Monday, December 03, 2012
Yesterday, I spent hours just mentally focusing on my goal to drop the remaining 17 pounds. How did I do this?
1) I read LOTS of success stories and watched inspiration videos on youtube. One of my favorite links is about a girl who lost 150 pounds! You can view her latest vlog here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0US2AbQpxA&
2) I created a montage of me during my weight loss journey with the header "50 pounds down, 17 to go, you can do it!!" I printed it out and posted it on my fridge. I also printed out my favorite SP quotes for posting around my home.
3) I read a few magazine articles and a couple of e-books on motivation.
4) I revisited ALL of the reasons why I want to lose this weight and thought hard about what my life would've been like now if I had continued to keep my head buried in the sand this year. Would I have gained another 20 pounds? What would I have looked like? What size would I be wearing? How would I have felt about myself? Would I have ended up diabetic?
5) I thought long and hard about how my weight had been affecting me physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. Do I want to return to that life?
6) Instead of going to the gym, I took my dog for a hike at a nearby dog park. It was good to be outdoors in sunny 65 degree weather and doing something different for exercise. Changing up my routine helped me move for the pleasure of moving, not because it's something I'm supposed to do.
7) I created a list of 15 healthy meals--five meals per course and began developing a shopping list.
8) I planned what I would be eating today and focused on ways I could cut my calorie intake without feeling deprived.
9) Instead of moping about these pesky 3-4 pounds I can't seem to lose this month, I just accepted that my body is going to lose weight when it's ready to--not when I'm ready to. It just let go of 50 pounds! I focused on accepting that my body is using this plateau to make further adjustments before it will release more weight. Understanding this calmed me down a bit.
10) I mentally replayed all the compliments that I've gotten on my appearance so I could take ownership of my hard work and pat myself on the back.
The day I spent reading, thinking, visualizing, praying and meditating has already paid off. Today was one of the most disciplined, focused days I've had in awhile.
What I've learned is that some of the hokey-sounding activities that experts recommend for motivation really do work. I believe it was worthwhile for me to embrace the spiritual aspect of what I'm doing. Its such an important ingredient in motivation that it's impossible to move forward without it.
Onward and downward.
Friday, November 30, 2012
How many times do I need to remind myself, "If this was easy, then everyone would be thin." Staying focused during the holiday season is tough work. I feel like I'm in control, but not enough to really lose any weight. Instead, I've plateaued back and forth between the same two pounds. This time around, my plateau is not much of a mystery. I'm struggling for several reasons, which I'll list below:
1. I only have 15-25 pounds to lose. In order to lose more weight I will need to make more changes to my eating and exercise. Am I prepared to make these changes? My motivation to do so waxes and wanes.
2. It's the holiday season. Enough said about that.
3. It's harder to exercise. I usually drive to the gym after work. Now, it's dark when I get off work and all I want to do is go home and curl up on the couch with a good book, a cup of tea and a warm tv. Also, exercising outdoors is not an option on most days.
4. I'm hungrier (yikes!) Is it my body fighting what it believes is a famine, or is there something I'm eating that's increasing my appetite? I don't know, but this is a problem.
5. I'm having a hard time escaping the mentality of needing to lose X pounds a month, so I end up frustrated and impatient.
6. My sense of urgency is gone. I'm looking good and in better health, which is causing me to coast a little because I worked hard for 10 months.
I know my weight loss journey is not over and my doctor agrees. My BMI is 27. My waist is still a disappointing 36", which is keeping me out of a solid size 10. All 15-20 of my extra pounds are around my middle. Although my blood sugar is normal, I'm still pre-diabetic. My doctor says I have "inflammation." My health is still at risk.
The only thing I'm keeping in mind, if I'm correct, is that Jennifer Hudson didn't lose her weight in one year. I think it took her nearly two years. I remember when she went from "thick" to "average." At 5'9", she looked like she had gone from a size 16 to about a 10. Then, in year two, she started to look "slender." I estimate she went from a 10 to about a four. Now, I'm not trying to be a size four, but it helps to know that when you have a lot of weight to lose, sometimes it's going to take longer than a year.
I don't think I'm going to hit the weight loss goal I set for December 31. I'm bouncing between 2 and 4 pounds away.
What I'm thinking about doing is just calling this "plateau" my maintenance phase, then get aggressive in January, when the rest of the U.S.A. is dieting. Maybe do a two week "jumpstart diet" to whisk away some weight real fast and reignite my motivation.
Like the saying goes, "It's hard to lose weight, it's hard to maintain, it's hard to be fat, choose your hard."
Just for now, I chose to stick with my baby steps and do the best I can each day, even if it doesn't show up on the scale.
Onward and (one day) downward.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
I've been making new year's resolutions most of my life. Typically, my resolve is gone by Valentine's day and I'm back into old habits. In January of 2012, like many years in the past, I resolved to lose weight. Now, 2012 is almost gone and I'm 50 pounds thinner.
How did I manage to stay consistent all this time? When I really think about it, it's because I started where I was. Instead of turning myself inside out to "follow" a particular diet, I took a "diet" and turned it inside out to follow me. The habits I've developed with the help of Sparkpeople are healthful habits but they are also uniquely mine.
It's one thing to follow an eating plan, its another thing to bring it to you, mold it, adapt it and make it yours. I remember Weight Watchers back in the old days when foods were "legal" and "illegal". Weight Watchers doesn't do that any more. Why? Because there's no such thing as "legal" and "illegal" foods. It's just food. As part of the human condition, we all have a certain calorie budget. Go over it, we gain. Stay under it, we lose. How we allocate those calories is totally up to us. We could choose to spend our budget eating ice cream all day, but that makes no sense because our bodies require certain nutrients. Therefore, we know we must spend our calories wisely by choosing more nutrient dense foods more often. And therein lies the secret; chose the nutrient dense foods more often.
So I looked at my food habits and instead of focusing on my bad habits, I focused on identifying my good habits plus building a plan around foods and activities I enjoyed. For example:
*I enjoy preparing this unfried chicken recipe I found in an old Oprah magazine. [This is a healthy recipe. Keep it in your new eating plan.]
*I like broccoli, greens, green beans, tossed salads. [ All these foods are good for you, so keep them in your new eating plan.]
*I enjoy hamburgers and love barbecue ribs. [No problem. These foods are also welcome in the new eating plan. ]
*I like cake and ice cream. [Hey, believe it or not, there's room for these foods in the new eating plan.]
I did the same thing with my activity. I took inventory of what was available to me and what I was already enjoying.
*I don't exercise much, but I don't mind walking. [Fine, then walking is part of your plan.]
*I have an old stationary cycle in the garage. [Good, dust if off and cycle 10 minutes while you watch tv.]
*When I was young, I used to enjoy lifting weights. [Excellent! You should join a gym.]
*I have an exercise on-demand channel and some old tae-bo DVDs. [Good deal, let's find a way to include them.]
My next challenge focused on knocking out my two worst habits: inactivity and dining out. What were the barriers that were keeping these habits in place?
* I don't have time to exercise. [What are your options?]
1. I can get up in the morning. [You're a night owl; this only works on the weekends]
2. I can exercise at lunch. [Take an extra pair of sneakers and stash them in your office]
3. I can workout in the evening. [Go to the gym]
I actually entered appointments on my calendar designating my workout times. I prefer exercising in the evenings, but if the weather's nice, I'll grab my sneakers and walk outside during my lunch break. On Saturdays or Sundays I get up in the morning and go to the gym or walk.
And with dining out, I started packing my lunch more often and I looked up nutrition information at my favorite dining haunts and ordered the more nutrient-dense food 90% of the time.
But most importantly of all, I gave it time. This was and still is, the hardest part. It took me 10 months to lose 50 pounds. I still have another 17-20 pounds to go to hit my goal, which most likely won't happen until April or May.
Losing weight is like gardening. You don't plant the bulbs on a Sunday in October and get flowers on a Monday in November. You have to wait until March.
Losing weight is also like pregnancy. Just because no one else can see that you are pregnant, doesn't mean you're not pregnant. Just because no one else can see that you're thinner, doesn't mean you are not thinner. Eventually, the months go by, your body changes and everybody becomes aware.
When I was a teen, the longest I could "diet" was two weeks. It was two weeks of giving up all of my favorite foods and undereating because it was "good for me." Inevitably, I would "slip up" eat something "illegal" and then abandon the entire diet. Lots of us are still locked in that mentality and it's a harmful mindset. Time to let it go.
Above all, stop listening to those folks who are promoting fad diets. I'm old enough to have seen some version of all of them. Most of them are either extremely low-calorie or exclude entire food groups. Too extreme and not sustainable. The reality is that there are no quick fixes. But, with a sustainable plan, time and patience, you will eventually arrive at your destination.
Friday, November 23, 2012
In the last couple of weeks I've noticed that some of my size 12 pants are starting to bag a little. Two pair I cannot wear without a belt and another pair, which has no loops, are so big in the waist, I need a safety pin to take in the waistband. (Tacky, I know, but I really like the pants.) I also have another pair of blue size 12 pants I bought a couple of months ago that still fit but just don't look quite right.
So this week, I went to the store to try on pants. I selected a pair that I liked and took a size 10 AND a size 12 to the dressing room. I hid the sizes so that I wouldn't know which pair I was trying on first. Only after I slid on the first pair and zipped and buttoned them did I look at the tag and realize I was wearing a size 10. I stared at my image in the mirror in disbelief. Last year at this time, I was wearing size 16W's and 18's. Now, I could actually put on a size 10!
I tried on several pairs of pants and concluded that I am in between sizes. The only thing keeping me out of a size 10 is my belly. I am opting to wait until after I've lost another 7 pounds before I start buying pants in a smaller size. In the meantime, I will need to keep wearing belts with my pants and put away the ones that need a safety pin.
Onward and downward!
Monday, November 19, 2012
Last week, I posed for some pictures with colleagues. When I received the digital copies, I was unpleasantly surprised. I looked shapeless and matronly. What happened??
When I took a closer look, I realized that I looked heavy because my boobs appeared oversized and saggy. You see, I'm the classic apple-shape; large chest, no defined waist and smaller arms and legs. There was only one thing to do. Buy some new bras!
I visited my favorite department store. Turns out they had a "bra fitting" expert on hand. I learned that although my cup size had stayed the same, my band size had dropped and the loose band was causing my bras to "lift" in the back, creating this saggy effect up front. I had NO IDEA this was happening until I saw the photo.
Following her recommendations, I tried on about eight different bras in various sizes before finding one that provided me with proper comfort, lift and separation. So my lesson learned? If you are apple-shaped like me and look fat in photos--it might be because you are wearing the wrong sized bra. Run, don't walk to the nearest department store if your weight has changed by 15-20 pounds and get fitted.
Now, my bustline is higher, "perkier" which actually makes me look younger. Whodathunkit?
The funny things we learn on this journey to better health.
Onward and downward!
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