Sunday, December 01, 2013
Today is the first day in Advent.
Turn yourself around.
God scatters the darkness.
Jesus with us already, but not yet.
For me - Be ready (remember the readings....the foolish maidens without enough oil, etc.) in large part means BE PRESENT. I need to:
Take care of myself.
Acknowledge my needs.
Take responsibility for my health and well-being physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
Track my food.
Move my body.
Acknowledge my feelings.
Live by my ethical code.
Ask for help.
I have come far but I have far to go, too. Today I tracked my food. But, I did NOT track Thanksgiving, Friday or yesterday. This scared me -- I had not missed a day since April, when I started. I have this block against exercising. That scares me and I am so against myself.
Emotionally, I am reeling sometimes from this divorce, preparing to sell the house and move, and then my relationships with my family of origin. I was starting to isolate.
Advent is about coming into the Light. Well, I need to be here, in the Light. And, in my tradition, I believe Jesus calls me to be with him in the Light.
My thoughts are all over the place. I am glad to be tracking and blogging again.
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
I just need to say where I am and note all this change in my life. I need to catch my breath.
I was away at a conference all last week. *That* was a challenge! I tracked well, but had not so much control and after 5 days I was very glad to get home. Meanwhile, my older son returned from a trip, got home a day before I did, and prepared to leave for basic training -- which he did yesterday. I dropped him off. Of course it's good for him to go, but my heart breaks. He came home from a year abroad last December in not such good shape and with little direction. I tried to provide support while he found his way (I also set expectations). He did, in fact, take giant steps to maturity and determined his own path. And in the middle of his father's announcement that he was leaving.
My son and I went to church Sunday and that was lovely. Our priest gave him an icon of St. Michael and thanked him for his service at the altar. We spent time on Sunday and I took him to the station yesterday morning -not sure when I'll see him next. He's going to Ft. Sill and then off to the Defense Language Institute, Monterey, where he will be for about a year. After that, more training as a specialist.
So now its me and the dogs ....I need to take care of myself!!! I look forward to this -- but I am having some trouble eating more and I am forcing myself to track. I am tired. I have walked alot more but this is not at a target level.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
I just returned from Morning Prayer, which is said every day at my little church at 7:30. This is a great way to start the day. The appointed lections, canticles, and prayers orient me to the day. One of my favorite prayers is the Prayer for Guidance, per below.
Heavenly Father, in you we live and move and have our being; We humbly pray you so to guide and govern us by your Holy Spirit; that in all the cares and occupations of our life we may not forget you, but may remember that we are ever walking in your sight; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. (Book of Common Prayer)
Thank you all for your support and guidance in your blogging and responses.
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