Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Today is May 15 and my thoughts turn to my sister, Diane. It would have been her 55th birthday today and I wonder what she would have been like at this age - how she would have grown and what her sense of humor would have been like.
Diane lived a courageous life for her 37 years; she died 18 years ago, as the world came to be too much for her. She was a poet, painter, art teacher, musician, and good friend to many. She understood the complexity of life and in moments she cherished, she was able to live in peace and with simplicity.
I loved her and her pain also scared me. I have to say, honestly, I tried to control it because I couldn't change it and it was so close to my own. She was my younger sister by 6 years. I wish I could tell her that I love her. What can I do? I suppose it is giving my best to those who are around me -- those who are vulnerable and in pain. Knowing that I am doing this for God, really, and that the positive things I have to share are from God and because of healing I have received.
Also, I can treat myself well -- and be healthy --- and I am learning to do here and supported in doing here on these Sparkpages.....