Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Wow! What a fall I took this week diet-wise. It was really demoralizing. I kept telling myself, "How many times have you fallen before and not bothered to get back up. THIS TIME you get back up and work HARD to put those bad days behind you." So, tuesday and today, I picked myself up and carried on.
Weight-wise, this week is probably a wash. I'm trying to shed the 2.5 lbs of water weight I gained during that TOM and my poor eating habits over the weekend. I guess one thing this situation has resolved: I'm not scale obsessed anymore.
Thank goodness my appetite has dropped off and I'm no longer hungry all the time. In fact, today I ate at the lower end of my calorie range, so I'm feeling better.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
It's easy to log into SP when everything is hunky dory, but this week I'm struggling to control my appetite. Yesterday, on superbowl sunday I had a total lapse to make it two days of going over my calorie limit. Yesterday, I tracked nearly 3,000 calories. What happened? The perfect storm happened. I went to a Superbowl party during that TOM. I was already struggling to control my appetite. At the party, I was waist-deep in food and I just totally abandoned my plan.
I was a bit better today, but still slightly over my calorie limit. I'm trying to have a shooter's mentality about what's turning into a rough week. In basketball, a shooter's mentality means that if you miss a shot, fugedaboutit because the next one you'll make. So I had three sub-par days. That TOM will pass and I will once again have better control of appetite and my food environment.
The sooner I can put these days behind me, the better. I may be down but don't count me out. Here I am getting up from the floor after a one-two-(three) punch. Onward and downward.
Saturday, February 06, 2010
This morning, I hit the grocery store then returned home to start cookin' and cleanin'. I have started cooking at home more because it saves money and calories and I need to do both. Today, I made low-fat gumbo and a pizza casserole. Both of the recipes were from weight watchers. I am also going to make a macaroni, cheese and chicken casserole once I figure out how I'm going to store it.
I went a little haywire last night. I had purchased these weight watchers desserts and had way too many of them. I didn't exceed my calorie count for the day, but its never a good idea to get a large chunk of your daily calories from your desserts. I immediately identified two causes: 1) I hadn't eaten much during the day, which was a mistake; 2) I'm PMSing and I always crave sweets. I immediately forgave myself and got back on track this morning, so all's well.
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
This morning I was sweatin' to my DVD workout. As my teen-aged daughter walked by, I turned to her and said,
"I'm tired of this."
"Tired of what?" she asked me.
"Tired of workin' so hard to lose weight only to gain it back," I said.
"Then this time when you lose it, work hard to make sure you don't gain it back." she said.
It's so hard to stay patient sometimes. Everyday, when I look in the mirror, I'm reminded of the work I need to do and it can feel frustrating. To stay on track mentally, I need to shift my focus away from my ultimate goal of 155 and set some smaller goals. Here are some milestones I plan to observe during this journey.
198--10 lbs gone and a pedicure
188--20 lbs gone and a new size 14 outfit
178--30 lbs gone and a massage at a day spa
168--40 lbs gone and a new size 12 outfit
155--Goal--a new size 12 outfit AND a trip to a day spa
198--Here I come!!
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
This morning, I put on my blue collared blouse--the one I wear under my blazers when I go to work. It was about mid-morning when I realized something: I didn't need a safety pin. Ordinarily when I wear the blouse, I have to use a safety pin to prevent it from gapping because I'm kinda busty. Today, no safety pin.
It's such a subtle change, but one that I am totally happy with. I will be even happier when I drop a dress size, but that will take a while.
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