Tuesday, October 16, 2012
I am sitting at a point in life where it is so easy to want to lose focus on my main goal. It's not just about it being easier to lose focus, it's an actual want to not really care all that much.
Full-time student, though I am completing my studies for this year online there is still a massive work load that comes with being a student. I am a full-time stay-at-home mom of a little man who is almost three! The energy he contains would do wonders for me if only I could bottle it and take some when I am feeling a bit drained. 33 weeks pregnant with baby number two! That in itself is exhausting and it's getting to be a very uncomfortable thing.
I actually want to just give up, go to sleep for the next six weeks, and wake up in time to have my baby! Needless to say that's not how things work!
I'm not currently on a weight loss mission, though I will be come the new year (gaining far too much weight and I don't seem to be able to stop it lately). Right now I am just trying to make small, healthy changes for myself and my baby. I have been trying to make these changes all along during my pregnancy but haven't been having a lot of luck. I am hoping that entering my food every day will help show me the areas I need to work on the most. So far I am learning that I am not eating enough at breakfast and snacking WAY too much throughout the day.
Getting some exercise in would definitely help though I have to give myself a pep talk that usually lasts for a few hours before I can get myself out the door for a ten minute walk. I have no energy and am having serious issues with that. it's so much easier to just sit back on the coach than to actually get up and do something. Not to mention if I really feel desperate for an excuse to do nothing I just pick up a text book and say that I have to work on school work, which is always true, but I tend to use it more for an excuse than I should be.
Right now I am lacking in motivation in a bad way. My hubby is very emotionally supportive but not physically supportive, which is better than nothing, but sometimes what I really need is someone to get up and say "Let's go for a walk," to make me do it. And my poor, over-excited, highly energized puppy is more of a discouragement than an encouragement because he's not trained to walk properly yet and tends to pull a lot for the entire walk. It gets frustrating fast. He needs a lot of training and I look for excuses to not take him out like he needs me too.
I really just need a good, HARD kick in the rear end to make me smarten up and do what needs to be done for my health and for my baby's health!