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Start This S***

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

In case you were waiting... Here is a video someone else made about going, doing, starting. It has bad words, so if you don't like that don't listen to it.

youtu.be/RYlCVwxoL_g

ZeFrank on You Tube

I'm overwhelmed at work.
I'm feeling very trapped.
I work so hard and am so awesome every day.
(People even say so.)
But it is not enough.














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TAZIAH 4/6/2014 10:48AM

    Wow! I love that, Joce! emoticon

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 4/5/2014 10:42AM

    The cheese of accomplishment? ROFL

Great production values. And good message.

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PS. Did you know he's originally from Upstate NY?

http://en.wikipedia.org/
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FRANCESCANAZ 4/4/2014 2:14PM

    I have a cheese sandwich monster too! So nice to know I'm not alone!

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DDOORN 4/4/2014 8:39AM

    Good for you to know that it is not enough!

Sending you Spark thoughts & energy to push through and take steps to make the changes you need in your life right now...

Don

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WINDMILLS18 4/3/2014 2:49PM

    I can completely identify with you. I work and work and work. And to top it off, I don't have time to do my work at work because I am too busy doing everything else for everyone else. So I end up doing my work at home!

Hang in there!
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HIPPICHICK1 4/3/2014 10:32AM

    Who is this guy? Love him!!
Less work by saying no. Leave after 8 hours no matter what. Lie if you have to. You are more important than your employer.
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BLUEROSE73 4/3/2014 9:23AM

    Love this. Thanks for sharing

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 4/3/2014 6:25AM

    Spectacular.

FILDI!!!
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SUSANBEAMON 4/3/2014 1:18AM

  who says it's not enough. forget them. they don't know anything.

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MCJULIEO 4/3/2014 12:25AM

    Don't forget to be awesome each day!

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NANCYPAT1 4/3/2014 12:22AM

    Hope your day improves

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Self Compassion

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

My own understanding of "self-love" was twisted the same way a bud pirouettes before unfolding into a beautiful blossom.

Thanks to the app SuperBetter, I realize that all that "self-love" and reserves of appreciation have degraded a little bit. Because if it hadn't, this little 30 second experiment wouldn't have made me cry.

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YOUR QUEST: Love yourself as much as you can no matter what is going on. You can love yourself for thinking this Quest is stupid. You can even love yourself for not being able to love yourself.

1. Picture a person or experience you know you love for sure.
2. Now beam that same quality of love at yourself.
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Now, listen: I can love intensely. The depth of joy that spontaneously springs forth, unbidden, when I think of my favorite person, or the excitement at unexpected encounters with sea wildlife, or the quiet heartbreaking affection I feel for my favorite cat-quaintance is unfiltered, and each has no distinguishable boundaries. My love is free and flows forth happily to them.

I was swinging my wildly through those emotions, one followed by the next in a 30 second swipe that left me breathless. I almost can't handle that pointed myself.

And I thought about how grateful I am to feel that at all. Once upon a dark time, years ago, numbed by depression, I wouldn't have been able to let any of the highs flow over me, because the descent into the lows were too much to bear.

In this case, it was a good realization to know that I need to do a little bit of positive self care. Knowledge is power, after all!

  
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MEGAMITENCHI 3/28/2014 10:52PM

    I love this! It's a great exercise. I have my own slightly obscene version :) I have comments people have written about my stories, and written them out one a HUGE sheet of paper (the kind they use for the big pin boards at school). It is hung around the wall of desk, so any time I look up, there are all these words of kindness from others beaming back down one me. "A woman after my own heart" "You, my dear, are talented." "I can't believe that after re-reading, every chapter blows me away like the first time I read this. Such a masterpiece." :me melted to a pile of goo:

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POSITIVEHOPE 3/9/2014 2:21PM

    Awesome self love. Positive self care. Yes, indeed.
I had a recent encounter with some I have hated, loathed and despised all my life. My inner negative voice. I learned that she had a positive intent for me. Yeah, I know, you've got to be kidding. I finally gave her a chance. I sat with her and waited. Nothing. I said, Come on tell me. Nothing. Not until I could put my anger, hostility and superiority aside would she speak. She was afraid because she was small and she wanted me to eat so I would be big and safe. Stunned, I sat there in silence. Now, I can talk to her and say, "It's okay. I know you want to eat that but I've got this and we're going to be okay. Trust me!" I need to care for HER! She I am at peace with her and am thankful she let me see her. She doesn't sound so compelling anymore and she doesn't speak up as frequently as she did.
Self care leads to self love and I'm beginning to like her more all the time.
Thanks for your post.

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EDDYMEESE 3/2/2014 12:10AM

    Fantastic!

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GGJUNEBUG 2/26/2014 9:03PM

    Am so happy for you! Lovely post, by the way.

Have a good evening, sparkfriend.

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DDOORN 2/26/2014 9:43AM

    Such a wonderful exercise for one of the most essential skills we need...a close second behind BREATHING! :-)

Don

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ADVENTURE-GIRL 2/26/2014 12:24AM

    You are amazing. I wish you could love yourself the way I see you.

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MCJULIEO 2/25/2014 6:13PM

    I'm sending more love to you as well...

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HIPPICHICK1 2/25/2014 3:15PM

    I joined Super Better last Feb. emoticon

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MARATHONMOM26.2 2/25/2014 11:44AM

    You are amazing. You are worthy of that kind if love. Soak it up, my friend. Let it ALL in!

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BETHSWORLD 2/25/2014 11:34AM

    Love this!

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  Good point, treat yourself as your own best friend! emoticon

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GRETA242 2/25/2014 6:27AM

    Thank you for sharing this

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_MELISSAJOY_ 2/25/2014 3:40AM

    Awesome thoughts. Thanks for sharing!

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JILLYBEAN25 2/25/2014 3:27AM

    emoticon Wonderful insight, my friend!

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144AUTUMN 2/25/2014 12:54AM

  You can do it!!

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Dream the Dream

Sunday, February 23, 2014

One more video... I want to save this.

"You would dream where you are now...
You would dream the dream of living the life that you are actually living today."

youtu.be/7Sv_Bv1H7BQ

  
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LJCANNON 3/2/2014 4:26PM

    emoticon Great Video, and Very Interesting Dream Narration!! Have to think about that!!

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MCJULIEO 2/25/2014 6:22PM

    That was intriguing, especially as a diver....

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JILLYBEAN25 2/24/2014 12:35AM

    I think I would throw up if I got that close to a whale. But, boy was it a beautiful video! And a great message in the narration.

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_LINDA 2/23/2014 8:09AM

    Very nice! Thanks for sharing!

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SHERYLP461 2/23/2014 7:33AM

    Good question, and great video. thanks for sharing

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Sports Films

Sunday, February 23, 2014

I have friends who are running at Ragnar Del Sol (Arizona) this weekend. My Facebook has their posts. ..

Heather (NEWSGIRL2177) rocks her workouts at Kaia...

Anja (4A-HEALTHY-BMI) just got back from her kayaking trip in Antarctica...

I am lucky to be surrounded, virtually, by my friends that are thinking about healthy living, pushing themselves to engage physically, and move forward in their accomplishments. That's one of the biggest things I missed last year from not being on Spark.

It was easy for me to slip further and further away from the thoughts of making exercise a priority in my life. Not having enough time, being tired or sick.. the normal excuses popped up. And once they wedged themselves as a barrier between me and taking action, it seemed even less within my reach.

This video about people sharing intimate thoughts and life insights while running reminds me that running is just a part of life.
vimeo.com/banyakfilms/therunners

Running isn't the point of this video. But so many people see that activity as being entirely out of reach. Being BEYOND what they would even consider.

I did.

And yet, I've run for an hour straight. I jogged 3 miles. It was only a year ago, but it seems so o o o.... fa a a a a r... aw a a a a y.

It's not.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3PD
XmYoF5U

You may see an ad for the camera... I see possibilities.

Whatever we want is within our reach. Sometimes we need to first grasp onto something that leads us farther down the path to what we want. I'm reminding myself that.

Anja was as big as my start weight, and she can do, and does things like this kayaking in New Zealand video.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLUxzgdeD78&
list=UUqhnX4jA0A5paNd1v-zEysw&feature=
share&index=2

  
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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 4/5/2014 10:40AM

    Gosh, I totally missed this blog post. Things have been nuts lately, as you know.

Yeah it's amazing what kinds of things this journey to health can lead to. I just wanted to get under 300 lbs... LOL

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JESPAH 3/5/2014 8:38AM

    "Whatever we want is within our reach."

Perfectly said.

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MCJULIEO 2/25/2014 6:29PM

    INSANE! THEY RUN THE RIVER COMPLETELY DRY AT NIGHT??????? And then they fill it up again!?????

Yikes!

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JILLYBEAN25 2/24/2014 12:34AM

    Oh my goodness, how amazing would kayaking in Antarctica be?!?! You can get back on the path you were on. Maybe you never even left the path, but stopped at a "scenic outlook" for a moment to glimpse the view. Either way, you are more amazing and inspiring than you give yourself credit for these days. Much love, hugs, eyeball near miss kisses, and I totally miss you my dear!

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ADVENTURE-GIRL 2/23/2014 8:47PM

    Very motivating stuff Jocelyn. You can do it!

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NEWSGIRL2177 2/23/2014 7:53PM

    You deserve good things. I want good things for you. I know you can do what you set your mind and heart to.

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DDOORN 2/23/2014 10:50AM

    Anja is a Spark Rock Star! And so are YOU!

And so is each and every one of us...

Don

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I_R_WORTH_IT 2/23/2014 10:27AM

    Thank you for sharing, very encouraging words and visuals!

Keep up the great work on being the best YOU ever!

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WINDMILLS18 2/23/2014 9:10AM

    This is great! Thanks for sharing!
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Dating Myself

Saturday, January 18, 2014

I've been dating the past couple of months and I feel like it's been healthy even though it's another diversion.

Someone told me, when I first started, that the best thing about dating is that you really learn about yourself. I found it to be prophetic. I still describe myself the way I was when most successful on Spark, even though I haven't kept up those habits in 2013.

My Spark still burns inside, waiting for me to provide more oxygen and grow brighter. Dating has helped me realize/face how much I miss many aspects of my life that bring me a feeling of accomplishment. I haven't dated that many men, but I've virtually met a lot of people, and dated enough to have the confidence that comes from acknowledgement of my attractiveness (okay, that sounds kind of clinical, but it's the most accurate).

I wanted this NOw- not another 100 pounds smaller, when the entire world is unfamiliar. Even though I'm already 100 pounds smaller from my largest, this is my body's comfort zone. After I re-lose the 30 pounds to my smallest adult weight (245), I'll be in uncharted territory. Now I'll have some dating experience to compare, and the knowledge that it isn't just my smaller body that is appealing.

I think I'm ready.
-I'm ready to value myself more completely.
-I'm ready to dive into complete devotion... to my healthy habits, to taking care of my body and my life.

Am I ready to fall in love again? -Definitely with myself. But I feel like there's some work left to make sure that I have an overabundance, to be overfilled enough to not rob from me when I love him.

In the meantime, I still want to meet people.

  
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BETHSWORLD 2/21/2014 4:05PM

    You are such a beautiful person inside and out. I love reading your blogs Sweetie!

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MISSB8604 2/6/2014 3:53PM

    I have no doubt you'll be successful.

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JPVALPO24 1/30/2014 12:59PM

    great blog, falling in love with yourself first is the most important thing in your life, then falling in love with a guy emoticon emoticon

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ALOFA0509 1/23/2014 2:12AM

    A-MEN!!!! Awsum blog sista-

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SWEETZMIX 1/21/2014 8:06AM

    Ahhhh yes, falling in love with yourself. That's really the first step with falling in love with someone else. It means you'll have plenty to share. Miss you xoxo

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GGJUNEBUG 1/21/2014 12:35AM

    Meet people! Yes!

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THEVOW2013 1/20/2014 9:18PM

    Glad your back and thanks emoticon for leaving a positive message on my page.
Body image, mental image or who you are NOW, and other people's perception is hard to handle sometimes. You are beautiful but I know how you feel I am dating for the first time and it is interesting to say the least. I have learned a lot over the past year.

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PUMPKINFACE73 1/20/2014 1:52PM

    Happy New Year, proud of you

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JESPAH 1/19/2014 10:02AM

    You are valuable. And you know it!!

Whoever you love will be a very, very lucky man.

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JUDYAMK 1/19/2014 9:42AM

    I had to learn to love myself & I knew I could never marry until I loved me. Knowing if I did there would be a divorce because of my emotion & past history. I would only bring that into the marriage. So when I took care of all my emotions with help I began to love me. When I was 33 I met my future husband & we married at 34. the past of not loving me is so long buried & laid to rest & not digging it back up. I am whole & I love me.
Judy

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CARRIE1948 1/19/2014 8:58AM

    Learning to love yourself is so much harder than it sounds

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TIHAITIEN 1/18/2014 11:24PM

    emoticon You can't fully be comfortable with a partner when your not with yourself.

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PANFRIEDTROUT 1/18/2014 10:08PM

    what a worthwhile endeavor! hats off to you.



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CASTIRONLADY 1/18/2014 9:25PM

    The best book I ever read on dating (out of print) is "Dating with Integrity". I wish i had one to send you. I didn't read it until I was in my 30s and it made a big difference -about seeing other people (men) as just people and not wanted something from them -and about not placing more importance on your men friends than your women friends. Lots more but you've pretty much got it down. Treating your self with integrity precedes knowing how to treat someone else. God bless.

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`*♥☆ Keep Spreading the Spark

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MCJULIEO 1/18/2014 7:58PM

    Nailed it....

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DDOORN 1/18/2014 7:18PM

    Oh am I EVER with you on both counts: valuing myself more AND devoting myself more than EVER to taking care of my body the way that it deserves!

Cheers to blazing new trails and living your life to the FULLEST!

Don

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WINDMILLS18 1/18/2014 5:51PM

    I feel the same way. Loving myself enough before someone else does. Kudos to you for recognizing what you want and need for you and a potential relationship to be healthy!
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FINDINGJENJEN 1/18/2014 5:49PM

    I love the idea of falling in love with yourself first, so you can love others - a great reminder!

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JILLYBEAN25 1/18/2014 5:01PM

    Beautiful and beautifully stated!
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