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Moving on...July WILL be GREAT!

Tuesday, July 01, 2014

June was pretty much a disaster for me for a LOT of reasons, BUT I am following the example of another SparkFriend and using it as a “Teaching Moment”.

I have gained 8.2 POUNDS emoticon since my low weight of 248.6 on March 16th. What have I learned?

emoticon I MUST weigh in DAILY. If I don’t, I “put off” eating as well as I should and exercising because I think I can catch up if I am really good the next day (which obviously did not happen). I fall right back into my “all or nothing” mentality and this is NOT good for me.

emoticon What I WILL do is enter my weight into SP on the 1st, 11th and 21st of each month. I am shooting for 3 pounds for each 10 day segment (more or less 10 days depending on how many days are in the month). This would put me at 9 pounds per month which is not unreasonable.

I am striving for 1200 – 1800 calories per day, depending on my activity level, hunger, available food, etc. When it is not really feasible or practical to track my food, (like the upcoming holiday weekend where I will not have internet), I will keep an estimated running calorie tally on my phone and do my best to not go overboard (homemade desserts, beer, chips, etc.).

One thing that really works well for me is planning ahead and prepping. But it only works when I DO IT. emoticon Imagine that! I am going to make some healthy salads to take with me to the lake this weekend. Instead of Pasta Salad with veggies, I make a Veggie Salad with a just a little bit of pasta in it. Less calories and more vitamins!

Here is wishing you ALL a wonderful July! emoticon

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ALEXSGIRL1 7/4/2014 11:43AM

    Happy 4th wish you success and a great weekend

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FIFIFRIZZLE 7/2/2014 5:57AM

    I've added some extra fat, too. Not to worry, it will soon be gone. In the meantime, getting back to my exercise routines. For me this is the key because the exercise makes me feel so GOOOOD.
I wish I had a handle on tracking my food but I haven't got myself there yet. But on Monday I prepped a whole lot of veggies and since then have been happily eating them instead of carbs.

I used to turn up m nose at the idea of prepping vegetables, on account of the vitamin loss, but now I just figure, so what, at least I am eating veggies instead of bread and pasta and other carby delightsImeannaughties!
Good luck with your plan for the rest of the month.

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BABYSOX 7/1/2014 10:08PM

    You are setting yourself up for success. I love the idea of veggie salad with pasta!

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_BABE_ 7/1/2014 6:50PM

    You plan is solid and I think will yield good results.

Keep strong and conscious of where you want to go and what you want to achieve!

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PEWTERBUNNY 7/1/2014 5:41PM

    You and I are in the same boat, sister! I've gained back way too much weight and it started with avoiding the weigh ins. Actually I thought my scale was malfunctioning. By the time I got back to using it the damage was done. people used to tease me about weighing obsessively but it really did work!

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DEEGIRL50 7/1/2014 3:34PM

    July will be great because of your positive attitude and your willingness to do the work!!

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BE-THE-CHANGE 7/1/2014 1:03PM

    Wow, I do the same thing with my weigh-ins. If I know I am "bad" I put off looking. I find I have to do it daily as well. I never thought of only entering it in SP on a regular basis, though. I like that idea.

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It's time for another get to know your Spark friends. 

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Your go to chewing gum flavour… Pretty much avoid gum. TMJ problems AND I am avoiding artificial sweeteners!

Best time of the year… When you KNOW the depressing winter is OVER

If you were a toe nail polish what colour would you be…. Revlon's Chilliest Rose (circa 1973)

Favourite pie.. Coconut Cream

First record you ever bought… The Beatles: Hello Goodbye ("'I Am the Walrus" was the B side

• Current perfume you use...None...BUT would use "Andron by Jovan" IF I could get my hands on it...

Do you have any trophies or awards….Years Ago I was the "Chahita Queen" at a Chi Chis restaurant in Delaware for selling the most Chahitas (Fajitas)

Worst day of your life…Can't really say...

Do you cuss and swear.. YES. Damn it.


Celebrity crush you would get a hall pass for… Tom Petty

What is the new reward if it isn’t food anymore "If only Marijuana were legal…"

What makes you the Zodiac sign you are.. Taurueans are creative, earthy and loyal

What is your goal weight.... 157 pounds

Do you think you are a giver or a taker… GIVER...and I sometimes resent that I am hardly ever on the RECEIVING end...

Beach house or Mountain cabin.. Beach house 

If you monogrammed your towels...... CLR

Someone offers you free plastic surgery, what do you do…. Get my VERY thin lips pumped up to NORMAL (not Melanie Griffith or Lisa Rinna Puffy - just NORMAL!

I might be tempted to time travel back to…. Take school more seriously and earn a scholarship!

Nick name in high school....OX (devastating to say the least!)

Now cut and paste this but I want to see your answers...or feel free to post your own blog.

(From my good friend Colette!)

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BE-THE-CHANGE 6/29/2014 9:31PM

    I am a sucker for these...

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TADZIO 6/29/2014 8:55PM

    I think it's a neat little questionnaire -- nice getting to know folks a little better!

Have a wonderful week!

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HOLLYM48 6/29/2014 8:48PM

    emoticon thanks for sharing a little bit about yourself!

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Handling Disappointment: One of my Greatest Weaknesses

Sunday, June 15, 2014

emoticon Disclaimer: Do not read this if you are not in the mood for "Pity Party".

I have been trying to work on this, but I do NOT handle disappointment well. At all. ESPECIALLY when it involves something that I have been anticipating for a very long time. My brain is wired to visualize future events and it does. Frequently. In fact, I can have almost as much fun anticipating a vacation as the vacation. I am not kidding. It is like a little movie in my head. For years I visualized the day my daughter might be married (I did not have a wedding with family, just a very simple wedding with 6 close friends). When DD got tattoos, I had to edit the little movie in my head to include those. Not a disappointment, just a revision. Anyway, you get the idea. This is how my brain works.

I found out on Friday at 5:00 that I will NOT have a window in my office when we move into a new building later this year. I am absolutely devastated. In the plan, I had a window . Apparently they revised the plan. I have been sucking it up since September in a closet office with NO WINDOW and no natural light anywhere even from the hallway. I won't even tell you what I ate on my drive home Friday night. It was not pretty.

When I was in the front office, I had plenty of natural light, not my own office, BUT at least I had a window to the outside world. When my present boss recruited me to transfer to his department, I was sad about losing the light, but I decided I could deal with it since eventually, I was assured that I would have an office with a window in the new facility.

I REALLY, REALLY NEED natural light in the winter. I leave for work in the dark and get home in the dark and I always succumb to depression/anxiety in the winter. I am seriously thinking of looking for another job. My boss said he will try to sway upper management, but I am not hopeful. The thing that makes it harder for me is that I have been so excited for MONTHS, visualizing my new space with a window. This is what has helped me to cope with being in the crappy office I have now.

I just want to cry my eyes out. I am so sick of working hard and always getting shortchanged. I know this sounds childish, but people that are much younger than me and have not worked here as long, will be getting windows. I feel like I have "paid my dues" and FINALLY should have this one "perk". I am SO ANGRY, SAD and DEFEATED.

Sorry, to be such a downer, but I just had to vent. Oh and uh, my washing machine just died. Effing great.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 6/24/2014 4:54AM

    Coming late to the pity party but maybe this will help.
I know how you feel about dingy working conditions, for years I worked in an office with shuttered windows and I was well beyond the reach of natural light.

And in fact all this year our heating has not been working, and when the air conditioning comes on it simply creates an unheated draught directly over my desk. Finally (mid winter here!) the buildings people have turned a switch and there is heat in the room. I get into the office and the temperature is bearabl for the first time since we have been in the room.

Anyway, assuming you feel better having got all that off your chest, I think you would benefit from a SAD light box or lamp, and I think you have a good chance of getting your manager to purchase such a thing.

Check out this article, and maybe do a little consumer research of your own


The second thing is, get a big and fantastic painting or other image of a natural bright scene, and place it where you can see it. It could even be an image of a window and a view. You culd take a photo of something wonderful and get it printed onto a canvas. And get your manager to stump up for that, too.

third, place a large mirror on your wall opposite the faux window, to multiply the view.
Fourth, furnish your room with a negative ioniser of some sort.

This, plus the excellent suggestions above about getting out and walking at every opportunity, will help a little.

Of course this does not address all the issues, but it will make your office more pleasant.

And it IS kinda drastic to quit because of a window, IMHO. Unless you have been looking to quit, of course, in which case I guess it offers all the push you need to start looking around.

Hope this helps resolve some of your issues, Bunny Girl.



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TEXASFILLY 6/19/2014 5:07PM

    emoticonWhat a bummer! Humans are wired to live in natural light. Get a doctor's order for an office with windows. Then go to your boss and/or who hired you & discuss your legitimate concern. Express what you've shared here (polished up!) and logical would dictate they value you as an asset worthy of satisfying. Don't give up. Just speak your truth by hoping for the best while you develop a Plan B. *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEEGIRL50 6/18/2014 11:52AM

    Would anyone be willing to trade offices with you? Someone who the window isn't as important. Lack of light does cause seasonal depression for some people. If you explain that it is a health issue, maybe something can be done.

Wishing you the best,

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BE-THE-CHANGE 6/17/2014 8:32AM

    I totally understand what you are saying. I worked in an office without windows for years and it really messes with you. I would tell your boss what you told us about dealing with your current situation based on what you saw coming down the road. And if you don't get anywhere, I would look for a new job. Your well-being is most important.

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SEAGLASS1215 6/16/2014 4:42AM

    Thanks for commenting on my blog...but just to clarify, my new cube won't be near a window...just the gym will have windows, which means it'll be more pleasant when I use it. Maybe you could get a doctor's note saying for health reasons (do you suffer from SAD? seasonal affective disorder) that you need windows...they may just have to give you an office with windows then.

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TADZIO 6/15/2014 7:21PM

    I believe part of our journey is venting --- and part of it is listening to others vent. Sometimes this is the only place we have to vent and know that people will listen and understand where we are. I also believe it's these things that help us continue our "eating" and that as we learn to share --- we'll also learn to use something else instead of eating.

I totally understand.

I'm just like I was as a kid -- when I think I'm getting to do something -- it's the like a rug being yanked out from under me when its postponed or changed.

I hope things work out for you at your current job --- or that something opens up that will help you.

I haven't had a window for years --- and I still miss it.

Take care and be good to my friend!

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BABYSOX 6/15/2014 4:50PM

    I am sorry to hear that it is not working out the way you wanted it to. Perhaps there are other alternatives. Perhaps you can choose to make you break or lunchtime a priority to go outside and get some daylight or invest in one of those lamps that acts as natural sunlight. There are also fluorescent tubes for light fixtures that act as natural light. If not, good luck at whatever you choose to do. Definitely make yourself the priority. emoticon

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SERENE-BEAN 6/15/2014 3:18PM

    I echo Babe here. Let them know this is unacceptable, and start looking someplace else.

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_BABE_ 6/15/2014 2:04PM

    You have every right to express yourself! You are darn tooting right that these guys owe you this one concession. The nice thing is you can look for a new job and while you have to be prepared for the consequences it is well within your power to change your life.

I know already the job I am doing is not for me. It is not even so much the bitter witch who is making my life miserable so much as there is better things I can do with my life. I incurred a bit of debt with Frankenfoot so I am getting that out of the way and who knows maybe I will look into something else before my year is up...it's a new world and I could give a hoot if they think I am a job hopper...life is too short to be miserable.

Let them know this is not you idea of an ideal work situation and start looking for a new job. Who knows the universe may be handing you and opportunity for something better. emoticon

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Special Dinner Tonight

Saturday, May 03, 2014

Tonight we are getting together with my daughter and going out to dinner at a fabulous restaurant at a the beach. This will be an advance, joint celebration to include her 29th birthday, my 57th and Mothers Day. My best friend (and also a surrogate grandma to both of my kids, so she is really family) is coming along and my daughter's girlfriend will be there too. I am going to eat well today with lots of veggies and water. We plan on getting there early and doing a lot of walking, so that is a positive.

First and foremost, my plan for today is NOT to BINGE. Whatever may calories are for the day is what they are as long as I do not go on a full blown binge, I'm happy. The calories will average out for the month anyway and this IS a celebration and I plan to enjoy myself. I will have to "eyeball and guestimate" my calories at dinner. I know I will have a martini, so that's say, 300 - 400 calories depending on how large they make them. DD is making a special cake for after dinner when we go back to her place for coffee. I'm going to say 400 for that, and eat a SMALL piece, VERY SLOWLY and enjoy it.

My entrée will be one of these:

Crispy Rockfish - Sweet Potato Gnocchi, Roasted Grape Tomatoes, Sunburst Squash, Meyer Lemon Sherry Cream, Fennel Arugula Salad, Garlic Basil Oil

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Spring Roll Stirfry - Silken Tofu & Wilted Scallion Spring Rolls, Sugar Snap Peas, Malibu Carrots, Sunburst Squash, Red Quinoa, Coconut Sweet Soy Reduction, Shaved Asparagus Smoked Almond Salad

Like I said, I'm going to have to guess, but I AM practicing "Choice Control" (Thank you Dee!). emoticon

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PEWTERBUNNY 5/19/2014 4:40PM

    Hope you had a fabulous celebration!

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FIFIFRIZZLE 5/8/2014 12:15PM

    Hoping this was as special as it sounds.

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ASRMOM 5/5/2014 11:57PM

    I hope you have a great time!

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ALEXSGIRL1 5/4/2014 12:35PM

    enjoy the celebration love your many choices

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BE-THE-CHANGE 5/4/2014 8:29AM

    Enjoy your celebration!

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BRENDABUNNY 5/3/2014 10:15PM

    Happy Pre DD Birthday & Your Birthday & Mother's Day! Whew emoticon emoticon ...Have a great time on all those days when they come too! emoticon emoticon

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TEXASFILLY 5/3/2014 11:56AM

    emoticon Hope y'all have a great time! Enjoy~ *hugs* BB~ emoticon

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BABYSOX 5/3/2014 11:39AM

    Eat everything you want but in moderation. Remember the first bite always tastes the best.

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_BABE_ 5/3/2014 11:20AM

    Good food, great taste doesn't have to be high in calories. Enjoy your birthday my dear, partake a little in everything you want to and just know you are fabulous!


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Plan for May

Thursday, May 01, 2014

My plan for May is to:

1. Weigh in every day (that I am home).

As my sister would say "This keeps me honest."

2. Knock off the binging and get a Binge Free streak going.

I have had some rough patches in my life and crumbled, but I have to get a grip. Binging only makes my stress WORSE.

3. Give the lemon and cayenne beverage a try in the morning.

I tried this for the first time this morning. AWFUL. Maybe I used too much cayenne? It DID make me drink more water before I even had my coffee. I'm not sure if I believe the hype about this drink boosting your metabolism and removing the toxins, blah, blah, blah, BUT I'm keeping an open mind and giving it a whirl.

4. Track every day - Aim for 1200 - 1700 daily average.

Nothing more to add to this other than it is pretty simple. Eat less calories and you lose weight. The trick is you have to actually DO THIS.

5. Drink more water.

6. Make a conscious effort to get more activity in.

This is secondary to getting my eating under control, but I still need to address it.

7. Most importantly: Follow my own advice.

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_BABE_ 5/3/2014 11:24AM

    Good plan Connie but I think weighing everyday just puts you on a roller coaster...but maybe that's me. I have just read something about stabilizing blood sugar and just lemon in hot water was good...plus they liked cinnamon which I think is a treat in plain yogurt.

Knowing what you have to offer because of what you have accomplished and who you have become reminds you of how important you are to yourself and to others. Focus on being abundant and feeling prosperous. This is also your week to wake up and smell the coffee, the earth, the flowers and savoring your food. Get reacquainted with your earthly self and bring your attention closer to the material world and you’ll feel renewed.


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DEEGIRL50 5/2/2014 7:32AM

    Here's wishing you Choice Control. emoticon
It ain't easy, but it's worth it.

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SEAGLASS1215 5/2/2014 4:29AM

    I like #7...follow your own advice! I'm starting to do that and it's paying off. You can do this!!

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TEXASFILLY 5/1/2014 9:52PM

    emoticon Try adding Grade B maple syrup, a couple of tablespoons to your lemon water~ I did this with a cayenne capsule 'n boy howdy! I thought the top of my head would blow off & I was redder than a beet! HA! Recommended by a li'l witch doctor I used to frequent~ it heats up your metabolism all right~ if it didn't blow my top! Hahahahaha~

Consistency is the key. Ditch the binge foods. If they're not in the house, I can't eat 'em. *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon

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BABYSOX 5/1/2014 4:54PM

    I tried the lemon and cayenne detox for a day once and I decided that I would never do it again. It tasted disgusting.
Here is to a great May.

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PEWTERBUNNY 5/1/2014 2:40PM

    Getting the eating under control.... You said it all right there. Until I got the eating undercontrol I could never lose that weight. Now i just need to get my willpower back!

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TWEETYKC00 5/1/2014 6:35AM

    You Can Do It!

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