Sunday, October 14, 2012
I pulled my book and workbook off the shelf this morning and looking through the workbook, I see I made it to day 6 last time around.
The one thing that I see that has stuck with me is that every time I make a decision, it always begins with a thought. First I think about doing or not doing something and then I make a decision about the action I take.
Yesterday, was a really bad day of eating for me. I found myself giving the excuse "Tomorrow I start my diet." I must of said if often enough because our conversation became about the Blue Cross and Blue Shield Commercials about starting better behaviors tomorrow. And Scarlett O'Hara's "I'll think about that tomorrow."
The reason I am doing Beck Diet Solution is because I need to take control of the way I think about certain food items. I recognize a couple of items that are my weaknesses and I really want to lessen my desire for these foods because I know they are super unhealthy. I need to change I way I think about these items because I often call them my "downfall"; I want to change it a more positive relationship, which means I will no feel like the victim to these items.
On a more positive note: I am getting ready to do a 5k program from Running Mate Media and found my journal from June 2011 and saw my weight back then was 135.8. Today, I am less than 4 pounds heavier than what I was then. So, I do not feel so bad. I had a memory of weighing a lot less but that must have been when I was on that no carb diet that was so unhealthy due to no starches in the meal plan.That plan had animal product for every meal and snack. I lost a lot of weight but could not sustain that way of eating because I ended up watching "Meet Your Meat" and read "The China Study" and decided that much meat was not a good idea. Also, that was the diet plan which gave my husband kidney stone after kidney stone.
WOW! writing this I just realized now that I have given up on Supermarket meat for three years now! We call our grandson "Stoney" because the day he was born, I was in the hospital with my husband as he was giving "birth" to a kidney stone. Stoney just had his three year birthday.
I guess I can stick with something after all. How about you, have you ever come across an old journal and realize you aren't doing as bad as you thought?