Saturday, February 19, 2011
I dropped another pound this week, which I'm glad about. I did all the little things I'm supposed to do to lose the weight. I'm recording everything I eat, working out 4-5x a week for 30 to 60 minutes, taking my vitamins, drinking more water, and reading lots of inspiring blog posts, articles and books. I think the hardest thing is to be patient. I know I'm repeating myself, but I think that's the biggest challenge for me. I'm so used to instant gratification that it's tough to truly internalize that this is a marathon and not a sprint.
Still, I'm feeling much better than I did and feel more attractive than I did, even if my weight is still pretty high. The other thing I'm acutely aware of is that by February 19, 2010, I had quit logging into SP and abandoned my plan. The fact that I am still here, day after day and now week after week is something I'm ready to reward myself for.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Recently, I've noticed something that is strangely new to me. When I don't workout, I miss it. I haven't worked out in two days and I'm kinda itchin' to get back in the gym. I guess I like the peace of mind that comes with knowing I'm doing what I'm supposed to do in order to drop the weight. The gym has also turned into a familiar place for me; I'm familiar with the equipment and I"m starting to feel more a part of the community. There's even a fella tryin' to holla at me there, which I find amusing. He seems to think it's cute that I'm doing some serious weight training, not just doing aimless curls with 3 lb dumbbells.
With spring fast approaching, I can't wait to try out the barely used bicycle I purchased for $20 up at a neighbor's garage sale. I also want to go walking at the botanical garden which is located about 7 miles from my house and includes a hiking trail. There's also a walking/biking trail at another park about two miles from my house.
I am looking forward to trying out new ways to move this year. I heard there's paddleboating at a nearby lake. I also want to attend a tai chi class. Maybe I'll hire a personal trainer to examine my strength training program and tweak it as needed. I've also thought about enrolling in a martial arts class or signing up for tennis lessons at a court that's opened down the street from my house. Maybe on days before I get my hair fixed at the salon, I'll go swimming at the pool next door to the gym I attend. I'm a decent swimmer and loved the water as a child.
I figure that the more things I try out, the more likely I am to find something I truly enjoy. This year, I'm determined to find out what type of workout I can really be passionate about and to have fun doing so.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Today, I went to the grocery store and picked up one chub of ground beef and another 3lbs package of ground beef. It represented the eight pounds I have lost. I was surprised at how much meat that is.
The drop in weight plus the strength training has put me somewhere between a 16 and a 14. I can pull on 14 pants, but their kinda tight. In the meantime, my size 16W jeans are sagging. Last week, I pulled them down to my ankles without unbuttoning or unzipping them. I think that once I drop another 10 lbs, I will be a solid size 14 pants.
On top, I started out a size 18 or a 1x. Now, the 1x size is not looking quite right, but an XL is still a bit snug. I'm somewhere between misses and women's sizes, or maybe a size 0X. Today, shopping for clothes was kinda fun--not painful at all. I wanted to buy some trendy, casual stuff that wouldn't look crazy on a woman in her 40s.
It's hard for me to shop as a middle-aged woman. I don't want to dress like my 18 year old daughter, but I'm not ready to wear the stuff that my 70 year-old mother wears. I also don't want to be one of those women who is still wearing stone-washed jeans because they looked good in the 80s.
It's also hard to find cute clothes when you are a 40 something woman wearing more than a size 14. Still, I'm not going to let the difficulties get the best of me. One of the things I learned from my daughter is that I should try on stuff I wouldn't ordinarily consider just to see how it looks on me. I might be pleasantly surprised. So today, I hit a massive sale at Steinmart. I must've tried on 10 different items of clothing. It took me nearly an hour of trying on stuff before I settled on four pieces of clothing.
Two of the items are those t-shirts with the built in asymmetrical draped hemline vests. (See the link I added below). They're trendy but not too "teenagery." I will wear them with jeans and my black ankle boots.
Anyway, I'm focused on the next 10 lbs. Losing 10 lbs will put my weight where it was six years ago, when I considered it to be the top of my range. At 20 lbs lost, I'll be a solid 14 and an occasional 12. If I lose more than 20 lbs, I will be at a weight I haven't seen since 2003. To me, 25 lbs seems DOABLE and will put me at what I call my fightin' weight. My biggest obstacle at that point will be to stay motivated to continue losing weight, because I'll be lookin' so cute and fly that my motivation will go out the window, lol.
Onward and downward.
Friday, February 11, 2011
In January, I lost 6.5 lbs.
For weeks, I've been complaining, saying that I should've lost 10 lbs. The way I figured it, week 1 is 5 lbs of water weight, followed by another five pounds lost in the remaining 3 weeks.
So much for that pipe dream.
I decided to do some math; I reviewed my daily calorie deficits for January. This feature is in the reports section on SP. I took the monthís total calorie deficit and divided it by 3,500 calories. If it showed I shouldíve lost 10 lbs, then clearly Iím over reporting my exercise and underreporting my food intake. The result? 7 lbs. And in reality, I dropped 6.5 lbs. In other words, according to my food intake and exercise habits, I lost pretty much what I was supposed to lose. The problem is not with how my body drops weight, itís with my impatient state of mind.
So given the pattern, I added up my calorie deficit for the 10 days in February. Based on this information, I should have lost 1.67 lbs. So I broke my pledge to stay away from the scale and weighed in this morning. The result? Iím down 1.5 lbs, for a total of 8 lbs lost.
It seems like the results should be bigger and faster, but the facts donít lie. My daily calorie deficit ranges anywhere from 300 to 1200 calories, but averages out to about 525 calories a day. 525 calories x 10 days is 5,250 calories. 5,250 calories divided by 3,500 lbs is 1.5 lbs.
The reality is that with age, my metabolism has indeed slowed down. My BMR is somewhere around 1900 calories, which is not very high to me. Therefore, the weight is going to come off slowly. Dang! Hard to accept, but it is what it is.
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
It's been nearly a week since I decided to quit weighing in so often. I'm finding that my new eating and exercise habits have settled into a series of daily habits and I'm becoming much less obsessive-compulsive about what I weigh. I'm finding that I am focusing more on how my clothes fit, my energy level and how I feel mentally. I was aware of those things before, but was so focused on the scale, that they took a mental back seat.
I feel like I do every year when I drive 13 hours from Kansas City to Austin to visit my family. It's still early in my road trip, but I'm off to a good start and have settled in for the long haul. Maybe its the equivalent of being in Wichita and knowing that in an hour or so I'll be in Oklahoma. I'm not not thinking about Texas just yet, because it's too far away. So I just focus on getting to the Kansas/Oklahoma border. I know I'm headed in the right direction. All the signs say I-35 south. I know if there's trouble that I've got a cellphone, map or GPS, spare tire, carjack and the Kansas Highway Patrol. I've got enough money for gas, food, an overnight stay at a hotel (if needed) and turnpike fees. Now, it's just about the drive, being patient and finding ways to stay occupied until I arrive at my destination.
I'm in this for the long haul. Now, I just need to settle in, do what I need to do to keep my mind occupied during this journey and stay patient.
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