Thursday, December 05, 2013
I always feel safe coming here. I know I won't be judges and I am anonymous basically so I can say what is really on my mind. I am at my wits end. I still am unable to find work after getting my RN license. I have sciatic nerve pain and weakness in my right leg which prevents me from passing a physical at hospitals. I cannot get a RN phone job with out experience. I am just lost here. We barely made out mortgage payment this month and are already one month behind. We are about a week and a half away from my husband's next paycheck and we have less than 200 for groceries, gas, and essentials. I just bought some groceries that I do not know how long they will last. I spent less than 16.00. I got 2 bags of potatoes, one cabbage, some dried beans, 2 loaves of bread, some milk and cheese (both splurges). I think that is it. We had hash browns tonight. I am glad I have food, but I know this isn't the best thing for me since I have diabetes. And for the first time ever, I am looking into going to a food bank. We cannot qualify for food stamps, or aid. Our bills are high because of paying for medical bills through credit cards. We are just stuck. I don't know what to do. One of out grown daughters lives with us too and she is looking for a job but has had difficulty. She had an interview the other day and is suppose to call them back later today to see how she did. That is only for seasonal work through Jan. 1 but its work. Please pray for us and especially my daughter that she gets the job. Thanks everyone. And Merry Christmas. And I am not too sad it is close because I know why we really celebrate. Bless everyone of you.
Friday, July 12, 2013
I came here to vent and cry, because my daughter is mad at me for her "failures". Her words not mine. She is an adult, not working (my fault too, but not sure how she thinks that.) I have encouraged her to apply and she has, but still it is my fault she is "Nowhere in her life" I am just sad today. I hate that she is mad at me and there is nothing i can do about it because I did nothing. She wants to go live with her dad who convinced her everything is my fault. I guess I am afraid she won't come see me. She has ADD and possibly asperger's syndrome. She doesn't always quite understand when she is hurtful. I guess I just needed a place to cry. I am just so sad about it all.
Monday, December 17, 2012
Wow! I just lost a whole blog! Here it is in a nutshell - The Good - I graduated nursing school! Yea! Now on to pass the NCLEX and become an RN. The Bad - I had right knee surgery in July (5 months ago) and am still having issues. I did have 3 good days where things were so much better and I could see myself finally able to get around without limping and in pain, then I hurt it again during my last clinical and now I am back to where I was before. :/ The Ugly - My sciatica reared it's ugly head again also in my right leg, so now I am really having trouble getting around. Looking into decompression because I want to treat the issue and not the symptoms like with pain meds. I want to get out there and help people get better and I can't do that like this. Trying to stay positive!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Well after being accepted in the Nursing Program at my college, I spent too many hours sitting at a desk studying, grabbing food when and where I could because I felt I didn't have much time to cook, and not exercising for the same reason. And now I weigh my highest amount ever in my life. I have type 2 diabetes and I have knee pain. With my right knee, I have a tear in my meniscus, some wear and tear, as well as some arthritis. My insurance is fighting me on the surgery my doctor says I need (he is very well respected). In the mean while, my final semester in nursing school as well as my new career lies in the balance. No one is going to hire me if I have these knee issues. I may not be able to finish school because of it. I just ask that any of you that may read this, please pray for me. I only have 7 weeks left before school starts back. I need to be ready for this somehow. I am revamping my diet and whatever exercise I can attain. I have a stationary bike and I pray I can use it without too much pain. Thanks for any encouragement or info you offer. Unfortunately I do not have access to a pool which I think would be ideal.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
I am making lemonade today. Well actually I am making plans. Things in my life aren't going quite the way I would want. Hence I am making lemonade out of my lemons. They aren't terribly bad. I'm not sick, no one is dying, I'm still working. Things just seem to be falling just short of where I would like them to be.
I just learned my grade in Chemistry is a B. I was 1.35 points from making an A. Now B's are good. But I am going to apply to nursing school in August and competition for this plan is fierce. I'm going to apply anyway and hope for the best. But I am also signing up to retake the two courses this fall I made B's in, just in case I don't make it. Then I will reapply in Feb. if needed. Not what I want to do, but it would work.
I am also rethinking my stand with diabetes. Diagnosed in Feb. I tackled it pretty strongly. My doctor felt we were moving on the right track, when my body goes into protest mode and I can't seem to get my blood sugar numbers to behave for very long. I'm trying to do stay off of insulin as long as I can, and hopefully stop taking the oral medicine too, one day. After re-evaluation, I've decided to ask my doctor to recommend a dietitian or nutritionist. I've also decided to up my walking. Something will work out and if not, then I will makes other plans to get this under better control.
My weight is coming off, but it is soooo slow that I am thinking I must have the metabolism of a sloth. Still, it is coming down and at the very least, heading in the right direction. I am thinking the extra walking and hopefully the nutritionist too, they will help ramp up my metabolism,
And on the other hand, making lemonade for the Memorial Day weekend isn't a bad plan either! Well, sugar-free anyways!
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