Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Today was not my most disciplined day. In fact, it was below average. So why do I consider it a victorious day? Because I navigated my way through a day full of temptations without ruining my diet. Mind you, I wasn't perfect, but I did MUCH better than I would've had I not been paying attention to my food intake.
For example, at lunch I was caught in a workshop where they ordered the typical box lunch: sandwich, chips, cookie and a pop. I told myself "Look, you don't have a choice in this situation. You don't have access to any other food. Eat the lunch and cut down somewhere else, later." The only modifications I made were to swap a regular soda for a diet and put mustard on my sandwich vs mayonaise. I did eat the cookie but promised myself I would plan better next time by bringing a piece of fruit and giving away the cookie.
Then, that afternoon, I went to a happy hour. Normally, I would've piled my plate with appetizers and ordered a fruity drink or martini. This evening, I sampled a slider without the bread and tried one other small appetizer. Again, not perfect but much improved over my earlier behavior. I supplemented my two appetizers with a light beer.
By dinner time I was back on program, opting for chicken and a small salad. What I learned today is that I don't have to handle things perfectly, I just need to improve. Some days, I'll be perfect, other days mediocre and still other days are going to be a disaster. This journey is not on a smooth highway, but rather a hiking trail full of ups, downs, rocks and fallen trees. Sometimes I might stumble along the way, but as long I continue to move forward, I'll reach my destination. See? That's why I consider today a victory.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Weighed in after my first week on the plan and I've dropped 4 lbs. I'm pleased with the results to date and know that I have to maintain consistency so that the 4 lbs turns into 8, 16, and 32.
Today I have a much-needed hair appointment which I'm looking forward to because I can just relax and let someone else take care of me, for a change. It's a good way to de-stress and I always walk out of there feeling more attractive.
One of the lessons I'm bringing with me from my previous success is to look my best, no matter what I weigh. Lots of times we as women tend to postpone the makeover and use it as a reward for reaching goal weight. There's nothing wrong with that, but we also must remember to do the things that help us feel good about who we are TODAY.
For me, what that translates to is regular appointments at the stylist, manicures/pedicures, a new outfit or piece of jewelry, or whatever it takes to create positive energy TODAY. This, in addition to staying patient and consistently following my program is what it will take for me to reach my weight-loss goals.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Today at work it was so cold that no one wanted to leave the building for lunch. Instead, my boss ordered pizza for everyone. When someone offered some to me, I declined. Instead I had a co-worker stop by a deli and pick up a salad. It worked out because people ate pizza while I was holed up in a business meeting with my salad. The only thing I screwed up with on that meal is that I didn't specify low-fat dressing. Well, next time I'll remember.
I eat out a lot as part of my job. It's just the nature of my work. I know that dining out is a big reason behind my weight gain. The other factors are a lack of exercise, stress, and a slowing metabolism. So part of my journey will involve learning how to make wise decisions in restaurants. Dottie's weight loss zone has a fantastic list of the nutrition content for chain restaurants. Still, when I dine at local places, the calorie content of the food is somewhat of a mystery. Right now, the main strategy I can think of is to keep my choices simple. Next week, I'm scheduled to have lunch in a Mexican restaurant. I need to figure out some wise food choices. I love black beans and guacamole, so if there's a reasonable way to include those ingredients in my food choices, then I think I can order something without evoking self-pity.
I love the sparkpeople.com online food diary. It's user-friendly and I'm able to access it at work and on my mobile phone as well as at home. It's really helping me manage my food intake. I went slightly over my fat intake today (thanks to the salad dressing), but with this tool, I will be able to make some adjustments. Wow, I'm sure I was consuming thousands of calories a day--not just from overeating, but from also overeating calorically dense food. I think that's what happens when I stop being vigilant.
I'm still trying to overcome the negative thinking. It's an ongoing battle, but I am charging forward. Persistence--not perfection.
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
This morning, I got up, exercised 30 minutes to a dvd, had a nutritious breakfast and got dressed. When I pulled up my pants, I was dismayed to realize that I couldn't even zip up the zipper, much less button them. Time was short, so I tucked the waistband under, threw a long matching top over my pants and dashed off to work.
Is there not a better reminder of the need to stay on program all day than wearing a pair of pants that you can't zip up? I know its a little ridiculous, but I swear it helped me stay focused. On the downside, I really felt fat and frumpy today. I refuse to shop for bigger clothes so I'm stuck doing these little fashion tricks until my waist shrinks.
Despite this bit of morning trauma, I'm still hopeful that I will eventually shed this weight. Actually, I expect to. I've continued to visualize a slimmer me and am nurturing that little voice in my head.
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
I swear the devil is messin' with me. He disabled my computer this weekend and I was pullin' my hair out trying to get it fixed without partin' with a lot of money. Not sure if I've totally solved the problem, but I'm glad to be online this evening.
In the last couple of days, my mood has become very no-nonsense and business-like. I've been tellin' myself "Do what you gotta do to succeed," or "This is what it takes." I haven't been whining, although I've really had to talk myself into tracking my food intake and exercising. I also bought a DVD player for my new exercise area and treated myself to a new workout video. We're supposed to get lots of snow this week, so this is going to be helpful if I find myself snowed in again.
I'm no longer whining about how tough it's going to be. Since I'm back at work, I've been busy, so that's been a helpful distraction. Plus, everyone at my job's on a diet so my environment has been supportive.
The challenge is going to be staying on task when my environment gets less supportive. Fortunately, that's where this website and the sparkpeople community comes in.
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