Wednesday, October 10, 2012
In January of this year, I was wearing sizes 16W, 18, 1x or 2x. I had one size 14 suit that did not fit. Today, that size 14 suit is the largest size in my mostly size 12 wardrobe.
When I inventoried my wardrobe for the fall season, I tried on just about everything. Most of my clothes from last year were way too big so I folded them up and put them away. They stayed there for nearly two months.
Finally, last weekend I sold some through consignment and donated the rest to the Salvation Army.
I'm nervous about my decision because now I feel like I'm working this program without a safety net. So many times I've relapsed and gained weight. This time, if I do, I would have to spend hundreds of dollars to replace all those clothes I got rid of. The thought of having to do that is anxiety-provoking.
I'm also struggling to rebuild my wardrobe. I've gone on multiple shopping expeditions, so I have several basic outfits, but I still have major holes in my wardrobe. For example, the winter coat I bought new last year is a size 2x. I tried it on and it was a joke. So I don't have a decent looking coat and it's getting cold. Stuff like that.
I don't know where talking about this gets me, but my intention is to document where my head is at during each phase of this marathon. I plan to revisit some of my favorite consignment stores next month or find a good coat sale, so I won't have to wear a coat I'm swimming in.
Onward and downward
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
Today is day two of returning to program after my intentional weekend calorie cycling. After averaging 2,400 calories Friday through Sunday, I'm now eating about 1,200 to 1,400 calories a day.
I also visited my thyroid doctor yesterday. I told her about my plateau and that I believe that starting on synthroid in August might be a factor. She acknowledged the possible link but congratulated me on dropping 10 pounds since June. I told her I was losing weight steadily over the summer, but it's now ground to a halt. I also told her I've felt MORE fatigued and sluggish since starting on the medication, which was intended to reduce an enlarged thyroid.
Why start taking medicine if it's doing more harm than good?
We made a decision together for me to discontinue the synthroid, since my thyroid no longer seems enlarged and it's not helping my fatigue. As long as my lab work shows normal thyroid levels, I should be okay, but I will need to get a new thyroid ultrasound and to test my levels every six months. I will also need to resume treatment if my thyroid enlarges again.
So we'll see.
I'm actually quite relieved to be back on plan after my intentional 2,400 calorie weekend. Still, I'm feeling soooo impatient. When, oh, WHEN will this plateau end????
I'm tired of stepping on the scale and seeing my weight swing between the same 2-3 pounds. I need to see a new number and I'm ready to work hard for it.
My diet is back to the basics. Lots of fruits and vegetables, few processed foods, lots of water. I am also trying to keep my exercise intensity up. This evening is bootcamp (ugh!) and I am hiking on Saturday. I'm also continuing to strength train, jog and workout on the machines.
SOMETHING has to give eventually and I HOPE it's not my SANITY.
Onward and downward (I hope).
Saturday, October 06, 2012
Today is day two of my experiment to eat well over my normal calorie intake. Normally, I eat 1,200 to 1,600 calories a day. Yesterday, today and tomorrow, I'm eating 1,800 to 2,400 calories a day in an attempt to banish a one-month plateau.
This morning, I attended a kickboxing class, which was super intense but fun. I think I enjoy the kickboxing class more than the boot camp class, although I still don't care for doing high intensity jumping jacks in either class. Nevertheless, I plan to fit this class in on Saturday mornings when I can.
Yesterday, I felt like I ate too much junk to boost my calorie intake so today, I'm trying to make sure I get my fruits and vegetables and to eat more protein. I am also keeping my water intake high.
Last night, I went to bed at 10:00 pm but did not wake up until 7:30 am. That's 9.5 hours of sleep! This week I've been focusing on getting more sleep, so I wasn't sleep deprived. Was it my diet? Maybe it was carbohydrate overload or a blood sugar crash? Either way, I'm intrigued and want to learn more about what happened so I'm going to do some reading.
Monday, I plan to drop back to eating 1,200 to 1,500 calories a day, high protein, low carbohydrate diet.
I think by next Saturday, I'll know whether or not this experiment has worked when I weigh in.
Friday, October 05, 2012
Some people are fortunate; when trying to lose weight, they steadily drop pounds and reach goal right on schedule. Well, for reasons I don't completely understand, I'm not one of them. My weight drops in dribbles, spurts and sputters, then stops and then starts up again.
Right now, I'm enduring my second plateau this year. In May, I experienced one that lasted a month. Now, I haven't lost a single pound since September 15th. Just frustrating.
I've read every article under the sun about stuff I can do to shake things up. I'm varying my exercise--jogging instead of walking, switching up on strength training exercises, getting more sleep, eating less processed foods, keeping my food diary as accurate as I can, drinking more water. Result? This week, I regained the one pound I lost in September. Arrgh!
I'm ready to try something different. I am going to EAT more today, Saturday, and Sunday, then get back on program on Monday. I'm taking a chance that I might regain some weight, but sometimes you have to take a step back before you move forward. Ninety percent of the time, I've been eating 1,200 to 1, 600 calories a day. This weekend, I'm doing what Jillian Michaels suggested on her website; I'm going to eat 1,800 to 2,400 calories a day. The premise is that my metabolism has slowed and my body is fighting weight loss. I will track everything and keep up the exercise. We'll see what happens.
Thursday, October 04, 2012
Yesterday at the gym, I got on the treadmill and started jogging 4 MPH. Usually, when I'm working out on the machines, I do 10 minutes on three different ones. What was different yesterday, was that I ended up jogging 4 MPH on the treadmill for 20 minutes and barely broke a sweat. Given my hate/hate relationship with running, I found this pretty remarkable.
What it means is I'm getting fitter and yesterday I discovered measurable results of my increased fitness. Before, the thought of getting on the treadmill and doing any sort of jogging seemed to be too much. Now, I believe a 4 MPH pace is doable, not just for one mile, but two or even three. Granted, that's still a slow pace, but for turtles like me, it's doable.
My next goal is to get on that treadmill and see if I can jog 4.5 or 5 MPH for 20 minutes.
I did jog 5K once this summer, but it took me an hour and it was anything but fun. Maybe if I design my own couch to 5K, I can work up to doing it again incrementally and in a way that's more enjoyable.
Onward and downward.
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