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Inches Lost and Future Goals

Friday, August 24, 2012

Yesterday, I ran a SP report to learn where I've lost inches. Here are the results:

Bust: -4.5"
Waist: -3"
Hips: -4.5"

My waist to hip ratio has risen from around .80 to .85 because I'm losing weight everywhere except for my waist. Just aggravating, dang it.

I also recognize these truths about my body:
1. No matter what I weigh, my waist will only be about 6-7" smaller than my hips. (Yech for being apple-shaped).

2. For my waist to appear narrow, I would have to part ways with the few curves I do have and just look angular, you know, like Olive Oyl or a ruler. I'm not feeling this idea even if it means a smaller waist.

3. My waist to hip ratio still puts me at risk of diabetes, even though my blood sugar readings are now normal. Hopefully, this will resolve itself as I take off the last 24 pounds.

4. I am middle-aged and fighting hormonal changes that are causing my waist to thicken anyway.

I am looking forward to "evicting" the next 14 pounds in 2012 and just maintaining my weight during the holidays. My hope is that being on maintenance for awhile will help me build the skills I will need to keep the weight off. I'm joining Weight Watchers in October so I can attend the weekly meetings, meet some like-minded people and stay focused. In January, I will work on the last 10 pounds.

Once I get to my goal weight, I will evaluate how I look and feel, then decide what to do next.

One other thought I have before I close; I have not lost this weight alone. During my journey, I've met with a registered dietitian, a personal trainer, and a therapist. I've attended an eight-week weight loss support group, read articles on SP and elsewhere and dug out old recipes from my Weight Watchers days. It's all about leveraging expertise in areas where you're weak, so you can build a better, stronger, faster, healthier, and happier YOU.

Onward and downward.

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MPLANE37 8/25/2012 8:41PM

    Going strong. Keep it up!

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MRFUZZ 8/25/2012 1:44PM

    I have also noticed the waist to hip ratio problem. This has been a source of frustration to me. But, I am finally just realizing that for me, it will always just be my reminder that I will always be at risk for high blood sugar and cholesterol. I am still so much better than I was a year ago. You really summed it all up so well! Every time I exercise now, I remind myself what wonderful things the exercise is doing for my inner body functions and metabolism. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SONYALATRECE 8/25/2012 8:14AM

    Wonderful determinaton!
Keep up the endurance & motivation.

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SPARKLE1908 8/24/2012 2:11PM

    Wonderful goals...I know you will exceed them....you have been very focused and dedicated and it is paying off!!!

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JAZZEJR 8/24/2012 12:59PM

    emoticon emoticonInches lost are the best. And don't give up on that waist. I will shrink too!

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Life at a size 12

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Today, when I slipped on my work clothes I found myself double checking the label on a new pair of pants: size 12. I haven't been a size 12 in more than eight years and I can't believe I'm wearing one now. I do understand what has happened with vanity sizing and that today's size 12 is larger than the size 12 of 20 years ago. Regardless, it's a size that has not been a part of my wardrobe.

At work, I'd catch my image in the full-length mirror in the ladies' restroom. I might as well have been staring into a funhouse mirror. Sometimes I looked "average" in body size. Other times I couldn't tell that I've lost any weight at all. They say it takes your mind awhile to catch up with your appearance and I believe that to be true.

I've also noticed that I'm getting more attention from men. No, they're not wrecking their cars as I walk down the street (lol) but I am observant enough to realize that things are slightly different. Men that would've passed me by without looking in my direction are now making eye contact and speaking. Quite honestly, I can't tell if it's because I'm feeling better about my appearance or if it's because I'm slimmer. To hear my friends tell it, it's because I look younger so I assume this is the reason.

I read somewhere one woman's observation that the world treats women differently at size 18, 12, 8 and 4. I am starting to agree with that, yet at the same time it makes me sad. I was a cute and nice person before I dropped weight. Why didn't I deserve a nice smile and 'hello.' before?

It's late so I will close here, but this is definitely making me think.

Onward and downward.

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MPLANE37 8/23/2012 10:17PM

    I can tell you why: Because you are slimmer. But hey, it is not all that unfair. That can be another motivation to get still slimmer.

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CEE_DUNCAN 8/23/2012 10:13AM

    I think yours strides are wonderful and you should celebrate! I'm with you in spirit all the way. It's a doggone shame society as a whole cannot see each of us beyond the surface. I do know when I don't feel good about myself it's just as powerful an elixir as when I do. I am more vivacious and confident when I am on point and it shows. Right now I am not as confident and my negativity upon myself is there for anyone to read.

What can I say? Sad but true.

Celebrate, woman! You are beautiful! emoticon emoticon

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ERICADAWN1986 8/23/2012 10:11AM

    Congrats on your new size!

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SUNSET09 8/23/2012 8:21AM

  Point well made as we can lose the weight, but ugliness is forever and not only in appearance, in attitude as well. The life style change is actually that, a life style change as your attitude, your confidence and you're wanting to do more, go out more and even attempt to wear a bikini or a bathing suit once again. It's a gradual change. This reflects outward as well and although there is a discrimination in oneís appearance, youíre probably radiating and opening up to allow attention as we can feel sometimes, what another person is bouncing off of themselves, especially in body language. The people who were there before you lost the weigh are the real deal! Enjoy the new you and know that we all have those choices to make. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KRISZTA11 8/23/2012 7:55AM

    I can agree with both explanation.
You feel better, you look happier... that may invite contact from men and women. I noticed that too.

On the other hand, physical appearance is very important to men (so I hear).
They may initiate contact with a woman they find attractive and may ignore others they don't like -it is not a conscious process.
For instance when I lost the weight I got many positive comments, 99% from women.
I'm sure men did notice I looked good but I guess they had no idea how I had looked before
; )

Enjoy being size 12!

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FLEURGARDEN 8/23/2012 6:56AM

    Woo Hoo! Congrats!

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HOTPINKCAMARO49 8/23/2012 12:37AM

  emoticon You go, girl! emoticon

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FUSCHIA6 8/23/2012 12:28AM

    I read somewhere that what a man's attracted to is fixed at about 15 or 16 years of age. Since I read that, I don't feel bad about it anymore. Men can't help what is attractive to them & it's nothing personal. I can relate to the joy of being a size 12 again. I am not really a size 12, but I can now get them done up & that hasn't happened since I was 18 years old - almost 30 years ago. I can do them up, & very soon, I will be wearing them on a daily basis. Best of luck to you in your journey.

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SH9719 8/23/2012 12:25AM

    There is definately a bias based on appearance, but I honestly think that people who feel better about themselves exude a more friendly aura and thus seem more friendly. As you said yourself 12 is not exactly competing with 8s, but since you appearance pleases you, you probably appear more confidant and pleasant to others.


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Another pound gone

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

This morning when I jumped on the scale, I discovered that another pound has disappeared. Yay for me. Not only that, itís a number that ends with a ď9Ē, which is always nice. Over the last week, Iíve worked hard to stay mentally focused, keep my food environment healthy and to increase the intensity of my workouts. Itís been an all-out effort to keep pushing and Iím glad to see an outcome on the scale. Goodness knows it doesnít always happen like this, so I appreciate losing this pound.

Most of the clothes in my closet no longer fit me. Itís a great problem to have, but itís still a problem. Iíve been trying to shop at consignment stores, goodwill, tj maxx and places like that for newer stuff, but my budget is limited. Thus, I have very little to wear. Intellectually, I understand itís important to get rid of clothes as I lose weight, but emotionally, Iím having a tough time thinking about bagging up my 1xís, 2xís and 16W pants and getting rid of them. These sizes have been part of my identity for so long and some of the clothes are good quality. Maybe I should get them taken in? Is that cheaper than buying new stuff?

Iím also concerned about how I will handle the maintenance phase. Ten years ago when I lost weight, I thought that being thinner was going to change my life and all my problems would evaporate. Nope, I had the same problems; I was just thinner. Then, life started getting in the wayóstress, relationships, a death in the family, relocation, etc. A few pounds returned here and there. Then I played ostrich and stayed away from the scale. Two years later, Iíd gained all of the weight back. How will I respond when life starts getting in the way again? I think thatís part of why Iím having difficulty getting rid of those clothes.

I guess I will start reading some of the maintenance boards on SP to see how maintainers handle things.

Onward and downward.

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ANNEMAC5 8/21/2012 2:31PM

    Well done it took me a while to stream line my wardrobe but little by little I let go of the bigger sizes,
My problem was that I still liked some of my clothes but by taking them to the charity shop i thought some one else could enjoy them

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KNEEMAKER 8/21/2012 12:52PM

  You are about there. Keep on keeping on. I am so proud of you and all like you. I hope to join in your happiness one day. You are an inspiration dear.

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CAKEMAKERMOM 8/21/2012 12:51PM

    It is a great problem to have, and on a limited budget you can still buy new! I do it by buying on sale and on clearance. The stuff I've been getting for this season has been 75% off. I just got a package in the mail of a bunch of shirts (I think I bought around 8 shirts and a skirt ) for $70, including shipping. I have managed other items for a couple of dollars too.

I have been thinking of taking in a few of the nicer xxl's I still have and turn them into larges. Just by taking an inch in on each side should make them fit better?

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MOBYCARP 8/21/2012 12:02PM

    Getting rid of clothes: I struggled with that, too. I ended up taking my biggest clothes and folding them up when I ran out of room in a closet. The pile of folded clothes sat in my bedroom for several weeks before I got around to donating them.

The next time, it was easier. I went through to sort out stuff that was two sizes to big, and folded it all. Then I waited patiently for one of the charity organizations to have a pickup day.

By about the fourth pass, I was folding up 34" waist jeans because I didn't want to make a mistake and pull something that didn't fit out of the dresser. But it took me about 7 months of being able to fit into 32" jeans to get to that point.

So, there's an alternate path to getting rid of too-big clothes; not because you don't fit in them, but because they no longer fit in your storage space. And that's because you're getting clothes that do fit, and that you will wear.

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Random weekend musings

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Today, I have no particular subject on my mind, so I thought I'd share some of the more random thoughts that filled my mind this weekend.

Softball--Saturday, I participated in my first softball practice with the team. Mind you, I have not played organized softball in 30 years. We fielded balls, played catch and had a round of batting practice. I was surprised at how rigorous it was. Today, the muscles in my arms, chest, ribs, shoulders and back are sore and achy. Am I too old to be playing?? I'm sore but not injured so I plan to play through it.

Goal weight---Today, I told my family that I made my goal to lose 20 pounds between May and August. Forty-two out of 67 pounds are now gone, with 25 pounds remaining. My family is getting inspired by my journey, which is amazing to me. My mother started drinking morning smoothies like I do. She made up her mind after learning that our uncle also drinks them every morning. He's 96 years old and still going strong. Just amazing! My sister joined a softball league like I did. She told our mother that my weight loss inspired her to be more active. Wow. My next mini-goal? Lose 15 pounds by December.

Friday--When I made plans to go see "Sparkle", I was concerned about overdoing it with food. Fortunately, my health conscious friend and I ate dinner at a Sushi restaurant next door to the theater before the movie. I was a total geek and actually printed out the nutrition information from their website so I could make better food choices. We didn't need to stop at the concession stand when we got to the theater.

BTW, Sparkle is a good movie. I know the critics gave it 2.5 stars, but I've found that when the critics start raving about a movie, it's a good sign I'm going to find the movie boring, convoluted and confusing. Sparkle is entertaining. Jordin Sparks and Whitney Houston were good, but I really believe that Mike Epps and the British actress who played "Sister" stole the show. Mike Epps was so in character that you forgot it was him. His character was likable, funny and despicable at the same time. One other note; Whitney looked old, tired and a bit heavy. If you're expecting a more mature version of the beautiful woman from The Bodyguard, you will be disappointed. There were some moments in the movie that were sadly ironic. You got the feeling that Whitney was really playing herself and also passing the torch to the beautiful and talented Jordin Sparks. The character wasn't a stretch for Jordin, but she held her own--especially when she had to sing. She is also 50 pounds slimmer and looks great in every scene. Overall, I do recommend the movie as light entertainment, but don't expect to be blown away.

Clothes--I have few clothes in my wardrobe that still fit so I went to TJ Maxx to buy some pants that I can wear to work. I am between a size 12 and 14, which is frustrating. I ended up buying the 12's because in another 5 or 10 pounds they will be perfect. I will wear the pants with long tops and jackets until those 10 pounds are gone. On top, I'm a 14 or a 16, which is an improvement from 1x or 2x. I can even fit into some size L's.

I also went to my favorite shopping haunt and was delighted to discover that they moved the Women's clothing downstairs across from the misses department. In an earlier blog, I wrote about the store's discriminatory layout. If you wore a petite, juniors or misses, you could shop downstairs near the front of the store. However, if you wore a women's size you had to go to the back of the store, take an escalator to the second floor and walk behind the cookware section to find your clothing size. Yes, they hid the women's clothes upstairs behind the cookware! Well, I'm pleased that they came to their senses.

Anyway, I'm sure I'm rambling now, so I will stop here. I need to do some menu planning and grocery shopping to prepare for next week.

Onward and downward.

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AATKIN01 8/20/2012 9:53PM

    thanks for the movie review. and im happy to hear that you are inspiring your family emoticon

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BLKLILY 8/19/2012 9:24PM

    Thanks for the movie review. I figured as much on Whitney. Not sure I'll go to the movies to see it though I can wait for the DVD.

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JAZZEJR 8/19/2012 5:14PM

    I enjoyed your ramblings :), especially the review of Sparkle. I think I'll go see it. Great choice with the pants. I do the same thing--gives me incentive to stay on my program till they do fit. Try them on each week to see how you're doing. Great job inspiring your family! emoticon

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Two pounds gone!

Saturday, August 18, 2012

This morning I weighed in two pounds lighter. I'm more relieved than excited because I thought my weight had plateaued. One of the most difficult aspects of losing weight is even if we do the program perfectly, the rate of our loss is going to be erratic. Lose 1 pound, gain 2 pounds, lose 1 pound, gain 1 pound, lose 3 pounds, lose 1 pound. That's enough to make anyone crazy. But the real challenge is when you KNOW that you haven't been perfect. Maybe you're on program 90% of the time, but the other 10%, well....that's life.

For me, it's been nearly 8 months of change. Some of my new food habits are becoming ingrained, which makes it easier, but I don't think I'll ever completely adapt to being on a food and exercise budget. Not when I was used to being sedentary and just grabbing and eating whatever I wanted with no thought about calories, saturated fat, or high fructose corn syrup. I know that if I return to that freewheeling lifestyle, the pounds will return. So here I am, doing what I'm supposed to be doing 90% of the time. It takes focus, commitment and effort to maintain consistency and the only way I can do that is to blog, read, and record what I do.

If you've ever watched Extreme Makeover--Weight Loss Edition, you'll know how inspiring the stories are. (If you haven't you can catch full episodes on Hulu.com for free) The formula for each episode is that a personal trainer works with a morbidly obese person to help them shed 100 pounds or more in 12 months. The first three months he actually moves into their home and turns their living room into a workout room.

In one episode, a man lost his home and was homeless while working the program. They had to move the exercise machines out of his house and put them in storage. Can you believe it? HOMELESS. Talk about stress. Life was definitely getting in the way, but he stuck to the program because it was all he had. He took up jogging at a nearby park, worked out at a community center gym and used their shower facilities to keep himself clean. By the end of episode, he had lost most of his weight, found work and an apartment and was dating a nice lady.

The lesson for me is that life is NEVER going to stop getting in the way. Stuff is always going to happen. Sometimes I eat more than I should. Other times I'm in environments where there are no good food choices. From time to time, I feel stressed, upset, angry, depressed, bored, worried--the list goes on. I cope by accepting myself as less than perfect. On some days, I will work the program brilliantly. Other days are so-so and other days I will want to forget. Yet here and there in the middle of muddling and struggling, a pound will disappear. I rejoice and then keep pushing.

Anyone who tells me that this or any weight loss program is easy is obviously on a different journey than I am. For me, it's not easy but SP makes it more fun. Somehow, I've managed to find a way to work the program over the long haul. I am only seven to eight months into a healthier lifestyle. I realize there are more lessons and more adjustments I will need to make as life goes on. But I'm ready.

Now, time to go celebrate my two pound loss by going to softball practice.

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SONYALATRECE 8/18/2012 10:55PM

    Congratulations along your journey!
Another victory...WooHoo!

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RESTORED_ME 8/18/2012 10:06PM

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I agree with your candid, yet reflective perspective on this journey to being healthier individuals. It's definitely a process that is challenging in so many ways... especially if you consider the fact that we have to undo whatever was done to get us to the place where we started this journey. Thanks for sharing and CONGRATZ!

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CAKEMAKERMOM 8/18/2012 9:06PM

    I love that show, real people, real life, no game show to get in the way. Keep on losing, you deserve every pound toward your goal!

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SPARKLE1908 8/18/2012 4:08PM

    I saw that episode (I record it weekly)...I believe that they are going to bring him and a few others back over the course of the show and have them "mentor" others that are going through it...

I agree that life definitely has a way of making you change your goals and we have to be realistic with everything that we are doing...including weightloss!

Congratulations on the 2 lbs gone!

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BABY_GIRL69 8/18/2012 3:38PM

    That's right celebrate those 2lbs with another 2lbs! That's what I'm talking bout! WOOHOO!!

God bless & continued success!!


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