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I never feel full.

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

I don't have anything interesting to say, so I am going to ramble about this:

I promised myself I wouldn't diet anymore. Mostly because I slip into some really bad stuff while dieting. Binge and purge are never far behind. Deep recesses of depression. Uncontrolled panic attacks.

Even when I was a teenager, my family would tease me that I had to eat every two hours like a baby. (I was healthy weight then, but didn't believe it. That was when purging began-not because of the teasing, because I was already binging in secret).

To this day, I enjoy food more if I can eat it in private. Some days at work there is a co-worker who sits facing my desk. And I struggle to eat my breakfast, even though I know she is busy and not really watching me.

One time I had a job interview that was dinner at a Mexican restaurant. It was one of the most unpleasant experiences of my life, even though I already knew the interviewer, and generally felt comfortable around them.

I really don't know how to handle these food issues. knowing that I normally eat at a minimum of 5000 calories a day, I can't be healthy. especially when it is empty carbs hello pasta and bread). When I was losing weight before, I was restricting carbs, and it worked well. Yet when I try to get back into the habit, it last a few hours. Like an addict I can talk myself into buying a bagel or sandwich or something.

I think I need this meme from pinterest:

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    I can relate. I start each day gung ho and then I'm lucky if I'm good past 10 A.M. I think I need more protein and to eat something healthy but potato chips sound better. LOL.

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REBECKY441 5/28/2014 7:01PM

    Giving up carbs is really tough. I hear ya! I have been on low-carb for years, but just recently moved into healthy carb living and it seems to be working much better. I leave the sweets alone, like all the cookies, cakes and candies. I don't eat breads and if I do it might be 1 slice of a healthy kind for breakfast. This seems to be working for me, but to each their own. But it is hard when you first give carbs up. The cookie jar calls, the bread box calls. Maybe try eating more protein to make you feel fuller longer and drink more water.

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The neighbors have got to be laughing at me...

Monday, April 21, 2014

At least I am getting lots of exercise. But I am curious how many neighbors are standing at their windows and laughing their butts off.

My morning jog goes like this:

My pup is too young to leave the yard (according to the vet, she needs all her parvo vaccines first). So I jog her in laps around the house. Only, I am fat and floppy and she is young and full of energy. Oh, and she really just wants to bite my ankles. So picture a fat, disheveled lady jogging around her own house, flailing to keep her dog from biting her and half dragging the dog when she gets distracted. Oh, and she always has to have a poo in the middle of the front yard. Then I forget where it is and half to leap over it when we circle back around.

Oh well, by the time she is given the go ahead to meet the neighborhood, maybe I will be able to run a decent a amount.

Honestly, I haven't been tracking food, though I feel the exercise is helping. I am exhausted now, 10 at night. But during the day, I feel good. I walk on my breaks and come home at lunch to take Molly out. Since I only have a 30 minute lunch, I feel like I had a real workout by the time I run back into the office, barely on time. So I am counting it as a win.

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YMWONG22 4/23/2014 12:33AM

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    The poo dodging would do me in. LOL! You've invented a new kind of track and field. Poo vault. Great job on the exercise.

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JAPITTARD 4/21/2014 10:39PM

    LOVE THIS!! Way to make it happen and not let anything stop you!

-Amy P
Also I host a fitness and accountability group on Facebook. Itís a private group where we check in, keep each other accountable and encourage one another on our journeys! Because it is private what you post in the group doesnít show up on your regular feed. I would love for you to join us. If you would like you can either message me your email address and I can add you that way (we donít have to be FB friends if I add you by emailÖ.. OR you can find me on Facebook and add me as a friend (facebook.com/amy.pittard). Once you add me as a friend I can add you directly to the group. I hope you join in!!

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Becoming a working mom, and a puppy picture

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Hmm... I might be up a couple of pounds. I haven't started trying yet. I am definitely transitioning around here. I am about to start my first full time job in 10 years. I truly don't know the first thing about working full time and raising children (and a puppy). I am really nervous.

I started practicing crock pot cooking. Something I only do sporadically, but since I will be working until 5 every night, I need to get in the habit. I don't want us to end up eating fast food every night.

Any working mom advice would be appreciated!

And here is a picture of my puppy, Molly...

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WILDVIOLETS 4/21/2014 9:47PM

    Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

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SKFEREBEE 4/15/2014 11:50PM

    Create a set menu for the week, like Monday would be taco night, Tuesday is soup and sandwich night, Wednesday is breakfast for dinner night, Thursday is crockpot surprise night and Friday is pizza night. Or have a rotating menu every other week taking the hassle out of planning and shopping depending on what your family likes. The easier you make it the happier you'll be. Maybe one night a week have someone else make dinner. Without a plan there will just be chaos and a bunch of unhealthy fast food and convenience food eating going on.

Congrats on going back to work!

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    I was a working mom but my husband helped me a lot. I hope you have some help too.

I love crock pot cooking.

I love Molly!! She is so cute!!!

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FISHGUT3 4/15/2014 2:46PM

    always like those puppies

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ALICIA214 4/15/2014 1:41PM


What a cute puppy...

emoticon on getting back into the work force, it is scary and challenging, but
I am sure you will enjoy it..I went back after some training in another field, and had a great time.. Enjoy!!

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Well, ongoing struggles, I guess

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

Still at it. Still fat. But I am not complaining.

I think I shall set some goals and try a bit, for real. At 35, one would think I would have developed some maturity and follow through.

Where there is life, there is hope they say, and I'm not dead yet.

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    I'm fat too. And marginally alive. LOL. We can become reformed tubby buddies. LOL. Get all sleek and skinny and everyone will hate us. LOL.

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    Hi! Was nice to see your name pop up on my feed when you posted this, it's been some time! I just recently came back a little over a month ago myself, we certainly have a love/hate relationship with SP huh? Hope you can set some manageable goals to fit into your hectic life :) we all know how hard it is to juggle more than we can carry! All the best!

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Healthy isn't Always Hard. What do you find easy?

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Healthy isn't always hard. It is so easy to be bogged down during weight loss with the hard stuff. Pushing farther, eating less, cravings. Oh the cravings! But there are good sides, or at least easy sides too.

This morning breakfast was eggs fried in a LITTLE olive oil with left over turnip greens and a slice of bread. It was easy and really yummy. With it I am having ice coffee made with unbleached coconut sugar and almond breeze. Taste as good as the stuff from McD's to me.

I just wanted to take the time to appreciate this easy moment and remind others to do the same. What do you find easy?

Picture of the day:
In October, we took a booze cruise with some friends. I got to swim with dolphins. Fat isn't going to stop me from experiencing life!

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    Love the picture with you and the dolphin!! What is easy for me is I have a healthy breakfast that I like and eat it every day. The same with lunch. It makes it easier to not have to plan. I hate planning, planning, planning. Sometimes I just want to live. LOL.

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EMILYSPARK 1/10/2013 9:20AM

    Breakfast options are easy for me - greek yogurt with fresh fruit or scrambled eggs. Dinner is pretty easy too - you can always find fresh fish or chicken breasts at the store, pair with a salad and/or fresh veggies, and you've got a meal!

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BDRFLI-TREKS 1/10/2013 9:16AM

    I find it easy to remember to eat breakfast now...

I was one who NEVER ate breakfast...

Now, if I don't eat it, it stays on my mind and the next day I remember to make time for it..

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