Tuesday, October 21, 2014
The past few weeks have been in a word...awesome.
I have been consistently weight training and doing my cardio every day.
(Sunday being my day of rest)
My muscles feel strong. And my mood has been so fantastic that I can't even begin to describe it....except to say that I feel terrific! I feel so much better than this time last month.
And my clothes feel looser. I have not lost much weight, but all my gym pals say I am gaining muscle. Which I think for once could truly be the explanantion. I changed my weigh in days to Fridays, from Monday. I was told I might feel more successful if I do it on Fridays because I will be weighing in after a week of eating well and working out, and not after Sunday when I did nothing. :)
I am getting my measurements next week so I will know for sure what changes have been created with my body, and I can see my drop in body fat also.
ALSO- and most importantly I have been eating good foods more consistently. I plan ahead which is great for me. I'm not perfect. If the girls at the gym saw what I ate sometimes, they would say "you ate what"?! But, you know what...for me, it is awesome. I feel so good. And I am balancing having a "life" meaning- eating stuff I really like for one meal once a week, and giving myself a break. The other days of the week, I just try to chose good/better/best types of foods. Some days or meals are BEST, some are just good. But, not horrible. :)
So all in all. Things are on the right track. I hope to see some measurements drop very soon!
Monday, September 22, 2014
I have had a rough couple of weeks. I weighed myself a couple weeks ago, and it showed I gained a pound. GAINED. So I freaked out. Went completely out of control, said "forget this" to myself, and did what I wanted. Meaning I didn't work out and I ate whatever I wanted to. 3 pounds later, I feel like garbage. So CLEARLY that wasn't helpful. Sometimes I handle weight gains (that happen for absolutely so reason) very well. But, in this situation, I did not.
You would think it would be "fun" to just do whatever you want. But it really wasn't. For a day, maybe. But, my mood changed, I had less energy. I felt more anxious and depressed. For a week I didn't even put my workout shoes on. No cardio...no weights, nothing.
Today I jumped back in. I am not happy about the backtracking I caused. I am sure some of that weight gain is PMS because I am for sure bloated. But, still. It just means more work for me. Dang it! Well, lesson learned: Don't freak out over a pound gained.
Today I worked out with my trainer for an hour, and then did my cardio for 30 minutes. I think I kicked my butt pretty good today. Now for the nutrition side. I am trying to do better with my carbs and sodium. It is so hard to find those healthy meals that I like. I am so picky! And I am not a good cook. My husband is, and if we could afford for him to stay home and cook full time, we would! Cooking is a talent, and he has it...and I don't. He loves it, and is happy to do it. I am just trying to find good meals. Yummy ones. He is the kind of guy that can find ANYTHING in the fridge and make it awesome. But, I am trying to keep things low carb, low sodium.
So that is my monthly check in. I hope next month, I post something more on the side of...had a great month, lost weight! We shall see...
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
I haven't posted on here in a LONG time. Here is a super quick catch up!
I reached all my goals this summer!!! I fit into my blue suit, I had FANTASTIC labs at my last physical, and I have size 10 shorts! Yippee! Willbea10, is a 10!!
(See photo below)
BUT- I am not finished. I am just getting started!!!
I got together with my personal trainer for a heart to heart last week to set NEW goals. I'm super excited. Ever since I first set foot in the gym a year ago and saw these success posters all over the walls, I wanted to be on one. So that is my NEW goal. I will be on a success poster! So I need to drop more body fat. I want to be at or below 25%. Probably around 23%. I don't have a specific weight in mind to be, because I am concentrating more on body fat reduction and strength training. But, I will put a weight on my goals, because it will help me to stay focused. But, there is not a weight that I am shooting for.
The hardest thing I have to do, is really plan and prepare good food. Good=Healthy. It will not be easy. But I have to be consistent. So today I am writing this blog to commit to myself to plan and prepare better foods to eat. 80% of reaching my goal will be based on what I eat! 20% is weights and cardio. So I know how important what I eat will be. I know I will not be 100% perfect, but I am going to strive for 90%. :)
I will blog more frequently to stay accountable!!
So here is to my NEW goals, and a NEW me!
Hooray for reaching my former goals though. YAHOO!!!
Wednesday, June 04, 2014
I was the RN manager on the unit at my hospital today when a patient died. I knew that this patient would die sometime soon, and I felt it would be today. The doctors did not believe it would happen today. But I did. I knew. Somehow I knew it would be soon. I had even prepared all the paperwork and had introduced myself to the family at the start of my shift, because I had a feeling that soon, they would need me and I wanted them to know me first. A couple hours later, the patient died. I didn't really know her, or her life story. But, I could tell she was very much loved by the people in the room with her. And she was young. Well, young compared to my typical hospital patient population. I was comforting the nurse who had this patient, as I was trying to do the necessary tasks when this kind of thing happens. I only worked a half shift today. I was home by 1:00. And I didn't realize how much this affected me until later, until I left work. But it has.
I was already physically exhausted at the start of my day because I hadn't slept well last night due to my husband being out of town, and knowing I had to work today. I only work 2 days a week, but they are long 12hr+ shifts. And the night before work is usually a restless night. I woke up at 4am and couldn't go back to sleep. Which is rare for me. I have also been exercising quite a bit, trying to reach my goal, and trying hard to eat right. So I am drained.
Then after my difficult morning at work, and my tired body on top of that, I ruined all my diet/exercise work by eating a bunch of junk and a ton of calories. And I feel gross. Now I am exhausted and feeling gross.
And I get to get up and do it all again tomorrow. But, thankfully tonight my husband will be home. I need a hug. I need to be comforted. As nurses we comfort and calm, and yet we don't always get comforted. Sometimes at work if we break down then yes...arms of co-workers are there to hold you up. But as nurses we put on a brave face. This is for the patients that we love and respect. But also to help us do our jobs. We simply cannot break down all the time. And when we get home, it's our families we desperately need.
I wish I hadn't turned to food to comfort me today. I wish I had been stronger and had taken a nap, or called a friend, or just hung in there until my husband came home. But, I didn't. Those all sound like great ideas, but when I am stressed and tired and sad and hungry...I guess I eat badly.
Here's hoping that tomorrow is a better day. And that the next time I am under stress, I make better choices.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
I just realized I didn't check in for April. Well, that is probably ok because it really wouldn't be any different than what I will be saying here.
Life is for learning, and boy am I learning. It has finally sunk in that my body is very unforgiving with poor food choices. During the months of February-March, I gained 4 pounds. I looked back on what I was eating, and although it wasn't horrible, small bad choices made a big difference. That's the unforgiving part. I can't make bad choices occasionally. My body won't let me. I have to make GOOD choices consistently. That's the name of the game. Consistency. That is how I have to get it done.
So, during April I was crossing my arms and pouting because I was mad that I hit my 20 pound loss, and then gained back 4. And all because I ate what I wanted to "a few times". Well, a few times adds up. Like I said, consistency. My trainer made me send him what I was eating everyday. Yowza. Basically he told me to stop it. :) He said be consistent...make it work.
2 weeks ago the scale said I lost 3 pounds! SWEETNESS!!! ALL MY EFFORTS PAID OFF I'M AWESOME. But.....then on Monday it said I gained 3. (I know all about muscle/body fat/weight...but, even my pants were tight so no...it's not a matter of gaining muscle or something). So basically I flipped out. I said screw it to all things weight loss related and got myself a lovely individual sized ham and pineapple pizza. It was awesome. But, I recommitted after my pizza tantrum and got back on track.
Moral of the story is, I am trying. My trainer reminded me of how many carbs and sodium I should have each day. Carbs and Sodium seem to creep in EVERYWHERE, and like to ruin me! And forget about eating out, because even the "healthiest" restaurants cram a bunch of sodium in there. But, I still have to live and I do eat out a lot...so, I'm doing better about reading up ahead of time on what might be best, and then sticking with it.
So even thought my body is unforgiving, I am making peace with that fact. And I know that when I give it the right fuel, I feel better and I know I will reach my goal.
I have a plan and I am going for it!
PLUS- even with all this weight nonsense my arms and legs feel strong thanks to all the strength training. I love that part.
But- body fat. That dang body fat.
See you next month!
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