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Rest in Peace, Diane

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Today is May 15 and my thoughts turn to my sister, Diane. It would have been her 55th birthday today and I wonder what she would have been like at this age - how she would have grown and what her sense of humor would have been like.

Diane lived a courageous life for her 37 years; she died 18 years ago, as the world came to be too much for her. She was a poet, painter, art teacher, musician, and good friend to many. She understood the complexity of life and in moments she cherished, she was able to live in peace and with simplicity.

I loved her and her pain also scared me. I have to say, honestly, I tried to control it because I couldn't change it and it was so close to my own. She was my younger sister by 6 years. I wish I could tell her that I love her. What can I do? I suppose it is giving my best to those who are around me -- those who are vulnerable and in pain. Knowing that I am doing this for God, really, and that the positive things I have to share are from God and because of healing I have received.

Also, I can treat myself well -- and be healthy --- and I am learning to do here and supported in doing here on these Sparkpages.....

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MOTHEPRO 5/16/2013 12:08PM


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WOMANWITHGRIT 5/16/2013 9:15AM

    Thank you BEWELL, for your kind comments. And, Peace to you today, MAVERICK59. Thank you very much for your note. I see your tag line is "Courage does not roar..." and I have always been very fond of that...it is the quiet determination to start again!

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BEWELL48 5/15/2013 11:18PM

    My heart goes out to you and to maverick59. Mental illness, depression is devastating.
emoticon to both!

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MAVERICK59 5/15/2013 9:20PM

    My daughter left this world 7 years ago at the age of 30, as a result of extreme depression. The pain still cuts like a knife.
I have so many regrets and what ifs.

I understand what you are going through.
I hope your heart finds peace.

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Graduation Week

Monday, May 06, 2013

I teach at a university and it is graduation week. Very busy....and I'm glad I'm with SP, where I am maintaining the discipline of tracking food and spending time with SparkCoach and the community. In much of my adult life I would be out of control during busy times and so it is good to have a plan.

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    Best wishes and hang in there until the it gets better. Good food, plenty of water and sleep will help you weather the difficult times.

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JEANNE229 5/7/2013 6:40AM

    Graduation (and all stressors) better with Spark.

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Its always time for Extreme Self Care

Friday, May 03, 2013

Oh, I am getting stronger, I realize. I am more stable in my intentions and activities -- this was not always the case! Its evident, I know, that I have not taken good care of myself -- being more then 100 pounds overweight is the signal here. But I am really trying now and this is a full time job. I often am aware of the resistance I have here, now that I am paying attention. Drinking water, taking care to look well, scheduling that mammogram....and fully engaging in Sparkpeople -- all self care. My resistance is now in exercise. I don't seem to be able to make friends with myself about it.

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    NELLJONES - thanks for your comment on my page - these are good thoughts and I appreciate your encouragement. I went shopping today and parked farther away and walked. I carried groceries and considered that I am doing that with a lighter spirit. I notice that the more then I feel like I am doing good for myself, the more I want to do (of course). So. I will continue to move and then, soon, I hope, I will want to move myself into the gym. Thank you, again - for your support here. I so very much appreciate all that SP provides.

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NELLJONES 5/4/2013 8:06AM

    You know how people say "It's the little things that count" when you are with someone you love? You have a lot of opportunities over the course of a day to do something little for yourself. I am not a formal exerciser. Exercise wasn't even mentioned as a part of weight loss back when I lost my weight, yet I lost the weight through diet. Formal exercise seems pointless to me, so I turn every move I make into exercise. I clean my own house (heavy work). I carry groceries and 35 pound containers of kitty litter. I walk large parking lots and huge stores many times a week. I carry everything up and down stairs. With a little thought you can make it count, and be able to see a job done at the same time.THAT is doing a lot for yourself!

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A Prayer of Self Dedication

Thursday, May 02, 2013

From the Book of Common Prayer (1979), one of my favorites, often said at Evening Prayer. Keeping this in my heart and mind places me where I need to be in order to work towards health and well-being.

A Prayer of Self-Dedication
Almighty and eternal God, so draw our hearts to you, so guide our minds, so fill our imaginations, so control our wills, that we may be wholly yours, utterly dedicated unto you; and then use us, we pray you, as you will, and always to your glory and the welfare of your people; through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen.

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MOTTAMAMALOU 5/2/2013 5:20PM

    So Be It!!

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St. Teresa d'Avila

Monday, April 29, 2013

Nada te Turbe

Let nothing disturb you,
nothing afright you.
Whom God possesses
in nothing is wanting.
Alone God suffices.
All things are passing.
God never ceases.
Patient endurance attains all things.

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PDSLIM 4/29/2013 6:20PM

    She always appears when I need her.
I had to let my cat go today. Your post is her message to me.
Thank you.

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