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What a Cure Means to Me

Saturday, October 13, 2012

I just wrote a very brief paragraph online about what a cure for diabetes would mean to me. I don't even know how to really describe what a cure would mean for me. I am sure anyone with diabetes or anyone who knows someone with diabetes can understand what I mean when I say it's so hard to truly describe what a cure would mean.

Here's what I wrote:

"What a cure means to me

A cure for me would mean freedom and peace of mind. It would mean no more needles several times a day, no more having to stop and check my sugars before I do anything and having the freedom to join friends and family at indulging in life on occasion. It would mean no more fears of not seeing my children grow up, or worse, passing it on to them. It would mean no more fears for my friends who have diabetes as well for I fear daily that one day they might not be there. It would mean my grandfather could have survived and seen his great grandchildren. A cure for diabetes would mean so much I don't even know how to describe it."

And here is the link to actually see my page:

The more I read this the more emotional I get because it brings thoughts and some memories to mind that absolutely terrify me.

One of my biggest fears is passing diabetes on to my children. I would give anything to not have to worry about them dealing with this. It's not been fun.

Not seeing them grow up is another fear that I have. This fear almost cripples me when I really think about it. I can't imagine not being there for my children, not being a part of their lives.

I have a couple friends who also have diabetes. One of them is so scared of not being able to control her diabetes that she is scared to have children even though she really wants to have children. Another friend has had a toe amputated and has been struggling to gain control of his condition for years. They both mean so much to me that I don't know what I would do if they weren't there.

And then there's my grandfather. When I was very small my parents split and by the time I was three I went to live with my dad. Dad and I lived with his parents most of the time and with my dad working a lot I stayed with my grandparents. I was VERY close to them. Gramp died just before I turned 12 and it was such a blow to me. I had lost one of the most important people in my life. He had complications with his diabetes. That was before I really knew what diabetes was, I just knew Gramp had it. When I was diagnosed with diabetes at 19 I was in such denial because of seeing my grandfather struggle with it.

A cure for diabetes would mean so much to me I don't even truly know how to describe it.

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BRITOMART 10/14/2012 11:50PM

    My favorite aunt was diagnosed when she was 10--back in 1926. She lived an amazingly full life for a diabetic in those years, guessing her sugars, thinking ahead to what she might eat, and planning accordingly. No children--it wasn't considered safe for a diabetic woman in the 1930-40s to have kids.

I admired her courage all my life; she died young--for her family, I mean--and for her memory I, too, wish for a cure for this disease.

Very good blog.

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GRATEFUL_BEING 10/13/2012 7:32PM

  I hope there is a cure soon. My grandmother was diagnosed when she was 11 way back in 1940. That disease runs rampant through my family. So far I along with my sister have been spared. Its a horrible disease, a portal for amputations, heart disease, cataracts, renal failure.....

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GINNABOOTS 10/13/2012 6:49PM

    You just did a beautiful job of describing it. I am sorry for your loss.

My father has diabetes also & it is the worst thing for me & my sister to see him go through all of the effects that the disease has on him. It takes a toll.

I'm sure you already eat right & do the best you can to control it. Keep doing what you are doing. I have a friend who has it as well & she takes really good care of herself, it helps her a lot. emoticon

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Starting Out

Friday, October 12, 2012

So I realized the other day that 25 is almost here for me! Only three weeks away! Where did 25 years go?

The biggest thing about this for me is that my life has gone in a direction completely off what I had thought my life would be. That's not a bad thing, just a thing that I didn't have planned out so I am still trying to put some pieces together and sort out which step to take next. Wouldn't it be nice if life had a bit more of a manual?

I suppose, if there was a manual that wouldn't be a whole lot of fun now, would it?

I can't say that my life has been bad. I have graduated high school, worked various jobs, dated different guys, had a baby, got married, went to college. I'm currently still at college and pregnant with baby #2. I honestly can't complain a whole lot. I have been having a pretty decent time of things.

But what things will 25 bring my way? Well, good things!

I have been spending some time learning about affirmations and the law of attraction and you know what, it's so true! If you want good things be positive! Find happiness in daily life and smile at the little things. These types of practices are something that I have been lacking in lately, but no more!

I have been slipping in and out of depression. Fighting with hubby about all kinds of things, much of it unimportant bull crap! I have been feeling down, lost and hopeless. Those types of feelings just don't get you anywhere! That's why depression can be so hard to get out of, you create a rut for yourself and focus on the negative all the time.

So, where am I going with this? What is the whole point of me writing this?

Well, since my 25th birthday is only a few weeks away I have decided that it is time to make some changes in my life! It is time for me to start working at getting things sorted out, getting some things in place nad starting my 25th year off with a BANG!

What sort of things am I looking at changing?

My health, for starters. I am a type 1 diabetic, I smoke, I am overweight. All of those things are just not good. Time to get to work on getting those areas of my life under control.

My mental health, is another place that needs some work. I am a high stress individual who gets worked up over everything! I get stressed, then I get depressed and I just don't seem to know how to relax!

I am completely unorganized! For anyone who doesn't believe me about this, you have not seen the state of my house! It's a disaster! I will be taking some before and after shots as I work my way through my house and get some organization happening!

Add exercise, healthy foods and a more natural lifestyle in there and get myself back up on my feet!

And this is only the beginning! I can't wait to see what the future will bring!

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POSEY440 10/13/2012 3:25PM

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DWROBERGE 10/13/2012 1:38AM

    Keep focused for success. YOu can do it. Go for it.

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EVIE4NOW 10/13/2012 12:16AM

  Try going to flylady.net. Great site and is all about decluttering your house, your life and your body. You don't have to catch up, just jump in. There are suggestions for planning your day and week. Couldn't hurt could it?
Good luck to you.

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