Sunday, September 07, 2014
Last night DH and I went to a game party at a friend's house. It was my first time "out" with my new eyes. You wouldn't believe the trauma I went through in my head because I am 1 1/2 weeks away from being able to wear eye makeup!!
Anyway, got to the party and due to my insecurities, had two drinks instead of the one I had planned and then did not keep track of my food. After the party was emotionally uncomfortable, so stuffed my feelings at Jack in the Box.
Got home, went to bed, and discovered that DS, age 19 had stolen alcohol from our bedroom while we were gone. This is not the first time this has happened, so even though it was after midnight, I decided to call him out on it, gently.
So here's where I think I actually did something right. DS and I argued, but it was a rational, thoughtful argument. I let him know that he needed to step up and admit to his mistakes, be a man, and start taking care of himself.
I know that it is the self-confidence that I gained through Spark and the support of all of you that allowed me to have this discussion and to realize that I can not be responsible for my son's life decisions. My happiness is not based on how he is doing. Or my husband for that matter. I am a successful, confident woman without them. Which is hard to say, but I'm also glad that it is true.