Thursday, May 17, 2012
I have a high school graduation to go to, so I went to the department store to shop for a new outfit. When I'm heavier, I usually gather up a few outfits, try them on and just buy the one that fits, whether or not its flattering.
Today, I went to the store and tried on five summer dresses. I looked terrific in four of them! Instead of seeing lumps, rolls, bumps and double chins, I saw toned shoulders and arms, smooth, clear skin and the beginnings of an actual jawline and waist. How often does THAT happen? I was so undecided about which dress to buy that I had to put them on hold while I think it over.
Tomorrow, I have an appointment with a nutritionist to discuss my prediabetes. I sent her two week's worth of my SP food diaries along with responses to some questions she emailed me. I am looking forward to getting feedback on how I can improve my eating habits.
Overall, it's been a good day, which is something I never take for granted.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Time for a divorce. From my bathroom scale, that is. I weighed myself yesterday and learned that I'd gained half a pound (of water). It seems that when the scale doesn't give me immediate good news, I weigh constantly until the scale gives me a number I want. Daily weigh ins are probably fine for maintenance, but I'm gonna go nuts if this continues.
So I've pledged that after my official weigh in on Saturday, that I won't weigh again until Saturday, June 9th. At least then, I'll have a couple of weeks of sanity.
I am working diligently to move off of this plateau. I've read and implemented all of the SP tips about changing up the exercise, calorie cycling, etc. What the articles and message boards DON'T tell you is how LONG it takes to see results.
The only cure to a plateau I'm seeing is patience, which I'm ABOUT to run out of. I'm just SO frustrated with plateauing at such a high number. Why not a plateau when I'm 15 lbs from goal?? Why not a plateau because I quit tracking my food or reduced my exercising?? But NOOOO!! It has to happen when I'm RAMPING UP the exercise and CONSISTENTLY keeping a food diary!!
In the words of the late, great Marvin Gaye, "Makes me wanna holler; throw up both my hands."
For real---I'm literally ready to scream. But the only thing I can do is just keep on keepin' on.
Time to press forward.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
This week, I'm really trying to stay focused on WHY I am doing the SP program. Yes, I want to lose weight. Yes, I want to look good in my clothes, but most of all, I'm highly motivated to AVOID diabetes. It was that self-talk that got me to the gym yesterday. When I told myself that I didn't FEEL like working out, the immediate response I had was "Then, do you FEEL like being a diabetic??" My internal critic was silenced and I drove to the gym without further ado.
I still have my medium-term goal to lose 20 lbs by August 31st, but my real motivation is to reduce my blood sugar count. I am scheduled for a third blood test around July or August. If I drop the weight, that will bring my total weight loss to 45 lbs.
Yesterday, after I left the gym, I ran up two flights of stairs without getting winded. It was only when I was near the top of the second flight that I realized how remarkable that was. Six months ago, two flights of stairs would've left me breathless and winded.
I thought my daughter was going to treat me to a Sunday buffet on mother's day. I was wrong. My gift was a 1 hour massage at a swanky day spa in an upscale Kansas City suburb. That was two days ago and I'm still feeling calm, cool and collected.
No real change on the scale...yet. After bouncing up and down between two pesky pounds, I'm back down to my lowest recorded weight. My official weigh in is on Saturday morning so hopefully, the scale will continue to move down. For extra help, I've cut my calories to the low end of my range, cut out soft drinks, and am taking tea with lemon juice. Yesterday, at the gym, I worked hard--switching between jogging and walking on the treadmill and tackling the elliptical using lots of resistance. By the time I finished, I was drenched in sweat.
So what if there's no change on the scale this week, either? I keep mixing it up, keep my body guessing, but regardless---I stay on program.
Monday, May 14, 2012
Yesterday, I planned to eat 2,000 calories. The idea was for me to eat more, thus firing up my metabolism, keeping my body guessing and moving off of this plateau. It's too soon to tell whether or not this worked, but I did learn a few things about myself that day.
1. It's a good idea to plan specifically what to eat that day. Even at 2,000 calories, if the planning isn't on point, you could go over.
2. If you're going to indulge in high calorie, high fat food make sure the quality is high. I had this pasta dish from an italian restaurant that was worth the splurge.
3. Drink your water
4. Maintain awareness of what you are eating
5. Write everything down
6. if you end up eating lots of junk, identify ways to improve next time.
I think these lessons will also help me maintain whatever weight I lose.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Today, my daughter has asked me to block off my time between 11am and 1pm. She won't tell me what she has planned, so I am assuming it's going to be brunch. After my struggles at the Casino buffet, I grew concerned about how well I was going to handle a Sunday brunch. Rather than fret and worry, I just said to myself, "What if you just budget 2,000 calories for the day?"
I'm trying this for several reasons:
1. A message on SP popped up in my food diary for the third time in two weeks suggesting that I am undereating and recommending I adjust my calories.
2. Since we don't lose weight in a straight line, why should my daily calorie intake be in a straight line?
3. It's an excuse to eat. Yeah, I said it. I like to eat. If I didn't, I wouldn't have a weight problem.
4. Maybe it will break my plateau.
5. I can go back to my regular plan tomorrow.
6. I won't feel guilty, abandon the plan, etc.
7. I've never tracked my eating with a planned 2,000 calorie intake. Usually, when my daily calorie count is 2,000, it means I've screwed up.
I'm already on my way. I woke up at 6:30 am and decided to eat breakfast. I ate a breakfast burrito with a whole wheat tortilla, three eggs, a bit of cheese and two slices of turkey bacon. I also drank 8 oz of juice. That's nearly 500 calories right there. Then, I'll probably eat around 1,000 calories at brunch and have a snack at dinner time--popcorn or something.
Really, I have no idea if this is going to work or not. Who knows? It's something new that I'm trying.
On a completely different note, yesterday I was out running around with the dog and my jeans slid down to my hipbone. I tucked in my t-shirt to keep them from sliding, but that didn't help. I was constantly hitching my pants up. When I got home, I discovered that I could pull my jeans off without unbuttoning or unzipping them. Guess it's time for that pair to go.
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