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From Joy to Sorrow

Friday, September 07, 2012

What an emotional roller coaster I've been on. On July 9th I was supposed to have a procedure done but didn't b/c we found out I was pregnant! I felt such joy and a deep love! Having diabetes and high blood pressure I was nervous about things and then I started spotting....Our first ultrasound was disappointing and our second indicated a possible miscarriage. The third on August 22nd confirmed it.
So I'm in the middle of a miscarriage. Since I wasn't too far along Dr is monitoring things as they move naturally through...What sorrow this is...

All i want to do is sleep most of the time...but I am slowly starting to feel a little more myself.

On the plus side I now know I can get pregnant as I've always worried about it, not only am I 37 but I only have one ovary b/c of issues when I was a teen. So there is hope. We'll be trying again soon.

Until then I am back. Happy to say I got my big all butt out of bed and on the Wii two days in a row now.
My challenge now is to get back to eating healthy. My appetite is so weird lately. It's probably the stress and hormones.

I did loose a few pounds when I was pregnant (oh goodness I hate saying WAS PREGNANT *sighs*) first b/c I started eating even healthier and second b/c super sonic smell kicked in and everything smelled so gross and turned my tummy.

So gold star for two workouts this week (it had been at least 71 days since I'd been on the Wii) and this next week I am planning on at least three and good eating!

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BECCA_ANNE 9/16/2012 12:37PM

    So sorry for your loss! emoticon

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WINTERSMAGIC29 9/10/2012 4:35PM

As my OB said to us this sucks.

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JENNYR0506 9/8/2012 2:05PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss.

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ELSCO55 9/7/2012 10:21PM

    Sorry for your loss. Glad you will be able to try again.

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In need of

Friday, April 20, 2012

a Spark Buddy.
I seem to stay better focused when I have someone I'm cheering on and who's cheering me on.

Anyone up for it??

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WINTERSMAGIC29 4/23/2012 4:28PM

    Thanks I just posted on our profile! Looking forward to getting to know you!

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RHEYNKLW 4/21/2012 12:03AM

    Doctor Who fans don't let other Doctor Who fans go buddy-less! What's your plan of attack, pal?
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In response to my emotional trigger post

Thursday, January 05, 2012

The other day I wrote about how my family triggers my emotional eating..I feel I need to explore this more. I love my family very much and I know I'm loved too and they don't bring drama into my life at all. It's just I often have trouble figuring out where I fit into the family...I don't feel like I've done anything to make my family be proud of me..So It's more about how I make myself feel when I am with my family then how they actually make me feel. I realize I have a lot of emotions to work through and every time I think I'm on the right track with building a good self esteem it all seems to crumble away..

putting one foot in front of the other..not giving up..just wallowing a bit...


Emotional eating trigger

Monday, January 02, 2012

Just realized (while visiting my family for the holidays) that my family triggers my emotional eating..I'm ending this trip feeling badly about myself and not knowing where i fit in my family..This is tearing me up and I really dread stepping on a scale and I am overwhelmed knowing that I have a great deal of physical and emotional work to do..

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

1CRAZYDOG 1/2/2012 9:11AM

    Well, you mnow what. You've identified the trigger. Now it's time to develop an action plan to deal with it. You CAN, you know. You may not be able to control situations (read -- YOUR FAMILY), but you can control your REACTIONS to them. It is in your power.

You know, we can chose our friends, but not our families. I feel blessed that I do get along with my family, but that's not how it is for so very many. I feel your pain!

Take it a step-at-a-time and as was said, one step forward, two steps back, but keep that MOVEMENT!

Today's a new day. Take advantage of the possibilties.

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7356WILMA 1/2/2012 12:13AM

  Small steps!! I think my most favorite saying that I have picked up here is two steps forward one step back. So even when we have a bad spell, we've still made progress.


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Forward movement

Monday, October 17, 2011

I've been working hard on sticking to getting on my Wii fit. I even found myself turning to the Wii when I was frustrated over a weight gain last week. My first instinct was not to go to the kitchen..This is a break through for me :) I have not eating my emotions for a week now..that is also a break through. I've been pushing past chronic pain to get moving, it's a challenge but I'm doing it and I am tickled pink with myself. I know my success won't always show up on the scale but it will in other ways too and I'm glad to finally be moving forward again!


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