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Grrh! Why do I let the cycle start?

Friday, November 14, 2014

Three days of bad eating and I can feel it everywhere. I have the excuses ready before i've even reached for the chocolate - this is the last one, I just need to get it out the house, i need the quick energy burst. It's rubbish! Do i feel energised? No. I feel angry and dejected. I do not need sugar. Sugar is my nemesis. Get a hold of yourself woman!

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SWEETNEEY 11/14/2014 7:13AM

    Yeah try not to even have it in your vicinity.

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I love my bump

Thursday, November 06, 2014

I was so panicked before i got pregnant that I'd hate the weight gain, and to honest there has been a fair bit of that too, but for the majority of the time, I love my bump! I can't even imagine how much I'm going to love what's inside!

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STARLITNIGHT 11/6/2014 11:52PM

    It is a beautiful experience, great memories are being made! emoticon

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I’m sorry, is this body yours or mine?

Monday, September 29, 2014

So I have now hit the sixth months mark in my first pregnancy. After an extremely sickly start, in which kettle chips and spaghetti hoops were the only things to satiate the nausea, I am now back on track, swimming five times a week and cooking healthily. So many things about pregnancy amaze me, from the not so good – who knew acid reflux could be so persistent – to the miraculous, like watching my stomach bounce around by its own free will.
What else has amazed me, in the not so positive manner, is people. Don’t get me wrong there are so many wonderful, supportive people out there who offer nothing but words of encouragement. But there are others that for some reason believe the conception of a child has melted away any physical insecurities or doubts I have about my body, while giving them absolute free reign to say anything they want. This is me at 6 months. (Please excuse the mess) I have deliberately not posted photos of my bump anywhere like facebook as I am so sensitive about my weight. Luckily I don’t need friends to tell me I’m big- strangers are perfectly happy to!

I have had countless – “Wow you’re enormous.” “This can’t be your first baby.” ‘You’ve put loads of weight on your hips and bum haven’t you?” “I was lucky, I wasn’t like you, I stayed really small my whole pregnancy.”
Why? Why is that okay because I’m pregnant? I don’t understand. Did I miss the memo where curtsey and basic manners were allowed to be skipped if you could tell someone was carrying? Can I get a copy of it please so I can tear it into a thousand tiny pieces and throw it back at the people who repeatedly say; “Have you thought about when you’re going to exercise properly again? I mean you are going to have a lot of weight to lose.” “How much weight have you gained?”
There has never been a time when I would comment on a stranger’s weight, and with friends it would only ever be to compliment how they are looking, never mention the extra few pounds that may have appeared over a holiday period. It is bizarre, and no matter how these people view it at the time it is downright rude. If you want to show an interest ask me questions ask about nursery designs or whether I know the sex. Ask what I’m looking forward to, how much she kicks or make a joke about sleepless nights.
But unless you think it’s okay that someone comments on that little bit of overhang at the top of your jeans, or all your other list on insecurities please stop telling me that I’m enormous.

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CDCSMITH2013 9/30/2014 9:59AM

    First of all, I think you look fabulous. There is something that is just astounding when it comes to how pregnant women are treated. I recommend ear plugs if you can't tune them out. I could never muster replying in kind (I had a friend that was so good at flinging back - "How incredibly rude!" when someone commented in a way that deserved the reprimand.) I will say that becoming a parent - the highs you think you'll expect, are much more and the lows you hope against hope against having, will feel deeper than you thought possible at times. It's rather amazing really. Good luck and congratulations.

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Climbing back up.

Monday, September 15, 2014

Last week I could feel myself sliding, this weekend I crashed. And only the week before we were saying how the pregnancy seemed to have helped leveled me out a bit, I should have known that would tempt fate. It was a culmination of things and nothing in particular. Possibly trying to do too much and being frustrated when my ballooning body objects. The writing was going well and then I received an email from the person who’s editing through my 5th draft with only negatives. I’m trying to focus on Russel Lynes’s quote, “no author dislikes to be edited as much as he dislikes not be published.’ I know the books are like the weight loss, it's so much saying I'm going to keep at it, if i want to succeeded I have to keep at it. Anyway, I am trying to climb back out. I will climb back out.

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SWEETNEEY 9/18/2014 8:06AM

    At least you know the editor is trying to get the best out of you. emoticon

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STARLITNIGHT 9/15/2014 1:16PM

    It is all a process of learning and doing, then redoing till it feels right. We will get there, have courage, and stay strong! emoticon

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RITEEBEE 9/15/2014 7:57AM

    You can and you will!!! emoticon emoticon

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    You will climb out!

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More than a brand new day

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Today is the first day, ever, since the beginning of our relationship,that I have not gone to work with my husband. It is the first time since I started a holiday job aged 13 in the world’s most beautiful sweetshop, (and we wonder why I have food problems!) that I have no idea when I will next get a pay check. I have to say it’s terrifying. I have cooked, I have cleaned, and I have worked on my novel and it is 11:11! When I said to my husband that I was worried I’d just spend the whole time doing absolutely pointless things that I love, like playing the piano and baking he said that was the whole point.
I know that I am hugely lucky and am not going to squander this opportunity. I suspect I will be doing a lot more blogging in the few months before the little one is due. After that chaos is sure to reign again!
Have a wonderful week everyone.

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XIAOLINMEI 8/28/2014 4:27PM

    This must be a great feeling, getting this chance to stop working! Enjoy your time hon emoticon emoticon

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STARLITNIGHT 8/24/2014 11:39PM

    Enjoy every moment!

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