Tuesday, May 15, 2012
This week, I'm really trying to stay focused on WHY I am doing the SP program. Yes, I want to lose weight. Yes, I want to look good in my clothes, but most of all, I'm highly motivated to AVOID diabetes. It was that self-talk that got me to the gym yesterday. When I told myself that I didn't FEEL like working out, the immediate response I had was "Then, do you FEEL like being a diabetic??" My internal critic was silenced and I drove to the gym without further ado.
I still have my medium-term goal to lose 20 lbs by August 31st, but my real motivation is to reduce my blood sugar count. I am scheduled for a third blood test around July or August. If I drop the weight, that will bring my total weight loss to 45 lbs.
Yesterday, after I left the gym, I ran up two flights of stairs without getting winded. It was only when I was near the top of the second flight that I realized how remarkable that was. Six months ago, two flights of stairs would've left me breathless and winded.
I thought my daughter was going to treat me to a Sunday buffet on mother's day. I was wrong. My gift was a 1 hour massage at a swanky day spa in an upscale Kansas City suburb. That was two days ago and I'm still feeling calm, cool and collected.
No real change on the scale...yet. After bouncing up and down between two pesky pounds, I'm back down to my lowest recorded weight. My official weigh in is on Saturday morning so hopefully, the scale will continue to move down. For extra help, I've cut my calories to the low end of my range, cut out soft drinks, and am taking tea with lemon juice. Yesterday, at the gym, I worked hard--switching between jogging and walking on the treadmill and tackling the elliptical using lots of resistance. By the time I finished, I was drenched in sweat.
So what if there's no change on the scale this week, either? I keep mixing it up, keep my body guessing, but regardless---I stay on program.
Monday, May 14, 2012
Yesterday, I planned to eat 2,000 calories. The idea was for me to eat more, thus firing up my metabolism, keeping my body guessing and moving off of this plateau. It's too soon to tell whether or not this worked, but I did learn a few things about myself that day.
1. It's a good idea to plan specifically what to eat that day. Even at 2,000 calories, if the planning isn't on point, you could go over.
2. If you're going to indulge in high calorie, high fat food make sure the quality is high. I had this pasta dish from an italian restaurant that was worth the splurge.
3. Drink your water
4. Maintain awareness of what you are eating
5. Write everything down
6. if you end up eating lots of junk, identify ways to improve next time.
I think these lessons will also help me maintain whatever weight I lose.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Today, my daughter has asked me to block off my time between 11am and 1pm. She won't tell me what she has planned, so I am assuming it's going to be brunch. After my struggles at the Casino buffet, I grew concerned about how well I was going to handle a Sunday brunch. Rather than fret and worry, I just said to myself, "What if you just budget 2,000 calories for the day?"
I'm trying this for several reasons:
1. A message on SP popped up in my food diary for the third time in two weeks suggesting that I am undereating and recommending I adjust my calories.
2. Since we don't lose weight in a straight line, why should my daily calorie intake be in a straight line?
3. It's an excuse to eat. Yeah, I said it. I like to eat. If I didn't, I wouldn't have a weight problem.
4. Maybe it will break my plateau.
5. I can go back to my regular plan tomorrow.
6. I won't feel guilty, abandon the plan, etc.
7. I've never tracked my eating with a planned 2,000 calorie intake. Usually, when my daily calorie count is 2,000, it means I've screwed up.
I'm already on my way. I woke up at 6:30 am and decided to eat breakfast. I ate a breakfast burrito with a whole wheat tortilla, three eggs, a bit of cheese and two slices of turkey bacon. I also drank 8 oz of juice. That's nearly 500 calories right there. Then, I'll probably eat around 1,000 calories at brunch and have a snack at dinner time--popcorn or something.
Really, I have no idea if this is going to work or not. Who knows? It's something new that I'm trying.
On a completely different note, yesterday I was out running around with the dog and my jeans slid down to my hipbone. I tucked in my t-shirt to keep them from sliding, but that didn't help. I was constantly hitching my pants up. When I got home, I discovered that I could pull my jeans off without unbuttoning or unzipping them. Guess it's time for that pair to go.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
The plateau continues. I'm still gaining and losing the same two pounds.
I've adjusted my exercise by adding 15 minutes to my workouts, so now I'm working out 45 minutes to an hour and averaging more than 250 minutes a week. I have increased the intensity; for example the other day, I jogged one mile of a two mile walk. Jogging is not something I have enjoyed because I can't even run a mile, plus I'm very busty so everything shakes. Nevertheless, I jogged and it wasn't too bad--I had a new sportsbra on and it did a good job of stoppin' the floppin' --lol.
I've started varying my calorie intake, some days I'm eating at the top of the range and other days I'm at the bottom. I am really starting to focus on recording every bite, lick and taste and measuring my portions instead of just eyeballing them. I even realized I haven't been counting the cream and sugar in my morning coffee, so I've added that.
I did take my measurements this morning. I'm down one inch in my hips, thighs and my waist. Three inches right there. So good things are happening. Just not on the scale.
Friday, May 11, 2012
In the Kansas City area, we live near several casinos. Last night, I went to a friend's birthday party which was held at a casino buffet restaurant. All I can say is, buffets are tough. It's hard to make good choices when there's so much food right there in front of you. At least with a restaurant, you're just reading the menu and looking at pictures or using your imagination. On top of all of that is the social pressure to eat, plus the internal pressure you feel to get your money's worth when you are spending $35 on a meal.
So, I understood immediately that I needed to walk a line between overeating and feeling resentful and deprived. I also could not control how the foods were prepared, so there's no way to accurately gauge calorie counts. Despite all of that, here's what I ended up doing: Plate one was asparagus, steamed cabbage with bacon, a slice of beef, a few boiled shrimp, some steamed mussels. Plate two was pineapple, strawberries and a 1" square of carrot cake (I ate the cream cheese frosting and left the cake).
I gave myself a C+, because it was still a lot of food. But, in a previous lifetime, I would reached for fried foods and gotten several desserts.
I stayed overnight at the casino in one of the hotel suites. I did a mediocre job this morning at the breakfast buffet, too: bacon, sausage, eggs, hashbrowns, a donut hole, pineapple, cantalope. An estimated 600 calories. I did manage to skip the pancakes, blintzes, sh!t on a shingle, and array of doughnuts and sweetrolls.
What I did right this morning was I got up early, went to the workout room and exercised for 45 minutes--30 on an elliptical trainer and 15 on a stationary cycle.
I realize this trip to the Casino probably wrecked my ability to get off of this plateau, but somehow I'll have to stay strong and keep focused.
Onward and downward.
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