Friday, July 13, 2012
Yesterday afternoon, I received some discouraging financial news. After work, I phoned a girlfriend and cried on the phone with her. I vented a few moments, my girlfriend shared some encouraging thoughts and then she said, "Go to the gym and work out."
So I did. It wasn't the greatest workout because I was feeling depressed and crabby. I was hopin' no one would notice my swollen, baggy eyes. But the workout did one thing. It totally distracted me from my problems. Somehow, in the midst of lifting weights, my focus shifted to counting reps and what machine or free weight I was going to work with next. By the time my workout was complete, I was still depressed, but I felt calmer.
On the way home I contemplated stopping and grabbing something or other from a fast food joint, but I stood firm. If I was going to mess up my eating, it was going to happen at home. I had visions of plowing through an entire box of skinny cows. But, when I got home, that's not what happened. I ended up eating turkey and one skinny cow. Despite the stress, I had stayed within my calorie limits, drank lots of water, worked out at the gym, and even got all my fruits and vegetables in.
This morning, I feel better. I did an internet search regarding my situation and realized I still have options. I know that like all the other crap I've been through, this, too shall pass. All I can do is keep my head up and keep pushing forward.
Onward and downward.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
I met up with my friends yesterday for dinner at a Chinese buffet. I didnít fare that well with the buffet food, although I did the best that I could. I give myself a B- in terms of how I handled the buffet. I started with egg drop soup and a salad with just a little dressing. Next plate was mussels and boiled shrimp. Plate two consisted of small samples of any meat that was not fried, with the exception of one piece of fried shrimp. I avoided the sauces, anything fried, noodles and rice. Still, I probably just ate too dang much. Iíve improved my ability to handle the occasional buffet and am confident that Iíll do even better next time. Fortunately, I planned ahead and banked calories earlier in the week, so Iím still averaging about 1500 calories.
When my friends saw me, my weight loss was the first thing they noticed. But what was interesting was that they didnít just say I looked thinner, they were telling me that I looked healthy, less stressed and ďrested.Ē They understood how much Iíve endured in the last two years and were glad to see that I didnít just survive it, but appear to be thriving. Another thing that I found interesting was that none of us wanted to discuss it any further. Diet and exercise talk can get boring, so I didnít want to dwell on it. I preferred to bore them with talk about my grandson.
Today, Iím back on program. Iíve packed my lunch, will go to the gym this evening and will grill a chicken breast for dinner. Iíve GOT this and itís all good.
Onward and downward.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Yesterday I had lunch with a friend who hadn't seen me since last winter. She noticed my weight loss immediately, "You look great," she said. "You look so calm and relaxed---and thinner!"
She knows how much I've been through in the last two years and remarked that now that I'm not stressed out of my mind, its easier for me to be focused. She also quoted a friend of hers who said "It won't matter where you've been or where you are if you look great." Or something like that, anyway.
This evening I'm having dinner with two friends who haven't seen me since last summer. My girlfriends are wonderful, but I'm really interested to hear what my male friend is going to say. Last time I saw him, I had complained about all the weight I had gained. He said, "It doesn't matter 'cause you still have a cute face and big t!tties." LOL. Yes he's blunt. That's what support from a man looks like.
Anyway, time to get started with my day. Have a good one!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I don't keep it a secret that I still have a ways to go on this journey. However, sometimes its worth it to take a moment and really reflect on my progress. I've started this journey to lose weight and improve my health numerous time over my life. What made this time around different?
1. Sense of urgency. Without this, you won't have the jumpstart to your motivation and, trust me, you are going to need lots of motivation up front. It could be a picture that shocks you into action, health problems or a comment from a loved one. Whatever it is, it has to kick you in the pants. For me, it was finding out I was prediabetic. That's all it took.
2. Follow the SP plan. You are on this site for a reason, so take advantage of what it has to offer you. Eventually, you'll modify the SP plan for your needs but make sure you try out the features. If you are only using one or two tools, you are really missing out.
3. Track your food. Use the SP tracker. a Weight Watchers tracker, a notebook and paper. Believe me, it can be a drag and a pain to write everything you bite, but it keeps you accountable. Scientists have done studies that prove that keeping a food journal works. If you're still resistant, start small. Journal a few days a week and work your way to daily,
4. Exercise. It's a must. If you don't have time, then you really don't want to lose weight or improve your health. I don't think I'll ever be crazy about exercise, but I do it any way. Try different things until you find something that works for you.
5. Be consistent. You are building healthier habits so be patient with yourself. Give yourself the time you need to improve your daily habits. Keep working at it, every day. I tell people all the time. I was eating a fast food sandwich almost every morning during the first few weeks on SP. Why? I wasn't ready to give it up. Now, I've gone from 3-4 of those sandwiches a week to maybe one a month.
6. Be patient. I am STILL working on this one! Some weeks you'll lose. Other times, you're completely on program and you gain. Other times, there won't be a change. You won't lose weight in a logical straight line. On a chart, the line looks more like a lightning bolt. And, the less you have to lose, the longer it takes. If you only have 15-20 pounds to lose, a one pound loss in a single week is very good. Embrace it and keep up the good work. I have 32 pounds left to lose. I think these next 10 will be okay, but after that......I'll need to reread what I just told you.
7. Find a support system. Join the SP community. Get your friends to sign up with you. Find supportive family members who can lift you up and not tear you down. If someone is belittling you, and trying to make you feel bad, distance yourself. They are filled with negative energy and that's the last thing you need right now.
8. Reward yourself. You deserve that new outfit, that pedicure. If you don't have money, use your SP points and buy yourself something here! You are building a better you. It's work and it can be vexing at times, but you're here making it happen, so good for you!
Onward and downward.
Monday, July 09, 2012
If I've said it once, I've said it 1,000 times. I am one super-duper impatient woman. When it comes to weight loss, I want to see big changes right away.
But that's not how it works. You don't always see immediate results of your healthier lifestyle when you look in the mirror. The changes don't always register in your mind's eye.
This weekend, a friend took photos of me. When I viewed the photos, I saw a woman who was "slightly overweight" but not obese. I'm in a new clothing size (down to a 14 from an 18), my blood pressure has dropped to a normal range, men are hitting on me again. Yet when I look in the mirror I can't see that I've lost 35 pounds. Ironic, isn't it?
I figure if I can't see it with 35 pounds gone, it must mean that I will need to lose all 67 pounds before I can tell. I also realize that 20 of the pounds I lost, I had just gained. Some people never saw me at my peak weight, so when they see me again, they don't notice a difference. I don't need the outside validation, but I admit that sometimes it's disappointing.
I have a perfect litmus test on Wednesday. I am meeting up with a friend who I haven't seen since last summer although we chat on the phone regularly. I was at my peak weight the last time we saw each other and actually complained to him about it. I told him about a month ago that I've lost weight, but haven't mentioned it since. We'll see if he notices the difference.
I'm focused on reaching my second goal, which is to lose 42 pounds by the end of August. I need to lose seven pounds to make goal. It feels like it's taking forever, GRR!
Okay, enough whining. I am going to continue reading everything I can to help me cope with this long, long, long journey. Although my motivation has waxed and waned, I'm still on program food-wise and even worked out for an hour yesterday. I'm DETERMINED to see this through!
Onward and downward.
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