Tuesday, November 20, 2012
I had a really bad eating day yesterday. I was traveling and being in the car seems to be a trigger for junk food. Yes, junk food called my name and I answered. I know better and yet I continue to eat the foods that I know are not good for me. But, come on, we stopped at the Chocolate shop, you know the place where the "good stuff" is.
Fortunately, they did not have my favorites so I settled for something else, which means I did not buy as much as I normally would have. I would not have stopped if I was traveling solo, but my husband wanted to stop. OK, so I could place the blame on my husband; if it weren't for him I would not have stopped and purchased the goodies and then ate them on the way home.
But the reality is, I knew better and I did it anyway. I am responsible for my own actions and my choices that I make. Every time I eat something that I know I shouldn't it is because I had a thought, then I made a decision and then I decided to take an action. I know this, I understand this and I have to live with the decision I made and now it is time to move forward. Today is a new day, a new beginning, new choices.
I wish my husband could accept this also. My husband needs to lose weight, a lot of weight; but he seems to think that I am responsible for his diet. He has some physical issues and has a lot of pain so it is difficult for him to move. But since we have different starting times, I usually let him make his own breakfast.
I have discussed both McDougall's Program and Furhman's Eat to Live with him and he keeps telling me he wants to do that style of eating. But his actions do not follow his words. The other morning he was frying bacon and eggs for his breakfast and telling me at the same time how he wants to go on a diet like the one we did a few years ago (Jonny Bowden Bootcamp [similar to the first 2 weeks of Atkins]) but substitute beans for the animal products.
Really? He wants to do this while frying bacon and eggs? I asked him why he isn't he doing it? He told me it was because I do not make all of his meals so he will eat whatever. I told him not to lay it on me and he responded with the same words, Well, don't lay it on me."
What? Is he trying to guilt me into dieting for him? This is not the first time he has told me that he does not eat well because I do not prepare all of his meals for him. If he was 5 years old I could accept that responsibility, but he is not and so I do not.
This reminds me of an incident that happened many years ago: We were living an a single wide mobile home and the master bedroom was just past a small hallway where the washer and dryer were kept. I had just cleaned the floor with Mop 'n Glo so the floor was sticky wet. He wanted to come to the bedroom and was going to jump, as in "take a flying leap" .
~~OMG!!!~~~~ I am laughing so hard right now. I have not thought of this for years and it is just as funny now as it was then.
Back to the story... I told him that the distance was too far and he'd never make it. He was confident that he could ... So, he jumped, hit the wet floor, his feet went out from underneath him and he slid into the bedroom, taking the door frame with him. He is laying on the floor, eyes wide open and he looked at me and said, "I can't believe you let me do that."
The part of this story that is not funny is that he blamed me for his decision to jump. What makes a person not accept responsibility for their actions?
Thursday, November 15, 2012
I decided to go to the gym first thing this morning. First, that is, after I had my coffee and breakfast. As I was deciding what to wear, I pulled out my Nike 2009 Human Race T-shirt. 2009! - That was the year I first started seriously running or jogging, whatever you want to call it.
That is 3 years I stuck with something for more than a month. Sometimes I get frustrated because I cannot seem to get with an eating program that will be health supporting. I feel like a failure in this area. But, just looking at the date on that shirt tells me that I do stick with something. I have just been more motivated with my running than I have with my eating.
But even with running I have had my ups and downs. There are times when I just do not get out there for a run, but I always seem to get back to doing it. I was encouraged by the fact that I am still sticking with it even though I am not perfect with my routines. I just keep plodding along and if I have a set back, when I get back into it and recognize that I may have lost some speed and endurance then make a plan to work my way back to the level that I was at before the break.
I wish my eating was more like my running because I seem to be off more than on with my food plan. I get so frustrated sometimes with my lack of self-control. It seems I cannot make that commitment to just do it. However, having just returned from the gym and an hour on the treadmill, I realize that it is not over yet. If I want to be a better runner, I have to be a better eater.
I have been tracking my food intake these past few days and boy, do I eat a lot, bread especially. Oh, I love bread. At least I can see where I need to make improvements. If it is not too late, to make a long story short, I am so glad that I was given that Nike T-shirt, because it serves as a visual reminder of what I have accomplished these past three years.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
I went to the gym yesterday and when I got there I saw that it had received a facelift. Gone were the old treadmills that squeeked and squacked, gone were the recumbent bikes that had the seats all torn. Also, gone was the Arc machine and old weight machines. I'll miss the last two, but everything was so nice.
First, I got on one of those really nice treadmills - After my 5 minute warmup, I jogged for 20 minutes without stopping. It must have been my excitement with the new equipment because I had not done that for quite some time now. I jogged at 5.5 mph. Now that I know I can do that, I can tweak my future workouts.
Second, I tried out a few of the new weight machines. I am not sure how I will like them. This setup does not have a how to use picture attached and I am unfamiliar with the machines. I will have to research first to see how to use them properly.
Third, I got on the spin bike. Ever since I downloaded the first Get C'yced episode from Motion Traxx, a coached episode with Gregg Cook, I have been wanting to get on a spin bike to follow along. What a killer workout!! I thought it was a half hour workout, but it was a 50 minute one with three hill climbs. I did not make it through the hill climbs.
Yesterday, was only my second time on a spin bike and I hope I did not look as ridiculous as I felt. I also realized how flabby my legs are. I am a pear and I all those past blogs when I wrote about eating junk food - all that went straight to my hips and thighs.
My goal is to make it through that workout on the spin bike - I am able to do so at home on our recumbent bike, but the spin bike has a whole different feel and the effort was more intense. (Translate that into "Oh, did I feel the burn.")
It was an awesome work out for me and when I returned home, I went outside and cleared out the top of the hillside (see yesterday's blog). When I did the hill workout, I realized the area cleared was a tad too short and so I cleared a path going up and around so next time I do a hill workout I can run up further and then catch my breath as I run around the garage and back down again. Now, I am hoping we do not get snow for awhile.
It felt so good to get in a good fun workout!
Monday, November 12, 2012
I have been busy doing yard projects and my exercise routines were put on hold because the work I had to do was physically hard. However, today the weather was cold, only in the 20's, and snow flurries all day. It was a good day to take some time off.
I wanted to go for a run, but every time I'd open the door I'd decide not to go. It is a good day just to relax, I'd tell myself. I was trying to talk myself into going to the gym, but I really did not want to go anywhere. It is a 20 minute drive.
I had a good workout with Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred in the morning, but I really wanted to go for a run. Or maybe it was I needed to go for a run, I needed a mental lift. Not going anywhere in the car won and since it is hunting season, I really did not want to go on the road. I'd be running between fields and woods. Not really where I'd want to be.
So, since we spent a few days clearing the hillside so we can go sledding this winter (if it snows this year); I decided to do a hill workout. I'd be on my property close to the house and the hunters ought not be shooting in that direction.
So, down I went...
and up I went...
I must have done it about 40 times, I lost count at 20 and my garmin turned over 1 mile. My garmin distance was 2.08 miles. Hills are the worst for me; I am so lazy when it comes to running up a hill. I found myself only walking up only once and it was near the end. I reminded myself I was doing a hill workout and walking up was not allowed. (Yes, I talk to myself a lot.)
I cannot wait for hunting season to be over and the bears in hibernation so I can just go running down the road. I heard there are wolves in close by, but I never hear them howl so I hope that won't be on my list of why I don't want to run. I still remember when I was running at dusk and thought I heard a car but when I turned around I saw a bear crossing the road.
My son-in-law wants to start running and I hope he won't mind me slowing him down so we can run together. There are so many trails I want to go on but I really do not want to go solo.
Well, enough babbling for now, I hope you all have a good evening and week.
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