Thursday, June 07, 2012
Now I know why I wanted to wait until goal before I take pictures.
Tuesday, I was at a fundraiser and posed for a group shot. The photographer was kind enough to email me the picture yesterday. When I saw how I looked, my heart sank. There were four of us in the shot, one girl was probably a size 0. There was one other slightly overweight woman, and another average sized woman. Standing next to this group, I looked huge. I had a double chin, big flabby arms and my boobs looked oversized and saggy. The dress I was wearing over my leggings appeared cavernous. After my chest it just tented out and made my whole body look round.
How discouraging! When I left work, I hit the gym. I signed up for a brutal step aerobics class and then lifted weights for about 1/2 hour. The whole time, my self-talk was like, "This is hard work. Why am I working so hard? I've been at this for months and I still don't look good in pictures. When am I gonna see results in photos? If I've lost 30 pounds and still look big, what does it say about how much I really need to lose? What did I look like before? This diet and exercise stuff is so hard. Why does it have to take so long to see results? I know I look better in my clothes so why didn't it show up in the picture?"
Next, I started answering my own self-talk. "This is a lifestyle, not a diet. You've tried the other way for the last 30 years. You know where that path leads. Now, you're living a healthier lifestyle. It's only been five or six months and you're already complaining? C'mon, where's your persistence? Remember, you're prediabetic. You need at least 150 minutes of exercise each week. Besides, anything worth having doesn't come easy. Keep doing what you're doing. Don't give up. It will show up in the photos once you've lost another 20 pounds. And quit dressing to cover your body. You looked big in the photo because you are not wearing fitted clothes. Wearing a big, loose dress and leggings fools no one and makes you look bigger than you are."
Whew! It took some doing to get my mind straight after the picture. In the fall, the non-profit I volunteer with is doing a 5K fundraiser. Maybe by then, I won't look so big in the pictures. I'll make sure to run/walk in something fitted.
Wednesday, June 06, 2012
Yesterday, I updated my Facebook status, informing friends and family that I had lost 30 pounds. I was inundated with well wishes, support and congratulations, which was super cool. I promised that I would post pix once I reached goal.
There's something about going public that takes your accountability and kicks it into overdrive. Now I feel like I owe it to the folks I've inspired to see this process through.
For now, I'm focused on my intermediate goal which is to lose 20 pounds by August. This goal is reflected in my current ticker; I have 11.5 pounds to go.
Today, my mom asked me how much weight I've lost. When I told her 30 pounds, she said "That's good. How does that compare to what you weighed when we went to Vegas a few years ago?" I told her I needed to lose 10 more pounds to return to that weight. She said, "Then that's all you have left to lose. You don't wanna get too thin, you'll look old."
Oh, mom, seriously? Lol, I know I look good as a thick woman, but this is about my health.
When I went to Vegas my BMI was 28. My long term goal is a BMI of 25.
That's still 35 pounds away.
Onward and downward.
Tuesday, June 05, 2012
After only four days away from the scale, I decided to weigh in again. When the scale registered a 2.5 lb loss, I was so surprised I stepped off the scale, then jumped back on about three times just to be certain. Sure enough, 2.5 lbs gone!
For some reason, I think the difference has been my morning smoothies. During my five week plateau, I tried all kinds of things to shake things up; cycling my calories, changing up my exercise, tightening up my food diary. Maybe all of those strategies together contributed, but the biggest change I made was getting all my fruits and vegetables in. I had no problem fitting in two or three servings a day, but sometimes things got busy and I found myself eating meals that were within my calorie range, but lacking a fruit or a vegetable.
The smoothies kicked my nutrients up another notch. One smoothie amounts to three servings of fruit and vegetables. I was ingesting lots of flax meal, spinach, berries and kale as part of my smoothies.
Therefore, please take a lesson from my experience. If you are not getting the results you want, check your fruit and vegetable intake. If it is anything less than five a day, find a way to include more in your daily diet. For me, the smoothies turned out to be an ideal solution. Another strategy might work for you. I recommend that you invest in meeting with a nutritionist to assist you on this journey. My employer cafeteria plan reimburses me for my nutritionist visits, so I am planning to meet with her quarterly.
Above all, DON'T GIVE UP!
Monday, June 04, 2012
What is your formula for success? We all have one, but what becomes clearer to me over time is that a successful eating plan is as unique to us as our DNA. When we start imposing these weird and silly rules for everyone is when we set people up to fail. Ever seen these rules before?
1. Substitute fat free salad dressing for full fat salad dressing
2. Put your fork down between each bite
3. Chew each bite 20 times before swallowing
4. Avoid all processed food
5. Exercise in the morning
6. Don't cheat on your diet
7. Don't exceed your calorie limit
8. Don't eat after 7 p.m.
Now, I'm sure these rules work for someone, somewhere, but they don't work for me. In fact, some of them I think are just plain silly. At the same time, I've found things that work specifically for me. Examples are:
1. Drink a smoothie for breakfast most days of the week.
2. Exercise 4 evenings during the week and on Saturday morning.
3. When you have a social or event to attend, bank your calories and indulge. (E.g, I ate a bratwurst at a major league baseball game. Seemed kinda silly NOT to)
4. Eat a mid-morning snack and a mid-afternoon snack so your blood sugar doesn't get too low.
5. Don't just eat certain foods because they're good for you; eat them because it's what you like.
Those are just a few examples of how I'm doing this program. What are things that work/don't work for you?
Saturday, June 02, 2012
Today, I went to my favorite store to buy some summer casual clothes. With 28 pounds gone, I had no idea what size I am. I tried on a few 1x's in the women's department but they didn't look right. I realized with smug satisfaction that I would need to go downstairs and shop in the misses' department. At the same time, I realized something else. The women's clothing department is on the second floor in the back of the store behind the cookware. BEHIND THE COOKWARE?! Seriously?
In other words, when you walk into the store, the misses, juniors and petite departments are near the door. But, if you are over a size 16, you must walk to the back of the store, go up an escalator, pass the lingerie and cookware before you see the women's clothing department. I had been so accustomed to heading for the escalator, that I hadn't noticed. It made me feel like the store wants to hide fat women because our appearance doesn't jive with the store's image. This might not register on a conscious level, but rest assured our minds are receiving this subliminal message. All these years I've shopped there and didn't notice what they were doing until today.
Okay, so the entire time I'm shopping in the misses' section, I felt out of place. I was waiting for one of the clerks to follow me around or remind me that the women's section was upstairs, you know, behind the cookware. None of that happened. I tried on dozens of items and settled on a size 14 pair of Capri's, and two XL tops.
Anyone who wears these sizes knows they are straddling the women's and misses departments. It's kind of awkward to be somewhere between a size XL and 1x. Size 0X, exists, but they are as hard to find as a Chico's store size 3.5 or a Junior size 17.
The only answer for me is to drop a few more pounds and leave behind the department that's been so familiar to me for the last four years. Goodbye women's department, hello misses. Hopefully, one day your collections will be moved to the first floor, next to the misses, juniors and petite clothing, because your customers, too, are just as worthy.
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