their own, last night I developed horrid cramps in my legs, no doubt due to sitting badly. And then, sprouting behind my knee, I saw it. My first varicose vein. To say I freaked out would be an understatement. Last night was not good. Today Iím feeling a little more balanced.
Work has been awful, and not just because of the sickness. Luckily I only have a few weeks left, but I am well behind on the book editing due to obvious distractions.
Iíve been avoiding spark because of how embarrassed Iíve been; having promised myself Iíd be good, for 5 weeks all I could hold down was stodgy rubbish. But Iím back here now. We have bought an exercise bike/chair/weird stool thing. The fridge is stocked with my favorite fruits. Iím going to try and write on here once a week; seeing how well other sparkers are doing is very good at shaming me. So, today is day one of Healthy Pregnant me, mentally and physically.
Wish me luck!

  
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DEB9021 6/8/2014 10:24PM

    The glowing starts when the vomiting stop. :-/. Sorry you are not feeling so good. I know it is frustrating because you feel that it is a time you should be happy, and if you're feeling lousy you feel like you're not doing it right. All you can do is try to eat and live as healthy as you can and push throughout it. Keep at it!
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STARLITNIGHT 6/8/2014 9:29PM

    Never avoid the people that will understand and still support you till you work things out. Two steps forward and one step back is the dance around here. As long as we keep moving, we are golden! I didn't freak out till I felt the baby move inside of me, and when it happens, and you had no control, it is a bit overwhelming! Best of luck, you will be okay once you get that bundle of joy in your arms, and all this will be forgotten. Seems like yesterday, but my sons are 28 and 21, they grow up so fast. emoticon

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When does the glowing start?

Sunday, June 08, 2014

If someone could tell me when this glowing stage starts Iíd really appreciate it?! This week will be twelve weeks and though the vomiting has died down itís been replaced by more, horrible bodily changes. Iím not going to go into (too much) detail but itís not been fabulous. My breasts have taken on a life of their own, last night I developed horrid cramps in my legs, no doubt due to sitting badly. And then, sprouting behind my knee, I saw it. My first varicose vein. To say I freaked out would be an understatement. Last night was not good. Today Iím feeling a little more balanced.
Work has been awful, and not just because of the sickness. Luckily I only have a few weeks left, but I am well behind on the book editing due to obvious distractions.
Iíve been avoiding spark because of how embarrassed Iíve been; having promised myself Iíd be good, for 5 weeks all I could hold down was stodgy rubbish. But Iím back here now. We have bought an exercise bike/chair/weird stool thing. The fridge is stocked with my favorite fruits. Iím going to try and write on here once a week; seeing how well other sparkers are doing is very good at shaming me. So, today is day one of Healthy Pregnant me, mentally and physically.
Wish me luck!

  
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USMAWIFE 6/8/2014 8:24PM

    it is so incredible how bringing a new life into the world plays so much havoc on a woman's body.

you might not see the glow but there are others out there who are.

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Confession time.

Thursday, May 15, 2014


Okay. So Iíve been absent on spark this last month but I promise itís been at the forefront of my mind. Just before I explain my absence, I want to say a little a bit about the past couple of years.
I am a secondary school teacher, originally from the UK but have worked internationally for the last six years. Teaching was never really my original plan, not that I had one, but my family are teachers and it was kind of expected. This year was my thirtieth birthday, all I have done is teach, no gap years, no time after uni, and to be fair for the majority of the time I have adored it. The children are brilliant, I love my subject, (despite the fact that people repeatedly tell me it was their least favourite at school) and I get a chance to be creative and hopefully inspiring. Then we moved country and I was miserable. To fill the time I started writing more and more. I have always written; childrenís stories, poems, songs that kind of thing. But this time I started writing a novel. I took a course, attended writing conferences and adored it. So in January I handed in my notice. It was my husband who convinced me that if I didnít try and do something for myself now then I would regret it and deep down I knew he was right. Thatís the writing part of my spark name. Now for the running. Itís only been about 3 years but I love it. So in December I registered for a half marathon. It was two weeks ago. I didnít do it. I had trained vicariously. I had already run 20km in training two weeks before. I was completely prepared. But the week before I was feeling unwell; nauseas, bloated. And having a sudden craving for cucumbers! We took two tests. Definitely pregnant!
So, Iím a complete mixed bag of emotions. I am so happy to be pregnant; a family has most definitely always been the plan. But Iím also frustrated. I worried about how Iím going to write, Iím sick half the time and pretty much sleeping the rest and thatís before weíve even got the baby. Iíve given up my job so I have no other choice, this has to work. Thereís also no point denying Iím worried about the weight aspect. I want to be healthy, but the only food my body seems to be accepting is oven baked carbs. Running out in Asian heat is just not a sensible idea. I believe things happen for a reason. And I know Iím going to be better than fine, just as soon as I stop feeling quite so terrified!

  
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SWEETNEEY 5/16/2014 7:49AM

    I don't think your mixed bag of emotions is unusual. Usually after the 1st trimester the morning sickness as we call it passes. I know about the tiredness - when I was pregnant with my son - I was always sleepy. I was working and a good thing I had my own office, cos I would put my head down on the desk and nap. But I'd also try to move about. Enjoy your pregnancy -

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STARLITNIGHT 5/15/2014 11:38AM

    Worry will only distract you from your joy. Congratulations on your newest creation, New Life!

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PRINCESS_SOFI 5/15/2014 9:15AM

    Congratulations! It will OK.

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ELRIDDICK 5/15/2014 9:04AM

  Thanks for sharing

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I'm not making progress...

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Because I'm making excuses.

This has been me to a tee for the last few weeks, (by weeks read multiples of 52). Next week I am off to Oz for the Byron Bay bluesfest. I had wanted to go for as long as I could remember, but when I finally got there last year I was 10lb's heavier than my "normal" weight. All photos of scenery and bands. Not of me. This year, I'll be 14lbs heavier. I have no one to blame but myself. I have been making excuses rather than progress. And I have been doing this time and time again. ďWhen weíve settled into the new house Iíll start properly,Ē ďWhen we get to the end of term Iíll refocus.Ē I have supplied myself with a constant stream of lies to try and justify one simple fact.
I am not trying.
I am exercising, lots, but this has played on my excuses, ďI can eat that, Iíve run 15km this morning,Ē or ďIíll burn that off easily on tomorrowís run.Ē
I have just got back from a girl's trip to Langkawi, where I had told myself I would be able to wear a bikini and feel good. Thank goodness I didnít throw away the one piece. I have so much determination in other parts of my life, I just need to transfer some back over to weight loss. And I can. This is it. When I got home last night I told my husband we had started. No last takeaway, no final indulgence before we begin. He moaned, and whined and promised heíd start the next day, but I didnít give in, and Iím so pleased. One day in and I already feel better; less bloated, less craggy.
So here it is. Iím not waiting until we get back from our holiday, because thatís just another excuse. (I will consider it a holiday for my insides too!)

If youíre not making progress, youíre making excuses. And I hate excuses.

  
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STARLITNIGHT 4/18/2014 7:52PM

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13UST_IT 4/13/2014 9:09PM

    I often find myself making excuses too. Good for you for making the decision to start right away! I've got a husband who's a little less than enthusiastic about our lifestyle change as well... but if we can turn them into great supporters, it will be twice as easy to stick with it!

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KRISZTA11 4/13/2014 3:50PM

    A great observation, noticing that you already feel better on Day 1!
Congrats to making the first steps, and I wish you many more.
Enjoy the journey!
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SWEETNEEY 4/13/2014 10:48AM

    I know what you mean - until like the begnning of Lent I have suffered from the same lies. I would exercise and then feel it was a licence to eat. Or I would know I am going to exercise and so I would eat more because I'd say I'll burn it off. But since the start of Lent - I have lost weight I can say 4lbs but I forgot to weigh last Monday so not sure what happened there. But my clothes are loser - when I push out my belly I don't feel cloth. What I did for lent was gave up some stuff - but what I really want to share with you is that I like at 1000000% more fruit and vegetables. They became the foundation for a meal. I have reduced considerably the bread group of items (rice and potatoes) I try to prefer Quinoa over any type of rice. When I do rice - it's just a small bit. I found the raw diet left a big impression on me. I think I'd like it to be my base diet but I'd eat hot food and meat occasionally. I am doing a detox diet right now - not been following it as religiously as I should. So in short I'd recommend upping the fruit and veg a whole lot.

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EMERALDELEPHANT 4/12/2014 11:26PM

    Good for you for taking that first step!! You can do it!!!

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MCJULIEO 4/12/2014 10:05PM

    A very wise blog that I needed to read...!

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