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Have I found my answer?????

Saturday, December 06, 2014

I have been struggling lately - just can’t seem to get my head straight to do this the way I KNOW I can - heck I’ve already done it once…it just didn’t stick! I believe it will now



First of all I have to say - I am NOT selling anything here!!!!! I simply am in AWE of what I have found and feel I must share it with everyone! I am receiving NOTHING for this “advertisement” of sorts.

Now - onto the good stuff!!!.....



What did I find?....The Beck Diet Solution Weight Loss Workbook



How did I find it?....My nurse and good friend was kind enough to copy the first couple of chapters out of her book and I was hooked….went online and found me a used copy for $1.79!



How can I explain this….The book SPOKE TO ME … I’ve never met Ms. Beck…but I know she wrote the book just for me.




This is not another DIET (I hate that word) - it does NOT tell you what foods to eat or anything. It teaches you how to DIET (there’s that word again)

Well - now you are saying…”but I KNOW HOW to diet (oh that word)…I just don’t do it and stick to it”. This book teaches you HOW to stick to YOUR plan for life. It teaches you skills that you thought you already knew but you just have NO clue until you read this workbook!

SO - Some folks on here blog each day (This is a daily - six week instruction plan) about the Beck Solution. I won’t be doing that (I never could keep up with a daily blog) although one of the things in the book you are to learn is daily journaling. I will be keeping a personal journal each day - just not blogging every single day.



Part of the book - the ARC - Advantage Response Cards - are a huge help to me right now. There are 24 that come with the book (they are perforated pull out cards) and you are encouraged to make your own. You read these every day - and don’t “just” read them - take them to heart. You make a list of reasons YOU want to lose the weight…and read this every day and carry it with you. I have a total of 38 cards - 24 of the pull out ones and the rest I made myself on index cards. I actually made 5 sets of these! One for the bedroom, one for each car, one for my purse and one for my desk. NO EXCUSE for me not read them everyday.
here is a scan of one of my cards-



You also have worksheets - such as Daily schedule, cravings rating, hunger chart, weight loss graphs - well you get the picture…it is a WORKBOOK after all! LOL


The content in between the worksheets it the real gem of this book. It is such a revelation to read these pages.


One of the things that is telling to me….at one point the book asks you to gather a few materials you will need…one of these is sticky notes to flag sheets and passages in the book you want to find easily - I had some small flag sticky notes so I got them out and started sticking them to what I felt mattered…After I had used 20 notes in the first 8 pages, I changed my tactic to just marking the worksheets so they are easy to find! LOL

Another of my favorites is making a Daily to Do list. It seems like such a simple task, but you just can’t understand what a difference these little things make till you start doing them every day.

The book uses cognitive therapy to teach you life skills. It teaches you about new ways of thinking about things you always have to deal with.

This book is changing my life. I just had to share with everyone. I can’t recommend the book highly enough (even if it does use the word DIET! LOL)


Beck Spark team link

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TERRIJ7 12/20/2014 12:47PM

    Whatever works!

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    This is AWESOME WildKat!!! You go girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WRITERWANNAB 12/17/2014 8:18PM

    Whatever works for you is the right way to go! emoticon

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LIVINTODAY 12/17/2014 8:48AM

    I've read great things about the Beck Diet Solution. You are absolutely right that we know a lot about dieting but we don't understand how to motivate ourselves to DO IT!

Good for you on your weight loss this week! We can still lose even during the holidays - you sound determined and motivated and I really like the statements on the ARC you scanned here.
Wanda
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emoticon Merry Christmas - I know there will be sad moments but you know the Good News of Jesus; hold that close.

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SASSYTHING52 12/15/2014 7:33PM

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STORMIE62 12/15/2014 9:50AM

    emoticon I like your blogging, and yes emoticon you found an awesome website that is a big help.

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CLOUDY_60 12/14/2014 5:14PM

    Just ordered can't wait till it gets here

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CRACKERS4554 12/14/2014 3:33PM

    I just bought the book and workbook! Getting my "space" ready for tomorrow.

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KANOE10 12/14/2014 8:58AM

    That was an informative great blog. Thanks for sharing.



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IZONPRIZE 12/14/2014 1:00AM

    I've been healed of neuropathy and I wrote a blog about it. Try this for a few weeks and see how your feet feel. Eat greens every day. Lots of greens, esp spinach. Get some powdered, concentrated super greens from health food store. Mix a scoop in a glass of water and drink it every day. I pray it works for you as it has for me!

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SPARKYFLOWER 12/12/2014 9:55AM

    A lot of good things going on here and they are all good.You will be successful. emoticon

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REALTYLADYLISA 12/9/2014 5:21PM

    All these "diets" work, and all of them don't....it just depends on whatever works for YOU!....Glad you've found something that's tailored to the way your brain and body operate! Only good wishes for much success!

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PROPMAN1 12/9/2014 3:29PM

  emoticon We all could use some inspiration. I wish you the best of luck! emoticon

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CATHOLICCORGI 12/9/2014 2:31PM

    You go, girl! emoticon
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We are on a lifetime journey and we have all we need to succeed AND enjoy the trip ;-)
You are such an inspiration!
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ANGORAAMORA 12/9/2014 1:53PM

    I ordered the Beck book. Sounds like something I could benefit from reading. Thanks for sharing.

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TODDERICKV 12/9/2014 9:36AM

    Some books are very helpful.

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AJB121299 12/8/2014 6:53PM

    nice

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 12/8/2014 5:50PM

    We can do it. I hate the word diet. I consider it a lifestyle change. That means the food, the walking and everything else I do is for life. A better life. A much more fun life. I'm actually living in the now and not wishing for some future date.

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BOWKAY 12/8/2014 3:32PM

    Thanks for sharing. I asked God to help me with my journey and rely on His help everyday. I'm trying to get spiritually fit as well as physically fit. As I decrease my weight I am increasing my time with God, studying His word and studying for my classes I teach. He is faithful so it has laid conviction on me to also be faithful to counting calories and exercising. Keep up the good work!

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LAKEGIRL4 12/8/2014 3:22PM

    We can do it if we all stick to our own plan that works for us!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOLLYKWALKER 12/8/2014 3:20PM

  The Beck DIet for Life can help change how you THINK and BEHAVE around food which along with great tools like those on SparkPeople can result in a lifetime positive change. If you're looking for the reason you struggle again and again with weight loss this might just hold the key to unlock permanent weight loss for you. It sure helped me. It's kind of wrong to call it a "diet" it's about cognitive training first and foremost. Try it! emoticon

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MOMMY445 12/8/2014 3:04PM

    so awesome! you can do this!

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BEAUTYINGRACE 12/8/2014 2:25PM

  I started w that book once but fell away from it. I need to get it again and do it this time....

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PROJECTCHRISSIE 12/8/2014 1:33PM

    Sounds like a great book, and something I am looking for. I have often thought that my weight loss is going slow because my mind is not ready to release the weight.

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FRABBIT 12/8/2014 1:22PM

  Wow - sounds great. This is a well written blog!

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    Thank you for sharing! Good luck! emoticon

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AMANDANCES 12/8/2014 10:15AM

    Thank you! I'm getting that book!!

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LAVKITTY78 12/8/2014 9:24AM

    This book helped me a lot !!!

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TERRI518 12/8/2014 8:34AM

    Thanks. I don't use the word diet in weight loss. It's an education of food and how it works within my body (since everyone's body works differently). I refer to it as a life changing event. Good luck with the Beck program! I have never heard of it until now. This sounds like it is worth looking into. Have a magnificent Monday!

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CLASSYKAREN27 12/8/2014 7:55AM

  Thank you I just bought the book to. emoticon

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REBESANCON 12/8/2014 7:55AM

    Thanks for sharing this info! There are so many tools available out there, we just have to find what works best for each of us. So glad you've found what resonates with and works for you. You can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HAPPYGRRL1 12/8/2014 6:32AM

    Best of luck! I hope you meet your goals! You can do it!

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    emoticon I am happy to hear you excited and motivated!

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JSKULLERO 12/8/2014 2:55AM

    Great you can do it!

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MELYROD18 12/8/2014 2:25AM

    Way to go, you can do it! Great plan!

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  Thanks for sharing.

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    emoticon Thanks for sharing and I in turn gave the information to my BF. As long as we don't give up we can still reach our goals. emoticon

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Slow progress is SO much better than no progress

Sunday, October 12, 2014



Hello all - Just thought I’d update everyone!

I am slowly plugging along - I have lost a few pounds - I have many, many more to go but you have to start somewhere! My doctors finally have my medicine straightened out and working for me again! I learned my lesson - do NOT mess with my anti -depressant meds - that sent me into such a tailspin I wasn’t sure I would come out of it. I got lower than I’ve ever been in my life. It actually scared me.



I am doing SO much better now. I was able to push through it with the help of my doctors, my wonderful nurse /friend and my amazing husband. - He has put up with so much from me the last few weeks and his love for me has never faltered. He is my best friend.



I am finally getting a little more consistent in my daily routines - I am no where near my former levels but I am getting there. I do falter some - but I keep moving forward.

As for my eating plan…for those of you that don’t know - I eat low carb….that is how I got my diabetes under control and lost all my weight last year - (note: I don’t expect everyone to agree with my eating plan - simply respect that it is what I use) - when I stupidly let that fall by the way side and started eating large amounts of carbs like I did most of my life - I regained the weight in about 4 months and my diabetes went totally out of control. I am back in control now and all my numbers are improving.



I am afraid I may have done permanent damage though - I am now having numbness and tingling in my feet. I hope it is weight related and not diabetes related - I am going to get my doctor to check it out at my appt this month. Maybe go back to the foot specialist. You can never be too careful with your feet when you are a diabetic.



Other than my feet, I really have no complaints right now! I do however have lots of thanks to give - to all of YOU! I have more friends on here than I ever really knew I had- so many have written and continue to keep in touch that it has been very humbling and VERY awesome! I can’t thank you all enough. I know, as most of you do, that you have to do this for yourself and that others can’t do it for you - but that being said - MAN OH MAN is it ever so wonderful to have your friends around you cheering you on!



Well - that is my update. I’m off now to rest a while and play with my critters (I have several -3 spoiled dogs - a border collie named Roscoe, a yellow lab named Buster, a part lab /part mutt named Maggie, a spoiled rotten cat named Turbo and a sweet little ferret named Happy.) cuteness alert!



Hope you all have a wonderful day!!! Hugs to you all!!!


  
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TODDERICKV 12/9/2014 9:38AM

    I have been moving slowly for the past month too. I am being kind to myself until the new year.

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ERABEL 11/10/2014 7:58PM

    Glad you are back on track. We are all here to support one another. emoticon

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DAKARISAH430 11/2/2014 1:24PM

    Glad to hear that you are back on track. Best wishes and much successđź‘Ť

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BARCLE 10/30/2014 4:49PM

    I must make that my starting mantra - slow progress is better than no progress - thank you!

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LIVINTODAY 10/30/2014 2:16AM

    Enjoyed your blog, Kat. I miss the Black Diamonds still; it was nice to catch up with you. Glad to hear that you've put yourself back on track. I would never criticize a low-carb diet. I and many others have thrived on one. I find that a higher protein low-carb diet works best for me at my age, 68, and I feel good when I stay with it.

You can do this!

Love your pumpkin page too!!
Wanda

P.S. Instead of "Practice makes Perfect" lets go for, "Practice makes Progress"!

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    Good for you! Any progress is always better than no progress. emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon on your progress, wishing you continued success. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TODDERICKV 10/21/2014 3:13PM

    Slow and steady wins the race!

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JERICHO1991 10/20/2014 10:53PM

    Love the posters. Thanks.

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TXGRANDMA 10/20/2014 7:02PM

    So glad that you are back on track and all your medications are now straightened out! You are so right, it is not good to mess with antidepressant drugs! They have too many side effects when you are on them, and you don't dare just go off them!

How wonderful that you have such a supportive, loving husband! The pets help a lot too, isn't it amazing how they wiggle their way into our hearts?

Many diabetics have numbness, tingling and burning in their feet. It is quite common and there is medication to handle that. Please don't leave us again, all the friends you have on Spark will be glad to help, if only they know what it is that you need! God Bless! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WHITNEYTEACHER 10/19/2014 8:40PM

    I'm glad to see you're doing better. I really hope the tingling in your feet isn't neuropathy, keep us updated, OK?
I love all your criters. We had a ferret when my children were little, she was albino and my daughter named her Comet. They make great pets with lots of personality. I'm really a dog person so of course I think all your dogs are wonderful. We have a Maggie too. I'm so glad to hear your hubby is so supportive, that makes such a big difference. Keep working at it, you did it once and you can do it again and then some emoticon

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KING_SLAYER 10/19/2014 8:17PM

    Sorry to read that you have had some serious troubles with your health. But I am glad to read that you have come through it with your attitude and zest intact!

Like all of my friends, I wish for you good health and determination.

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/19/2014 7:13PM

    hugs! Welcome back!

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DONNAONAMISSION 10/18/2014 12:45PM

    Good honest words. emoticon

And a girl after my own heart - I have dogs and cats and used to have 3 ferrets. Your furry gang is adorable!!

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EJB2801 10/18/2014 8:53AM

    This blog is great! It's not only honest about a really tough time but also inspiring to KEEP emoticon PUSHING!

I love the cuteness alert and the nifty pictures of a happy you with your animal pals.

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WORTHYOFCHANGE 10/17/2014 6:10AM

    Thanks for sharing part of your journey. It does seem to go slowly, but it's so nice to know there are others sharing similar journeys and that any progress is something to pat yourself on the back for.

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PUGLOVER1999 10/16/2014 4:09PM

    Loved your blog! The title says it all!

I'm in a hurry ... hubby waiting for me ... but I just want to ditto everything everyone else has said!

Keep up the positive thinking / good work / genuine progress!

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FATCAT216 10/16/2014 7:09AM

    Your blog really hit home today. I had a gain this week, first since I started Sparking this time, but not getting discouraged. It is just a bump in the road. I like your positive attitude and really finding out what is working for you not everyone else. I am eating a low carb/high protein diet also and it is working great. I find that by dropping the sugar/fat that I was eating, the weight started coming off nicely. Bad weekend last weekend (lazy, sugary foods) thus the gain but I proved that in sticking to this eating plan I get results.

Again, Great JOb!

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IMGLAMRUS 10/15/2014 9:35PM

    emoticon Keep up the great work!!!!!!

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MRSRIGS1 10/15/2014 8:31PM

    I'm so happy to hear you are doing much better. Baby steps...... emoticon

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SLIMLEAF 10/15/2014 6:26PM

    It's good to read that you're feeling better - when one is in The Pit, it seems like one will never escape, so it's great to hear about someone who HAS!

Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. Best wishes

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AMBER461 10/15/2014 5:53PM

  Keep on improving, this is wonderful blog, thank fo sharing.

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PROPMAN1 10/15/2014 2:59PM

  Hats off to you!! Happy to hear you're better. I like reading stories that are inspirational and commend the human spirit. Go with gusto and know I/We all wish you the best. emoticon emoticon emoticon

Love the animals!!!!

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SANDSGIRL26 10/15/2014 2:31PM

    Good to hear you are feeling better!

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MADMARE 10/15/2014 10:12AM

    Cheering you on in your journey toward better health. I agree that low carb is the way to go if you are diabetic, Keep on Sparking, it's what keeps my weight creeping downward. Slow ad steady wins the race. emoticon emoticon

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MARGARITTM 10/15/2014 7:07AM

    Stick with it! We've got this!

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OLGA18 10/15/2014 6:24AM

  Awesome that you are back on track and I hope you will keep us posted as to how you are doing. The picture of the feet made me laugh!

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 10/14/2014 11:13PM

    Oh, Girl! You keep hanging in there...one small step at a time and you can do it!
I LOVE your fur babies! I so miss our rescue dog who passed a year or so ago, she was so special! We have had up to four cats but right now just one jumbo orange tabby...23 pounds! Name...Baby Alice! AND we had two ferrets who lived long lives, Ollie and Rudy...what characters! I can understand the name Happy...they are such joy!
Have a great rest of your week!
Hugs,
Mary

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SHERYLP461 10/14/2014 10:35PM

    What a happy blog

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DIAMOND102 10/14/2014 8:14PM

    emoticon on feeling better and getting back on track. It's true a little is better than none sohang in here emoticon emoticon and know you have Spark People in your corner emoticon

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HYATTI1 10/14/2014 3:15PM

    I did take the time to read your blog... very informative to say the lease. I am glad that you found a happy medium and can keep going. Good luck to you and as you said from the beginning....slow is better than no....you go for it.



Joanna

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PEGGY11 10/14/2014 2:32PM

    Like you I lost control of my carbs over the summer. my weight went up and so did my sugar. I am really going to pay attention and keep the carbs low and see how that affects my weight and sugar. Hugs and kisses.

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 10/14/2014 2:00PM

    emoticon Glad to see your report! Yes meds, especially those anti-depressants, are something you shouldn't mess with - believe me I know how that goes too. I'm a firm believer in slow but steady progress. Don't let any little set backs derail you. Just stop and say okay, re-evaluate, and start again. Slow but steady wins the race. You can do this! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LITESTORMX2 10/14/2014 1:09PM

    Your title is spot on!

I am glad you are feeling so much better!



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BLUEEYESCANADA 10/14/2014 11:35AM

    I am so happy that your meds are under control. You are totally right to stick with what works for you and not what others think is better. As long as you discuss any changes with your doctor it is YOUR health that is important and you must do what is right for YOU! emoticon emoticon One step and pound at a time.

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Road Block

Monday, September 15, 2014

Wow - what a couple of weeks. First I pull a muscle in my back. That hurt very bad. I couldn’t get up, sit down or anything in between without pain. That is finally getting better.

In the meantime…I started having what I thought was side effects from my anti-depressants… so in a moment of pure stupidity I decided to take myself off of them.

HUGE MISTAKE. I finally got in to see my doctor today and he put me back on one of the meds and changed one of the others to a different one.

I have been trying to eat right but I’ve been hitting the comfort food pretty hard. I’m not giving up though….I AM climbing up and over this mountain.

I have been trying to respond to all the wonderful people on here who are keeping up with me and contacting me….I’ve done a fairly decent job I think…if I’ve missed you I’m very sorry…I’ve read each and every goodie and email and comment…they are what has kept me putting one foot in front of the other the last two weeks.

Depression is a hard thing…you want to “snap out of it” but you just can’t. Without help you just keep getting deeper and deeper. I have a lot of help…I just wasn’t using it…my wonderful hubby has never left my side and one of my friends who happens to be my nurse at my medical doctor was able to get me an earlier appointment with my psych doctor.

I have unfortunately gained. But I want to be honest no matter how much it hurts. I weighed in at the doctors office today and it says 402. So that is a gain of 10 pounds in two weeks…too may almonds of the chocolate covered variety.

I’m sorry I let everyone down. But I am picking my self up and digging my way out of this hole…I hope to have a positive blog for you soon.

Hugs to you all and if you are depressed do not try to fight it alone - get help!!!!!

  
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TODDERICKV 10/21/2014 3:13PM

    Road blocks are meant to be broken!

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IMEMINE1 10/8/2014 5:19AM

    Don't be too hard on yourself. Just keep starting over untill it becomes a good habit to eat right and keep moving. emoticon emoticon

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LLP215 10/3/2014 1:17PM

  Very glad you sought help Kat and got your medication adjusted. Depression is so misunderstood by many, myself included.

I'm on that New Years Challenge with yah and your goal of 375 is very attainable... just continue to have faith in you and your ability to overcome those road blocks. I'm sure if you look back over the years you have done it before in other facets of your life. Take that same determination and try to apply it one step, one workout, and one pound at a time. No matter the timeframe you'll get there! All of us fellow Sparkers are pulling for you!

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STEPHLOKI 9/25/2014 4:43AM

    Hi my Dear,

so sorry about the depression. Have battled it myself in the past. Hope you get out of the hole, keep plotting on one day at a time, but stay away from the chocolate covered almonts...... LOL
They'd be a temptation for me as well.

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CTUPTON 9/24/2014 7:32AM

    You did not "let everybody down!" We love you dearly. We have "been there." Having pain and facing depression are just awful. Food is comforting. We are here to support each other in times exactly like this. So glad we have SP friends to chat with so we can get through the tough times. You now (October) are losing weight again. I am so happy for you. But never feel like you let us down. Just say--hey guys I am having a tough time. SP friends will come running --as you can see by the many comments on this blog. chris

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MRSRIGS1 9/23/2014 7:53PM

    I believe in you! emoticon

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ZAFTIGDIOSA 9/23/2014 5:27PM

    Be easy on yourself and take it one choice at a time. If you have almonds of the chocolate coated variety(lol), simply decide how many you are going to have before even eating them and be proactive about your choices. If you know you would've normally ate 20, eat 10. You've just made a better decision. None of us can keep up a perfect routine nor should we go from one extreme to another. Keep baby stepping your way to where you want to be. You're still on here sharing your truth which is great. You are doing better than those that just quit. Keep pushing. You have a whole squad of cheerleaders on here! Whatever you do, stay active on this site. I wish you all the best!
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IN102WIN 9/23/2014 11:21AM

    You haven't let any of us down.... Each of us are here for some reason or the other and we all have weight and demons to deal with so I am hoping that you have a better week and success, lots of it. emoticon emoticon

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LOVEMAYSWARM 9/23/2014 9:16AM

    You have not let anyone down- you just need to focus on YOU and exactly what YOU need!

Take time for yourself, find out what works, and what doesnt. We all have road blocks and challenges, but what is important is that you keep on, keepin' on. One foot forward, then the other. You can do this! emoticon

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WHITEANGEL4 9/22/2014 10:19PM

    So sorry t hear that you are depressed. Follow the doctors orders, get back n your feet and ejoy the sunshine

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KAREN608 9/22/2014 8:15AM

    I regain and lose also.
I find it is the process I go thru as I learn to be more disciplined in my eating.

I need to get myself back into hobbies instead of snacking.
I need to keep at the exercise and pushing myself beyond comfort levels.
Challenge yourself to something this week that will help you!!

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DIASTER 9/21/2014 11:18AM

  Do you have any idea how many of us re-gain some weight and feel as guilty as you indicated?. You have so much company on this journey. Thank you for being so honest. We are all here with you and we will do this together. We will not just retreat into ourselves as that is the easy way, but we will continue to fight this battle together.

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WRITERWANNAB 9/21/2014 1:09AM

    You are doing all the right things by not giving up, seeing your doctor for help, & sharing your feelings & your struggles with the rest of us. You mustn't worry about letting anyone else down; just worry about sorting yourself out. We all have these times. emoticon

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AMBER461 9/20/2014 11:33PM

  I am sorry to hear about your depression, but you are doing the right thing getting help and talking about it. May God grant you the strength and determination to get over it.

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MISS_VIV 9/19/2014 1:54PM

    So good to see you out here in the land of SPARK PEOPLE...
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LADYBUGSY 9/19/2014 2:23AM

    You didn't let anyone down! You're taking the steps you need to so you can take care of yourself...you're awesome!

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CAROLJ35 9/18/2014 8:12PM

    You WILL get across this bridge!!! We are here to help you as much as possible.
Soon we will see you on the other side!!!



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MCFITZ2 9/18/2014 6:43PM

    You have lots of sparkers wishing you well. I know it can be difficult and also had to get help to get through a rough time. Hugs my friend. emoticon

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CETANISTAWI 9/18/2014 5:34PM

    Sweetheart: you're not letting us down. It's YOUR life, not ours. I have no right to pass any judgement on you, and neither does anyone else. We are here to support each other. And life is what it is. As long as you are doing your best at any given moment, then that is what is most important. And our best is fluid. Just keep trying, momma.

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MAVERICK59 9/18/2014 4:41PM

    Your honesty and integrity have touched my heart.
May God bless and guide you on this very difficult journey.
Hugs,
Belinda

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ROSES4ME1 9/18/2014 3:42PM

    You are amazing - not only for battling through the depression but for reaching out and getting help and searching for what works for you. I know how difficult that can be so just wanted to tell you what a hero you are.
Take care of YOU every day and remember that this will pass.

HUGS!!

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GUITARWOMAN 9/18/2014 3:22PM

    I admire your perseverance and your honesty.

Depression is very real and I hope you find the right combination of doctors and medications!

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SALLYLEE84 9/18/2014 1:50PM

    Depression is one of those things that a lot of people don't get. They think you should just "snap" out of it. So glad you were able to get an earlier appointment & hopefully this new combo of meds will help. emoticon

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BAMAJAM2 9/18/2014 12:39PM

  You have a great group of supporters here, and you have great encouragement from so many caring folks! I truly applaud your honestly and courage in sharing your feelings.
Too, you have given wise advice to those with depression to seek help! Depression affects all family members, so getting treatment benefits children and adults involved. Take each new day as your opportunity to make progress!
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-JAMES- 9/18/2014 11:36AM

    It seems a little simple, but the word depression is from "lack of pressure".

So what one needs are external forces pushing on you to do something. It can seem pointless to do anything. The stupid thing is that just doing things helps. Just going shopping, or just going with someone to a movie.

I can very honestly say that the beginning of my getting out of my mental hole was my wife forcing me to read bedtime stories to the grand kids. I didn't want to do it either.

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DSHONEYC 9/18/2014 11:29AM

    Having gone through two very serious bouts of depression myself, it is so important to get help. I truly believe chemical imbalances are a big part of it, so I encourage you to get the right medication going for you. My last bout in 2000 led me not only to seek medical help but to the cross. I am no longer on medication, but I truly believe that it is the cross that keeps me in balance today.

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KLONG8 9/18/2014 11:26AM

    As others said ahead of me, you SO did not let anyone down. You are doing brave battle, my friend. We are rooting for you and celebrating your strength. You are dealing with a set back but are fighting strong and will prevail.

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BLUEEYESCANADA 9/18/2014 10:55AM

    emoticon for putting this in your blog. You have reached out to your friends who are here to support you. emoticon
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MARYBETH4884 9/18/2014 10:52AM

    emoticon This journey to good health is just as much about mental health as physical health. They go hand in hand considering our brain tells us what we "need" eat!! Stay here for motivation and support and work one step at a time towards better all around health!! emoticon together!!

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NUTINLOOKSLIKE 9/18/2014 10:09AM

    First, I want to give you a emoticon because you sound like you could DEFINITELY use one. :-) Then, I want to tell you that I personally do not believe that you have let any of us down. You are doing great! The scale went up a little, but it will come back down ;-)

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RITAROSE 9/18/2014 7:43AM

  Good that you blogged about this. You have lots of support here on SP. It took me so many years to learn that when I mess up I shouldn't just throw in the towel and say, might as well eat everything I want. Instead, I endeavor to start anew right then and there. We all mess up. If you can stop the mess up in its tracks so much the better!
I hope you get good help for depression. I have had that too and find that it helps me to go for a walk. Fresh air is a marvelous, uplifting experience and it's exercise too!

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-JAMES- 9/18/2014 1:43AM

    Kathy,
Depression.

I don't know if I ever told you this before, because my memory is not very good. In 2007 I started loosing hearing in one ear. That got the doctors suspicious and sure enough an MRI revealed a tumour in my brain. Then my memory issues in the previous few years started making sense, as well as some of my strange behaviour.

With that out I've healed a bit, but I will never be able to do what I used to do. I used to do research in physics, and I was great with computer stuff. I used to write code for IBM, system software, highly efficient code, and customer consulting and training.

But no more. That was pulled away from me. The void left me empty, and a big part of my self worth was my intellectual ability.

I was depressed, and on anti depressants for a short while, but they just made me feel strange, strange and depressed. What really cured me was time, and working through my issues chemical free. Fortunately I have good medical coverage, so I'm on long term disability.

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LINDA! 9/17/2014 10:37PM

    I am sorry about the weight gain. It happens. But I am more worried about your depression. I also have to take meds for it. I am actually on 2 anti depressants. It is a lifetime problem for many of us. But I am happy that you do see a psych doc. I would recommend, if you don't already do so, also seeing a therapist. It is good to discuss issues with a professional.

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RICKI157 9/17/2014 10:30PM

    You didn't let anyone down!!!! We all have times where we make mistakes, eat the wrong things, binge, don't exercise like we should and gain back weight. The most important thing is to stop the old bad habits and start up the new good habits!!!!!
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PYNETREE 9/17/2014 10:28PM

    Wow! Just look at all these people who care. Everyone of them here to support YOU.
And they wouldn't be here if they didn't think you were a pretty special Friend.

So grab all that Love and Well Wishes - and take Strength from it! Everyone wants you to succeed.

Be strong, start trying to eat only clean food that fuels your body. Stay away from junk foods

You Can Do This!

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WILDXANGELS 9/17/2014 8:20PM

    you can do it,never give up,I will pray hard for you

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CHANGING-TURTLE 9/17/2014 4:59PM

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Sorry you have been having a bag case of over eating chocolate covered almonds, I can just see myself doing that. Good that you are getting back on track
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Depression is an illness that is hard to overcome, good that you are seeking help again. I have been through a lot of counseling to overcome this problem but found that being on the right pills do the best job, good luck

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OKGOATGAL 9/17/2014 4:57PM

  you are not alone. so many are in the same battle. thank you for sharing.

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FINEBABY72 9/17/2014 2:53PM

  I'm still here rooting you on,set backs are apart of the journey. As a matter of fact,I'm still struggling myself,but know this we will make it! emoticon emoticon

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SHANTODD420 9/17/2014 2:04PM

    Keep going you can do this. It can only get better from here hugs.

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AJB121299 9/17/2014 2:03PM

    keep it up

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TJOHNOCONNOR 9/17/2014 1:50PM

    You have not let anyone down. Success is not a linear transition from zero to ten. It is a series of squiggly lines and some pitfalls with the underlying desire to keep moving forward. The whole time you struggle is just to get to the next number in the line. Eventually you will get to where you want to be. Learning from mistakes is just as or even more beneficial than the successes.

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MRSFANCYLADY 9/17/2014 1:49PM

    Your spirit is emoticon . You keep fighting and we'll keep supporting you! We all have set backs and bad days and weeks..... don't let it keep you down! Rise above it with all the fight that you have. God is a great help in the time of need!

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Starting over vs Continuing. A new beginning for me.

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

I’ve said before I would never “start over” - just “continue”. Well, I’m beginning to doubt that strategy.

Last year I lost 98 pounds - I’ve gained 64 pounds of that back.

I’ve messed up so bad in the last few months that to continue as I am now will be slow suicide. I’ve regained most of my weight - that has depressed me terribly. I’ve lost contact with friends because I’ve been ashamed of my weight gain. More depression. Even though spark friends have contacted me - I’ve been “avoiding” them because I am so sure they will be ashamed to know me once they realize how much weight I’ve gained back and how horrible I look.

I’ve always wanted to be an inspiration to people. At this point in my journey I can’t even be an inspiration to my dog.

The only hope I have now is a NEW BEGINNING. I never really thought that you could do that, but I’ve learned through church and my wonderful pastor that you really can have a New beginning. As a matter of fact - the motto of our church is “A place for new beginnings.” Now I know the church is talking about the spiritual but I believe that the same thing holds true for the physical as well. I simply MUST start over with a new beginning because to continue at this point will put me in a very bad place.

I am including a photo here because I desperately need the accountability. After taking screen shots of all the lovely comments - I have deleted all my old photos except those where I weigh more than I do now.

I am hoping that by opening up in this blog that I will be drawn back into the Spark fold. Please bear with me as I try to sort out this mess.

To all my friends….thank you for keeping me in your thoughts - I am going to try to get back to the Sparking level I was before - I miss you “guys”

To anyone reading this that has regained like I have...don’t avoid people like I have. Jump back in and get going again…If you stay away because you have gained you will continue to gain and the only thing you will lose is yourself.

Big Hugs to all


  
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IMLOCOLINDA 12/7/2014 6:18PM

    Yes, ours is the God of 'second chances'...and third and fourth and however many we need to get to where He knows we belong.

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TERRIJ7 11/1/2014 9:21AM

    There's no better place to be than among your Spark friends.

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KMRJPR 10/27/2014 12:44AM

    Don't ever give up. It's never failure until you give up completely. I'm so glad that you decided to have a new beginning. I am proud of you for having the courage to be so honest about how you feel and how down you've been. I'm also proud that you decided to beginning anew. No one should ever feel ashamed of you for gaining weight, including you. Losing weight and keeping it off is hard. And dealing with the emotions that go along with it all, even harder.

So glad you've found comfort and support in your Church.

God bless you on your journey!

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TODDERICKV 10/21/2014 3:13PM

    Keep on keeping on, never give up!

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B-N-ME 9/21/2014 8:14PM

    You are an inspiration. Don't ever let being normal which for many means we take a step backwards once in a while make you feel ashamed or that others will feel that way about you.
Be proud to take the stand you have, know you can do this!
We believe in you!
I look forward to your next blog and next weight loss picture!!!

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SUGARBABY60 9/19/2014 11:35AM

    Being a friend does not mean only skinny people can have or be friends! Real friends see us from the Inside out. I believe you are one of those Real spark friends and that you have Real spark friends who see you from the inside out!

By the way, I have regained most of my lost wt too but I'm having a new begining and The Lord has been showing me some wt loss secrets one of them being allow Him to change me and my appetites. Just rest in Him.

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SIRENAOFTHESEA 9/17/2014 10:54PM

    I get where you are coming from because I am going to the same thing. If it's okay with you I would to add you as one of my spark friends. Thank you for being saw open about something we are all too familiar with. emoticon

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BABECAVE 9/17/2014 12:30PM

    Don't be so hard on yourself...

Your mind hears everything that you think...

This is something that I learned just a few days ago...

I told myself that...

I was being super hard on my own self... I told myself that I would not be this harsh on another person... so I shouldn't be so hard on own self... with the way that I was thinking inside my own head...

I was really a mess a few days ago... then I finally realize that I needed to be more positive and stop doubting myself... I had a lot of negative thinking as well... I made up my mind to stop doing this... because it was not going to help me out with my goals and weight lost....

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BABECAVE 9/17/2014 12:01PM

    awws...

You know...

I know how it feels with avoiding friends because you gained weight... and hiding out because of being embarrassed... I know more than anyone what your going through... and how your feeling... I lost a lot of weight... than over time which seems like it did not take very long at all.. before I knew it... I gained all the weight that I lost and worked hard for... to only triple my weight gain... in a very very very high number... I also wanted to be an inspiration to others... and I felt like I let a lot of people down... but over time... I got back on track and realized that... its happens to the best of us... because life is a roller coaster.... and it can toss us around and around... I don't understand how people can maintain their weight or even stay at a level with their weight where they don't have to worry about anything... because major things can happen... to put on pounds... then finding time to work out...

But I know how you feel and going through... *Smiles*

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DOTTY7267 9/17/2014 11:20AM

    Congratulations on your New Beginning! You will succeed and reach your goals that you have set forth for yourself. Look forward to your many successes in the future.

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TODDERICKV 9/16/2014 9:52PM

    You can do it. Just never give up!

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ITSMESHE 9/15/2014 9:29AM

    I share your story and am inspired by your words. I have been avoiding friends in real life and in my Spark life! I dropped off Spark for a while and then returned under a different name. I haven't contacted any old friends due to the shame and guilt I feel. I do well for a few days and then fall apart.
Your words have helped me know that I'm not alone in this struggle.
Thank you.


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MRSRIGS1 9/14/2014 10:48PM

    You ARE an inspiration!! emoticon

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2NDCHANCEWITHEY 9/14/2014 1:39AM

    WildKat - Would you believe you are such an inspiration to me and my journey that I was literally drawn back to sparkpeople and the teams because I wanted to see how you were doing? I know that this is a journey about me and in one of area of my life I am suppose to be "selfish" I still wanted to know how you were doing. And guess what you showed you don't have to perfect and on top of things to continue "sparking". Over the last 6 months since I left Sparkpeople I gained 40 pounds. I now have new highest weight but I am slowing finding that I am wanting to do better. And I come on here and see how raw and open you are about what is going one that I am amazed! I wish I could be an inspiration like that. (And I understand if you might not remember me, I'm pretty forgettable)

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EDEN30 9/13/2014 4:54AM

    I have been there done that and I have been there done that too many times. I can't speak for others but there are other people like you that have lost and gained back. Heck I lost almost 100 lbs back in 2009 gained all and more back. And now i am struggling myself but I had a wake up call and I am back to doing what I need to do for health. I would love to be your support and talk to you heck I need all the spark buddies I can get. I can't say it would be easy for me to respond back right away but i am not staying away for the almost year I just did.
You can do it.
I CAN DO IT
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HOLLYM48 9/12/2014 4:13PM

    There is nothing wrong with starting over, it takes courage and determination to pick yourself back up and declare war once again! YOu can do this, you have done it before and I am sure you will do it again! One day at a time, one choice at a time.
Best of luck on your journey!

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2BDYNAMIC 9/12/2014 1:33PM

    Wow---what support you have here ....... (me too) And I have found sparks people to be so NON judgmental but supportive ......... you are never alone and many ........ will always have your back .............. so anything I can do or we .......... I think you have a big base of supporting people .................. emoticon

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CAROL3SAN 9/11/2014 7:51PM

    emoticon I feel as if I am in the same place as you are right now as I move forward in my journey. I will keep in contact with you because I believe we can motivate each other to make our weight loss a reality.
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JEB03253 9/11/2014 7:34AM

    I am really good and loosing and gaining weight. I began again 5 days ago and am concentrating on changes that I can live with for life.

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LADYSHERRY 9/10/2014 5:18PM

    Everyday we get the chance to start new. A Brand New Day. The Lord does not want us to hold on to our stuff. He wants us to give it to him. Let us be a help to you and then when it's time you can give back. That's how it works we give you give. It can never be one way with each other. Good luck. Glad you're back

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MCHERRY4 9/10/2014 3:54PM

  Never let a set-back be a reason to give up. Giving up is the only failure. We all backslide sometimes. Welcome back to the program. Just keep looking toward your goal and eventually you will get there!

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G33K10V3 9/10/2014 9:04AM

    Every day is a new day and a new chance to go the right direction. Focus on TODAY and making the right choices. You can do it! Don't be ashamed just learn from your mistakes and stop repeating them. You do have the power inside you to change your life forever! emoticon

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GOOFYSMILE 9/10/2014 8:19AM

  I have been at the same weight for a year, I lost 58 lbs. the gained back 37lbs. Now I am back down 19 lbs. and still working on the loss. Its back and forth each week, but just stick to it and it will come off. Good luck! emoticon

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ZELDA13 9/9/2014 9:48PM

    OK. But you are starting again! Kudos to you for doing that. I have a hard time staying motivated. I have gained 8 pounds and am embarrassed by that. I do not want to adjust my tracker, I want to lose it again and go on from there. If I don't do it now it will be 12 then 15 then 20 pounds. I give you credit. We all have some glitches and you'll overcome this one.
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SWEETBREADBAKER 9/9/2014 5:03PM

    I could have written this too. I'm on my final weight loss journey! I am running out of time. You see I turned 59+1 in February and was "encouraged" by two wonderful doctors to "work" on my weight. I left the doctor's office that day and cried all the way home - I hated myself that much but it stirred something in me. I knew at that moment that God was leading me in the right direction. I'm sorry to say I'm not a religious person but the feeling was so strong I couldn't ignore it. I made a vow to myself at that moment that I would not leave this earth a morbidly obese person. That was 58 pounds and seven months ago and I've never looked back. I realized I don't have forever to get healthy - where did sixty years go?

My point here is that for me I had to find a place in my heart and mind that I could go to when I needed strength. For me that was a humiliating experience with my weight that so affected me that it changed the way I look at food. Now when necessary I go there to push me forward - works every time!

Find something in your life that you never want to revisit again and use that as your motivator. You can do this because believe me, if I can do it, so can you! Know that fluctuating is absolutely normal and move past it, eventually the numbers will drop but really don't make it about the number - make it about regaining your health.

Good luck to you!👍

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ANGELAIRENE 9/9/2014 3:47PM

    emoticon emoticon We are all human.

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KILIKI 9/9/2014 1:48PM

    I understand what you're going through all too well. I'm actually starting over too-as of yesterday. You're not alone. Just know that you have TONS of support here on SP as well as motivation to help keep you going!! We're all here for each other! YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon emoticon

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OKGOATGAL 9/9/2014 12:34PM

  Hey, the only failure is one who never tries to begin with. So you got off track. We all do from time to time. Sometimes it's laziness, sometimes it's depression, job loss, new job, commute, kids, pregnancy, injury. All kinds of things get us off track. That's just how life is. Recognizing we got off track and taking those steps to get back on track-that's SUCCESS! Every single time we do something "RIGHT" we are a success at that moment in time. I teach Special education in a "Behavior" classroom. We celebrate every success in my classroom, regardless of how big or how small that success may be. (For example-"you chose to do your work while standing-thank you for doing your work-I'm proud of you!" or "You chose to go to the chill center instead of hitting your peer. Awesome job!") EVERY SINGLE positive step is just that. POSITIVE! YOU can do it! Every day is a new day to START OVER! YOU can do it!

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MOINSDEMOI 9/9/2014 8:35AM

    You go girl! What courage it took for you to write this blog. Weight loss is a painful journey because of the underlying emotional issues that got us into this mess to begin with. Dealing with those issues is tough and you, my dear, are an inspiration.

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SHARILYNN468 9/9/2014 2:34AM

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I have done this as well.. I "started new" - threw all the past failures behind me, and went only forward.. in 1 1/2 yrs, I have lost so far, 129 lbs on my own, with SparkPeople.. I still have a ways to go, but I know I will succeed this time~ You CAN do this.. this -is- your new beginning.. you already know how to lose the weight, we're experts at it by now.. :) - I gained and lost so many times in my life I lost track.. -- you have laid it all out in the open, the hard part is over.. the rest, you already have the knowledge and tools to accomplish your NEW goals~ :) Good luck on your journey, dear.. if I can be of any help at any time, please message me~ :)

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LAJH1973 9/8/2014 7:50PM

  I have also lost and regained weight for the past 30 years. I started Spark people and was doing a good job of tracking everything, THEN I WENT ON VACATION! To say the least I really messed up. So today Sept. 8th I'm starting this journey. We can do this together!
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LORNE67 9/8/2014 1:53PM

    I lost 27 pounds a years ago and gained 24 pounds back. I also need to lose another 50 to 74 pounds. I am trying to start over as well. Since I started over I have lost 2.3 pounds. emoticon

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ALWAYSFROG247 9/8/2014 1:35PM

    WILDKAT781-
I have lost and regained weight so many times, I have literally lost count. It has been for various reasons, financial, pregnancy, depression, and just life. Finally I got to the point where I wanted to lose weight to be healthy. Not to fit into a smaller size. Not to look thinner. Not to feel "normal." When I got to that point, I lost over 40 pounds. Then I lost my job, had no health insurance, and couldn't afford my depression medication. Needless to say, I gained most of the weight back. Now, here I am, working the most enjoyable job I've ever had, back on insurance (thanks to Obamacare), and back on my meds. I lost a few pounds naturally (not turning to junk food when stressed) and have, within the past several weeks, started actively tracking again. So far I've lost 26 lbs. Thankfully, every day we have a chance to start over. Each year we are, by the grace of God, given 365 chances to start over. What's up to us is to decide to take those chances. Even if we have to start over 365 times.

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GWENALYN 9/8/2014 1:12AM

    You are a great inspiration to all of us. While my weight loss needs are less than yours the experience you describe is totally me. I've been traveling for the last month and had made the decision to begin again today but I think I'll start over instead. Thank you.

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SUSIEMT 9/7/2014 9:47PM

    Yes, I too have been there and done that! The hardest part was my avoidance of the people I love! Did I think they couldn't see my weight gain? I was always hopeful! LOL! When I came to spark I found my way home. I have been fortunate in that I have not known Failure this time around. I am never perfect! I always log my nutrition and exercise. No matter how bad I am. But my most powerful tool has been my spark diet and exercise buddy Thoms1. I live with my sister so that makes it that much easier!
Good luck on your new beginning! You can do this!

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KIMBALLITE 9/7/2014 11:45AM

  Thank you for sharing your thoughts. We have all been there and it does not matter how much/little a person has to lose..the internal struggle is the same. I take it one day at a time now, trust God and surround myself with supportive friends. I am subscribing to your blog to share in your journey. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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OREGONMOM4 9/7/2014 11:32AM

    You are not alone as you can see by all the comments you have received. I agree with someone above that purging your negative emotions is a big part of your new beginnings, keep getting rid of the negative and open to the positive. You can do it emoticon !

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KIMBERLYKJONES 9/6/2014 10:57PM

    Thank you for sharing your experience. You are not alone and should know that your journey both the good and the bad motivates us all.

I've been struggling for over 20 years with both positive and negative results. I'm currently on an upswing (note that I've had my downswings too) due to working closely with my doctor who has provided healthy lifestyle changes in the form of nutritional guidelines (literature specific to my health needs) and exercise encouragement. I'm sharing this hoping that maybe you'll find a supportive doctor (who lives what she preaches) that can help you as well.

One other difference this time around is that I've also surrounded myself with friends who are also exercising regularly which makes me accountable. These friends aren't working against my plans by enticing me with unhealthy foods or unhealthy habits. Their conversations and lifestyle serve as positive reinforcement.

Take care. I hope to hear more from you about how your New Beginning has been a positive one! :-)



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SCOOTERGIRL777 9/6/2014 3:00PM

    THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR HONESTY. I HAVE DONE THE SAME THING + WAS FEELING LIKE I WAS A BIT OF A FAILURE BUT THANKS TO YOU, I KNOW I WAS NOT ! I JUST NEED A NEW BEGINNING . GOOD LUCK TO YOU + ME AND EVERYONE ON THE DAY TO DAY, JOURNEY , TO A HEALTHIER LIFESTYLE emoticon emoticon

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THENEWKAREN 9/6/2014 2:11PM

    I am rooting for you!

I have started and stopped the weight loss thing so many times and what I have discovered is perhaps all those other times when I tried and failed, I just wasn't ready yet.

This time when I began again on Labor Day 2012 just by recording everything I ate in the MyFitnessPal app on my phone, it clicked. I made a deal with myself that I didn't have to stay within my calorie budget each day but I absolutely DID have to be completely honest with myself and record accurately EVERYTHING I ate. Here I am 2 years later with success to show for the effort.

I still record everything I eat because I know if I didn't, I would begin fooling myself about how much I was really eating and how many calories it was.

I can't say I haven't gained back any of the weight I lost but I am holding it to a 10 pound range and fighting to keep it there. I weigh every day so I cannot use the excuse that I didn't know I was regaining. If the scale goes up, I work a little harder at it that day, try to get more sleep, drink more water, eat more fiber, etc.

You are in the right place. You can't beat SparkPeople for community support and its vast amounts of information articles and video workouts, etc.

I think you just have to find what works for you and expand on that. Each person is different. We all know how we should eat and that we should exercise, what we are really fighting is the negative voices in our heads. Sometimes you just have to bully those voices into silence so you can do what you know you need to do.

Good luck and keep us all posted. I am subscribing so I can keep track of your progress, and I know there will be progress because YOU CAN DO THIS!
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EVERARD8 9/6/2014 2:03PM

    I fell like I could have written this blog myself. I too have lost and gained back plenty of weight over the years. Its always a struggle. I'm proud that you are starting anew and not giving up.

P.S. Being heavy does not equal looking horrible. I think you're beautiful.

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BOCCATAGHNA1955 9/6/2014 5:09AM

    I am feeling the same as you and 1st September was my new start date but it has come and gone, now I feel impelled to get started over and you are the main reason why. Thank you for your courage and for your strength.

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PK2H2000 9/5/2014 10:26PM

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AMYSYOKO 9/5/2014 8:46PM

  never give up, best of luck to you...glad you are back on track, you know we all have your back emoticon

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AMBER461 9/5/2014 8:35PM

  I do love your attitude, you can do it. Thanks for sharing.

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ADVENTURE-GIRL 9/5/2014 8:28PM

    I went through a similar experience. After having my son I felt so guilty that I had gained weight. I was embarrassed and avoided social situations because of it. At some point I realized that this was hurting me and I was missing out on my life [again]. I was focusing so much on the past. I, too, deleted my old sparkpeople pictures and started fresh. That was exactly what I needed. I had to "let go" and move on. Even though this is a new leg of my journey, the knowledge and lessons of the past will bring more insight this time. Its a lifelong battle, each time I learn more and I will never stop fighting.

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Life Changes

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Wow- so much has happened in the last couple of months….where do I start…..

Lets start with the latest first shall we….here meet Turbo


my brand new kitten….my new friend and companion…I wanted a lap cat…I GOT a lap cat…he stays either in my lap or hubbys unless eating or using litter pan. He is sitting on my shoulder as I type this!!!! He is my buddy - I love him very much!


2nd thing going on - hubby started a new job!!!!



it is a paper route and believe it or not - he makes more money at that than he does at the garage where he is a mechanic!!!! He will be giving up the mechanic job soon and we will be able to spend more time together! and the route itself allows us time together as I ride along in the car with him as he delivers.

Now - for the most important thing…the thing I NEVER thought would be part of my life again (since I was a small child) I started going back to CHURCH!

A friend invited me to go to her church on Easter Sunday and I just couldn’t tell her no…she wanted us to go so badly. Well, we went, thinking that we were just being polite and would explain to her that we wouldn’t be going again…Surprise on us!!!! We loved it and everyone there. I am fairly convinced that Daddy caused this. He wanted me to go to church so badly - well I finally found one I am comfortable with! I am so happy to be a part of the church family now!



So as you can see - I have a whole lot of irons in the fire right now…I simply have not had time to devote to Spark People like I should….that will be changing because I MUST get back in gear before I regain all that I have lost!!!!!


ps....I just talked to Letha on the phone and she is doing fine and appreciates everyone asking about her....she is just taking a little break from Spark right now


  
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TODDERICKV 10/21/2014 3:14PM

    Cute kitty!

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TODDERICKV 9/16/2014 9:53PM

    Welcome to the family Turbo!

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LIVINTODAY 7/8/2014 10:03PM

    I enjoyed this blog, Kat! Turbo is beautiful; the news about your husband's new job is super especially since it is something you can do together. Wow, a new church home too; that is just great and I would feel, as you do, that your Daddy's been stirring the pot up there.
Both my parents are gone but I still feel their active presence in my life.
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DALMOM2007 6/25/2014 10:28AM

    Wow...I see by the date that I've been very out of touch. Loved the blog and hearing about all the good things happening in your life. Congratulations on the adorable kitty!

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LINDA! 5/25/2014 3:32PM

    emoticon You have a lot of positive changes in your life. I am so happy for you. Going to a good church and having a great church family is so important in our life. Glad that you and hubby are finding fellowship there. Also, the newspaper route and all of the other positives are wonderful.

I must say...if I could grab onto little Turbo, I would not let go. What a beauty.

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MPETERSON2311 5/24/2014 12:36PM

    I'm glad things are looking up!

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ALIHIKES 5/23/2014 7:47PM

    Congratulations on all the good news! (the lovable little kitty, the new job for DH, and finding a church that feels like home)

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KOHINOOR2 5/21/2014 7:35PM

    Great news. So happy Things are going well for you. emoticon emoticon Thank for sharing.

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ENG_TV 5/21/2014 1:31PM

    I'm so glad to see you back! And that things are looking up for you and your hubby. The kitty is adorable and offers some much needed comfort, I'm sure. emoticon

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IDICEM 5/21/2014 7:21AM

  Turbo is adorable! Congrats on hubby's new job!!

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ARTJAC 5/20/2014 11:43PM

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REGILIEH 5/20/2014 11:36PM

    FABULOUS!!!

So HAPPY for YOU!!!

Turbo is darling and I love his name!

It is wonderful to have a church home!

I love your husband's new job and you can help! Really great!

Hugs!

Anne

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JAMER123 5/20/2014 11:29PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon To all the newsy items you shared! Turbo is really cute! We wanted a lap dog and boy did we get 2 of them!! Chihuahuas about like Turbo and wanting laps!! Enjoy!!

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ANGELBELIEVER 5/20/2014 10:43PM

    Turbo is adorable. I want to hold him too and have him sit on my lap. Max is not a lap cat at all, but he will sleep next to me every night.

I am so happy things have turned around for you and your hubby. God is so good. Having a church family is so very important. May God continue to bless you and DH emoticon .

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123ELAINE456 5/20/2014 10:27PM

  Awesome Blog and News. A Wonderful Change all the way around. Turbo is so very Cute and Sweet. Love his Name. God Blessings Always. Have a Wonderful Week. Take Care.

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COLOR-BLUE 5/20/2014 10:21PM

    Kathy,

You have a lot of irons in the fire, but they're the irons of LIFE!!! Girl, you did it! Things have turned around for you and your DH, and I'm over the moon! I can just see you and he riding together on the paper route and having so much fun, and catching up on all the lost time, from you previous season. God has just ushered you and your DH, into a brand new LIFE, with HIM!!!

Be blessed,

-Nancy Jean -
GA

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NASFKAB 5/20/2014 10:11PM

  great to hear from you love Turbo please post some more pics

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JUNEAU2010 5/20/2014 9:49PM

    Wonderful news all the way around! I love the name Turbo! what a cutie.

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EJB2801 5/20/2014 9:24PM

    What a treat to read your blog and see the new happenings in your life! I know you will soon find a good Spark path, too.

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MCFITZ2 5/20/2014 8:20PM

    I am so happy for you. You have been bless with some wonderful changes.
I know you still miss your dad. That is a tribute to him and the influence and love he gave you. emoticon

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GLORIAMAJDI 5/20/2014 8:08PM

    Wow, this is all great news! Just keep trying to find your balance so that you can keep off what you have lost, you have come so far and it is so worth it to have your health! And Turbo is pretty sweet looking, I am a major fan of kitties, having three myself. I think that they are great stress relievers too!

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MOM2ACAT 5/20/2014 6:58PM

    It's so great to see you blogging again!

Turbo is adorable! My Timmy use to sit on my shoulder when he was that age too; now he's 14 years old and around 13 pounds, so he's too big for that now, but he's still a lap cat, as is my Kallie. I know not all cats like to sit on laps so I feel blessed that both of mine do. It's a real comfort.

I stopped going to church after I graduated high school, but I also started going back to church after I lost my dad. It was my parent's church, and I got to know the pastor when we were planning my dad's services, and I was really touched by how welcoming and caring the other members were to me, and most of them barely knew me at that time. I decided to join that church then because of the people there. Being part of a church family helped to heal after losing my dad.

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CELLOPLAYER1 5/20/2014 6:40PM

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Turbo is cute!

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4RASCALS 5/20/2014 5:55PM

    Love your good news. emoticon that hubby got a new job, even better that it allows you to spend more time together. Glad you accepted your friends invite to church. It's something I've been thinking about, just haven't did yet. As for turbo he is adorable. Sounds like a perfect match.




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JACKIE542 5/20/2014 5:39PM

    Great news

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KING_SLAYER 5/20/2014 5:21PM

    Lots of things going on in your life and the best part is that they're all good! Far too often we are overwhelmed with negative issues, I'm glad that some good things are happening for you. :)

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WILLOW49 5/20/2014 4:26PM

    I love your new kitty :) So glad he now has a great forever home! And congrats to hubby on his new job! Even better that you can ride along and spend time together :) And how wonderful you found a new church that you like! All wonderful news!

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THINFITFEMINIST 5/20/2014 4:05PM

    We'll the kittie is too cute. Meeooww! Congrats on all the great news.

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KAREN608 5/20/2014 4:01PM

    Great name for your kitten!

Congrats on hubby's job!

and I smiled biggest at you finding a church!!!
It is so important to rub elbows with other believers.

Thank you for update on Letha, I know she went off line for Spark.
I was just hoping she was okay.

Keep Sparking!

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MARUKI52 5/20/2014 3:39PM

    I love Turbo, lovely looking cat. I'm glad you have found a Church you are happy with and that your DH has a new job that he, too, likes. Good news.

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NHEMBERGER 5/20/2014 3:31PM

    Cute kitten! (I'm a cat lover!)
Great life changes!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/20/2014 3:25PM

    glad the things keeping you away from sp are good things not bad.keep on keeping on you can do this emoticon emoticon

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WALNUTT1961 5/20/2014 3:08PM

    Glad everything is going so well for you!

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NHES220 5/20/2014 2:58PM

    Wow, lots of changes! Turbo is a cutie. Glad all is going well.


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CAROL_31649731 5/20/2014 2:55PM

    So happy for you! I've been thinking of you a lot lately!!! Glad you're back & so glad for the changes going on in your life (more time with hubby's, with new job & new church family--wonderful). Love your little furry friend, too. You have your spark back--yay! emoticon emoticon

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LYNETTEMOM 5/20/2014 2:55PM

    Thanks for sharing all this good news. And so glad to see you back Sparking again.
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SCOTMAMA 5/20/2014 2:43PM

    You've made some excellent changes in your life. Turbo is adorable -- looks like he is a long-haired cat, right? And the name is so cute -- I know why you chose that. You are always doing the "Turbo Exercises." lol

Good job on starting to go to church. It usually dawns on us about this time in our lives, if we were not previous church-goers, that we really and truly should be more serious about that aspect of our lives!

Hugs, Eve

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LOOD1962 5/20/2014 2:22PM

    Congrats on all the new things going on. So glad you found a church to go to and hubby got a new job. Love your adorable little kitten. I wish my cats would be lap cats. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEWAND1 5/20/2014 2:20PM

    Hello there: wonderful news - life has its little surprises doesn't it? I like to call them God appointments. It is exciting to see what is going to happen next. Life is somewhat like a roller coaster up and down and up again. I sure know what it is like to lose family members and it hurts long and hard. I have lost two sisters and a brother since 2007, 2008 and 2013. Enough I said, but life does go on. I like to count my blessings and I do have so many.

Look at you, a new cat to love and hug, and more time to spend with your hubby and he is making more money and warm memories of our lost ones will be cherished forever. I like to think they would want me to enjoy life and carry on. I am sure that is true in your life too.

You have a Father in heaven who loves you with such a big love....as you discover Him even more you will be sure to agree. I know I lean on Him big time.! Blessings to you even more, boomerang blessings are sure you come your way! emoticon

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IDLETYME 5/20/2014 2:10PM

    Congratulations on your new "start over" with Hubby"s job, beautiful Turbo and your new church! All best wishes to you all. Super blog!!!!! emoticon

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RICKI157 5/20/2014 2:06PM

    I am Very Happy for all the Wonderful Changes in Your Life!!!!!! Your new kitty is Adorable!!!!!! Congrats on Hubby's new job!!!!!!!
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AHORSEY1 5/20/2014 2:03PM

    Congrats! Your stars are aligning emoticon and life is good. Your dear Turbo is adorable! emoticon (My hubby would be so jealous!)

Glad things are going well for you.

Happy Sparking!

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