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Please pray for me and my family

Thursday, December 05, 2013

I always feel safe coming here. I know I won't be judges and I am anonymous basically so I can say what is really on my mind. I am at my wits end. I still am unable to find work after getting my RN license. I have sciatic nerve pain and weakness in my right leg which prevents me from passing a physical at hospitals. I cannot get a RN phone job with out experience. I am just lost here. We barely made out mortgage payment this month and are already one month behind. We are about a week and a half away from my husband's next paycheck and we have less than 200 for groceries, gas, and essentials. I just bought some groceries that I do not know how long they will last. I spent less than 16.00. I got 2 bags of potatoes, one cabbage, some dried beans, 2 loaves of bread, some milk and cheese (both splurges). I think that is it. We had hash browns tonight. I am glad I have food, but I know this isn't the best thing for me since I have diabetes. And for the first time ever, I am looking into going to a food bank. We cannot qualify for food stamps, or aid. Our bills are high because of paying for medical bills through credit cards. We are just stuck. I don't know what to do. One of out grown daughters lives with us too and she is looking for a job but has had difficulty. She had an interview the other day and is suppose to call them back later today to see how she did. That is only for seasonal work through Jan. 1 but its work. Please pray for us and especially my daughter that she gets the job. Thanks everyone. And Merry Christmas. And I am not too sad it is close because I know why we really celebrate. Bless everyone of you.

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TXGRANDMA 12/5/2013 11:03PM

    God Bless and keep you and your family! I pray your daughter gets the job, and that you are soon out of pain! emoticon

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PANFRIEDTROUT 12/5/2013 11:05AM

    i'm sorry to read of your difficulties but glad that you know in whom your trust resides.

praying for you right now, before doing any other thing.


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LINOVER 12/5/2013 10:58AM

    So sorry that you are in pain and having problems finding a job. I will pray for you and your family. emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 12/5/2013 10:56AM

    Things are very tough these days for many of us. You may have to change the type of job you are applying for. Even those with advanced degrees are working at minimum wage jobs while still trying to get back in their field. Or, apply in another city and relocate. Which isn't easy. Meanwhile, many cities have a variety of charities that can help until you get on your feet. Salvation Army, for example, has a family services dept that provides a wide array of services. Wishing you better days.

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IDLETYME 12/5/2013 10:50AM

    Sounds like you are doing a good job with what you have. Sending loving thoughts and prayers for you and your family. emoticon

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LINDA! 12/5/2013 10:02AM

    I am praying for you. It is sad that you are in pain and also desperately needing a job.

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IOEINC 12/5/2013 8:12AM

    I am so sorry to hear of your troubles and will certainly be praying for you and your family. It has been very difficult for nurses to get jobs these past few years despite everyone saying there is a nursing shortage. Have you tried nursing homes or home health care? That is usually slower paced than a hospital and would be a good place to gain your experience. A lot of them have mentor programs for new grads. And definitely go to the local food bank with your head held high. There are lots of people these days using food pantries who normally would not have used them in the past. The food pantries exist because people run into difficulties and need to have good food available to them.

You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers! emoticon

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GEORGIAGIRL26 12/5/2013 7:08AM

    Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
your friend in fitness, Holly emoticon

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GARDENCHRIS 12/5/2013 6:47AM

    I will keep you in prayer...... have you tried going to the local church.... ours has a food pantry.

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Not a good day

Friday, July 12, 2013

I came here to vent and cry, because my daughter is mad at me for her "failures". Her words not mine. She is an adult, not working (my fault too, but not sure how she thinks that.) I have encouraged her to apply and she has, but still it is my fault she is "Nowhere in her life" I am just sad today. I hate that she is mad at me and there is nothing i can do about it because I did nothing. She wants to go live with her dad who convinced her everything is my fault. I guess I am afraid she won't come see me. She has ADD and possibly asperger's syndrome. She doesn't always quite understand when she is hurtful. I guess I just needed a place to cry. I am just so sad about it all. emoticon

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MOVEBREN 9/19/2013 3:37PM

  My 17 yr. old son has ADHD and Asperger's. It has been an uphill fight since he was about 4. But the older he gets, the more progress he seems to make. It is so hard to get a child with these qualities to hear what you are saying. He has his own way of seeing things and it can be pretty frustrating at times. Please know you aren't alone.

I know you posted this a while back, so I would be interested in knowing if anything has changed in your situation.

Good luck!

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LDANIELS17 7/13/2013 10:03AM

    I'm so sorry to hear that. You are not to blame for her behavior. I hope you can come to a point where you understand that. It's perfectly normal and valid to feel sad about it. I'm sure she will come around soon. I would give you my shoulder to cry on if that would help you. Never give up on your own dreams and goals because someone else is giving you a difficult time. That was my own biggest downfall. Everytime one of my family, friends, kids or husband decided to treat me badly, I would use food as an escape instead of standing up for myself, going for a walk, or venting to a trusted friend. So many healthy alternatives to dealing with difficult situations and people. We just need to look for them. Keep you head held high and remember, your daughter WILL come around.

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GAYLLYNNE 7/13/2013 9:15AM

    I'm so sorry you are having such difficulties with your daughter. She has some challenges and that's never easy. My daughter was a horror for a while but she is not back. Often she would blame me and then blame her father (we are not together either). Take a deep breath, figure out what's best for her and know there is no easy answer. I wish you peace.

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FERRETLOVER1 7/13/2013 8:15AM

    I hope it helped to just vent and get it out! emoticon

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NANCYPAT1 7/13/2013 1:00AM

    (HUGS) you are in a challenging situation and you are probably just in need of a hug. Believe me when I say, that I have "been there done that". My son also has Aspergers' and many challenges. I also teach in a self contained middle school classroom where most of my students are on the spectrum and their parents are convinced that "THEIR CHILD" is perfect and the teacher (ME) is to blame for everything. Take a deep breath and take a few minutes to decide what would work for YOU in this situation and then see if you can find a way to find peace. Letting your daughter go live with her father may or may not be the right decision, only you know. BUT, you need to know that doing that does NOT mean you lose her. My son went to live with his father and it didn't work very well, he then lived on his own, sometimes in a mission, but NOW as a MUCH older man, lives with me, and is productive, caring, and truly someone I am proud of. Sometimes we simply have to trust our precious children to God's care and let them discover the realities of the world they live in. (HUGS)

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TUPPERWARE1 7/12/2013 11:42PM

    a butterfly wish well said.my friends daughter was doing the dad is better trick.you need to let her go.she will become wiser and realize how great and smart you are.our middle child did this with her baby.oh I cried.now she is with a super guy 3 years later.gd is doing excellent too.
younger dd here is pouting here bc she does not want to pay back concert money to the friend she was to buy tickets.i feel for u.

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    It is so hard to deal with a family member who is in that state of mind where everything is everyone elses fault but their own. Even with her issues, she still knows better! It really sounds like shes blaming you so that youll be upset enough to send her to live with her dad so that she doesnt have to choose for herself! It is up to you what you do on that account. If shes an adult and wants to go live with him, it might be good to allow her to for a little bit. I believe that shell find out that it isnt all roses there at all and that Mom understands a lot better than Dad ever will!

That being said.....You are not the blame for her issues. Dont allow her to blame you and please dont take the blame on yourself! You have you to take care of and to strengthen within and shell have to learn to take on her own problems. Allowing her to not only blame you, but taking on the pain of it yourself is just putting you down. Would you allow a person off the street to walk up to you and say those things? If not, dont allow her either! Its hard to stand up to your family but you dont do them any favors by enabling her to put the blame on you!

You are important!! You deserve happiness and peace and dont allow anyone...no matter who they are...to take that from you! emoticon

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The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Monday, December 17, 2012

Wow! I just lost a whole blog! Here it is in a nutshell - The Good - I graduated nursing school! Yea! Now on to pass the NCLEX and become an RN. The Bad - I had right knee surgery in July (5 months ago) and am still having issues. I did have 3 good days where things were so much better and I could see myself finally able to get around without limping and in pain, then I hurt it again during my last clinical and now I am back to where I was before. :/ The Ugly - My sciatica reared it's ugly head again also in my right leg, so now I am really having trouble getting around. Looking into decompression because I want to treat the issue and not the symptoms like with pain meds. I want to get out there and help people get better and I can't do that like this. Trying to stay positive!

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AQUAGIRL08 12/17/2012 7:12PM

    emoticon On your recent graduation! Good luck with your boards. I hope you can find a treatment to solve your leg problem. Perhaps the swelling from the knee is pressing on a nerve.
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JLLOVETT 12/17/2012 3:59PM

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VONBLACKBIRD 12/17/2012 11:55AM

    I've had both knees and one hip replaced and it takes up to a year to really heal..give it time..and congrats on finishing nursing school..and you can pass that exam...think positive.

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Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Well after being accepted in the Nursing Program at my college, I spent too many hours sitting at a desk studying, grabbing food when and where I could because I felt I didn't have much time to cook, and not exercising for the same reason. And now I weigh my highest amount ever in my life. I have type 2 diabetes and I have knee pain. With my right knee, I have a tear in my meniscus, some wear and tear, as well as some arthritis. My insurance is fighting me on the surgery my doctor says I need (he is very well respected). In the mean while, my final semester in nursing school as well as my new career lies in the balance. No one is going to hire me if I have these knee issues. I may not be able to finish school because of it. I just ask that any of you that may read this, please pray for me. I only have 7 weeks left before school starts back. I need to be ready for this somehow. I am revamping my diet and whatever exercise I can attain. I have a stationary bike and I pray I can use it without too much pain. Thanks for any encouragement or info you offer. Unfortunately I do not have access to a pool which I think would be ideal.

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MI-ELLKAYBEE 7/10/2012 12:57PM

    emoticon You can do it, with God's help and your own dedication. I believe nurses truly do God's work on earth; He will care for you.

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EBURGITE 7/10/2012 11:05AM

have you looked up any sp videos that are chair exercises? there are lots of ways to build muscle and burn calories that are less hard on the knees. emoticon

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OZARKMARY 7/10/2012 10:56AM

    Just don't give up on your YOU goals or SCHOOL goals. Everthing happens for a reason. I will pray for you. emoticon

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IBSFOSTER 7/10/2012 10:45AM

  I am sorry that you are facing so many obstacles at once. Too bad there is not a way to rig your bike so you can pedal with your hands instead of your legs... I have found that the more I share what is going on with me here, the more advice I get and the more stable my life becomes, so keep coming back. I am pulling for you! emoticon

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KSCRAP363 7/10/2012 10:21AM

    I'll be praying for ya! I have bad knees too so I can relate to that...sure wishing I had a swimming pool too! Just got up from my desk at work to go for a walk and my knee was giving me a good bit of pain. Well, I am happy to report that it wasn't hurting so bad just a few minutes into my 10 min walk. Sometimes, I think sitting too long causes it to tighten up.

Hang in there and do the best you can...leave the rest to God!

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CJJANISS 7/10/2012 10:21AM

    emoticon look on line for exercises to help your knees...I'm not sure if there is anything, but it wouldn't hurt to check...I know the pool would have been ideal...but you will have to make do with you have...you have an exciting career/life ahead of you...don't give up now!

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IMAVISION 7/10/2012 10:08AM

    I have lifted prayer on your behalf & will continue to do so as Holy Spirit brings your needs to mind.

God bless you with His peace & with His wisdom as you do battle with the insurance company.


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ON2VICTORY 7/10/2012 9:42AM

    I totally get your plight. School, especially nursing, with the schedule, the course load, clinicals etc... Very stressful. School is no picnic.

I wish you the very best in your efforts. You have a tough situation to deal with.

All you can do is your best. Exercise does help cope with the stress but I would also try to carve out peaceful me time to help settle your nerves... I know.. Easier said than done. Stress has a lot to do with weight gain both hormonally and in provoking bad food choices. Try your best. And give yourself a big hug... You deserve it.

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GOULDSGRANITE 7/10/2012 9:37AM

    That is a tough spot. You need the bike, but not to the point of hurting you more. I think your life is going in a great direction. You are almost through with nursing school ~ woo hoo!!! Great job! God will provide you with the strength
AND patience you need! You got this!! emoticon

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LRK4CHRIST 7/10/2012 9:17AM

    Thx for sharing. And keep ur head up. You can do this.

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Making Plans

Saturday, May 23, 2009

I am making lemonade today. Well actually I am making plans. Things in my life aren't going quite the way I would want. Hence I am making lemonade out of my lemons. They aren't terribly bad. I'm not sick, no one is dying, I'm still working. Things just seem to be falling just short of where I would like them to be.
I just learned my grade in Chemistry is a B. I was 1.35 points from making an A. Now B's are good. But I am going to apply to nursing school in August and competition for this plan is fierce. I'm going to apply anyway and hope for the best. But I am also signing up to retake the two courses this fall I made B's in, just in case I don't make it. Then I will reapply in Feb. if needed. Not what I want to do, but it would work.
I am also rethinking my stand with diabetes. Diagnosed in Feb. I tackled it pretty strongly. My doctor felt we were moving on the right track, when my body goes into protest mode and I can't seem to get my blood sugar numbers to behave for very long. I'm trying to do stay off of insulin as long as I can, and hopefully stop taking the oral medicine too, one day. After re-evaluation, I've decided to ask my doctor to recommend a dietitian or nutritionist. I've also decided to up my walking. Something will work out and if not, then I will makes other plans to get this under better control.
My weight is coming off, but it is soooo slow that I am thinking I must have the metabolism of a sloth. Still, it is coming down and at the very least, heading in the right direction. I am thinking the extra walking and hopefully the nutritionist too, they will help ramp up my metabolism,
And on the other hand, making lemonade for the Memorial Day weekend isn't a bad plan either! Well, sugar-free anyways! emoticon

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SOULCOLLAGESUE 5/25/2009 12:25PM

    Hi Becky,

What a beautiful blog, poignant thoughts, determination closing the door on hopelessness. I didn't realize the field was so competitive, that a B might blow your future goals! You remind me of an experience I had while golfing yesterday.

I don't know if you golf, but when someone hits off the tee (the first shot on a given hole), and the ball looks like it went out-of-bounds or in a lake, the person can hit off the tee once more, taking a "provisional" ball. If the original ball is found, the provisional ball goes back in one's pocket. I did that yesterday, then found my original ball in a lateral hazard (deep, weedy, dry grasses). On the other hand, my provisional ball landed in a beautiful location.

In the end, I tried to hit my original ball out of the rough and accumulated about 4 penalty points, rather than the one had I taken my provisional ball. That I chose the harder path was interesting to me. The beauty I see in your story is that you have your "provisional" classes all lined up. Given your difficulties, you are planning to minimize the time you spend in the "rough."

Go girl!

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CTEMPLE 5/23/2009 10:17PM

    Excellent plan, it should work.
Yes the kilos pile up quickly and go very slowly. Progress not perfection, as long as your are in a better spot than 6 months ago, things are good. I hope you can succeed in your application for Nursing when the time comes.

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NANA2THEMOON 5/23/2009 6:33PM

    I am proud of you! A "B" in Chemistry! I ain't half bad girl. But I totally understand your thinking. I am studying to become a Medical Transcriptionist and the courses are very similar to that of nurses. Right now I am in Pharmaclogy. All during the course, if I make lower than a 95 it just ticks me off. I am my own worse critic. I hope you do well in your studies and that you are accepted in the first try at the nurses' school. In the mean time - you have a plan - and THAT is what counts!

Keep up the good work.

P.S. The stress of school alone would make your BS readings go haywire.

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