Friday, March 11, 2011
This has been a stressful, topsy turvy week. I have a lot on my mind these days including concern about my child, my job and all the stuff I need to do that's being neglected. I feel like there's very little going on in my life right now that I can control.
That is, except the healthy lifestyle I am trying to create for myself. It seems like it's the only thing I can control. So, despite the fact that I'm a stress eater, I chose to cling tighter to my healthful eating plan so that I can continue to see progress. I wasn't perfect this week, but considering the circus that's become my life, I'm handling things admirably well. In fact, I'm ready to give myself a high five for effort.
Staying on the plan calms me because at least one thing that's been bothering me is still being addressed. So everytime I made a misstep, I climbed right back in the driver's seat at the next meal.
Persistance--not perfection. My new mantra. Onward and downward.
Saturday, March 05, 2011
Rut-Rho, as Scooby-doo says.
Ever had a time when you were so disappointed in your kid, you were ready to box them in the head? Today is my turn. Sometimes, it's hard to accept that our kids are not little angels but human beings who make mistakes--some of them damn doozys.
I am prone to overeating when stressed and these are truly trying times. How did I manage the stress today? I went out and got a one-hour massage. Calmed me right down and was worth every penny of the $70 I spent. I also drove around a bit (which is a bit crazy given gas prices, but oh, well), dined out at a small place I like to go to and hit my favorite bookstore.
Did my eating stay on track? Actually, so far it has. I kept telling myself the following:
1) Eating is not going to change anything.
2) Eating is something you CAN control--you can't control all the dumb things your child is going to do.
3) You need to find a new way to deal with the stress.
This was running through my head like a broken record. Still, I could improve my performance on my plan; I've missed several exercise sessions, but have committed to a boxing class tomorrow, so I'm nipping the laziness in the bud. I also need to drink more water and eat more fruits and vegetables.
I'm still figuring all this out. Just ask for y'all to pray for me so that I can restrain myself from boxing my kid in the head. Good thing I'll be hitting a punching bag in class tomorrow, lol.
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
Today, I met up with colleagues at my favorite soul food buffet. The lunch date was scheduled weeks in advance so I had some time to strategize. Here's what I did:
1) I ate a salad for my first course. No fancy ingredients or mayo-based stuff; just veggies and a drizzle of dressing.
2) I opted for two small skinless baked chicken thighs, 1 small fried chicken wing, and one 4" piece of fried fish. I wanted a taste of my favorites without feeling deprived.
3) I rounded out my plate with collard greens and cooked cabbage. I avoided the mac and cheese, stuffing, cornbread and rolls.
4) For dessert, I had a very small portion of peach cobbler. This place makes the best cobbler and I didn't want to miss out.
5) I drank lots of water.
6) I ate a light dinner.
Everyone else was piling their plates high with fried chicken, stuffing, cornbread and macaroni, while most of my food were vegetables. I don't think anyone noticed because I made as many trips to the buffet as they did and I didn't get fussy about what I was eating.
For me, I tweaked my usual habits and managed to find the balance I needed to handle the buffet without going off the deep end or getting mad because of feeling deprived.
I was able to have my (cobbler) and eat it, too.
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
Today at work when I stood up from my desk, my pants slid so far down my hip bone that I was afraid I was going to lose them entirely. It was a scary but funny moment. I guess its time to put the size 16W's away. I'm a weird in-between clothing size, but I think I'd better buy another pair of pants.
This evening, on my way to the gym, I was a bit whiny "Why am I working so hard?" I asked myself. "I'm working so hard and the road is so long!" Finally, I talked myself down. "Well, if you quit this program, you are pushing your goal even farther into the future." So I trudged off to the gym. I was hardly motivated. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on Level 12 of the stationary bicycle, and then headed home.
My body is sore--I'm not in pain, just a bit sore and achy from Sunday's strength training. I've still got the middle-aged muffin top; can't wait 'til that disappears. I've noticed that my arms are more toned and the fat around my face is diminishing. My boobs are still the same--I could stand to drop a cup size, but I suppose that won't happen for awhile. My waist and hips are a little smaller, and my legs look a bit more toned.
I've set a goal to drop 10 lbs by the end of April. Hopefully, that will put me solidly in a 14. At that point, I'll be ready to reward myself with some size 14 pants that won't fall.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Another 2.5 lbs gone! I had started to accept that maybe I was a slow loser and that no matter how hard I tried, I was destined to lose slowly and experience frequent plateaus. I decided to focus on other things like how my clothes fit, my improved moods, tweaking my food intake and exercise. I had just accepted that I was probably going to experience another plateau or lose one lb and I was getting to be okay with that.
When I weighed in this morning, I was so shocked to see 2.5 lbs gone that I literally jumped on the scale five times--and I do mean jump--not step on gingerly. I wanted to be sure that my scale wasn't broken or that something goofy was going on. But each time, the same number popped up. The first thought through my mind was "my hard work is paying off!"
The important lesson I've learned is that our bodies release weight only when they're ready to and it almost never follows the pattern of instant gratification that we're used to as Americans. I am also proud that I didn't get frustrated and quit, but just hung in there and did my best to understand how important it is to BE PATIENT.
So today, I'm feeling really, really good. Onward and downward.
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