Wednesday, August 01, 2012
This morning, when I stepped on the scale and realized that I've lost a total of forty pounds, I was elated. Forty pounds is a lot to lose, yet somehow, here I am. I posted a status update on Facebook along with before and after photos and I am totally overwhelmed by the supportive responses I've received from friends, family, colleagues and acquaintances. My hope is that maybe I can inspire another person to start their personal journey.
I've spent many times on this blog reflecting on the things I did to get here, i.e. diet and exercise strategies. However the biggest challenge has been mental. Staying positive, forgiving myself for minor slip ups and major screwups, and most of all, being patient with the process. We all know what we're supposed to be doing. That little voice inside our minds tells us. But to be successful, we have to quash that harsh inner critic. The one that plays those tape loops filled with negativity, like "you'll never succeed at losing weight," or "you were meant to be a fat person." Who says that our self-talk is always truthful? Why do we believe the bullsh!t that it feeds us? Why, because it gives us an excuse NOT to change and keeps us in our comfort zone.
How was this time different? I shredded my tapes of negative self-talk one food choice and one workout at a time. Suddenly, the evidence that I COULD be thinner and healthier silenced my inner critic and I started to believe. After that, it was a matter of being consistent, working my plan and planning my work.
Like the absolutely inspiring Nike commercial that premiered during the Olympics (a must see--the link is below), it's a matter of finding your greatness.
Onward and downward.
Monday, July 30, 2012
In August, I'm finally going to take the plunge and invest in a few sessions with a personal trainer. I've been exercising consistently since January and although I try to mix it up on my own, I am not sure if my workouts are as efficient as they could be. I put together my current exercise regimen using an assortment of books and magazine articles. Although it's been okay so far, I know that I will need to kick it up a notch to avoid another plateau. Since I work for a non-profit organization, investing in a personal trainer is a huge commitment because I am on a tight budget. Although I can't afford a trainer 3x a week, I can afford twice a month for about 90 days, so I'm going with that.
I have a total of 28 pounds to lose before I hit my goal weight. I believe that investing in a personal trainer will help me stay motivated to see this through. Today, I met with them to fill out forms, discuss my medical history and my training/weight loss goals. I've never worked with a trainer before so I'm looking forward to the experience.
Onward and downward.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
I have written ad nauseum about how hard it is for me to stay motivated for the long haul. I am constantly tweaking my routine to keep it fresh. Still, for me, it's a daily struggle. Some days I just don't "feel" like doing much of anything. One day, it occurred to me that it makes no sense to wait until I "feel" like eating healthier foods or exercising. Do I skip brushing my teeth because I don't "feel" like it? Once I realized that dropping weight is about routine habits and not some magical mystery tour, I just settled into doing what I'm supposed to do.
Today, I just want to stay on the couch, watch the Olympics and not do anything. Rather than beat myself up about it, I asked myself, 'what CAN you do today to get closer to your goal?' I decided to try a new recipe and prepare the food I need to eat for next week. When it's 105 degrees outside, you don't want to do much cooking, so I settled on a recipe that didn't require turning on the oven.
One recipe I tried was a black bean, corn and quinoa salad, which was really delicious. I also bought fresh fruit, cut it up and stored in the freezer for my morning smoothies. In the midst of preparing my foods, I found my motivation picking up a bit. True, I didn't get a workout in today, but I did go to a one-hour zumba class yesterday and worked out most days last week.
One other thing I did to stay motivated was to take more pictures. I compared my new photos to a few I took in May, and there's a clear difference. I'm just smaller all over. The most noticeable change is that my face is thinner and the ring of fat around my neck is almost gone. I've even got collar bones again.
The important lesson I've learned? There is always, something--SOMETHING out there that I can focus on to stay on track. It might not get me back to the rah-rah motivation I felt when I started out in January, but it helps me feel good about what I'm doing.
Onward and Downward.
Friday, July 27, 2012
I had a so-so week and am grateful that I still lost weight. I have now lost a total of 39 pounds. I am also 3 pounds away from my goal #2, which is to lose a total of 42 pounds by August.
Goal #3 is to lose a total of 57 pounds by the end of the year. That's 15 pounds between August and December. The holidays will be a tough time to lose weight, so I am planning to supplement SP with Weight Watchers meetings starting around October. Once I meet goal #3, I will only be 10 pounds from my final goal weight, which I don't plan to reach until March 2013. That's pretty exciting.
Staying on track with healthier habits can be tough on some days, but I know the alternative is to quit, gain weight and become diabetic. I can't allow that to happen so I carry on.
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