Saturday, October 23, 2010
So I have been away for far too long. The truth? I'm an emotional eater, and an excuse maker.
I was doing great, then I put myself in the position of mother of three to my sisters three children. Going from single with all the time in the world to mother of three was really hard. Really Hard. I stopped doing what needed to be done. It was hard so I ate. It was easy to make excuses so I did.
I'm single and in the military, so decisions were made and the kids went to the grandparents who had the best environment and support system for the kids. It was hard to get them and harder yet still to be without them. I know its best but it breaks my heart, so how do you think I deal with that?
So now I am in Hawaii, a paradise. I don't know anyone here. I miss my family and friends and I am so far away. through all of this I have gained about 30lbs. Not good, Especially since I am in the military.
I am not fat because of food. I am fat because I can't seem to deal with problems, with my own emotions. How do you fix that? I can work out and eat right and lose weight. But food is not the problem. I am. I need to find a better way to deal with my issues.