Resisted the temptation... to cause someone bodily harm!

Friday, November 04, 2011

I have spent the better part of my day annoyed, irritated, and wanting to cause someone bodily harm!

It really didn't even matter who... just someone!

PMS is a wonderful thing.

I woke up and felt good… thanks to going to the gym the day before! (Note to self: You feel great the day after going to the gym… so get your butt in gear and start going three days a week again.)

I had my usual breakfast, which is the same every day but I love it nonetheless.

Got to work and it was nice and quiet… just how I like it!

Today was our “regular day off”, but like most “off” days I worked, which was fine because the overtime is nice… and the place was virtually empty.

That was, until the reps from a company that we work with arrived.

One of them came in with a ginormous bag from Panera Bread. *drool*

Bagels… all varieties… including the asiago cheese ones and the cinnamon crunch ones that smell so yummy. *drool*

Cinnamon rolls… big, fat ones! *drool*

Bear claws… enough said. *drool*

They all know that I am trying really hard to lose weight. The guy that brought in all of the crap knew that I couldn’t/wouldn’t eat any of it, but that I would WANT to eat ALL of it. *sigh*

There is a perfectly good break room right around the corner from my desk. Do you think they took the food in there though?

No, of course not.

I specifically asked them to take the food to the OTHER side of the office at least… but no. The JERKS sat at the tables right behind my desk and munched and smacked their lips all the while talking about how sparking fantastic everything tasted.

I was beyond mad at that point.

Mad because they were eating yummy stuff that I can’t… well, not that I can’t, but that I won’t eat at this point in time because I am on a mission!

Mad because they didn’t have enough respect for me to go to the other end of the office or into the break room.

Mad because they enjoyed that crap way too sparking much.



I eventually packed up MY stuff and moved into the break room to get away from the food. It is kind of pathetic that I had to leave MY work space where I was WORKING… so that I could get away from them munching and socializing… and that just fueled my anger.

The guy that brought the food came into the break room to tell me how bad he felt that I couldn’t eat anything that he brought and asked if there was anything he could get me next time. If he had thought that question through first he would have known the answer… he could have just kept the food away from me!

I was starving after seeing/smelling all the food and it was only 9am… and lunch isn’t until noon.

I managed to get a little work done, but not as much as I had planned to do today.

I ate my normal lunch and then packed up my stuff to leave.

Over a month ago my group from my Interpersonal Communications class decided to meet today at 1pm at the college library to work on our group research paper.

I had to take off of work early to meet with them because this was one of the only times that worked for the other two group members.

I got an e-mail message from one girl saying that her best friend’s aunt died and her funeral was today at 1pm so she wouldn’t be able to make it to the group meeting.

Ok, I’m sorry that her best friend’s aunt died… but it really sucked that she was going to miss the meeting.

I don’t even think that I KNOW any of my best friend’s aunts.

Anyway.

I get all the way to the college and get a text message from the other girl. Her babysitter canceled on her so she’s not going to make it.

Really???

By then the anger from earlier today is making a reappearance.

The best part about that whole situation with the group meeting is that this week’s chapter and discussion is on EXCUSES!

Now they want to reschedule the group meeting for next Sunday so they can spark up my weekend routine.

I went ahead and did some of my research since I was already at the library.

Ever try to concentrate in the LIBRARY when everyone around you is talking on a cell phone?

Fun stuff!

After a couple of hours, I gave up and decided to come home.

I took the nice scenic route home and admired the beautiful Fall day and the beautiful colors of the leaves.

The leaves changing colors is my absolute favorite thing about Fall.



So after the drive, I’m feeling a bit better.

I no longer want to kill someone with a bagel… or a bear claw.

I do, however, want to completely blow off this entire research project because I KNOW that my grade will still be ok… but their grades probably won’t fare so well based on a previous conversation about grades. *evil grin*

It’s too bad that I have too much integrity to actually follow through with it though. *sigh*

I am so thankful that today is Friday!!!

  

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LILYYELLOW 11/4/2011 11:48PM

I laughed out loud at "I don’t even think that I KNOW any of my best friend’s aunts." That's really unfortunate about the food coming in. I know how hard that makes the whole day. I was in a green room last night at a gig, and there wasn't any food in the room, but the band kept going into the other room (where there was a buffet spread out) and bringing plates piled with stuff back. I wasn't as good as you. I stuck my fingers in those damn salads and pulled out hunks of mozzarella. I was so mad at myself! It's just not fair to have it around.... It sounds like you handled everything really well!! Super challenging. Report Inappropriate Comment

LITTLEKIM4 11/4/2011 9:47PM

Wow, you really did have a cruddy day. The guy with the Panera food seemed like he was purposely trying to sabotage you! And yeah, the whole 'best friend's aunt died and she has to go to the funeral" seems a little sketchy. But I guess it's possible. I think if I'd been through everything you went through today, and was PMSing on top of it, I seriously would have flipped my lid and laid into somebody before the day was out! Report Inappropriate Comment

LUCKYPRESENCE 11/4/2011 9:40PM

Way to go avoiding the temptation!! we have had a lot of sweets at work lately too. Just look the other way!! Report Inappropriate Comment

TARAFROMTX1 11/4/2011 9:09PM

Wow, way to hold strong and NOT kill someone... even if it was going to be with a bear claw lol I would have been pretty mad myself... so I salute you!!! I hope your weekend turns out alot better! Report Inappropriate Comment

JONICACALDWELL 11/4/2011 6:55PM

I wouldn't have been able to say no to really expensive baked goods. If I was being good I would have had 1/2 and brought the other 1/2 home for breakfast tomorrow, free food is free food! You did awesome though! And I can't wear heels to work bc I';m pretty sure that I'm going to ram my heel into someone else's toe...on purpose. Report Inappropriate Comment

BECKY3774 11/4/2011 5:51PM

Don't take this the wrong way, but your blog made me laugh. It made me laugh because of the sucktacular day that I had...now I know that I'm not alone. Some people just really need to get a sparking clue, right? I can't even begin to tell you how sparking awesome you are with willpower!!! I'd have been playing, "Let's see how many bagels and bear claws can Becky fit in her mouth!!" I have zero control compared to you in that department. I get the thought in my head, and then I'll make myself sparking crazy thinking about it until I finally give in!! Way to go on being AWESOME!!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SNOWANGELDIVA 11/4/2011 5:42PM

You are a beautiful woman and full of mercy. I am such a vicious 'sparking' woman... Dude ~ way rude with the goodies. Apparently common sense is not so common. It's a work place, not a cafeteria. He was being an attention seeking doofus and I have a couple of locations for stuffing those bear claws. Your school partners...you're so nice. I'd be figuring out way to bury them iand their lazy work ethic. Deep. You keep taking the high road though....good things will come. WAY TO GO on keeping your head on a challenging day. Report Inappropriate Comment

Chugging along...

Thursday, November 03, 2011

I am chugging along... but not with much enthusiasm lately.

I've let my HABIT of going to the gym three times a week slip... to a habit of going two times a week.



And between the missed workouts and it being "that week" I am feeling...



My beloved elliptical seemed HARD today... and I wasn't even on my normal levels.

I really need these classes to be OVER already so I can kick myself in the derriere and get back on track... for REAL!

Like back in the beginning when I was super excited about going to the gym!

Back to three days at the gym... even if I'm bowling that week! (Instead of using bowling as my "activity" for one day a week!)

Come on end of the semester... I need to get my groove back!


My food has still been good...

Although, I don't think I'm going to see a loss this week. I'm blaming the rice. I can't do brown rice (It's a texture thing)... so I had the evil white stuff.

And it was delicious... but probably not worth it if that really is the cause of my weight staying the same this week.

Next week... no rice!


Today at the gym I ventured into "guy land"... and there were GUYS in there!



At the gym I prefer to stay as far away from guy land as possible!

That's where the muscle heads all lift heavy stuff and stare at themselves in the mirrors... which I find comical.

But "guy land" is also a bit intimidating to me... because I very rarely, if ever see, any other women over there.

Hell, I only see three or four women at our gym period... and never at the same time.

After trying out some stuff on that side of the gym last Sunday when no one was in "guy land" I really realized how bored I'd gotten with some of the machines that I'd been using for the majority of my time at the gym.

It feels good to change things up a bit, even if it means entering "guy land"!

(I'm never giving up on the elliptical though! haha)

  

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DRKEYEZ820 11/4/2011 11:38AM

I love reading your blogs, they are written in story form lol. LOL geez white rice does bad things to me too, potatoes as well (not as much as the rice) but its not like u have it every day.....right? lol When you have alot on your plate life seems to catch up with you- with that being said i still think you are doing amazing. Alot of us wouldnt even do the 2 days a week at the gym we'd be lucky to go at all. So give yourself a hug and love all that you have accomplished. Must be nice to go into "guy land" LOL- show em what your workin with girl. Id be shakin in the corner somewhere, but not Winnie. Shes like 1, 2, 3, 10000 lol. Do those muscle machines ;) Report Inappropriate Comment

BECKY3774 11/4/2011 6:32AM

I have found that going to workout during 'that time' only speeds the process along and makes the whole thing better and easier. Maybe this will be the case for you? Use it as an excuse to GO to the gym extra and get that bonus workout in!! Report Inappropriate Comment

ADVENTURESEEKER 11/3/2011 9:33PM

Rawr on the guy land thing! Show 'em what you're made of! Oh, and yeah, I find exercising during that TOM hard. blech. Switching it up may be the movement you need to get your 'motivation' back! Keep up the hard work! You can do it! Get back in there at least 3x a week! Report Inappropriate Comment

AHEALTHYDANI 11/3/2011 9:01PM

job on braving GuyLand! Report Inappropriate Comment

Take that temptation!!!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Today a co-worker came into work with enough candy to fill half of a Walmart bag. And of course, it wasn't just the stuff that is easy to turn down like smarties and tootsie rolls... it was "fun size" candy bars and other delicious chocolate delights.



I was sooo tempted to have JUST ONE!

But I know that just one would have lead to just two... and then I would have been skipping dinner to stay in my ranges... or I would have been over my ranges.

So I did my best to ignore the candy... all stinkin' day.

Success!!!



The bad thing though, is that TONIGHT is the night that the kids in our area go trick-or-treating!

That means that my entire week will probably be a repeat of today as everyone brings in their left over Halloween candy.

As if we don't have enough junk around on a daily basis without candy added to the mix.

I have to admit though... it really upsets me to see all of the thin people at work scarfing down massive amounts of junk food lately and they never seem to gain an ounce.

On three separate days last week people brought in donuts... and it's always the same people eating the junk.

I KNOW that I am probably HEALTHIER than they are because of my eating habits versus theirs... but it bugs me that I have to work so hard to avoid the temptations so I don't gain... meanwhile they stuff their faces and stay the same.

Ok... pity party over.

Tomorrow is gym day! That means I'll spend the day looking forward to my post-workout chocolate milk!

  

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NORAHNICK 11/1/2011 4:38PM

I'm very proud of you! I caved to a Halloween cupcake. :-( Report Inappropriate Comment

JTAMSYN 11/1/2011 12:10AM

Congratulations on staying strong. I totally know how you feel. I am married to one of those skinny inactive people. My dh is 6ft tall and weighs (on a heavy day) 135lbs. And he does absolutely no exercise. Actually, watching me workout while he sits snacking on chips is the extent of his working out. And the rest of his family is the same. Its SO difficult always being surrounded by people that eat 5-6 big meals a day and you are always the 'fat' one! I always say that what he eats goes straight to MY hips! It still frustrates me. But one thing my dh said that I thought was really nice was that he could never have the willpower to workout as hard as I do. It makes him appreciate how lucky he is to have such a great metabolism. Comment edited on: 11/1/2011 12:12:30 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

LILYYELLOW 10/31/2011 11:12PM

Hey, congratulations to you on skipping the candy!!! I was reading on facebook today about some guy eating a million candy corns and running out and I felt a little, I don't know, jealous? Or bugged. Bugged that he can eat them and I can't. We haven't had any halloween candy because in my building nobody knocks on our door for trick or treating, but I know how hard it is and how having just one leads to having a million pieces!! We buy a huge huge bag of candy at Costco to give out at gigs. And then when the night is over I leave the bag at the gig. Probably the waitresses hate me for leaving it, but what choice do I have!! LOL Happy Halloween! Report Inappropriate Comment

AHEALTHYDANI 10/31/2011 10:58PM

I can totally empathize with feeling frustrated with people that seem to be able to eat whatever they want and still stay at a healthy weight. Good on you for sticking to your goals and resisting temptation today! Report Inappropriate Comment

ADVENTURESEEKER 10/31/2011 10:34PM

Yaye to resisting temptation! I have been holding onto 1 fun-sized coffee crisp for a week now as a treat for today. And that was it. I didn't even buy candy/chocolate bars to give out (I went to bootcamp instead) so I didn't have any temptation. I am not blessed with eating whatever I want because for 1) I'll feel sick, and 2) I'll gain weight if I try. Report Inappropriate Comment

LUCKYPRESENCE 10/31/2011 8:30PM

I understand your feelings of jealousy towards people who can eat whatever they want and stay thin. My boyfriend is one of those people. I find myself wishing that I did not have to worry so much about the food I eat. BTW, way to go on avoiding the candy trap!! Report Inappropriate Comment

WINNIE1978 10/31/2011 8:16PM

I appreciate you playing devil's advocate Becky, but I guess I should have made it clear that with the exception of a couple of the people that are downing the junk... these are basically inactive people... and they've been that way for the several years that I've known them. Heck, most of them pride themselves on doing as little as possible at work and at home. One of them is crazy hyper and always on the go, so with him I understand... he also eats more in one meal than I do in the entire day but he very rarely slows down. There might be one or two others that go to the gym occasionally. The rest of them... you'd need a donut or a bag of Halloween candy to lure them out of their chairs. The typical diet of these folks consists of Poptarts and a soda for breakfast, something from the vending machine or a donut for a mid-morning snack, pizza or wings and another soda for lunch, and finally another stop by the vending machine and another soda for an afternoon snack. I just get a little jealous that I cannot eat whatever I want, whenever I want, without the consequence of it going straight to my derriere! I do know that there are people that workout hard so that they can eat whatever they want, and I can appreciate that... and I hope to one day get to a point where I can occasionally eat whatever I want without it negatively affecting my weight but who knows if that'll ever be possible. And I also know that there are people that are thin and would love to be able to gain a little weight... I was actually just talking to a co-worker about that the other day. She has a terrible time trying to gain and always gets horrible comments from people that don't understand. Report Inappropriate Comment

BECKY3774 10/31/2011 7:52PM

Okay, I'm gonna play devils advocate here for a minute because I've seen this before. What you're seeing is skinny people stuffing their face with garbage, and not gaining an ounce. Who's to say they don't go home and work their asses off to make up for it? I was a nanny for a family awhile back that the mom would go running for an hour, come home drenched in sweat, and pull out a bag of cheetohs. You are only seeing the one side of it. I know it's frustrating, and it seems like they're blessed, but they may be working even harder just go get the crap that they eat out of their system. OR.........they could just suck like that! Congratulations on being stronger than that! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALICERIEGER 10/31/2011 7:47PM

Congratulations on your will power. Unfortunately we all don't come in size "skinny" Most of us don't. Comment edited on: 10/31/2011 7:47:46 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

Tried my first recipe from the Spark cookbook...

Sunday, October 30, 2011

I thought the Slower Cooker Salsa Chicken looked yummy in the Spark cookbook and decided to give it a try for dinners this week.

I did a search in the recipe section of the website and there are hundreds of variations of this recipe, but none of them were like the one in the cookbook.

I used the recipe for taco seasoning from the cookbook and I think that's where I went wrong. The taco seasoning consists of a lot of cumin, some chili powder and some red pepper flakes.

I don't know about you... but I think cumin smells kind of like an armpit so I was a little nervous about that.

Thankfully, once everything got cooking it smelled really good.

The recipe called for one cup of diced tomatoes, undrained. There was only a little left in the can so I just threw the whole can in.

Later it calls for adding some water... plus there's an onion in the recipe.

All of that added up to it being rather soupy... it would have been difficult to put it on a whole wheat tortilla like in the picture without first draining it.

Silly me forgot the sour cream at the end, but other than reducing the heat a bit (it was a tad spicy) I don't think it would have made much difference.

We had the salsa chicken over rice with a side of veggies.

It was good, but it wasn't great.

I could smell and taste the cumin way too much for my liking.

I think I would have liked it a LOT better if I had used regular taco seasoning from a packet instead of the recipe from the cookbook… so I’ll give that a try the next time I make this recipe.

Has anyone else made anything from the cookbook yet? If so, what did you make and how did you like it?

  

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SNOWANGELDIVA 10/30/2011 9:14PM

Loved the cumin/armpit reference. I haven't gone for the recipe book. I think my next investment will be in a slow cooker book though. I am notorious for a half an hour before a meal cleaning up school and racing to get something together, it's maddening. Report Inappropriate Comment

AHEALTHYDANI 10/30/2011 8:44PM

Lol @ "I don't know about you... but I think cumin smells kind of like an armpit" Report Inappropriate Comment

NU_ME_SOON 10/30/2011 8:13PM

I havent brought the cook book yet (Im gonna get it soon) but I have tried some recipes from the website. I got an email on roasted chicken. I love roasted chicken so I figure trying different seasons wouldn't hurt. It was good but not how I like it. Im gonna keep trying different things so I don't get bored. Just like you Im not a fan of cumin either. Do the cookbook offer alternatives Report Inappropriate Comment

NANCYBOAT 10/30/2011 8:09PM

I just got the cookbook - haven't had a chance to try anything yet. Report Inappropriate Comment

BECKY3774 10/30/2011 6:58PM

We are soooo much alike. Not only do we comment on each other's blogs at the same time, but we blog at the same time. We must be in tune.... The salsa chicken didn't honestly sound like my kind of thing, but I like how you put it over rice with some veggies on the side. If I cooked it, I would leave out anything spicy...lol Report Inappropriate Comment

Another milestone!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

I really, really HATE the word OBESE! It is a horrible, ugly sounding word.

That word actually caused me to change doctors a little over a year ago. The doctor that I had been seeing one day decided that I was “obese” even though my weight had been about the same the entire 3 to 4 year that I’d been seeing him. My medical record actually said, “Patient arrived appearing obese.”



From that point on the doctor started coding everything with an “obesity” code.

When I went to him because I had a bad sore throat, which is something that I am pretty sure had absolutely nothing to do with my weight; he coded the visit with the obesity code.

Guess what that meant for my insurance company?

That meant that they didn’t have to pay ANYTHING! Not a single penny… because they “don’t cover that condition”.

I was paying for insurance to cover my medical expenses, but because my doctor decided one day that I was obese… the insurance company didn’t have to pay anything.

Awesome, right?

I called the doctor’s office and was told it was a mistake and that they would recode and resubmit, which they did and the insurance picked up their part of the tab.

I figured that would be the end of it… but no.

When it was time for me to visit the doctor to get my prescriptions rewritten… the same thing happened. He saw me for two seconds, coded the visit with that awful obesity code even though the medications had NOTHING to do with my weight, and once again the insurance company claimed they didn’t cover obesity. That meant it cost me $167 for the doctor to write out my prescriptions. And the doctor insisted on seeing me every 3 months to rewrite these prescriptions even though I'd been taking the medications for years.



When I met my new doctor for the first time he asked me why I was switching doctors. I told him that my previous doctor insisted on coding everything with an obesity code, to which the new doctor replied, “Oh no! You can’t do that or the insurance won’t pay anything!”

I love my new doctor!



All of that doctor nonsense just added to the reasons that I hate the words obese and obesity.

I always knew that I was overweight, but I never really thought of myself as obese. When I entered my height and weight into Spark, they disagreed though... and my BMI number clearly put me in the obese range.



After several months of eating healthy and working out on a regular basis... I am happy to report that as of Friday’s weigh in… I am NOT obese!

My BMI is no longer 30 or above, which means BYE BYE obesity!!!



I intend to make sure that I am NEVER considered obese again!!!

  

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NORAHNICK 10/31/2011 5:42PM

Ugh...doctors!!!! I hate most of them! Congratulations on no longer being obese!!!! Wooooooo to the hooooo!!!!! Very exciting!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

AHEALTHYDANI 10/29/2011 11:17PM

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SNOWANGELDIVA 10/29/2011 10:04PM

OH MY GOODNESS!! I loved hearing this! I loved hearing this for myself. I'm so happy for you! Congratulations. I hate the word 'obese' too. Absolutely it. It's why I switched from Wii to XBOX. That one word. I'm so thrilled for you. Report Inappropriate Comment

LALMEIDA 10/29/2011 8:42PM

on the weight loss. Shame on that doctor Report Inappropriate Comment

JESSNSTONE 10/29/2011 8:26PM

That's awesome! Keep it up! Report Inappropriate Comment

BECKY3774 10/29/2011 8:09PM

Congratulations, once again, and where did you calculate that? Report Inappropriate Comment

YELLOWCORVETTE 10/29/2011 7:56PM

yay!! great job on losing the weight. I hate the word obese too everyone is now considered obses in the world :( you made the right call on switching drs! Report Inappropriate Comment

ADVENTURESEEKER 10/29/2011 7:53PM

Yaye to not being 'obese'! Booo to your last doctor. Report Inappropriate Comment